And by writing to me he is still ruin my life by giving me false hopes and bringing me back every time. On the other hand, he continues his life
you back. The feeling is terrible. And I don't want to make anyone feel so bad ..
But I have a reason. That's because he hurt me. And I don't want to get hurt again. Even though it was a long time and he apologized.
Am I ready to meet soon? Am I ready to move forward in this connection? Maybe in the future but not now. So if I answer him I'll just waste my time because I'm not moving forward with him.
Do I want to live with him? Do I want to bring children from him? Am I ready to have all his less good qualities? Can I forgive the arguments? These are questions I have no answers to.
You are asking so good questions. Hugs!
Keeping a clear head. Well done!
Thanks guys xx
Today I feel a bit lonely. I don't know if I should answer him
I tried not to sleep today at noon on purpose although I wanted to so that I can sleep at night. I hope it doesn't do the opposite
And get married again. People have children.Buy cars.Sell cars, and only for me all is stuck, even my project is stuck. I feel like I do change but in my life nothing changes. And I don't want to lose hope that something will change.
I'm stuck too :D hello there :D
Melody, They say Good things take time :D🙏, hugs back
If I could trust him not to flip it would have been great. If he had written a few days ago I would probably be tempted to answer him.
Wow, you are mentally strong
A friend of mine told me that making contact is humiliation. I really disagree with her. We are human beings and it is okay to communicate with each other especially when he wants me. and I response to him
He is almost the only person I feel free to contact him with no feeling stopping me. I'm usually not open. And with him I am. And he's the only one who calms me down. But, right now I remember the good. We'll wait 2weeks and then just the bad
Thanks Tayla <3
Keep your head up hun! You can get through it ❤
But I didn't want him because he didn't behave well. Not because I didn't have feelings. He could have improved and I might have given him a chance if he had given me confidence.
The other one might be a rebound..i dont think he can open his heart to someone else so fast...
I realized that my thoughts could comfort me if I only tried to eliminate negative background noise. I thought I had no one to encourage me but I could muster the most encouraging thoughts. like for instance, I am smart. I am beautiful.
I am strong. Although I didn't want a job, there are thousands of other jobs in the world and I'm sure I'll find the one that's right for me. And there are lots of ways to love.I remain open to the good of the universe. I trust myself
and believe in myself that the right thing is coming to me, I tell them yes. I am an amazing person and whoever is with me will be happy. I study and develop. I am achieving my goals
It's not you who's the bad one. I'm sure you'll find a great job and a great guy who loves you and supports you. Good luck!
I also ran out of paracetamol. So I had no choice
The iboprene didn't help. Only made it worse. Because now there are also ringing in the ears and dizziness. I need to listen to myself more.
And not trust them. And not tell them anything because they will use it against me. And they really don't want my success.
or my happiness
When I remember that, I'll make better decisions
Maybe H was good to me. But they didn't like him.And one of the reasons I left him was because my family didn't like him. But my family does not want my best Interest. So maybe they were wrong.
And because I didn'tt get the job. He shouldn't help me with anything. And today my brothers came I felt this negative energy from them. It is very difficult for me to receive such treat from people who are supposed to support you.
Again, I see that I have to listen to myself. That my bad feeling about their visit was correct. Again I have to believe in myself. I know I'm right and that's what matters.
They also convinced my mum that she shouldn't help me and support me. And she started judging me in the conversation. Because I didn't want the job. And because' I'm not helping myself.'
I would never do such a thing to anyone. They really hurt me. But I'll cry. And I'll try to get up. and get stronger.
Oh... I'm sooo sorry... I hope you'll be able to overcome this all.
Thank you 🙏
Family members can sometimes be so clueless ans hurtful..Hugs!
But it will pass. I hope. It could have been worse. So, okay.