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Returned to work today. It was good for my confidence. I am glad I decided to go in. Everyone was very supportive and mainly no uncomfortable questions. Working slowly. Indecisive and not feeling so
Sydney P
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Cindy M
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Cindy M
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Well done you! That is not an easy thing to do.Glad they were supportive.

Jeff M
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nixiblu .
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Manda P
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Manda P
10h ·

That's great to hear! Now the hard part is over. You'll get back into a groove. Take it easy!

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Feeling a bit blank. . . Awake and alone as my Mom is sleeping and my Dad is at chemo. Trying to write in my diary but finding it difficult to acknowledge and let my thoughts flow onto the page.
Keeping Track A
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Anxious about commiting to a decision of whether to go back to work next week or not. I feel it would be difficult but that it could be good for my self esteem and would help make returning to work easier. Also anxious about Christmastime with my

Keeping Track A
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family after everything that has happened. . . So right now, the future seems very scary and I feel like I can't get over my recent and whole past. 😢 Trying to be present in the moment but it's very difficult as there is underlying tensions with my

Keeping Track A
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family after everything I have done and also said. . . So, a lot of the options feel scary. 😕

Jeff M
6d ·

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Jeff M
6d ·

Ugh...that is scary. Good to focus on the present, but I know how hard that is! Maybe remember that family cares and forgives, and better to be with them even if it's awkward or difficult than not with them! Good luck, KTA! *Big hugs*

Natalie C
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Thurs. night I had another incident with panic and ***al urges. On atidepressants again. Feel guilty about what I have done (again) to my family and worried about how I can pick up the pieces at
Keeping Track A
7d ·

work having had a lot of time off lately and also from having a bit of an outburst the second last time I was there and having showed how depressed I was the last time I was there. . . Uncertain whether my problems are too big to manage and if I will

Keeping Track A
7d ·

continue to fail to cope if I go back to work, despite considering putting more supports in place during the week. . . On the other hand, the idea of quitting or being let go and returning home to live with my parents is very gloomy and fatalistic.

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That's part of the reason why all the pressure built, that was what I was trying to avoid/escape. 🙁 .. . BUT the night before last, I slept the best since everything happened. And yesterday was the best day since. Last night I didn't sleep as well.

Keeping Track A
7d ·

But still, one step forwards, two steps back.

Robert H
7d ·

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Cindy M
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Cindy M
6d ·

Hope you find the best way forward for you, KTA - keeping you in my thoughts xx

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4 Keeping Track A
04 Dec 2018 ·
Slept for about an hour or maybe a little more last night. Anxiety about school and managing pain. Tuesdays are my busiest day. I'm dreading it. First day with new counsellor later.
Keeping Track A
04 Dec 2018 ·

I should probably go in early to get photocopying done but I feel so tired. Uncomfortable in bed. Duvet too hot. Will have to find a suitable alternative.

Lydia D
04 Dec 2018 ·

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Lydia D
04 Dec 2018 ·

My best wishes to you on this Tuesday. Hope it goes well for you. <3 Take good care of you. <3

Jeff M
04 Dec 2018 ·

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Jeff M
04 Dec 2018 ·

Hope the day goes ok, KTA! Good luck with the counsellor!

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04 Dec 2018 ·

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04 Dec 2018 ·

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2 Keeping Track A
03 Dec 2018 ·
In pain and feeling overwhelmed with all the work I have to catch up. Haven't been that productive because I feel like I don't know where to start.
Jeff M
03 Dec 2018 ·

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03 Dec 2018 ·

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BRIGID M
03 Dec 2018 ·

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BRIGID M
03 Dec 2018 ·

Breath . Hang in there. Be kind to yourself. Be your own best friend. FOG (foot of the gas) stop pushing yourself too hard. DOT ( do one thing) break all tasks down into tiny steps and you'll be amazed how much you have and can achieve.

Maria F
03 Dec 2018 ·

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03 Dec 2018 ·

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03 Dec 2018 ·

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Keeping Track A
03 Dec 2018 ·

Thanks Brigid and thanks all for hugs. x

Natalie C
03 Dec 2018 ·

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04 Dec 2018 ·

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2 Keeping Track A
03 Dec 2018 ·
Very disturbed sleep last night. Still anxious about going back to school. Particularly anxious about my exam classes as we are behind. Feel like I don't have the energy that it will take to catch up
Jeff M
03 Dec 2018 ·

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Jeff M
03 Dec 2018 ·

I had a hard night's sleep too. I'm sure you'll do great, KTA! Good luck!

Cindy M
03 Dec 2018 ·

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03 Dec 2018 ·

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Keeping Track A
03 Dec 2018 ·

Thanks!

