READING them and making little notes. Couldn't seem to stop despite being aware of this anxious response . . . Going to take a break to eat lunch and shower. Hopefully, I can then come back with a vigour in time to prioritise my prep!
Hope it went well. Having a break usually helps me with that behaviour
On the downside, I ate a WHOLE PACK (6) of flapjacks, 3 biscuits and some ice cream last night. Started out because I hadn't been feeling well and decided to treat myself. Then went overboard. The worst thing is, the flapjacks had choc chips and even
though I was recently made all too aware of not overdoing it on my choc consumption due to my coca
cocoa allergy, I still ate that many and of course my tummy was upset a bit this morning. . . I guess I was stress eating. 😞
Good luck with the interview! Don't beat yourself up about the food. We all do it!
3. Lack of routine/homelife & 4. New relationship . . . I don't know why I feel so doubtful about it because he's so lovely! It's nearly like I am so unused to being treated well that it feels like there must be something wrong! Also, it is it
unreasonable to feel annoyed because someone is too cheerful/positive and TOO infatuated with/nice to you?? :/ Trying to set boundaries by not agreeing to meet every time he is asking.
* 5. Too many late nights! (Fri - 5:30am, Sat - 1:30am, Sun - midnight Mon - midnight Tues - 1am)
Not unreasonable at all...I always feel like the person must be fake. But sometimes you have to get used to that person's unique viewpoint. Also, common to be stressed when things are good. You'll get over that!
What job are you looking for? I wish you the best of luck in landing your dream job and building this relationship! I'm sure you're a good person who deserves to be loved - everyone deserves that. There's nothing wrong with someone being infatuated
with you. You are worth it, so it's only understandable
Thanks guys and thanks Ivanova and Jeff for advice! 😊 I vanova, teaching job! Lots of factors to consider - like location, language
, ethos/size/ denomination of school, amount of hours available, type of contract (substitue or own hours), subjects required to teach so it can be confusing!
Jeff, I don't think he's fake, though sometimes I wonder if really feels so positive about normal/ordinary things. I think whats mainly bothering me is that he is overly agreeable. He is too ready to just go along with whatever I suggest. Instead of
saying he is busy some days, he asks to meet a lot and if I suggest a different day he says whenever is fine! But its very very new so maybe if I continue to protect my own time for meeting with own friends and just for myself, he will start to chang
change his behaviour a bit. It's a little ironic but it's just a tad off-putting and claustrophobic!
I know how that is...crave social interaction but can only take so much.
Thanks all! Yes Jeffm
I think I was trying to get out of the house/keep busy. But I went out every evening from Tues right through to (and inckuding!) yesterday, with the exception of Sunday! So that was a lot! Took a rest day today and will do tomorrow too! Busy weekends
for next two weekends!
Meeting my boyfriend for brunch/lunch. 😊 Skype later with friend. Nice plans for this weekend and next weekend with friends 😁
Good luck with the interviews!
Thanks Jeff, fingers crossed and thanks all pandas! 🤗
*baked me vegan brownies *told me I'm perfect
That's so awesome! Wish I could have had some vegan brownies 😋
Are you vegan Tasha? I am not but I have a milk allergy so when I see the vegan mark on menus, I get happy! 😂
I tried a vegan orange polenta cake twice recently and I really didn't like the texture. Then I tried a recipe with eggs as I realised the cake in the café I was trying to replicate is dairyfree, not vegan! But I still wasn't happy with the texture!!
So maybe it's just the polenta! 😜😂 I want to try a vegan chocolate brownie next or maybe even vegan chocolate cake. The one my boyfriend made was nice but it tasted a bit savoury. So we put agave syrup on it and it was quite nice then! 😊
(Even though as I said in the post, I am also allergic to cocoa, I have some tolerance but I find it hard to have enough discipline not to go overboard. I did a few days ago and suffered for 2-3 days with cramps and other symptoms!)
I said I would just go off it completely again but luxuries such as vegan choc cake/brownie/mousse def qualify as onceoff treats!! 😜😂
known me for a long time etc. . . It's very nice to hear but I am a little scared it's too early to say those things. We met Tues for first time and met last night and he wants to meet today, tomorrow and Tues!! . . . That's a lot right? My brother
warned me because with the ex before last, I fell head over heels so quickly and he broke my heart . . . There is something about this guy though.
I can see already with lots of little things that he is treating me with more kindness and respect and I feel like it's him that's falling faster than me. The other time I always felt like I needed the guy more than he needed me .
So maybe it's OK. I think I will share these feelings with him though.
Enjoy it. But perhaps have 'other plans' one or so of those evenings.
Yes Nixiblu. I have said I have plans for tomorrow. Even though I would prob have time to meet him if I want see but I need to make sure I get some of my own things done. Plus, my sis and husband ate visiting tomorrow but I don't know what time.
And my brother is here for weekend too. So it would be nice to hav family time without rushing away for own plans. . . Bsides, the last two times it has been late nights. I need to sleep!! 😂
Thanks everyone for hugs and for your advice Nixiblu 😁
got results of an Irish exam I did at the start of May. It was on the morning after my research project was due. I had only 3 hours sleep and had done literally no study for it and I passed with distinction - 83%. Very proud of my progress!
