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1 Tim S
53m ·
Another midnight, it seems like this is a regular thing now, this time thinking I am missing something in my life
Jen B
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2 Tim S
2h ·
Just feeling down, like I have done something wrong with my life, thoughts of ending all this bull have been coming more frequently.
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4 Tim S
9h ·
6 more days until I head home, can't wait till I see some of my friends.
Anna D
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Split P
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Ann J
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4 Tim S
15h ·
Woke up after a decent night sleep, but am still tired and can't help the feeling that both parents think I am a disgrace.
Kenzie E
14h · NEW

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Leah N
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Maria K
12h ·

Parents only want the best for you, helps their egos to see you succeed. I can relate

Tim S
9h ·

Maria, I know. It just does not help when you are constantly yelled at because you 'could be doing so much more with your life.'

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2 Tim S
1d ·
Everything is just piling on today, my mom is now messing me wondering if I am going back. Like I recked my relationship with my dad to move, and she is wondering if I want to stay with him?
Tim S
1d ·

It seems now like the only reason I am going back is because I have built a life there, and I have a friend that gets what I am going through (also I like them but that is another matter),

C J
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Ann J
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2 Tim S
1d ·
my dad has started making more and more comments trying to guilt trip me about moving to NZ. Also, everything is feeling like a personal attack (I know it is not).
Jen M
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Lydia R
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4 Tim S
1d ·
Been a fairly ok day, feel exhausted even tho I have not done much. Hopefully, I sleep well tonight.
Joseph F
1d · NEW

If you are able to, try making a list and aim to tick off a couple items a day. Even if they are the tiniest things. Include getting out of bed, having a shower or even cleaning the dishes :)

Ann J
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0 Tim S
2d ·
Another Midnight. Knife by my side (which has become common now) contemplating my existence. Feeling like $h*t as it feels like I am back where I was 3 years ago. I thought I was making really good
Tim S
2d ·

progress, then I realize I was just hiding my problems. This is now my drive, I can not live like this, but I can not end it all. I can not put my friends and family through that.

Tim S
2d ·

I have seen how it effects people and my dad has said he felt like he lost me already (when I moved to NZ). Just one more week till I am home and will get help, just one more week.

Rob W
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4 Tim S
2d ·
Went to 'The Show That Goes Wrong' today, was extremely funny. But still can't stop thinking about one of my friends, who I have not heard from in a while and I am one to think the worst.
Bipolar Bear .
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3 Tim S
3d ·
Woke up after a nice long sleep (yay), had breakfast, then had a panic attack. What a way to start the day.
me M
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1 Tim S
3d ·
Up until Midnight again, worrying about things that are probably fine.
Jen B
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Ann J
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1 Tim S
3d ·
It looks like many of us (if not all), have had passed experiences that have been difficult for us to look back upon. Personally looking back made things worse as I realized that I was lying to my
Tim S
3d ·

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Tim S
3d ·

self, allowing it to happen. And only looking back I realized what accutaly happened, and how bad it was.

Ann J
3d ·

Yeah, in some of my beginning to get better I decided to look on my diary I wrote few years back and I was somehow s*scared of this what I wrote there (just cuz I wrote it without a fear) Ive read it dying with fear, this took me few weeks,

Ann J
3d ·

as well with calming myself and telling myself to keep going. well, i survived it, and i felt better to see that i was 'fearless' and that was really me. that was interesting experience ;)

Tim S
3d ·

Ann, I am not expecting, but still expecting (if that makes sense) my past to help me latter. I am also seeing it help me now, as it is one of the reasons I am seeking help, however it is scary as I dont want to fall back that low again.

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3 Tim S
3d ·
I haven't really known for the past few days.
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1 Tim S
4d ·
Another midnight really got to stop doing this to my self.
tEnT S
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Erin F
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Ann J
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2 Tim S
4d ·
Anxiety attacks are getting more frequent. Feels like I am losing all my progress I have made in the past 2 years, but think it is just because I buried a lot that has started surfacing again.
tEnT S
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Erin F
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Ann J
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3 Tim S
4d ·
So many feelings, so much I want to say, so much I am scared to say (due to past experiences), and so much I can not say.
Tim S
4d ·

Being away from home has been nice, but I am ready to go home. I am starting to fall in my old traps and feel like I am shutting down again.

Erin F
4d ·

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Ann J
4d ·

All is well Tim S. I had fears that choked me, took me years to solve it. The things I thought I'd die to speak about - I do today. Don't rush and look for a support or learning that you feel is good, do what is best for you. Hugs.

Tim S
3d ·

Thanks Ann

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2 Tim S
5d ·
Another midnight... I really should try sleep
Bipolar Bear .
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3 Tim S
5d ·
Feeling like most of my desitions have been wrong. Trying to focus on the positives outcomes of these desitions, but can't help wanting to curl up in a ball for a really long time.
Bipolar Bear .
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3 Tim S
5d ·
Coming back from working with my dad, He started talking about me moving to New Zeland. He said how he felt was similar to losing a child. and comments were made about all the bad things my mom has
Tim S
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Tim S
5d ·

done. Made me wonder if i made the right choice. I know I did, but still regretting how I did things

Robert H
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6 Tim S
6d ·
Going to a worksite with my dad for an inspection of the site. will be neat to see what my dad does on site. Managed to go to sleep before midnight so I am feeling optimistic.
Ann J
6d ·

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