6.5 avg
  413 days
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January
MTWTFSS
      1(6) So awkward and alien at times. Hate anxiety in my own home with my own family.
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(6) Wee bit anxious tonight shame after a good couple of days. Damn anxiety recovery is slow.
6(7) Fatigue, aches and pains, think this is cold related not anxiety. Very tired.
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9(6) Overmelmingly tired. Feel a bit sick. Today I increase my anti depressant dose.
(5) Tired and anxious, feel like flu but not. Had a heavy night drinking Friday still feeling the hangover mixed with anxiety probably.
(6) tired but good 6. bit foggy
(7) Long day at work bit of brain fog, but feel quite nicely mellowed.
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(7) If I wasn't so tired of be an 8
(7) Very tired, slightly anxious/weird feeling.
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(6) Not great not awful. Anxiety and mood dip.
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(8) Played football feel good.
12(8) Head tension but very positive.
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(6) Tired and hard to concentrate
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(6) Felt very surreal tonight. Think it's just anxiety still. Horrible when you feel so alien.
13(6) Overwhelmingly tired and yucky. Adjusting to new anti depressant dose .
(6) Foggy head
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14(7) Feeling optimistic
(7) Feeling good and pretty grounded.
(6) Some anxiety and head tension but coping ok x
(6) Some anxiety, shaky
(5) Anxiety spike
(4) Wow! Anxiety attack is very powerful haven't had one of these for a while.
(6) Think that's over
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(8) Got a bit of mojo back
(8) Feeling ok, still off, weird head block and vision off but getting there!
(8) Feeling pretty close to normal.
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16(7) Tired but calm
(6) fatigue, moody, low mood, grumpy. #anxiety
(5) having a shitty, tired, withdrawn, brain fogged day today, feel like shit
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(6) Long nap very much needed. Now wide awake. Lol
17(5) Feel like shit, flu like symptoms and fatigue.
(6) Tired, clumsy, forgetful, moody.
(6) little bit of relief, bit more focused, still well off the charts of normality.
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(5) Anxiety and horrible do tonight.
18(6) Perked up a little. It's normal to feel so shitty apparently when increasing dose of anti depressant. Looking forward to better days.
(5) Still feeling shitty
(6) Head pressure and fog, on edge, weight on my sholders.
(7) A little relief tonight and looking after my princess so this is really positive.
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(6) If I could rate as a 6.5 I would.
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(7) Bit better.
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(5) Morning anxiety, dead head, scared
(4) Anxiety attack
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(8) Really appreciated music for the first time in years this morning omg breakthrough moment. Still jittery as fuck but that has to be a positive. Nearly cried.
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(8) Tired but a mind.
(8) Watched a whole football match with interest. Positives.
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(7) A little tense, mind a bit blank
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(6) Brain fog
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(6) Mood low and foggy. Just not me.
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(7) OK but bit meh blank flat
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(8) Feel like I'm well on my way to recovery now, just a matter of time. Symptoms are still here but they don't consume me.
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(8) Naturally tired x
(7) Mood dropped a little and very tired now x
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30(9) Sore throat, tired but normal. Woohoo
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(7) Little bit of anxiety creeping in. Very tired today need a nap.
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(7) Odd feeling, tired but wired.
31(7) Could be better, doubts, aches, fatigue, odd
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February
MTWTFSS
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(8) Feeling very chilled close to a 9
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(7) Testing anxiety a trip to dentist with my daughter.
(7) Little bit of anxiety now, some doubts creeping in. Rest time.
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(5) Anxiety wave
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4(5) Exhausted after blip last night.
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(6) Not great, not terrible.
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(7) Not normal but not too bad.
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(4) Anxiety attack, DP
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6(6) Tired, anxious and low mood.
(5) Going through quite an anxious period
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(5) Had to leave work early. Not a good day, worst in sometime. I am still adjusting to my new dose and the worse I feel now the better I will be on the other side. Staying positive.
