premature as I don't know where I will be working from late August onwards. :/ . . . My attempts to lose weight have been negated by periods of a lack of self-discipline eating treats in bulk. :( Lots of uncertainty and so far my plans to travel/work
work over the summer have proved more difficult than I had anticipated as I would need a car for most of the jobs I would like to do and I can''t get a loan until I have an account open for 12 weeks, so that puts a stop on that for the moment. :/
A car would also open up my options of where to live . . . So , maybe I just need to be patient, save money and get ready to take out a loan in 12 weeks' time . . . o figure out a way to earn the money before then! ;)
No luck at three house viewings yesterday. Sore throat has gotten worse so that's a week of sore throat and two weeks of this dose in general (head cold/sinusitis).
Meeting the school principal today at midday (not so enthused but I think it will be good for me) 🙄 and haircut at 2:30pm. 😊 (Not so excited by the effort to get to the place but my hair has been bugging me a lot lately, in my eyes etc.
So it will be a relief to get it done
Do you meditate at all, KTA? Headspace has good guides for sleeping and clearing your mind when too much going on to let yourself shut down. Good luck with meeting and house hunting! Hope you feel better soon!
Hope meeting was useful and fingers crossed you find a place you like xx
Thanks all! Jeff, I don't use it! I had used it in the past as a service I was using gave me a year's free subscription but then I didn't renew the subscription after the year. Now, I find a lot of their meditations are inaccessible unless you
pay for subscription so I do meditations by the Honest Guys on Yourube for example :)
I have actuallly been sleeping much better in the last week or so. I think I just needed to calm down after the school term. :D The meeting went well with the principal. He explained how I did in the interview which I wasn't really interested in but
he gave some great advice based on his observations of me over the past 9 months. :D
I have spent the day downloading files from where I had them saved on the cloud. For some reason OneDrive wouldn't sync properly and I had deleted my local copy of all the files in an effort to see if it would speed up the laptop when it was acting
up . . . And I couldn't download the whole folder in one go because it led to errors, I think possibly because the files were saved with accents on the letters in the name because they were named in Irish. So I had to individually download files and
sometimes if I was lucky, I was able to download a folder if there weren't too many files in it! . . . Another issue, is that when I had tried to back up the Mac to a hard-drive before, the only option (without pulling some tricks!) was to wipe the
hard-drive completely. I did not want to do that as I have a back up of my everyday laptop on it already. So I didn't make the back up back when I was having issues with the laptop, I just uploaded all the files to OneDrive. . .
So now, I am uploading everything to Google Drive as I go. And I plan on sticking to my own personal storage space from now on and not moving things over to a work platform because the whole thing could happen again.
Lessons learnt: 1. Always keep a local copy as syncing from the cloud is not always entirely reliable. 2. Macs don't let you back up to a hard-drive without wiping the hard-drive. 3. Language accents can cause trouble sometimes.
Oh... It's really not easy... I remember writing my master thesis directly in Google Docs to have it accessible from anywhere without a flash disc. But finally I found out that on any other comp than my laptop it was sooooo slow I couldn't use it.
There are several ways to back up a mac without wiping the hard drive - Google it. I'm glad you learnt some lessons. We all make mistakes. Only delete local copies if you have very little space left. Storage doesn't affect speed until it's v full
Thanks huggers and Anna thanks for sharing your experience! John, great advice, thanks! I had indeed Googled it but I wasn't confident enough to try any of the options I saw. Seemed a little over my technical abilities.
You can do it. You're intelligent and more than capable!
improve. I deserve it. :D I deserve to take this time to invest in myself, to make my life easier, to follow my goals and to indulge in my passions, to make time for my hobbies. Yay for me! :D haha
PS NOTE TO SELF, listening to music and writing in my diary last night helped a lot. I was lying awake for quite a while with my thoughts but after writing things out, I was able to release the emotions and fell asleep pretty quickly soon after as
far as I remember. - Try to incorporate writing in my journal more often to benefit more from this effect!
PPS The irony. The first work day since school was out and I was up and at it at 7:35am, whereas at school I really struggled to get up at 8am! :P
I guess that just goes to show it was the going to school part that I wasn't enthused about and not the getting up part!
Journaling helps me so much too. I need to revisit my opendiary.com & my paper journal.
I've never heard of those before! Thanks Manda Panda! :D (Do you mind if I call you that?)
Of course you can, KTA! 😊
in my bad mood. Also, I was really productive with my anger/anngst and did housework instead of
something destructive. So yay for progress I suppose! 🤷🏽♀️
just found out that a medical device I bought but couldn't have inserted has the expiry date this month. There was a mix up at the clinic the last time so the doc told me different info to what the other doc and nurse had told me. So I came ready for
insertion only to be told we couldn't go through with it until we got some other test results back. Those test results are still not back so I have to buy a new device for about €130 even though it was the clinic's fault really.
If they had had the info correct, ai could have done it either immediately or else waited for the test results, then have bought the device and THEN have had it inserted.
