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6 Tim S
13h ·
Been a fairly good day, went to jazz band witch was fun. Mom is still being “I am going to help cure your depression” witch it really anoying as she is sayin all these things with out know the cause.
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5 Tim S
2d ·
Mom is being annoying in a good way now (but still annoying). She is trying to help me but in a 'forcing' way. Saw my shrink today just happens that his name is Tim. Gave me some things to try.
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3 Tim S
3d ·
Told my mom what was going on today. Regretting it as even tho she has said 'I am not a doctor so I can't say' she has gone into full 'parent-doctor' mode. Annoying as it is this effects your mood and
Tim S
3d ·

and this also does. I get she is just trying to help but man is it annoying. Also she made a comment about how she wished she knew sooner as then she would have understood why I was acting the way I was (as I would have been depressed when I moved)

Tim S
3d ·

so she thought that was just me. even tho she knew I was depressed before I moved

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That was very brave of you (I still haven't told my family) and I hope it'll help to improve your relationship to your mum over time.

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1 Tim S
4d ·
After cooling of a bit I feel like I can say some stuff without setting my self off. Today was a bad day. Started fine had a fun time at YO then got home and my mom took my laptops away bacause I
Tim S
4d ·

Don't do enough around the house. Even tho I do everything (ocatuonaly with a couple of reminders) she askes. I am getting really annoyed with her. She will yell at me for not doing something instantly (even if she can see I am in the middle of

Tim S
4d ·

Something). And then when I do something either it is not done correctly or not complete. She treats me like a child and she has said in the past we need to work together as I have never helped a child going into uni. (Brother moves to my dad then

Tim S
4d ·

Sister moved to my mom when she went to uni) so I understand this. So I think ok we both will sort this out together. But no and I should have expected this. Everything is my moms way or the high way she makes it seem like I have a choice but if it

Tim S
4d ·

Is not a response she likes she for lack of another word emotionally bully's me until I cave (I have started satanding up and turning back showing her how she is lying that I have a choice). There have been times she has said “f I Tim F U” when I

Tim S
4d ·

Don't do something “I have a choice in”. I can never win I have snapped at her when she has said the way I feel is wrong and I just miss interpreted what she said. Started telling her why I felt the way I did (luckily my sis was there as I don't

Tim S
4d ·

Know how it would have gone) and how she has misinterpreted things before. Took pritty much a full hour of her interrupting me and me yelling at her (I was done at this point) for her to realize why it was ok for me to fell the way I did.

Tim S
4d ·

And with her she can never be wrong so it is always me. So why should I live when one of the people I care about the most keeps yelling at me and calling me names.

Tim S
4d ·

Pandas please know I don't want people responding to this (I just ever to vent) and I have an appointment with my shrink on Monday and hopefully I can find a good way to tell my mom during that time.

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5 Tim S
4d ·
Good morning. Have YO this morning should be fun. S is on my mind again and just at the point where I thought I was over her. Don't know what to do, forget or talk and possibly make things worse.
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3 Tim S
5d ·
Mom keeps you interrupting me for things that can wait 5 min. Think I am just going to stop talking when she does this. She probably will not notice.
Tim S
5d ·

Want to message S but don't know what to say and the last couple of times we communicated I got set of (nothing because of what she said because what I felt) and I don't want that to happen again. Still want to be here friend but I am not sure if shr

Tim S
5d ·

*she wants that. Have my first appointment with my shrink Monday. Hopefully that helps but I don't expect to start seeing long term results for a couple of appointments.

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4 Tim S
5d ·
Only good thing about this whole thing is I am developing a think emotional skin and I don't really feel physical pain anymore.
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3 Tim S
6d ·
why are parents like 'if I cook dinner and make a mess I expect you to clean it up, but if you cook I also expect you to clean up'? Also I am working on a project and I messed up but it only cost
Tim S
6d ·

$5 in parts so it is fine.

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It is good if you help out by making dinner, but it sucks that you had to clean up.

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3 Tim S
6d ·
I feel like I am on the edge, have two options, step back or jump. I am teetering constantly, somedays I am leaning over the edge, somedays I am about to take a step back.
Tim S
6d ·

Today I am a git closer to the edge and I am just scared I will lean to far that I can't recover.

Tanika M
6d · NEW

Take it slow and try taking some time it to think about all your options, try writing down some of your feelings I find it really helps me understand what's going on in my head x

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Mimiko S
6d · NEW

Hey take it slowly, time is always on your side and well, if you can go on anymore, it's good to just sit down and talk it out with a friend.

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Rob L
6d ·

Breath. In thru mouth, out thru nose And stop thinking. Even for 30 seconds. It will help

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I've felt that teeter totter before & it sure is scary. Hang on tight & you'll stay off the bad side. Things will always get better.

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3 Tim S
7d ·
Over whelming mix of emotions but don't know what's causing it.
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6 Tim S
12 Mar 2019 ·
Had a nice time with A today, got a call from my new counsellor and have an appointment next week.
Ilisidi C
12 Mar 2019 ·

Yay!