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(6) Not great, adjusting.
(6) apprehensive and hyper awareness of yesterdays blip. Hoping to be back on track soon.
(7) Tired but not anxious. Hard day's work.
8(5) Anxious this morning.
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(4) Feel fucking horrible.
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(6) A little better I think.
(6) Mood better
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(7) Starting to overcome a blip I think.
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(7) A little better but a little on edge, hyper, sped up.
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11(8) Had a lovely night out with friends.
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(7) Don't feel bad but definitely not right. Keep swimming.
(4) Heavy feelings of unreality. Loss of self. Fear. Want to cry. Where's my life? My old life?
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(6) A little more connected. A bit monged out.
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13(7) Little bit of morning anxiety and analysing but not bad x
(6) Anxious, shaky, weird thoughts.
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(8) Bit of a stutter going on but not too bad at all.
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(7) Very tired but feeling a little more positive. Hopefully normal is on its way. I know how that feels so fuck off with your what is normal ballshit.
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(7) Sudden fatigue, football tonight, been a busy week.
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16(9) Don't feel too far away from normal tonight.
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(7) Feeling very tired and sore throat today, affecting mood and cognitive anxiety.
(7) little bit of brain fog #anxiety
(6) Really struggling today
(7) Not bad
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18(7) Got a cold and some head tension but otherwise I don't feel bad. Tired as usual. Lazy day today.
(8) Despite a cold, feeling really stable.
(6) Not too bad. Feel different but not anxious, god knows how I really feel. I have a cold so not helping.
(6) Brain fog and eye floaters #anxiety again. Does it ever leave?
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(6) So tired feel monged out. Still got horrible cold. Got to work though. Could sleep all day!
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21(6) Very tired and achy but not bad.
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(7) Bit of brain fog tonight...
22(7) Little edgy but mentally more at ease. Little anxiety in and around chest.
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24(7) Tired, relationship problems.
(6) Could be better. Mood dipped, feeling tired.
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25(6) Tired
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(6) Daddy and daughter day.
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(6) Exhausted again! Can keep awake
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(6) Here comes the rush of fatigue again.
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28(7) Tired bit zoned out.
(7) Stress, tension but could be worse.
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(7) Very tired, coping ok with looking after daughter on own.
March
MTWTFSS
  1(6) Morning anxiety and can't get out of bed, so tired.
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2(5) Feel tired and feel moody, morning anxiety.
(6) Fatigue but ok
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4(9) Great night with great friends
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(7) Tired, not quite right.
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6(7) Argument with N again, she is very complicated and difficult to please but relatively normal feeling weekend. Very tired this morning.
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8(7) Tired. Giving football a miss tonight. Restore.
(6) Little dip, must rest now.
(6) Little dip with some tension pain and low mood and motivation.
9(6) Exhausted again!10(6) Tired and achey
(6) Tiredness a little better, apprehension now.
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(6) Anxiety
(6) Socialising ok but feel off and head tension is painful and offputting, vision feels weird. Just a blip day x
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(6) If my eyes weren't hurting and i didn't have tension in my head is be a 7.
13(6) Feel rubbish this morning and emotional.
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(5) Could feel worse but feel exposed and empty. Waiting for it to pass.
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(6) Little better.
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14(6) Dread feeling and head tension trying to accept it. Shallow breathing. It will get better.
(6) Little better 6.5 if i could.
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(7) Little better, hoping for some progress soon.
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(6) Feeling weird tonight don't know if it's a good feeling or bad but it's weird.
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16(7) Fairly stable this morning.
(6) 6.5 some anxiety symptoms
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(6) Brain fog, moody, tired, not myself at all.
(7) BBB rain fog reduced after a little lie down and rest
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(6) Feeling edgy and tense and nervous for no reason at all.
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(7) Up and down day, things are changing but difficult to work out for good or for bad. Still struggling with high anxiety symptoms. Just keep swimming.