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3 Keeping Track A
03 Dec 2018 ·
Very disturbed sleep last night. Still anxious about going back to school. Particularly anxious about my exam classes as we are behind. Feel like I don't have the energy that it will take to catch up
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3 Keeping Track A
03 Dec 2018 ·
Very disturbed sleep last night. Still anxious about going back to school. Particularly anxious about my exam classes as we are behind. Feel like I don't have the energy that it will take to catch up
Anna D
03 Dec 2018 ·

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3 Keeping Track A
03 Dec 2018 ·
Very disturbed sleep last night. Still anxious about going back to school. Particularly anxious about my exam classes as we are behind. Feel like I don't have the energy that it will take to catch up
Keeping Track A
03 Dec 2018 ·

but can't afford for my classes to miss more time. 😢

Anna D
03 Dec 2018 ·

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2 Keeping Track A
03 Dec 2018 ·
Very disturbed sleep last night. Still anxious about going back to school. Particularly anxious about my exam classes as we are behind. Feel like I don't have the energy that it will take to catch up
Anna D
03 Dec 2018 ·

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3 Keeping Track A
02 Dec 2018 ·
Tired. Don't know whether or not to try and get an early night or to stay up and correct papers before a busy week. Reports due for first years this week. 😩
Pauline G
02 Dec 2018 ·

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02 Dec 2018 ·

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2 Keeping Track A
02 Dec 2018 ·
Papers taking me longer to correct than I had hoped. Nearly threw up after taking painkiller. . . Dreading school tomorrow. Feel ill from tablet and back still sore. And behind on work.
C J
03 Dec 2018 ·

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3 Keeping Track A
02 Dec 2018 ·
Going back to my hometown. Nervous about returning to school and corrections I have to do. Meeting a friend before bus. Pouring rain.
Jeff M
02 Dec 2018 ·

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02 Dec 2018 ·

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Urzara Z
02 Dec 2018 ·

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Cindy M
02 Dec 2018 ·

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Cindy M
02 Dec 2018 ·

Hope everything goes well

Manda P
02 Dec 2018 ·

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6 Keeping Track A
01 Dec 2018 ·
Mobility much improved, hardly any pain. Procrastinated about correcting papers. Worried about being behind with the course with most classes.
Urzara Z
01 Dec 2018 ·

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02 Dec 2018 ·

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4 Keeping Track A
01 Dec 2018 ·
I have an infection, probably as a result of antibiotics. It just doesn't seem to end. Worried about returning to school and workload but at least I am making a start at properly handling corrections.
Keeping Track A
01 Dec 2018 ·

Backpain - hardly noticeable at present. 😊

Jeff M
01 Dec 2018 ·

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Natalie C
01 Dec 2018 ·

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Natalie C
01 Dec 2018 ·

Hope your feeling better soon :)

Manda P
02 Dec 2018 ·

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5 Keeping Track A
30 Nov 2018 ·
Started correcting exams in a slightly haphazard way and before I was fully happy that I knew all questions/answers properly. Pain increased all eve. Took some painkillers. Apprehensive about workload
Keeping Track A
30 Nov 2018 ·

and return to school.

Maria K
30 Nov 2018 ·

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30 Nov 2018 ·

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30 Nov 2018 ·

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30 Nov 2018 ·

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30 Nov 2018 ·

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01 Dec 2018 ·

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4 Keeping Track A
30 Nov 2018 ·
Finished antibiotics yesterday. Slept well last night. Did without painkillers all day. Just after getting back from pharmacy. Feeling very tired and a bit sore. Thinking of postponing meeting friend
Keeping Track A
30 Nov 2018 ·

this evening.

Jen B
30 Nov 2018 ·

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Cindy M
30 Nov 2018 ·

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30 Nov 2018 ·

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30 Nov 2018 ·

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30 Nov 2018 ·

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3 Keeping Track A
29 Nov 2018 ·
Feeling quite uncomfortable today. At least it's my last day of antibiotics. A little worried about whether or not I will actually be ready to return to work on Monday 🙁
Katsuko N
29 Nov 2018 · NEW

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29 Nov 2018 ·

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29 Nov 2018 ·

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29 Nov 2018 ·

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29 Nov 2018 ·

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29 Nov 2018 ·

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29 Nov 2018 ·

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30 Nov 2018 ·

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5 Keeping Track A
28 Nov 2018 ·
Looking forward to getting out for a bit and meeting my friend tomorrow. It will be my first time out of the house for social reasons since I went home sick Thursday. I will suggest Christmas Market
Xavier M
29 Nov 2018 ·

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Manda P
29 Nov 2018 ·

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Manda P
29 Nov 2018 ·

So glad you can get out for a bit. I bet it'll feel great!

Cindy M
29 Nov 2018 ·

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29 Nov 2018 ·

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1 Keeping Track A
27 Nov 2018 ·
Feeling pretty ***ty emotionally after tiff with brother/family. He basically said I ask him too much advice as a doctor. Referenced when everything happened in Aug with annoyance even though I never
Keeping Track A
27 Nov 2018 ·

wanted advice then. In fact, he stressed me out trying to challenge my thoughts and I felt he was frustrated with me. . . Trying to suppress feelings that he doesn't care or worry about me. I didn't like how he brought it up. I am not sure how I feel

Keeping Track A
27 Nov 2018 ·

about talking about it with my family. Just caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. Feeling fat. Knew I had put on weight but was a little shocked by how much when I weighed myself yesterday.

Orabelle M
27 Nov 2018 ·

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27 Nov 2018 ·

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27 Nov 2018 ·

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Manda P
28 Nov 2018 ·

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Manda P
28 Nov 2018 ·

I wish I wouldn't have weighed myself recently. It's not healthy to fixate on any number. We're supposed to look at BMIs & I'd bet you are fine.

Anna D
28 Nov 2018 ·

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Cindy M
28 Nov 2018 ·

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Keeping Track A
28 Nov 2018 ·

Thanks Manda! I guess you are right. Definitely not healthy to fixate on a number! Maybe it was not a good idea to weigh myself!

Manda P
29 Nov 2018 ·

Yep, I used to weigh myself multiple times a day when my eating disorder was bad. Now I can go over once a week & it has really saved my sanity!

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