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6 Verra T
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6 Verra T
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VERY NERVOUS I TALKED WITH EDDDD
Ann J
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4 Verra T
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lethargic. soooo sooo lthargic. I think i missed yesterday's drug dose. anyway i ate 10 chcolats, i cant sit still, i cant focus on what i need to focus, it drifts to something else
Tim S
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C J
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Ann J
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5 Verra T
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i will try not running away from my emotions, nor numbing it for 2 months, lets see what happens
Zoe D
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3 Verra T
28 Oct 2018 ·
geeeez im so closed off to my mom and im so stubborn in telling her anything partly cause theres aomething within me thats blocking me from communicating with her efficiently
Xavier M
29 Nov 2018 ·

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4 Verra T
27 Oct 2018 ·
danggg im so concentrated in making this writing this essay for english class great, in order to make up for my lack of efforts on my other writings in class.
Xavier M
29 Nov 2018 ·

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3 Verra T
27 Oct 2018 ·
danggg i really do feel the need to control my environment, its so severe. If the 'requirements' are not met I completely shut down ......
Kym S
27 Oct 2018 ·

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Maite P
27 Oct 2018 ·

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Xavier M
29 Nov 2018 ·

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2 Verra T
27 Oct 2018 ·
i have the hard time coping with the idea that my existence is going to be acknowledged, i like to think that im invisible and have 'convinced' myself that others wont acknowledge my existence
Ivan Z
27 Oct 2018 ·

Why is that? I have an opposite problem, I am afraid no one cares I exist and that's seems close to truth)

Keeping Track A
27 Oct 2018 ·

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Keeping Track A
27 Oct 2018 ·

I am curious too!! . . . Perhaps Verra is not comfortable in social situations so she developed the idea of being invisible which gave her a sense of comfort. When it's threatened she feels uncomfortable? Is this how you feel, Verra? xxx

Verra T
27 Oct 2018 ·

yes! @Keeping Track A that is exactly why.. i have avoidant personality disorder and social situations really heightens my anxiety. The idea of being invisible probably gave me a sense of comfort because that way if I 'messed up' in my mind No one ha

Verra T
27 Oct 2018 ·

-s seen it, tho not very realistic at all. it's how ive been 'coping' and lately ive been more and more bombarded with reality and i came to a 'realization' that people do acknowledge me, CAUSE i freeken exist.

Verra T
27 Oct 2018 ·

(((my depersonalization derealization disorder probably contributed to this mindset because this disorder makes me think real life is unreal...therefore im unreal too..))

Verra T
27 Oct 2018 ·

@ivan hahaaa dangg how ironic people be wanting different complete opposite things ayeee

Keeping Track A
28 Oct 2018 ·

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Keeping Track A
28 Oct 2018 ·

whoops . . . I was reading a book today. Sometimes we use maladapted coping techniques. I learnt about how dissociation is a coping technique developed during childhoodtrauma which is deprimental in adult life . . . makes sense. I hope you can manage

Keeping Track A
28 Oct 2018 ·

to grow and heal through this experience. Existing and being acknowledged can be pretty awesome sometimes. 😉

Verra T
30 Oct 2018 ·

@Keeping Track A: heeehee all those info u just said from the book are facts >:) its only recently that i realize that i have still been using those maladaptive coping techniques i used as a child, now that im adult, those are not helpful--

Verra T
30 Oct 2018 ·

-- and make me feel worse. and I actually challenged myself to be acknowledged today and im feeling great LOL existing truly can be awesome sometimes, u right bout that.

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3 Verra T
27 Oct 2018 ·
dangggg i egressed so much these past 3 days, but im picking myself up again. There are still a lot of issues that needs to be addressed and not avoided. I dont want to mask it with bandages anymore
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6 Verra T
25 Oct 2018 ·
big problems with me wanting to control everything. Must let go of my attachment of what has been or what will be. Also i told therapist i only connect with her 55%.
Maria K
25 Oct 2018 ·

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3 Verra T
24 Oct 2018 ·
wtf i feel really awful and my head is burning and i had a screaming breakdown in the car ride home today
Maria F
24 Oct 2018 ·

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Maria K
24 Oct 2018 ·

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Jeff M
24 Oct 2018 ·

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4 Verra T
23 Oct 2018 ·
im so hurt that alenz didnt let me follow his spam, this brought on other feelings of inadequacy. I was having such a happy time chatting with friends but now im starting to devalue. I DONT LIKE THIS
tEnT S
23 Oct 2018 ·

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Jeff M
23 Oct 2018 ·

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Jenny D
23 Oct 2018 ·

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8 Verra T
23 Oct 2018 ·
after school i was walking and i felt, for the first timee in a long time, being allowed to breathe and move freely without severe limitations
Josie J
23 Oct 2018 · NEW

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7 Verra T
21 Oct 2018 ·
confronting issues head on instead of delaying it, which leads to nowhere
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6 Verra T
20 Oct 2018 ·
even tho i was avoidant of my him because i was fearful (for selfish reasons) we still became our normal fun self right after and i became comfortable again, i hope this doesnt turn into anything mor
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8 Verra T
20 Oct 2018 ·
breaking big things into smaller parts help you tackle it. Im so happy learning this 1 minute dance within 2-3 hours :) i didnt rush myself, i was patient with myself.
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4 Verra T
18 Oct 2018 ·
everyday it becomes more clear and clear to me that i struggle a lot.silently.
Manda P
19 Oct 2018 ·

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Manda P
19 Oct 2018 ·

Maybe consider seeing a therapist? I know it really helps me & I struggle often. Hope you feel better soon. ❤️

Robert H
19 Oct 2018 ·

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Verra T
20 Oct 2018 ·

:)hello manda i have been seeing a therapist for years now:) they do help me a lot and thank youu <3 :'))

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8 Verra T
18 Oct 2018 ·
why is my therapist so great! she just notices and figures it out she's so smart im in aweee. ALso im so happy talking with An Drew
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4 Verra T
17 Oct 2018 ·
ayeee i ran away from friends today, i think im the shiet but NOT REALLY omfg, this dichotomy. I slept 6 am today.... and i dont know how im going to face my counselor tom.
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6 Verra T
16 Oct 2018 ·
was just hugging the package i received from my long distance friend from california, i love my friends i want to better myself for them cause they deserve the best, i deserve the best me tooo--
Jeff M
16 Oct 2018 ·

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