my feelings here until I forget him completely
I know that if he tries to make contact I will probably not want him. Because he is overbearing and obsessive I prefer the quiet. I just want a healthy and positive relationship.
Hard to find one of those isn't it. I sympathise, I really do.
It is hard <3 thank you Lolly22
they will be proud of me. Nothing I do in life will ever deserve them. I left H for them. And what's funny is that I'm the one who left him and I'm the one who's thinking about him now. He was the only one there for me more than a family.
And now I'm alone. I dont have a real family just fake for the outside pic
I kept looking at messages from two years ago that made me not forget what he did, but it was two years and he tried to change and he was patient I did not meet for two years but now he is impatient but I did not give him a real chance to change even
though he tried.While my family was bad to me, I always forgot and forgave them. to HI did not forgive, I always remember the bad he did when he did good and I forgot the good while to my family forgot the bad and did not find much good
And I don't have time for myself, I need my time alone
I can't think he moved on with someone else and if he did I would probably never know
Even though I need money, my health is the more important, and either I will take care of myself now or never
Any help is from God, I hope to find the thing that loves to do and earn a living from it later on
(low) and maybe it will pass
I must to stay strong. Because in a week or two I will not think about him and I will want my quietness from him. It will come like every month. And instead of turning to him to help these people I turn to God to help them best
I know I really want a healthy relationship, and that's what I miss.
Well done, M! I get it. I think these thoughts will come less and less in time. That's what I've been dealing with, anyway. They become more rare.
Thank you nixiblu, and Alicia ! **
These people eventually got along, I realized that even if he had been help it would have ended the same for this time
This is how I've felt over the last two weeks.
Get a cat.
Something is wrong, time does not move, and I don't know why.
I also went back to two caffeine a day
I guess I'm sick of trying and not seeing results, so why trying
At least I slept well, I'll try to enjoy it today. Instead of getting up at seven, I got up at nine-thirty, but it's not at all bad.
Most of the day I don't care if he goes with another woman.and I just want this quiet to last. But thoughts sometimes turn over
5 because it could have been worse
There are people who want my company but when I'm with them It's not easy So I'd rather be alone
I read all the messages from H, I can't release from the inside
reason for.I'm tired of taking
Medication that don't help. I tried everything, nutrition, exercise, breathing, nothing helped. I don't have any more power. nothing the same with such pain.
This pain took away who I am. I have nothing to give. Everything they expected was not fulfilled by me. And no one understands. Because doctors tell me to live with it.
Thank you John and Jeff
On the other hand, I feel lucky. God keeps me away from H, and everything happens for the better, and I'm determined to get what I want. God wants me to have He just wants my goodness
What I had to learn was to believe in myself
H is blocked, but despite all his faults, he was always there when I felt alone.
When I answer him, I hope he will do something so good that will make me forgive him and move on, but this connection only makes me not move forward. I realized that I can't let his actions and words have the power to rule my world, he said things
that hurt me but I can decide not to give him the power to influence me.
I can say that what he said is unforgivable things I can never forgive. Things that only a bad person can say
In the meantime, I blocked him.
That's my Me M. He has no power.
Thank you all for the hugs
Thank you Brandt B 🙏
I'm in touch with him because of fear. Fear of not finding anyone, fear that I would not have someone who would always answer and help, fear that he would hurt me if I cut him off. fear
return to normal they will happen, we must break down to be built