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(7) Some head tension but handled social interactions well today despite feeling slightly monged out. #anxiety
20(6) Monday tiredness, some anxiety but not too bad.
(7) 6.5 flu like anxiety symptoms but not terrible.
(5) Having a dip, which was already a half dip. Feel like I'm going backwards.
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(4) Severe tension in head, morning anxiety, withdrawn and feel horrid.
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(7) Starting to feel much better, thank god.
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(6) Low mood feels out of character, don't know how to react, anxiety.
(5) Some dp feelings and low mood, hard to snap out of.
24(6) Feel odd today, slept too much last night i think... Tired and zoned out this morning, some anxiety as usual.
(7) Little better..
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25(6) Feel ok, quite edgy and strange but not terrible. That's ok for now.
(5) Feel different, anxiety quite high now.
(5) Anxiety attack, waiting for it to pass.
(5) Not myself again, anxiety feels like brain damage today. Can't think straight. Polar opposite to last night.
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(5) Tough day today, felt like the severe anxiety of old complete brain block, depersonalisation, brain fog, cognitive function zero. Calming down tonight i think.
26(6) Hoping for a better day
(6) Ok, anxiety still present but coping.
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(8) Much more human this afternoon.
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28(7) Tired and affecting mood and doubt but pushing on. Coping ok.
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(7) Low 7
(6) If I wasn't so tired I'd be a 7. Doing more things and managing to keep numbers fairly stable.
29(6) Exhausted and low mood.
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(7) Doing ok feel a little weird tonight, don't know if weird is a good or bad weird.
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April
MTWTFSS
     1(6) Apprehensive and very tired.
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(6) morning anxiety... normally improve after lunch.
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(7) Tired and a bit moody. Looking forward to a little rest tonight.
(5) Sudden and extreme fatigue.
4(5) Morning anxiety, extremely tired, struggling to get up.
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(5) Bit weird tonight.
5(6) Daughter's birthday, anxiety is high, trying to enjoy the moment but feel weird and not myself.
(5) Having a little blip last night and today. But that's ok, let's let it pass.
(7) Anxiety finally settled and had a nice meal for my daughter's birthday.
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(7) very busy 13 hour day, handled well.
7(7) Good 7
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(7) Getting used to new feelings. Feel a bit off but don't know what it is.
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8(5) Morning anxiety
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(6) Feeling off as usual but have been getting on with things despite. X
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(6) Feel flat and emotionless.
9(6) Off to the zoo today but have morning anxiety. Hope i can just let go and enjoy.
(7) It's a 7 kinda day.
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10(7) okish 7
(6) Tired, tension in head, down, drained.
11(5) Morning anxiety.
(6) Could be worse.
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(7) Out walking dog, not perfect, vision feels weird and brain feels blocked but I've felt worse.
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(5) Anxiety and brain fog building, mood lowering, fatigue starting.
(6) Just a blip I think seems to be passing now......
13(6) Mood low, pains in head, everything feels a chore. Drained....
(5) full anxiety retard mode today! cant think or feel anything.
(5) Worse day I've had in a while. Feel like dog shit.
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(7) Symptoms but better than yesterday
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(7) Tired.
16(7) Tired and zoned but otherwise ok.
(7) Had some people over to stay and coped well. Very tired now and looking after poorly wife.
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17(6) Tension and fatigue
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(6) Brain fog lifting, mood lifting.
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(6) Tension pains in head still sore.
(5) Been a pretty tough day, tired, zoned out and drained.
(5) Been a pretty tough day, tired, zoned out and drained.
(5) Been a pretty tough day, tired, zoned out and drained.
(5) Been a pretty tough day, tired, zoned out and drained.
(5) Been a pretty tough day, tired, zoned out and drained.
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19(7) Feel sick but generally not bad. Feeling of fatigue but had a late but good night on Xbox.
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(7) Good 7. Something still off.
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21(7) Good 7, good progress.
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23(7) Good 7.
(6) Little mood dip and fatigue today. 6.5
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