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January
MTWTFSS
      1(6) So awkward and alien at times. Hate anxiety in my own home with my own family.
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(6) Wee bit anxious tonight shame after a good couple of days. Damn anxiety recovery is slow.
6(7) Fatigue, aches and pains, think this is cold related not anxiety. Very tired.
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9(6) Overmelmingly tired. Feel a bit sick. Today I increase my anti depressant dose.
(5) Tired and anxious, feel like flu but not. Had a heavy night drinking Friday still feeling the hangover mixed with anxiety probably.
(6) tired but good 6. bit foggy
(7) Long day at work bit of brain fog, but feel quite nicely mellowed.
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(7) If I wasn't so tired of be an 8
(7) Very tired, slightly anxious/weird feeling.
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(6) Not great not awful. Anxiety and mood dip.
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(8) Played football feel good.
12(8) Head tension but very positive.
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(6) Tired and hard to concentrate
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(6) Felt very surreal tonight. Think it's just anxiety still. Horrible when you feel so alien.
13(6) Overwhelmingly tired and yucky. Adjusting to new anti depressant dose .
(6) Foggy head
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14(7) Feeling optimistic
(7) Feeling good and pretty grounded.
(6) Some anxiety and head tension but coping ok x
(6) Some anxiety, shaky
(5) Anxiety spike
(4) Wow! Anxiety attack is very powerful haven't had one of these for a while.
(6) Think that's over
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(8) Got a bit of mojo back
(8) Feeling ok, still off, weird head block and vision off but getting there!
(8) Feeling pretty close to normal.
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16(7) Tired but calm
(6) fatigue, moody, low mood, grumpy. #anxiety
(5) having a shitty, tired, withdrawn, brain fogged day today, feel like shit
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(6) Long nap very much needed. Now wide awake. Lol
17(5) Feel like shit, flu like symptoms and fatigue.
(6) Tired, clumsy, forgetful, moody.
(6) little bit of relief, bit more focused, still well off the charts of normality.
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(5) Anxiety and horrible do tonight.
18(6) Perked up a little. It's normal to feel so shitty apparently when increasing dose of anti depressant. Looking forward to better days.
(5) Still feeling shitty
(6) Head pressure and fog, on edge, weight on my sholders.
(7) A little relief tonight and looking after my princess so this is really positive.
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(6) If I could rate as a 6.5 I would.
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(7) Bit better.
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(5) Morning anxiety, dead head, scared
(4) Anxiety attack
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(8) Really appreciated music for the first time in years this morning omg breakthrough moment. Still jittery as fuck but that has to be a positive. Nearly cried.
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(8) Tired but a mind.
(8) Watched a whole football match with interest. Positives.
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(7) A little tense, mind a bit blank
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(6) Brain fog
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(6) Mood low and foggy. Just not me.
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(7) OK but bit meh blank flat
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(8) Feel like I'm well on my way to recovery now, just a matter of time. Symptoms are still here but they don't consume me.
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(8) Naturally tired x
(7) Mood dropped a little and very tired now x
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30(9) Sore throat, tired but normal. Woohoo
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(7) Little bit of anxiety creeping in. Very tired today need a nap.
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(7) Odd feeling, tired but wired.
31(7) Could be better, doubts, aches, fatigue, odd
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February
MTWTFSS
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(8) Feeling very chilled close to a 9
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(7) Testing anxiety a trip to dentist with my daughter.
(7) Little bit of anxiety now, some doubts creeping in. Rest time.
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(5) Anxiety wave
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4(5) Exhausted after blip last night.
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(6) Not great, not terrible.
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(7) Not normal but not too bad.
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(4) Anxiety attack, DP
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6(6) Tired, anxious and low mood.
(5) Going through quite an anxious period
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(5) Had to leave work early. Not a good day, worst in sometime. I am still adjusting to my new dose and the worse I feel now the better I will be on the other side. Staying positive.
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(6) Not great, adjusting.
(6) apprehensive and hyper awareness of yesterdays blip. Hoping to be back on track soon.
(7) Tired but not anxious. Hard day's work.
8(5) Anxious this morning.
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(4) Feel fucking horrible.
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(6) A little better I think.
(6) Mood better
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(7) Starting to overcome a blip I think.
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(7) A little better but a little on edge, hyper, sped up.