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12 Mar 2019 ·

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Albertine M
12 Mar 2019 ·

More green!

Tim S
12 Mar 2019 ·

Hopefully the green is a more often occurrence.

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4 Tim S
11 Mar 2019 ·
Thinking about both S and A now, S as I have no heard from her in a while and I don't know what to do. A s I don't want to reck our relationship and I do not know if I should talk to her about this.
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11 Mar 2019 ·

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4 Tim S
11 Mar 2019 ·
Thinking about both S and A now, S as I have no heard from her in a while and I don't know what to do. A s I don't want to reck our relationship and I do not know if I should talk to her about this.
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6 Tim S
11 Mar 2019 ·
Dont feel like a 6 but am not <=5, Been a decent day, got some stuff done but still feeling down. Have realised I have actually had depression for the last ~5 years.
Tim S
11 Mar 2019 ·

Also catching up with a friend tomorrow. It will be nice hopefully.

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11 Mar 2019 ·

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2 Tim S
10 Mar 2019 ·
First time in a while I have been up till midnight, feels really bad especially as i was extremely tired this morning (to the point I was almost falling a sleep standing).
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10 Mar 2019 ·

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10 Mar 2019 ·

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Rob L
10 Mar 2019 ·

Not sure what time zone you are in. Try to concentrate on your stomach area with your mind. Tell it to slow down. Be calm. You are safe. It will respond. And you will sleep. Stay away from the phone. It will stop your urges to not sleep.

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10 Mar 2019 ·

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Manda P
10 Mar 2019 ·

Yep, stay away from the phone! Hope you get good sleep soon.

Tim S
11 Mar 2019 ·

thanks all and Rob I am in NZDT. (+12 UTC) incase you were wondering

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yah im up late now too... insomnia

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4 Tim S
10 Mar 2019 ·
Tired of the way my mom treats me, se goes from 0-1000 in 0.3 seconds. Today we were driving and she has always told me never wory about people behind you, just focus on the road and being safe.
Tim S
10 Mar 2019 ·

All of a sodden she yells at me for going to fast (doing 80 in a 100 but a really windy road) and that I should have stopped to let the people behind me to pass. Then I ask her if she wants me to pull over to let them pass. And she says “do what you

Tim S
10 Mar 2019 ·

Want”. So the conversation goes and I tell her that she has always said not to worry about the people behind me and if she wants me to do something tell me instead of yelling at me for not doing it. Everyday I can tell she is the cause of some of my

Tim S
10 Mar 2019 ·

Problems (not necessary all) and when I am not around her I feel so much better but not perfect as there are other issues.

Tim S
10 Mar 2019 ·

She still has not picked up that I have depression and what I believe to be extreme social anxiety (just the thought of hanging out with friends makes me feel sick). But she just says I am painfully shy.

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10 Mar 2019 ·

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same as me... depression and anxiety really suck

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5 Tim S
09 Mar 2019 ·
Today ended decently, Had a bunch of Vietnamese students over for dinner. Got a bit of work done. Can't wait for the stuff I ordered to come so I can finish the project I am working on.
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09 Mar 2019 ·

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2 Tim S
09 Mar 2019 ·
I am so done, my mom was watering in the front with our dog when our dog decides to walk off (she was just around the corner), I ask my mom if she can come help me find holly (or dog), and my mom
Tim S
09 Mar 2019 ·

starts swearing and saying stuff under her breath about me. Holly is a lot better with women then men so she responds better to my mom then me hens why I asked my mom to come with me. It is just adding up and when I say something about the way she

Tim S
09 Mar 2019 ·

speaks to me I get yelled at for the way I speak to her (admittedly I could say it better but I am just so done). With my mom everything is my fault, It is my fault she speaks to me the way she does, it is my fault I feel the way I do. Nothing is

Tim S
09 Mar 2019 ·

ever good enough for her.

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This is hard, my mum is the same. I hope you are alright, I do know what its like so you can talk to me if you need

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4 Tim S
08 Mar 2019 ·
been working on a huge project, but every time I finish something I realise either I missed something, made an error, or I realize there is a lot more to do.
Tim S
08 Mar 2019 ·

For some context, I am making a program from scratch, with one other person. So some of the errors result me changing a couple of lines, others make me rewrite everything I just did. A lot of work a lot of lines, and a lot of time. But I am going to

Tim S
08 Mar 2019 ·

push through and keep developing it as this is what I love, and I can not let my mind get in the way of that.

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08 Mar 2019 ·

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08 Mar 2019 ·

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John T
08 Mar 2019 ·

👏Use 👏 more 👏 comments 👏 in 👏 your 👏 code! 👏 (Also make proper time for breaks and time out)

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08 Mar 2019 ·

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Tim S
08 Mar 2019 ·

John T it seems lik 90% of my code is comments. Not really but in some parts each like is commented.

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3 Tim S
07 Mar 2019 ·
Have got to stop my anxiety getting in the way on me hanging out with friends. Just so hard as the thought makes my heart race.
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07 Mar 2019 ·

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