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January
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February
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March
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April
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May
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June
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August
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 1No Reasons2No Reasons3No Reasons4No Reasons5(2) When will the screaming end on its own and not with the help of valium
(7) A simple conversation can be all it takes
6(6) Meh.... My consistent mood atm when it isn't dipping
7(5) Meh.8(3) I just want to scream and cry and punch things
(6) Feeling calmer through meditation
9(6) Shit morning led to a calmer afternoon with smiles
(7) Therapy is a godsend
10No Reasons11No Reasons12(5) Meh.... Excited to go on holiday, nervous to fly, happy to have spoken to her and found more hope, sad that we are still not together. Life is hard sometimes
(3) When a seven year old asks you what happened to your relationship and you can't answer and then a 5 year old chimes in to tell you that your ex was good. How do you deal with those emotions?
13(3) Going on holiday so I should be happy but all I am is aware that she isn't here to share this with or at least come home to. I could cry
14(3) On holiday loving being here but I still can't actually cheer myself up15No Reasons16No Reasons17(5) Tomorrow she takes all of her stuff out of the database. This is it. It's officially over. I just have to get through this low time18No Reasons19(2) She moved her stuff out yesterday and I wouldn't hug her or anything. I told her she hurt me. I was cold. Now I feel terrible and I just want to sleep for a month20(2) Feel angry that I have been left to deal with the flat when I didn't choose this situation in the first place
(1) I feel like I could throw a brick through her fucking window. Why has she left me like this
(4) When will I be able to calm myself down without drugs?
(5) The calm after the storm... Thank God for friends and family
21(4) I wish this could all be over... Instead I just live in this permanent state of hoping she'll come back
(4) It's hard every day. It's hard when other people aren't convinced she will come back. They don't know her it's unfair for them to fill my head with doubts. I need to get other people's thoughts out
22(3) Woken up with the weight of the world on my shoulders
(3) Crippling fear at the thought of her never coming back...
(2) I'm so scared. I love her too much
(4) Tears and numbness
23(5) Work thankfully helps to even out my moods these days. But I still can't manage to get myself properly on an up
(5) Work is a good distraction but I still feel utterly lost when it springs back in my head and I feel so scared of going home
(5) Any tips for lifting moods?
(1) My therapist got her dates wrong so I had to come home and cried the whole hour journey
24(4) Numb from crying yesterday but there is a growing sensation of sadness within me
(3) Being made to have the radio on at my desk every day is really making it hard to not feel sad and reminded
25(3) Lump in my throat all day just holding it together but the second I'm on my way home I just cry. It's so tiring26(6) A day of walking in the countryside with good friends was exactly what I needed to finally boost me into the green. Even if only just
(3) And back down again ?
27(3) I miss her
(1) I have been crying all day...
(5) Thank God for good books... And this site and the support it provides. Such small interactions can really make a huge difference
28(1) Absolutely crap start to a day. Wake up... Crying within an hour and now I have to go spend the day with my parents
(7) A bank holiday day to a museum to finally lift my spirits. The first green day in a long time
29(5)
(4) I feel frustrated even after yoga
30(4) Feeling sad and impatient
(3) Someone is interested in the flat but it is making me feel really sad
31No Reasons
September
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    1(5) 2(4) On holiday visiting family and I want to cry
(2) 4 year old nephew asked today don't you belong at home with your girlfriend.... Kids are the sweetest but sometimes their innocence really hurts ?
3No Reasons
4(3) Woke up sad
(6)
5(5) Numb
(4) Fear and sadness
6(3) Bad dreams
(1) I want to curl up in a ball under my desk
(6) I don't have to lose everything... Thank God for therapists
7(2) Cannot stop crying8(4) Holding it together for company but screaming on the inside. I'm tired of feeling like this9(4) Waking up and just knowing I'm going to cry today10(5) Running on empty really in regards to emotions. I have no energy to feel anything right now
(1) Tears tears tears
11(6) A happy day12(5) Somewhere in the middle today. I need to try and lift my spirits as I did yesterday. It was my first time green day in weeks and it felt so good13(2) I feel panicked and lonely
(6) Love a good therapy revelation to give me clarity on why I am where I am
(6) Any pandas have any help or suggestions on dealing with a very depressed partner (technically ex)?
14(6) Woke up in a good mood. Maybe my situation isn't as I first saw it. It's good to get a different perspective15(3) Feeling unsupported16(4) Nervous
(1) Lonely and in pain
17(5) Weird feeling day but not necessarily down
(3) Lonely. Nighttime is the worst time of day
18(1) Not felt this bad in weeks. I feel helpless and isolated19(5) Trying hard to stay strong today
(4) Worried I will dip again when I get home tonight
(6) Full of fear and uncertainty but for once I have a smile on my face and that's a bug thing
20(4) Trying to fight the dip in mood and need to analyse my current situation
(7) New moon new sense of calm
21(7) Found a forum, depression fallout, which has helped boost my spirits massively. I still feel crap but I no longer feel alone and this has given me new strength
(5) Feel the evening dip coming but determined to not let it take me so hard again
22(5)
(7) A nice evening with a good friend is one of the most mood boosting things to give you new strength to continue tackling the long road ahead
23(6) Feeling stronger
(6) Time with a friend is time well spent
24(4) Not well and wishing I wasn't alone dealing with it
(3)
(6) Lovely family afternoon, you don't get to pick your family but I got some good ones nearby
25(5) Meh day, keeping busy but feeling sad and drained26No Reasons27(5) Just holding my shit together this week. Other peoples actions can be so damaging
(2) Pure fear has filled my heart
28(1) Feel helpless and deserted by the one person I truly love
(6) New found strength to continue on this path I have chosen
29(3) Sad30(6) Much happier now than I have been all week
October
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      1(2) Good moods can only last so long. I feel very very lonely
2(5) Probably going to cry when I get home
(2) I cried on the train ffs
3(4) Mornings are so tough
(5) This morning hurt like many others but not quite as much and that is an achievement
(6) Trying not to get my hopes up too much but feeling positive
4(6) Wary of the things that have raised my mood but allowing myself to embrace it just a little bit
(5) So much confusion
5(5) Nervous and uncertain6(3) Lonely and pining
(6) Driving myself crazy with hope!
7(5) Impatient8(3) Freaking out and feeling helpless
(6) And we're back up to that positive mood with a sheer cliff drop on one side if things go tits up. My mind literally can't switch off!
9(2) 10(5) Struggling to stay positive and am mostly filled with anxiety and fear11(4)
(6) Thank God for my weekly therapy boost
12(4) Trying so hard not to dip13(1) Managed to get dumped twice by the same person in 4 months14(1) I know it will get better but that doesn't make right now feel OK.15(3) How do you move on is the real question now
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16(2) Couldn't go to work
(6) Good friends can remedy most pains for a while
17(4) The pain has been dulled by good friends.... But fuck my life is literally from my nightmares right now18(2) I fucking hate the mornings
(6) Spirits lifted by good friends. I just wish I could wake up in this mood
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(2) An awful day
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