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11(8) Had a lovely night out with friends.
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(7) Don't feel bad but definitely not right. Keep swimming.
(4) Heavy feelings of unreality. Loss of self. Fear. Want to cry. Where's my life? My old life?
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(6) A little more connected. A bit monged out.
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13(7) Little bit of morning anxiety and analysing but not bad x
(6) Anxious, shaky, weird thoughts.
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(8) Bit of a stutter going on but not too bad at all.
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(7) Very tired but feeling a little more positive. Hopefully normal is on its way. I know how that feels so fuck off with your what is normal ballshit.
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(7) Sudden fatigue, football tonight, been a busy week.
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16(9) Don't feel too far away from normal tonight.
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(7) Feeling very tired and sore throat today, affecting mood and cognitive anxiety.
(7) little bit of brain fog #anxiety
(6) Really struggling today
(7) Not bad
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18(7) Got a cold and some head tension but otherwise I don't feel bad. Tired as usual. Lazy day today.
(8) Despite a cold, feeling really stable.
(6) Not too bad. Feel different but not anxious, god knows how I really feel. I have a cold so not helping.
(6) Brain fog and eye floaters #anxiety again. Does it ever leave?
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(6) So tired feel monged out. Still got horrible cold. Got to work though. Could sleep all day!
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21(6) Very tired and achy but not bad.
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22(7) Little edgy but mentally more at ease. Little anxiety in and around chest.
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24(7) Tired, relationship problems.
(6) Could be better. Mood dipped, feeling tired.
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25(6) Tired
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(6) Daddy and daughter day.
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(6) Exhausted again! Can keep awake
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(6) Here comes the rush of fatigue again.
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28(7) Tired bit zoned out.
(7) Stress, tension but could be worse.
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(7) Very tired, coping ok with looking after daughter on own.
March
MTWTFSS
  1(6) Morning anxiety and can't get out of bed, so tired.
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2(5) Feel tired and feel moody, morning anxiety.
(6) Fatigue but ok
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4(9) Great night with great friends
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(7) Tired, not quite right.
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6(7) Argument with N again, she is very complicated and difficult to please but relatively normal feeling weekend. Very tired this morning.
(6) Tired
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8(7) Tired. Giving football a miss tonight. Restore.
(6) Little dip, must rest now.
(6) Little dip with some tension pain and low mood and motivation.
9(6) Exhausted again!10(6) Tired and achey
(6) Tiredness a little better, apprehension now.
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(6) Anxiety
(6) Socialising ok but feel off and head tension is painful and offputting, vision feels weird. Just a blip day x
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(6) If my eyes weren't hurting and i didn't have tension in my head is be a 7.
13(6) Feel rubbish this morning and emotional.
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(5) Could feel worse but feel exposed and empty. Waiting for it to pass.
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14(6) Dread feeling and head tension trying to accept it. Shallow breathing. It will get better.
(6) Little better 6.5 if i could.
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(7) Little better, hoping for some progress soon.
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(6) Feeling weird tonight don't know if it's a good feeling or bad but it's weird.
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16(7) Fairly stable this morning.
(6) 6.5 some anxiety symptoms
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(6) Brain fog, moody, tired, not myself at all.
(7) BBB rain fog reduced after a little lie down and rest
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(6) Feeling edgy and tense and nervous for no reason at all.
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(7) Up and down day, things are changing but difficult to work out for good or for bad. Still struggling with high anxiety symptoms. Just keep swimming.
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(7) Some head tension but handled social interactions well today despite feeling slightly monged out. #anxiety
20(6) Monday tiredness, some anxiety but not too bad.
(7) 6.5 flu like anxiety symptoms but not terrible.
(5) Having a dip, which was already a half dip. Feel like I'm going backwards.
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(4) Severe tension in head, morning anxiety, withdrawn and feel horrid.
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(7) Starting to feel much better, thank god.
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(6) Low mood feels out of character, don't know how to react, anxiety.
(5) Some dp feelings and low mood, hard to snap out of.
24(6) Feel odd today, slept too much last night i think... Tired and zoned out this morning, some anxiety as usual.
(7) Little better..
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25(6) Feel ok, quite edgy and strange but not terrible. That's ok for now.
(5) Feel different, anxiety quite high now.
