Feeling this too
Don't give up. It's hard but you can make it. I believe in you.
if you can embrace that I dont want to be here feeling, it may hold a present for you beneath its dark cloak and grim appearance.
You could phone a crisis phoneline. They would be well trained to listen and be friendly, and you wouldn't have to be ashamed because you'd be anonymous.
Thank you everyone, I seeked out professional help, not feeling as down today. I have my 4th therapy session tomorrow, so will try my best to talk about how i was feeling. Your messages helped me 😊