Good news: principal invited me to meet him to get some feedback and I am getting hair cut, conditioned and blow dry on Friday before night away with the guy I have been seeing.
Whew! That is a lot going on. I'm glad you have good news. A hair cut always feels good.
Thanks for that comment John! I guess I am! I try to be there for my friends when it counts the most!
whoops that comment was meant for another post! . . .Thanks to all for hugs and Manda, yeah you're right! It does always feel good to take care of yourself and get a hair cut! And mine is so long and in the way right now (I wear it short on my head
not more than a few inches long) that I don't want to be seen by other people with it like this! haha! So I think it would be good for my confidence to get it cut ASAP!!
input those results onto our online system and write comments so that the reports are ready to be sent to parents. . . Still, I'm glad I have this much done. . . Now to bed. I;m so wired I don't think I will be able to sleep though. Too much going on
in my brain.
them tonight so that I don't have it hanging over me tomorrow on the last day of school. I want to be able to just relax between classes. We will have a staff night out tomorrow night and maybe people will start celebrating earlier. I don't want to
be the one not able to join in because I;m stressing trying to meet the deadline. I already was tonight as some of the girls met for drinks and I couldn't go.
mind. I'm not looking forward to the uncertainty of job searching, looking for a new place to stay (I need to get out of the place I'm currently staying)
Still having weird symptoms on and off that can be debilitating. No word from doctor about test results. I will call tomorrow because it has been over 2 weeks by this stage I'd say.
I was with my friend yesterday because she asked me to see her but then she asked me to leave. I fear she is having a psychotic episode but at least her sister picked her up and she is going home so hopefully she will get the proper help she needs.
I'm still worried about her. It was hard to see her crying her eyes out and in that state in general. It was upsetting when she asked me to leave and spoke rather gruffly to me. It was hard to leave her alone but I didn't want to stay against her wil
I waited until her sister arrived outside the apartment complex so I could speak to her before she went in to Sharon. At least I did all I could . . .
Good luck with the job KT. You sound like a good friend.
in the school last year so I have an idea of the type of questions they ask.
Today will be busy. Back to back classes from 9:30-1:00. Except for little break for ten mins 10:50-11:00
Then at one, I will go home, try to squeeze in some interview prep, grab a quick snack and 1:30 get a taxi to interview @2:15. Counselling later at 7:00.
Good luck! You'll get it :)
Good luck with the interview and getting through a busy day!
Hope it went well
Whoops, accidentally hugged myself! 😋🙈 . . . Job interview on Tuesday and still trying to finish up the course with my third year students (state exams start week after next and we have only four classes left!)
Had a bad headache yesterday. Still there but not as bad today. Worse if I bend so maybe it's my sinuses?! Even though I have no other symptoms so that would be weird! Tingling in hand again yesterday
Ankle pain yesterday. And also a random hot flush too. Neck pain today. Still awaiting blood test results.
Dating going well. Have seen one guy about 5 or 6 times. Last two dates went very well. I think I will stop dating other guys and see where this leads 🙂
Good luck in your dating and job! :)
A lot of positive stuff there - fingers crossed for interview and guy
Thanks all 🤗
Sorry for not being on too often/hugging or commenting too much.
I'm confused and wish he had just been straight with me. Maybe the whole 'something came up'/'got the news' was just an excuse. Maybe he just didn't like me
Or maybe he didn't like me as much as I liked him. (Even though he said he was attracted to immediately and made several other comments which made it sound like he was very attracted to me!)
I hate it when guys aren't honest and skirt around things. He's definitely reminding me of that ex again. But in a bad way! 😢
Call me a fool but I send him a voice note letting him know that I had seen he was back on the app but that he unmatched me and that I was confused because he had mentioned that perhaps in the future we could meet up but he didn't feel like it right
Anyways, I said all that and voiced my confusion and desire for closure and honesty so maybe he will do the decent thing and confirm he is no longer into me and/or the reason why.
I can't help wondering if it's because he found out I went on a date with a guy that he knows . . . But we weren't committed to each other then at all so I couldn't see why that would have made such an impact on him. Mmm I don't know. I guess I have
to accept that I may never get the answer(s) and try to move on because he is clearly not interested in furthering any sort of relationship with me
Maybe he doesn't want you to know how he's really doing, maybe it's not personal and he just doesn't want you knowing why he's low or stressed.
Honestly, from a guy's point of view, he probably was making excuses. Some guys say things but don't mean them. That sucks. Good you mentioned it, but if he doesn't reply, probably best to let it go. I'm sorry. :(
Maybe I'm wrong and he'll get back in touch! sometimes one person feels fireworks and other needs more time to burn down the wick before they go off!