(5) Anxiety attack, waiting for it to pass.
(5) Not myself again, anxiety feels like brain damage today. Can't think straight. Polar opposite to last night.
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(5) Tough day today, felt like the severe anxiety of old complete brain block, depersonalisation, brain fog, cognitive function zero. Calming down tonight i think.
26(6) Hoping for a better day
(6) Ok, anxiety still present but coping.
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(8) Much more human this afternoon.
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28(7) Tired and affecting mood and doubt but pushing on. Coping ok.
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(7) Low 7
(6) If I wasn't so tired I'd be a 7. Doing more things and managing to keep numbers fairly stable.
29(6) Exhausted and low mood.
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(7) Doing ok feel a little weird tonight, don't know if weird is a good or bad weird.
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April
MTWTFSS
     1(6) Apprehensive and very tired.
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(6) morning anxiety... normally improve after lunch.
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(7) Tired and a bit moody. Looking forward to a little rest tonight.
(5) Sudden and extreme fatigue.
4(5) Morning anxiety, extremely tired, struggling to get up.
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(5) Bit weird tonight.
5(6) Daughter's birthday, anxiety is high, trying to enjoy the moment but feel weird and not myself.
(5) Having a little blip last night and today. But that's ok, let's let it pass.
(7) Anxiety finally settled and had a nice meal for my daughter's birthday.
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(7) very busy 13 hour day, handled well.
7(7) Good 7
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(7) Getting used to new feelings. Feel a bit off but don't know what it is.
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8(5) Morning anxiety
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(6) Feeling off as usual but have been getting on with things despite. X
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(6) Feel flat and emotionless.
9(6) Off to the zoo today but have morning anxiety. Hope i can just let go and enjoy.
(7) It's a 7 kinda day.
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10(7) okish 7
(6) Tired, tension in head, down, drained.
11(5) Morning anxiety.
(6) Could be worse.
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(7) Out walking dog, not perfect, vision feels weird and brain feels blocked but I've felt worse.
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(5) Anxiety and brain fog building, mood lowering, fatigue starting.
(6) Just a blip I think seems to be passing now......
13(6) Mood low, pains in head, everything feels a chore. Drained....
(5) full anxiety retard mode today! cant think or feel anything.
(5) Worse day I've had in a while. Feel like dog shit.
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(7) Symptoms but better than yesterday
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(7) Tired.
16(7) Tired and zoned but otherwise ok.
(7) Had some people over to stay and coped well. Very tired now and looking after poorly wife.
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17(6) Tension and fatigue
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(6) Brain fog lifting, mood lifting.
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(6) Tension pains in head still sore.
(5) Been a pretty tough day, tired, zoned out and drained.
(5) Been a pretty tough day, tired, zoned out and drained.
(5) Been a pretty tough day, tired, zoned out and drained.
(5) Been a pretty tough day, tired, zoned out and drained.
(5) Been a pretty tough day, tired, zoned out and drained.
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19(7) Feel sick but generally not bad. Feeling of fatigue but had a late but good night on Xbox.
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(7) Good 7. Something still off.
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21(7) Good 7, good progress.
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23(7) Good 7.
(6) Little mood dip and fatigue today. 6.5
(6) Some brain fog emotional detachment
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24(6) Exhausted, irritable and lack of motivation. Will try some meditation tonight.
(7) Minimal symptoms of mental anxiety but very very tired.
(6) Fattended by exhaustion...
25(5) Fatigue, low mood, irritable, everything a chore.
(6) Went back to rest before work, feel a little more alive now
(7) head tension (stabbing pains in head) but fatigue and mood has lifted
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26(5) Can't wake up in the morning, feel exhausted and irritable again, so tired can't function.
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27(6) Tired, grumpy, miserable. Morning anxiety but the day goes on.
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28(7) Bit meh, but saw pdoc last night and said I'm still in a transition period between feeling ill and getting better. I'm coping well he said and pushing on.
(7) bit of brain fog and tension but cracking on!
29(6) Some morning anxiety symptoms but should pass soon.
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(7) Doing a boot sale, coping well!
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May
MTWTFSS
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(6) Some foggy head and head tension today. Delayed reaction to yesterday's events events no doubt. Still, off to the cinema for an afternoon with wife and daughter. Fatigue to be expected.
