Parents only want the best for you, helps their egos to see you succeed. I can relate
Maria, I know. It just does not help when you are constantly yelled at because you 'could be doing so much more with your life.'
It seems now like the only reason I am going back is because I have built a life there, and I have a friend that gets what I am going through (also I like them but that is another matter),
If you are able to, try making a list and aim to tick off a couple items a day. Even if they are the tiniest things. Include getting out of bed, having a shower or even cleaning the dishes :)
progress, then I realize I was just hiding my problems. This is now my drive, I can not live like this, but I can not end it all. I can not put my friends and family through that.
I have seen how it effects people and my dad has said he felt like he lost me already (when I moved to NZ). Just one more week till I am home and will get help, just one more week.
self, allowing it to happen. And only looking back I realized what accutaly happened, and how bad it was.
Yeah, in some of my beginning to get better I decided to look on my diary I wrote few years back and I was somehow s*scared of this what I wrote there (just cuz I wrote it without a fear) Ive read it dying with fear, this took me few weeks,
as well with calming myself and telling myself to keep going. well, i survived it, and i felt better to see that i was 'fearless' and that was really me. that was interesting experience ;)
Ann, I am not expecting, but still expecting (if that makes sense) my past to help me latter. I am also seeing it help me now, as it is one of the reasons I am seeking help, however it is scary as I dont want to fall back that low again.
Being away from home has been nice, but I am ready to go home. I am starting to fall in my old traps and feel like I am shutting down again.
All is well Tim S. I had fears that choked me, took me years to solve it. The things I thought I'd die to speak about - I do today. Don't rush and look for a support or learning that you feel is good, do what is best for you. Hugs.
done. Made me wonder if i made the right choice. I know I did, but still regretting how I did things