Well done you! That is not an easy thing to do.Glad they were supportive.
That's great to hear! Now the hard part is over. You'll get back into a groove. Take it easy!
Anxious about commiting to a decision of whether to go back to work next week or not. I feel it would be difficult but that it could be good for my self esteem and would help make returning to work easier. Also anxious about Christmastime with my
family after everything that has happened. . . So right now, the future seems very scary and I feel like I can't get over my recent and whole past. 😢 Trying to be present in the moment but it's very difficult as there is underlying tensions with my
family after everything I have done and also said. . . So, a lot of the options feel scary. 😕
Ugh...that is scary. Good to focus on the present, but I know how hard that is! Maybe remember that family cares and forgives, and better to be with them even if it's awkward or difficult than not with them! Good luck, KTA! *Big hugs*
work having had a lot of time off lately and also from having a bit of an outburst the second last time I was there and having showed how depressed I was the last time I was there. . . Uncertain whether my problems are too big to manage and if I will
continue to fail to cope if I go back to work, despite considering putting more supports in place during the week. . . On the other hand, the idea of quitting or being let go and returning home to live with my parents is very gloomy and fatalistic.
That's part of the reason why all the pressure built, that was what I was trying to avoid/escape. 🙁 .. . BUT the night before last, I slept the best since everything happened. And yesterday was the best day since. Last night I didn't sleep as well.
But still, one step forwards, two steps back.
Hope you find the best way forward for you, KTA - keeping you in my thoughts xx
I should probably go in early to get photocopying done but I feel so tired. Uncomfortable in bed. Duvet too hot. Will have to find a suitable alternative.
My best wishes to you on this Tuesday. Hope it goes well for you. <3 Take good care of you. <3
Hope the day goes ok, KTA! Good luck with the counsellor!
Breath . Hang in there. Be kind to yourself. Be your own best friend. FOG (foot of the gas) stop pushing yourself too hard. DOT ( do one thing) break all tasks down into tiny steps and you'll be amazed how much you have and can achieve.
Thanks Brigid and thanks all for hugs. x
I had a hard night's sleep too. I'm sure you'll do great, KTA! Good luck!
but can't afford for my classes to miss more time. 😢
Hope everything goes well
Backpain - hardly noticeable at present. 😊
Hope your feeling better soon :)
and return to school.
So glad you can get out for a bit. I bet it'll feel great!
wanted advice then. In fact, he stressed me out trying to challenge my thoughts and I felt he was frustrated with me. . . Trying to suppress feelings that he doesn't care or worry about me. I didn't like how he brought it up. I am not sure how I feel
about talking about it with my family. Just caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. Feeling fat. Knew I had put on weight but was a little shocked by how much when I weighed myself yesterday.
I wish I wouldn't have weighed myself recently. It's not healthy to fixate on any number. We're supposed to look at BMIs & I'd bet you are fine.
Thanks Manda! I guess you are right. Definitely not healthy to fixate on a number! Maybe it was not a good idea to weigh myself!
Yep, I used to weigh myself multiple times a day when my eating disorder was bad. Now I can go over once a week & it has really saved my sanity!