Well, he did reply. Suggested we meet up. We loosely arranged to meet on a Tuesday but to arrange time on a Monday. I messaged Monday night. Around midday Tuesday he said he wouldn't be around because he was out of the city. Said he had sold his car
so wouldn't have one for the week and would have rehearsal one of the evenings that week but that he didn't know when .. . I didn't appreciate how he hadn't let me know he wouldn't be able to make it. So I just said he could text me if/when he'd be
free to meet another time . . . no word since. :( . . . Even if he did get in touch at this stage, I don't appreciate how flaky he has been. It's not really fair. Anyways, I;m still dating another guy and chatting to one or two others so, let's see
how it goes.
Well, if that's what you're looking for, don't settle for someone else. You're a catch! You'll find that right guy. Maybe the next one will be more than fireworks (TNT!).
Meanwhile, I can't stop thinking about the one that got away. 2 dates. Immediate fireworks (never mind a 'spark'). Emotional and physical connection
He was very interesting. A musician which I liked. Very easy-going. We talked and laughed and the conversation just flowed so easily. He was well travelled and interested in languages. But alas, he contacted me and said that 'something came up'. When
and that he wasn't in the mood for dating. I called him and he sounded upset and said he 'got the news on Tuesday'. So it sounds like maybe someone passed away? . . . Impossible to know. He did mention that in the future if I wanted to meet up maybe
but that right now, it's not something he is open to. I let him know I would be open to that if his situation changed. A part of me feels like he is too similar to an ex. But he's not even available anyways. But there's that possibility of the future
So I can't help comparing the current guy to him . . . and he keeps coming up short 😕
Thanks all. Anna, that's a great point!! I never though of it like that before! 😁 Jeff, thanks! What a lovely message!
Thanks all 🙂
Being similar doesn't mean anything bad. He may have the qualities you loved on your ex, but not have those you hated.
The good thing about dating is that there doesn't need to be a commitment, it's just getting to know someone and having fun. Don't take it too seriously, the one is on the way.
loudly again this morning. What a ***e night's sleep. The guy slept in the landlord's bedroom and not in the spare room so maybe he is gay which is a little bit surprising as he is so homophobic.
Annoyed about lack of sleep. I got a proper fright this morning when I woke up and heard a stranger's male voice. I thought we had been broken into!
I live in very religious and homophobic region. Economical situation isn't great either. A lot of people try to disguise their orientation and fit in society with traditional values, even if this 'traditions' include bashing others people orientation
Therefore a lot of verbal aggression and hophobic slurs and jokes. They hope that by imitating straight 'macho' behavior they won't get hurt
It turns out he was a she . . . which makes more sense overall! Still, overall I am not too pleased.i had already started looking for a new place. This has been the nail in the coffin. I don't care that someone stayed over. It's how loud they were
when they got in that bugged me. Full on normal voices, if not louder. There was no sense of 'It's 4am. Someone else is asleep. Let's try not to wake them up.' Or even slightly toning it down. They were full on proper loud.
Next time I wake up at 4am I'm getting up, packing my bag full of food and water, and going for a walk for the rest of the day.
longer conditional. I am now a fully qualified, fully registered teacher of Science and Biology :D
Congrats on being official!
Brilliant news Keeping, well deserved I'm sure.
Congratulations! Well done xx
Congratulations! That's really great.
Thanks all! It feels like a nice way to mark my first year! Like it feels like, 'At least I got that done this year'. You have 3. years to do it but you have to get everything done within one school year. So it's great to have it over and done with!
Fantastic. Keep enjoying it
Thanks Nixi! And all huggers!! 😁
Woot, woot!!! Good for you. :)
calcium test + arthritis tests. Also, I randomly had an asthma attack for the first time in years (I have had wheezing since but never a full blown asthma attack) so I will get inhalers for that too. My vit. D levels were low in first set of tests.
My guess is that that has caused low calcium levels, leading to joint pain, muscle pains and aches, the tingling sensation I got in my hands twice and the easy bruising/broken veins/veins coming up very obviously . . . But let's see what comes out of
the next set of tests. Maybe I have some sort of arthritis too that just wasn't so obvious before that has been exacerbated by low vitamin D levels! As for the bruising, it could be due to my medication perhaps and not due to a lack of calcium.
If further tests do not reveal the reason for the bruising etc., I will ask to switch anxiety/depression medication, even though it is working well for me otherwise.
I'm frequently low on vit d and I sometimes get hand pain, didn't know of the connection so will look into that. Big hugs.
thanks all! Yes, do, Penelope!
Stay strong, and be careful.
and get back to me. . . I can't help worrying. Even though, the good news is that the joint pain has nearly completely vanished. Still getting a few random aches and pains, mainly at night and I have a strange rash on my chest. . . But it's not as
bad as it was a few days ago for sure.
Fingers crossed xx
Thinking of you, KTA. Hope all turns out well!
Hope this gets sorted soon. I hate waiting to hear test results. Glad you are feeling better though! 💚
Thanks guys! xx
Never a good idea to Google health symptoms. Always find the worst-case scenario. Makes me more anxious than not knowing. I hope you're feeling better today!