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 1(5) We didn't end the year well ? haven't spoken to each other yet today.2(5) Visited grandmother yestday. She isn't very happy with her new home. I'm trying to distance myself from the whole situation. Bf and I talked last night. Today everyone is going to work so I'm on my3No Reasons4(5) My sister could Lode her baby. She's emotional and sad. It would be the second time of it happens. I hope little Julleke survives.5No Reasons6(7) Ready to go to the AirPort. Haven't had stress yet, which is good. But it'll start soon. I have travel sickness. And that stresses me out. I also go to the toilet a lot normally, so that will stress..
7(8) Spoke with my bf about my idea to do something for my birthday. Never done that in the past. I think I might invite my bf's parents, brother, my sister and parents and two friends, at my parents home.8(10) So tomorrow we're gonna choose a ring for me because my boyfriend proposed this evening. But good as he is, he wants to choose the ring together. What a vacation. Can't really believe it yet. ??9(10) So yesterday he said he did want to spend more than a specific amount of money on a ring, which I understood. Well today he bought me a ring. Almost double that amount. We said we would use this ring
(10) We made an evening walk in the snow, got ourselfs a good ice scream. We've been eating unhealthy this vacation, again ?
10No Reasons11(9) We drove to this lake to make pictures for our engagement announcement on Instagram. I think we have a few good ones. For now only a friend of J knows and my ? friends. When we're back home we'll12(8) Today was our last full day on vacation. We went karting and shooting. Tomorrow at 9am we have to be at the airport. In the afternoon/evening we go to the hospital to visit my sister. We hope both13(7) Back home. Tomorrow I have a solicitation for that administrative job with the police.
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28No Reasons29(8) Yesterday i recieved an e-mail for a job interview this morning. It went well for my feeling.30(6) Operation on my salivary gland tomorrow.31(6) So apparently my operation is planned at 17.40. And in'm not aloud to eat or drink anything.
    1(6) Little update for those who want to know. Surgery started earlier, but it too longer than expected. They say it went okay. Had something to drink and eat and I'm not sick so far. With my first two2(6) Doctor asked to stay a night longer in the hospital so I did. Now I'm back home. I expected the pain to be worse, so that's good I think.3(6) Thanks for all the support
4No Reasons5No Reasons6(5) After my operation i thouhgt it was normal not to feel very excited. But last few day I expected it to be better. I don't feel happy or excited about anything... not feeling good about this.7(5) So I shared last night, I'm not feeling well mentally. So this morning I did my nails nicely. After 8 days I decided to wash my hair. I wanted to wait till tomorrow, I have an appointment with the8(5) And then they basically say that you had, maybe still have cancer living inside of you.9No Reasons10(4) Lying awake. Thinking ' will it be okay or will it not be okay?' Although I'm pretty sure they'll tell me it's all good the way it is. Still I'm thinking 'what if they say it's not okay' wish it was
11No Reasons12(5) Didn't sleep so well13No Reasons14(5) Went to bed early. Woke up after 1 or 2 hours and nog i van't sleep anymore. Thinking about friday.
(5) My fiance always worked more than 40 hours a week, i find that okay. But lately there's more work and he's werking even more. On days he's home he still works. And he gets more than 5 to 10 calls from
15(2) Not okay
(2) Hospitaal appointment. Waiting for over an hour. Not feeling good today.
(2) I'm such a mess today. Went all wrong with my fiancé last night. And have to wait 6 more weeks for the results if I still have cancer or not.
(1) Wish I still had medication like Solian.
16(5) We cancelled our 'save the date' order last night. Bc with the cancer thing, we're not sure if it can happen on the day we first wanted. Today is a better day than yesterday.17No Reasons
18(7) 19(6) The past few days have been okay. I was 'busy' so i wasn't thinkinking much. I do need a job tho..20No Reasons21No Reasons22No Reasons23No Reasons24No Reasons
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