How awful that such rumours are preventing you from being a friend/getting support. If people important to you, like your partner, know it's not true, could you meet?
Unfortunately Cindy my partner is the main issue :(
and so now over thinking everything around them and on the rollercoaster of guilt and paranoia!
Omg people are so stupid!!!!!! I get really angry in situations like yours I hate gossips. Why don't people just mind their own f***ing business
You have nothing to be guilty about if your relationship is completely platonic. Do your partners have suspicions? If not, then never mind everybody else. They are not true friends if they cannot trust your fidelity and loyalty to your partner!
don't let anyone ever decide that for you. Dave. you're allowed to feel bad.
Who sais you are not? The only person who knows what you feel is you. Don't feel like a fraud! Hope you can let the feeling of guilt go. It is not productive and it is not necessary.
I can relate
Feeling guilty, too, and sort of a disappointment for everyone. It's important to be good to ourselves in these hard times, though.
Please never feel guilty! Anyone can get problems at any time in their life. It is not your fault!!!! You are not letting anyone down, it is the illness which is letting you down.
I can also relate. And since I never even got a diagnosis or someone professional told me in direct terms that I'm suffering I also always feel like a fraud.
I often think I'm 'not really Schizoaffective' but then it wallops me over the head like a ton of bricks. Acceptance is hard, I know, but when you do accept how you feel and how you are, you have a base to start from and better things happen.
Like everyone else is saying, you know how you feel, and that's the important bit, there's help out there whether having diagnosis is part of it or not.
Thank you everyone for the comments and support
Sorry!! Me-time is so important. Is there anytime in the near future you can have some?
That's a glimmer of positive then. Hope other stuff improves soon.
The only positive? That is actually a huge thing! Well done!! Especially when things are not going well! You can be proud of yourself!
I know that feeling, but the bright side of not having a wand is that you can be so proud of yourself when everything is sorted! And it is a learning curve. Although this info doesn't really help you at the moment, does it..
Unfortunately Lieteke it feels that it will never be sorted, at least not until I have completely run out of energy and totally given up
Like the fact that you have not given up!! At some point the solution will come, the problem is, when. Try to stick to it, and if it get too hard, post here, so we can give you lots of hugs!
12 day streak gone, knew I shouldn't have been on my own
Hope you're okay, Dave
Tomorrow is another day, and it could be day 1 again. Don't know what you are going through, but it can't be easy.