Sought interview feedback for a position I was not hired for. The principal had a lot of praise and positive comments and said that the main thing that stood against me was that I was up against candidates with more experience. So, nice to hear that.
I would nearl6 have preferred some negatives/constructive criticism so I could improve but I guess you can't do anything about lack of experience! 😂 . . . Also, still have a warm glow effect after how well interview went yesterday 😁
Lots of good feelings and excitement. Nice to see!
You sound like you would be a very good teacher.
Thanks Love 1! 🤗
really interesting conversation for a couple of hours last night. I really like his perspective on things and we seem to match on a couple of core things - work ethic, religious beliefs, love for working with kids, age/stage in life.
I feel like he is going to be a gent and actually continue to treat me with respect. I'm excited for the date, it's nice! :)
Exciting! Happy for you!
Hope it goes well :)
Hope you enjoy it
Thanks guys! It went very well thanks. I'm meeting him again at the weekend. 😊
Good luck! Glad it went well!
Thanks Jeff! How are your legs doing now? I had posted a reply last time but realised it hadn't gotten through! Hope the insoles do the trick anyhow!
really want it or not. hmmmmm
There's no harm in going, plus you can get a better feel as to whether you'd enjoy it
Oh yes Kym, for sure I will go. It meets most of my criteria for the ideal position. Just the main major con is that the contract is for low hours. I will see if I can check out whether it could be boosted at all though. I need to check feasibility
of min. salary. Definitely want to be abl to move out of home and get my own car, so I would need to be earning enough to pay rent and run my own car!
Always the option of boosting my salary by teaching grinds privately but the downside is that I would have to work on what I would rather be my time off. When you have a low hour contract like that with classes spread out during the day and gaps in
timetable, it's hard to define your time in-between classes as time off! Or even working time if there are other teachers around. . . Still, I will check out the full story!
How is your foot doing? is it any better?
Thanks for asking Ivanova, the thorn came out. I saw a trick online. You make a paste with baking soda and water and draws it out! At first I left it on for 3-4 hours but it didn't work. Then I tried it for 24hours and I saw the thorn had come out by
itself without any pain! I recommend this for anyone who gets a thorn or splinter! Such an easy and painfree method! 😁
Thanks pandas for hugs! 😀
I'm sorry to hear your day hasn't been very nice. I wish you a better tomorrow!
Thanks everyone 🤗
a thorn in my foot which makes walking painful! Feeling sleepy now. Birds singing outside my window. Maybe I can do some reading/relax with parents after dinner.
Thorn in your foot? That sounds awful - and like something out of a fable!
Cindy, I had replied before but maybe I wasn't connected to the internet! Not the first time this has happened to me on MP! . .
Yes, I got it from walking outside with onky socks on! (I live in the country!) I got it out though! I left a paste of baking soda and water on it with a plaster over it for 24hours and drew it out painlessly! I saw it when I removed the plaster!! 😁
thanks all for hugs! 😘
Honestly there's such a big random element. I took 8 months to find a new job last time. It's dispiriting but you'll get there
Thanks all! Am hoping to get something for full academic year from Sept. John. Need to get experience, get on the salary ladder, start building up my pension etc.! So many factors to consider all-in-all though!
Ah academia? A tough row to hoe but I wish you luck.
Thanks a lot! 😊
Yesterday, both parents dampened my excitement at possibility of full-time position quite a while away as the rent would be high in that area. Then they throw out random suggestions of areas I don't even want to go to. I checked and that aren't so
really any suitable positions in the places they mentioned ANYWAYS . . . Why do they have to be critcial and quench my excited/hopeful moments with all possible negatives and THEIR beliefs about how I should behave?! Such a downer!
But I mean it may be 12 hour at start, but Im sure you will be great at it and then it might improve to a full time
Unfortunately it doesn't work like that with teaching jobs here. The hours you get depend on the school timetables and other timetables. To be made fulltime, another teachers would have to give up some of their hours which is actually very unlikely!
You could always travel from a cheaper area. It'd give you time to switch off from work during the commute.
^^^ Yes, that's true John! I have since learned more about the position. I would have to teach hours in a second subject that I am not qualified in which is not desirable. I definitely want to make sure I get experience teaching the subjects I am
qualified in and that I am most interested in. As I plan to teach in my second language, it also makes sense not to overburden myself with new terminology in three subjects rather than one!! . . . So looks like that job is not a good fit overall!
as back-up/for peace of mind? It would be nice to have secured a position at least . . . but on the other hand I am reluctant to accept such a position when I know I will have to go back on it if I am offered something better! Plus the effort of 3
hours travel either way just to interview (not to mind the expense of it too!!)
In other news, reached out to group of friends who I had kind of been withdrawing from/let myself drift from. Going to try one last proper stab at reintegrating myself for the sake of the good memories. Will try more honest and upfront approach if
I feel excluded/left out of conversations in the future, instead of staying silentand withdrawing!