You are wise to recognize it was not going to work. I'm so sorry. Read about the stages of grief. I am sure things will get better.
That was a huge decision you made. Very very wise. I admire you for that! Well done. Of course you feel low at this point, but it the long run, you did the best thing for you. ❤️
Sit down. Close your mouth.Breath. Notice each breath as it leaves . Each breath as it comes. Focus your attention at the point just below the nostril. 20 min's. Let the thoughts go. Keep bringing your attention back to place below the nostril.
I jogged outside the house from 5 to 6, I wanted to scream while jogging becaus I want to feel free but I couldn't I feel being so closed in. :(
-also today I switched up my medication times according to what the doctor said. My mom has been controlling what time I should take them cause she's worried that I might get sleepy during school.
-him today. Like I even sat around where I think he was going to sit. Why didn't he approach me? Like I should have sat at the table that he was going to pass but I knew that he would probably pass and I felt so drowned in by my anxiety that I-
-don't want to deal with anyone