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3(6) Anxiety shape shifting, tight chest and breathless this morning, yawning for air! I've felt this before, I know what it is but it's uncomfortable.
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(6) Rough morning!
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(5) Not a good day anxiety wise. I've felt down all day and tonight I feel very depersonalised. Made it to football but didn't help. It's hard to stay positive on days like this.
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(6) More positive this morning despite feeling breathless. More meditation and sleep tonight. Got to find he right balance between work and play its so hard to tell when I'm about to crash.
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(7) Some nervousness about weekend away but looking forward to break
5(7) Not good not bad 6.5 if I could off for a weekend away. Hoping it's more rest than play.
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(6) Had some nasty DP on the way down to weekend away, felt very detached. Seem to be easing into it now, hopefully things will improve, nice day of fishing tomorrow. Night pandas.
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(6) Anxiety has kept mood low and feelings numb today.
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7(7) Decent end to a tough day anxiety wise.
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(6) New feelings. New anxiety feelings. Just doesn't feel right. It's not awful but it's not me.
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(7) Stabbing pain in head but mood/anxiety not bad.
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9(7) Not bad
(6) 6.5, stabbing pains in head and fatigue drugged feeling.... #gad
(5) Feeling shittier than usual this afternoon
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(6) 6.5 slowly recovering from a huge dip. bring on the 8s please
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11(7) Bit of dead head but ok
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12(6) Morning anxiety and tension
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(8) Looking after Lacey and very calm, not perfect but it's improvement.
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14(7) Doing OK.
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(6) After a fairly decent weekend comes the anxiety fatigue. It seems my brain has to work hard to feel normal, it's growing in strength but boy its tiring.
(7) A little tension but fears of a total meltdown tonight have reduced somewhat. Bit of Xbox and bed I think.
15(6) Struggling with severe fatigue again, so much so I feel drunk. I think this is mixed with feelings of anxiety too. Should pass soon.
(6) Feel tired and drugged. #anxiety
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(7) Anxiety lifting a little, phew
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(8) Shit my anxiety is fluctuating a lot lately.
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(8) Played football, pint afterwards some bonding. Felt good.
18(7) Stabbing Tension in head but mood and energy good.
(7) Not good not bad, happy with this for the moment and I am managing to do more things.
19(5) Morning anxiety
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(7) Lowish 7 not good not bad.
(6) Tired, sleepy.
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20(8) So, took anti depressants at night instead of morning plus the new addition of buspirone and have woken up with minimal morning anxiety and feel refreshed. Feeling a lot better today so far.
(7) Apprehensive but hopeful. Very aware today but mood and anxiety seem under control.
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(7) A good day. Went to London with some friends and coped really well. Some head tension and mild anxiety but things going in a better direction I think.
22(7) Positive day and night yesterday, a little late to bed I think because I'm really tired, a little head tension and recognising some rumination but nothing I can't handle.
(7) Some tension but otherwise not bad.
(6) very tired today and feel drained with some low mood and tension. shame, just when you thought you might of cracked it!
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23(7) Some morning anxiety but fairly mild, pushing on.
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(7) Barring head tension, things going in the right direction.
(7) Cleaned garage out, now chilling on Xbox.
24(7) Morning anxiety again but definitely reduction in intensity lately. Football tonight which I feel calm about.
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(6) Low mood keeping score low, some tension and on edge, some emotional numbness.
(5) Real dip this afternoon. Went football, feel worse. Brain fog, blocked head feeling, concentration zero. #gad
25(5) Morning anxiety, brain fog, forehead pressure, fear, low mood
(7) Took buspar and clonazepam up to a 7...
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(7) Good 7 mind still not settled, wiring and personality still some way off normal. I'll take this for now.
26(6) Some morning anxiety and on edge but sure it will improve.
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(6) Went to watch littlen swimming felt awkward around wife, why do I feel this way it's so weird, I don't feel the same around my family like I used to, will this fade after time? Does anyone know?
27(7) Sore Head tension and mild anxiety
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28(8) Done good at family party.
(7) Tired after late night party where I felt OK, off to see parents with littlen in toe.
(6) That was harder than expected, why I don't know. Was tired and very subdued. Didn't feel natural and my brain felt quite muffled. Anyway, done it, now for a rest.
(5) Bad end to a difficult day #anxiety #numb
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