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  31 days
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0 Tim H
23h ·
The only way I am losing these kids, which is not going to happen, is someone is going to have to kill me. And they can't. I AM ETERNAL! If they pass before me, then I will follow them.
Tim H
23h ·

This redefines depression in so many ways, mentally and physically. I am between anxious, sick, depressed (naturally), terrified, on the verge of tears, confused, blanking, tired, exhausted, shaking.

Trevor B
20h ·

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Trevor B
20h ·

I've been there your nite Adkins

Trevor B
20h ·

Sorry about first post. I've been there your not alone. It's going to get better.

Emma Luna L
11h ·

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0 Tim H
23h ·
If only this could go lower than 0. Now the divorce is getting evil because someone lied about there being no problems leaving your kid home alone for 24/48 hours. She is being a ***.
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0 Tim H
5d ·
You stupid ***. I blew up in group today because the council worker or whatever the *** she was would NOT listen to me when I didn't want to answer anymore checkout questions besides the first one.
Tim H
5d ·

I told you in the AM what was going on. I answered the question and said 'And I'm leaving it at that.' You pushed. I told you I had more important things to be concerned about. You pushed again.

Tim H
5d ·

I raised my ***ing voice because apparently you can't ***ing hear. I yelled something about DCF and my kids are more important right now. 'If you're going to raise you're voice...' I slammed the clipboard on the ground.

Tim H
5d ·

Before she could ask me to leave I was already out of there. I heard her say 'Good.' I yelled back 'I know what's good for me.' *** you, ***. Left a VM with the only rational person there, Dr. K.

Tim H
5d ·

I will NOT talk to any staff about it except the psychiatrist. I will NOT apologize. YOU pushed me past the limit and you had two chances to BACK THE *** OFF. My MH agent said they should respect your wishes if you do not want to answer.

Michail S
2d ·

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0 Tim H
6d ·
Pretty sure I am not going to accidentally or even purposely come across someone and us both have an unexplainable chain reaction inside and fall in love. I think that when I look in the mirror.
Tim H
6d ·

I will never be ashamed that I need & want someone else in my life. For any good I have done for others, I don't ask for anything in return. It is natural to want to love & be loved. Single forever? Maybe. But I do have 2 daughters. That's love.

Babie C
6d ·

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Emma Luna L
5d ·

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0 Tim H
6d ·
IF ANYONE ON MY WIFE'S SIDE THERE IS NOTHING WRONG LEAVING A 12 Y.O., WHO HAS MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES, HOME ALONE FOR 24-48 HOURS, YOU SHOULD BE SEEING A ***ING THERAPIST! YOU DO NOT LOVE THEM! F-OFF!
Tim H
6d ·

Wife's side of the family, that is. My family? My two kids. The rest are so scattered they are unknown. Some are gone.

Jeff M
6d ·

Ugh, that's terrible. Hope things are ok now!

Babie C
6d ·

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Emma Luna L
5d ·

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0 Tim H
6d ·
If they stand behind you, protect them. If they stand beside you, respect them. If they stand against you, DEFEAT THEM.
Emma Luna L
6d ·

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Liz K
6d ·

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0 Tim H
6d ·
23:48, have to be at group at 09:00. Not tired. Seroquil (I do not care about spelling at this point) 200 mg not really working. 300 mg I was hearing The Beach Boys and crappy songs. All nighter?
Trevor B
6d ·

Hated seroquel didn't do a lot for me except make me feel more agitated.

Emma Luna L
6d ·

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Liz K
6d ·

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Tim H
6d ·

03:52 AM. Not sleeping. Reading info on DSS/DCF. Still no contact from them after a week. Can't wait for a face to face with daughter's therapist after wife refused to give me her info.

Babie C
6d ·

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0 Tim H
7d ·
http://www.tinyurl.com/imissourlovear
Emma Luna L
7d ·

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7d ·

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0 Tim H
7d ·
Try to ***ing isolate me or make it difficult for me to our kids, you may as well be standing at the ass end of a small boat, dumping buckets of ***ing chum and enough blood to turn the ocean red.
Emma Luna L
7d ·

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0 Tim H
7d ·
It was sometime in November last year. I don't want to look at the images still on the SD card to find the exact date because I know it had to be around this time. We laid together. The whole weekend.
Tim H
7d ·

We fell asleep, naked, with the TV on in the cabin. There was a Lethal Weapon marathon going on all night. I would wake up now and then and see you, your face, lit up by the light bouncing around the room from the TV. So beautiful. So peaceful.

Tim H
7d ·

Two days I wish I could return to and love you all over again. I miss you so much. I miss our friendship. I miss our deep connection. I miss the love. It was bound to happen. I can't deny that. I honestly don't know what you saw in me.

Tim H
7d ·

This SD card has not been removed from my Nikon for over a year. I know what is on it and I don't want to look, but I have to. It's going to ***ing hurt, but I have to.

Tim H
7d ·

I am totally going to need my meds after this.

Tim H
7d ·

November 13, 2016. 28 images. I need to force myself to look at these and then format the card.

Tim H
7d ·

***. Some even go back to July 9, 2016. ***ing christ.

Tim H
7d ·

The 13th must have been my last day there. So as I write this, one year ago today, you were probably asleep with your head on my chest or your arm over me, my arm over you. Physical contact. Lovingly.

Tim H
7d ·

I drove down on the 11th. I remember where we met. We walked through the park for a while. Holding hands. Goofing off. God, I miss your smile. I miss your cute face. I need to remind myself that somewhere inside I knew it was going to end.

Tim H
7d ·

It wasn't fair for you. You never should have ***ing fallen in love with me. I wish you hated me. I wish you didn't find anything desirable in me besides the awesome friendship we had before we met for the first time and it exploded into romance.

Tim H
7d ·

I ***ing hate myself for what I have done. To you. To myself. Everything that is interconnected, someway, somehow. It's a chain reaction. I haven't heard your voice for over a month. I know I will never hear you or see you again. It's true.

Emma Luna L
7d ·

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