Nine times out of ten I always find the anticipation worse than the actual doing. Make sure you recognise the achievement afterwards. Small steps are still steps forward.
Afterwards I'll be more likely chewing over the anxiety than the achievement, but I'll try. I beat myself up for feeling bad, when I should be happy with the achievement. Also the 'achievement' is normal everyday behaviour, so...
Argh, I think this rant is that anticipation you mentioned!
“Normal” everyday behaviour maybe to some who find it easy but not for me and by sound of it not for you. I do seem to fare better if I don't overthink it but I know it's tough in practice.
Some days I can't face the bus, sometimes I can, likewise with shopping and same even going out the door. It is neither right or wrong, it just is. Try not to beat yourself up if you don't achieve an imagined standard every single time.
Wise words from Penelope
I disagree Cindy. It would be good advice if I was in crisis and trying to grasp stability, but I've got stability and trying to get back to where I was socially and trying to improve myself bit by bit, not just maintain what I have.
I don't blame anyone for not knowing context of my situation. Anyone is welcome to offer advice but it doesn't automatically make it fit my situation. I don't mean to harsh, I hope I'm not being misunderstood and come across ungrateful.
Sorry if that's a bit straight to the point. I don't doubt the intentions of trying to help for a second.
Actually I just re read the whole thread and I'm talking ***. I think I must of dreamt up some advice that isn't there! Sorry guys, forgive me, I shouldn't post straight after waking up.
I don't give advice for anyone, I give my view and ask others to consider it. I left here for three years because of this kind of thing and I do not mind going again. This is not me real life, I have proper issues of my own to contend with.
I am perfectly fine with not commenting on anyone's posts if they feel I am being dictorial. No biggie for me. If anyone knew the context of my situation they may consider what I have to say differently.
I suffer from delusions and paranoia, and I just had some, I'm sorry if I offended you, Penelope. Please still feel welcome to comment!
I just felt you weren't giving yourself credit. I find social situations impossible one day and a breeze the next so I don't have a “normal”. Everything is relative to each person. Was only trying to show you it's okay to not always hit the target.
Thanks Penelope. 🙂
Forgive me and my schizoaffective disorder. Mental health is very variable, stable or not, we still get affected by things, and like you say, everything is relative. I'm glad you understand and I understand you now.
I'm even more determined to go now. This will be my first solo two way bus journey in over a year and a half. I just feel the need to push myself while I feel up to being pushed.
I did it! On the bus back and I don't even feel too bad!
Be gentle on yourself John. Hope you have a good evening.
Yeah, I'm watching the football, looks like it'll be extra time...
Mmm stir fry
Also, my kitten is being super cute and really sweet to me today, which is why my score isn't lower.
You go Clem! 💖
Sounds like you've remained equanimous to a degree despite things not going your way.
Not intially, but life lessons kick in after a while.
Cats rule! And so do pandas :)
Let me send you some of my hypomania, I'm all bubbly these days :*
I could use some of that too, Alicia. :)
I'll send some positive vibrations you can sprinkle on top of Alicia's hypomania
Love you, guys :)
They are a good bunch, aren't they?
Museums are awesome!
Oh, man. I miss NYC's museums!
Thanks for the inspiration. Think Ill hit a museum before I.return to airport.
So very happy to have her help! I was having an awful day until she came. We went for a short walk and I was totally cheered up by finding common interests and taste in music/tv/film. Taken tablets
I feel like meeting friends and making new ones now. It seems similar people are out there. I'm all inspired and full of hope!
That's such great news! So happy for you John
Something I forgot to mention she's happy to encourage me out running, which I think I'll try, and she's given me help to get more protein in my vegetarian diet.
Wow! All of that is so wonderful to hear. I'm so glad you switched!
This is so wonderful. Happy for you 🐼
My wall isn't pink (I didn't notice my camera had messed up at first because I'm colourblind). Here's a more accurate version: https://flic.kr/p/255LuUN
That's a broken link now, I've tried to fix the original...
