today has helped me boost my mood. I am proud of myself, although I acknowledge that I have a lot of work to do and I need to accept help and support and prioritise it. One step at a time.
Sounds really positive - well done KTA!
Well done! Accepting help is great for you & the person giving it.
One of the best accomplishments you can achieve, good job 👍✨
It can be super overwhelming if you look at it as a whole. Break things down, maybe with a to do list. Sometimes that's the only way I manage!
Thanks Jeff! I guess I kind of did that. Stuck to my guns today. Stayed after school and got some work done, went for a walk when I went home.I am really focusing on my time management and self care at the minute:)
Overall, today was a good day. Proud of myself.
Spooky - I was just wondering how you were doing...great to see green!
aw thanks Cindy! Hope all is well with you!! :) xxx
and thanks all for hugs of course! :D xx
I have some very strong, specific worries that I cannot seem to control - 1. I will not be able to cope when I return to work and I will have another breakdown. 2. I will lose my job as a result of either poor performance, inability to cope or
too much absence from work. My confidence in myself is practically non-existent. I feel a sense of failure, defeat and feel like I am doomed to have a bad outcome. . . I am trying to challenge these thoughts and practise self care but it is difficult
Today's goals: 1. Find a therapist and book an appointment for next week. 2. Prepare for return to work. 3. Pack bags and prepare for return to city where I work.
you know how are you feeling, have your plan, so no matter what you're doing well
Thinking of you - great that you've been able to reflect and make a plan, everything crossed for you xx
Thanks all. xxx
My therapist said 'you shouldn't return to work until your own 'cup' is filled. Until you can handle little everyday things you need to do for yourself'
hi Melody, thanks for sharing :) Everyone closest to me and my doc suggested that returning to work would be good for me. I actually had a very good day at work today. It felt good to be back! I think I just needed to overcome the anxiety and
apprehension about it! Hope you are well! Sending hugs back! x
Oh, glad to hear that, yay :)!
Hope you have a nice time!
Wow. How horrible to hear that. Of course it's probably not true...this person was probably trying to be funny or had a bone to pick. Try to ask others for feedback individually maybe?
As a teacher myself, I completely understand your emptiness feeling. Joking or not, it still hurts to hear students say that. Makes you wonder what your real purpose is as their teacher.
What a nasty, hurtful comment! I agree with Jeff, that's probably one person showing off & whilst that might be their opinion. I'm sure individually there would be far more positive feedback from your class. Dont give up because one idiot! Big hugs x
I hope you can push through until xmas and then enjoy the festivities.
Thanks a lot everyone!! :D
Wow! What a brat. I hear all the kid nightmare stories because BF is a teacher. Enjoy the glorious weeks away from them!
thanks Manda! x
Well done you! That is not an easy thing to do.Glad they were supportive.
That's great to hear! Now the hard part is over. You'll get back into a groove. Take it easy!
Anxious about commiting to a decision of whether to go back to work next week or not. I feel it would be difficult but that it could be good for my self esteem and would help make returning to work easier. Also anxious about Christmastime with my
family after everything that has happened. . . So right now, the future seems very scary and I feel like I can't get over my recent and whole past. 😢 Trying to be present in the moment but it's very difficult as there is underlying tensions with my
family after everything I have done and also said. . . So, a lot of the options feel scary. 😕
Ugh...that is scary. Good to focus on the present, but I know how hard that is! Maybe remember that family cares and forgives, and better to be with them even if it's awkward or difficult than not with them! Good luck, KTA! *Big hugs*
work having had a lot of time off lately and also from having a bit of an outburst the second last time I was there and having showed how depressed I was the last time I was there. . . Uncertain whether my problems are too big to manage and if I will
continue to fail to cope if I go back to work, despite considering putting more supports in place during the week. . . On the other hand, the idea of quitting or being let go and returning home to live with my parents is very gloomy and fatalistic.
That's part of the reason why all the pressure built, that was what I was trying to avoid/escape. 🙁 .. . BUT the night before last, I slept the best since everything happened. And yesterday was the best day since. Last night I didn't sleep as well.
But still, one step forwards, two steps back.
Hope you find the best way forward for you, KTA - keeping you in my thoughts xx
I should probably go in early to get photocopying done but I feel so tired. Uncomfortable in bed. Duvet too hot. Will have to find a suitable alternative.
My best wishes to you on this Tuesday. Hope it goes well for you. <3 Take good care of you. <3
Hope the day goes ok, KTA! Good luck with the counsellor!
Breath . Hang in there. Be kind to yourself. Be your own best friend. FOG (foot of the gas) stop pushing yourself too hard. DOT ( do one thing) break all tasks down into tiny steps and you'll be amazed how much you have and can achieve.
Thanks Brigid and thanks all for hugs. x
I had a hard night's sleep too. I'm sure you'll do great, KTA! Good luck!