Ooh I love your room - the fisheye view is neat
I know what you mean - it's difficult to explain why you feel unable to do things like that unless
they've experienced it. One of the signs I was getting better was that I could cope with doing it, even tho it was occasional at first. Good news about your new support worker, fingers crossed x
Thanks John. Made a green Thai curry
Sounds like a perfect mix of cooling coconut and calescent chilli, Noel.
Same (similar) here, but I hope you could still sleep for a bit.
I got sleep between, 8 and 9am. An hour will have to last me the whole day.
And tea. Tea is your friend!
lol so eloquent and detailed! :D But it's good you had a nice day.
You are a funny one Lydia! 😁
I contacted who I ordered art cavases from and they've been lost by the courier, so they're sending some more out with a different company, hopefully get them on Monday. Paint paint paint. (More info for you)
Good for you John. Good luck with the canvases
Just caved and bought the bicep LP. I've spent too much money this month (mood related??) and feel like testing drink on this medication and treating myself to a bottle of strongbow and a night listening to euphoric tunes.
It's good to change things up now and then, T John! (I, like you, often tend to see how alcohol affects me with different medications...curiosity!)
I know my current one will lower blood pressure, so as long as I don't take a Propranolol as well, I'll be alright I should think.
My cats are three years old and still do this. I hope your kitten will stop eating wires earlier than mine.
He managed to play a random song on iTunes and turn it up to full volume while I was in the kitchen, thankfully it was one of the quietest songs I have! Still insanely loud though.
haha oh dear. Hope he wasn't scared!
My oh my! Sounds like you've got a toddler running around!
Kittens are worse than toddlers! At least toddlers grow up and you can eventually explain to them why it isn't a good idea to put everything in their mouths. Also, their teeth aren't as pointy. ;)
Haha, the kitten in learning quickly John! Before you know it you'll be playing two player games on it.
It did a Google search the other day of a jumble of characters and letters and numbers, it sent me to a page comparing Huawei mobile phones...?
😂 Already researching phones & it's still a baby!
Such a familiar dilemma for those of us with cats: live life to the full by moving cat or just stay put? :)
Have a great day 😁
lol I always try to stay put as long as possible.
Edit: Original post implies I've started pushing myself, when I haven't really. I meant I've got to start pushing myself.
Your kitten is going to help you through so many hard times. Cats are THE BEST! 😻
Hope the new support worker suits you better John. (And hope they like kittens too!)
I'm glad you're getting a new support worker - that matters so much.
Yes, very glad you're switching. It's so important to be able to mesh well with people in positions like those. Good luck!
good luck with the new one, tell us how it goes!
i hope you feel better
I just had a walk in twilight through the intense fog, and by the shops next to the bus terminus, there was a blackbird perched on a signpost singing it's heart out. Kitten was pleased to see me at home.
A 🦁! 😂
A walk in fog sounds great. Terrible for my hair, but awesome atmosphere.
Why is bad for hair? Enough of mine has fallen out over the past ten years... I want to keep what I've got left!
Just my hair, not yours. And not bad bad, just vanity. The high humidity in the air makes my hair frizzy. Hate it.
Frizzy hair is cute. I like hair how it is naturally (especially eyebrows - these ones that look like a massive marker pen are scary looking - sorry if you have these).
I love them ❤️ if it's ok with you, can I use some of them for future animations? You will be credited :)
Yeah sure, Tasha
Infact, if you've got the software I can send you stems (from any on Provisional 2) so you can edit/remix and make it fit the video.
Not sure what stems are! I have adobe creative suite?
I mean the individual tracks for each instrument. So you can remix or get rid of just sleigh bells for example... There's an audio editor but not sure if there's a DAW which is better for putting several files together.
Audition should be able to edit them, but it's not a music production tool as such, so you would have to use something else to add your own sounds.
Well done. Is that you on guitar or was that a sample or guitar patch?
Hahaha I regret putting that one first, Love, as it's a bit silly and basic. Yes it's me on guitar.
https://www.mediafire.com/file/gaupllbajsredt7/whistle.zip these are the stems for the last song 'Whistle' should anyone want to play with it, it's a sparse song so someone could maybe add something.