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January
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 1(2) Hasn't been a bad day but I'm feeling irritable. Still not fully over the recent family drama. Got a guy messaging me and I'm not sure I want to talk to him. He saw me on Tinder and messages my2(2) Still not feeling great. Feeling like everything is my fault. I didn't get much sleep last night and haven't even had a drink or anything to eat today.
(5) Feeling tired. Trying to stay positive. Better now I'm not alone.
3(5) Feeling tired. Been pretty up and down today.4(5) Mostly okay but worried about some things.5(4) Spent all day with a friend. She's really nice but I didn't know what to say most of the time and found it very tiring. Now I'm overthinking things. I've been feeling pretty lost recently.6(5) Going back to university later today and I have mixed feelings about it.
(5) About to set off. Had a lot of mixed feelings today
(5) Back at uni. Kind of looking forward to getting back into the swing of things but also wish I'd had more time to rest first. Will start unpacking soon.
7(6) Been feeling a bit better since I started back at university. It's nice to get into more of a routine again. Saw my friends in a lecture and had a nice chat. Managed to get a work experience placement8(7) Feeling tired but counselling made me feel better about some things. Might have a nap after this lecture but need to get some work done.9(9) Feeling pretty good. Was tired and unmotivated earlier but managed to get some good work done now that I've made a start.
(5) Mostly had a good day but now I'm tired. Feel like I'm not doing enough in certain areas but it's something I can work on.
10(7) Been a bit up and down today. Mostly good but a bit stressed by difficult work and something in a lecture triggering bad memories. Starting to feel calmer now. Doing some mindfulness.11(5) Mostly okay but had some trouble with intrusive thoughts.12(7) Feeling tired13(5) Feeling tired and kind of bored
14(7) Feeling okay now that I've got some things worked out.15(7) Feeling okay but trying to plan things so that I can get everything done on time.
(7) Feeling pretty motivated. Had a productive day. Spent some time with friends.
16(3) Uni stress is building up17(9) Feeling better now the presentation is over.18(3) Feeling very anxious about uni work. Trying to calm myself down.19(7) Feeling okay but a little stressed. I have a date tomorrow.20(9) Feeling excited but kind of nervous about this date.
(9) Just got back from a date
21(4) Feeling anxious but haven't done a lot because I've been so tired. Hoping to get more done tomorrow22(5) Feeling mostly okay but a little stressed.23(5) Feeling stressed but getting stuff done
(6) Feeling better now most of my work is done. Hopefully I'll get some time to relax before bed.
24(4) A bit anxious but mostly okay. Had a pretty productive day. Maybe it's best to get some rest for now and carry on tomorrow.
(5) Trying to relax
(6) Feeling a bit better now that I've taken some time to relax.
25(7) Should probably be in bed but I've been having trouble sleeping recently. Found a nice game of mahjong to calm me down.
(5) A bit stressed but about to get some work done
(5) Got some good work done today. Did some tasks I've been putting off and started my next assignment. Feeling a little anxious but at least I'm making progress. Will chill out after meeting later.
(6) Feeling a little on edge but sure things will work out in the end.
(7) Feeling better. Will try to get an early night tonight. Should probably take time to relax this weekend but will probably end up doing at least some work.
26(7) Had a relaxing day. Felt ill earlier but better now. Got some shopping done.27(7) Had a relaxing weekend
28(6) Feeling a bit stressed but getting some work done
(7) Feeling sleepy
29(9) Feeling pretty relaxed30(7) Got some stuff done. Slept for most of the day. Waiting for a meeting to start and enjoying the sunshine.
(9) Just finished for the day. About to get something to eat
(7) Feeling okay
31(7) Relaxed. The place I'm doing work experience with finally got back to me. Got a bit of a headache but mostly okay.
February
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    1(7) Just got back from a lecture. About to eat and then get some work done
(7) Had an online talk with a relationship counsellor. I need to be more honest and maybe ask out the friend that I have a crush on.
(5) Cooking while my housemates wash up. It's weird being around them because they barely speak to me. I can deal with it for now though
(4) Feeling anxious but not entirely sure why
2(7) Feeling okay. Going to try to go swimming tomorrow for the first time in a couple of months. Might not carry on with it next year.3(7) Feeling okay. Maybe just slightly anxious about uni work but not too bad.
(7) Had a fairly relaxing day.
4(5) A little sad. I found out my crush is getting fairly serious with the person she's dating. Helped my housemate out with something. It's nice to be helpful.5(9) Had a pretty good day6(2) Felt pretty low today7(1) Worried about a friend. Having a lot of mixed emotions. Feeling like I'm a bad person.
(2) A little better but still not great.
8(5) Feeling a little better.9(7) Feeling okay. A little tired10(7) Had a bit of a rough day with things going wrong this morning. Feel like I had a good mix of relaxing and getting work done. Will try to head to bed early and hopefully get a good night's sleep.
11(2) Feeling pretty low. I've been ill over the past few days and today has been a fairly long day.
(5) Feeling mostly okay. Trying to get over this cold. Not sure how I feel about everything. Will hopefully have a clearer head tomorrow.
12(2) Feeling really upset all of a sudden.13(4) A little stressed and unhappy.14(9) Had a good day. Getting my haircut made me feel better about myself. Going on a second date in a couple of days. Uni is stressful but I'm sure I'll manage.15(9) Had a really good day so far. Hopefully I'll get some work done while I'm feeling motivated.
(6) Getting a bit annoyed but trying to stay positive.
(7) Starting to feel a little tired. Will probably stop working for the day soon. Looking forward to the date tomorrow but also kind of nervous and unsure.
16(7) Coming back from a date on the train. Feeling tired.17(7) Feeling tired but pretty calm. I think I had some kind of panic attack while me were at the cinema. I scratch my arm when I'm stressed sometimes and this time I ended up with a patch of raw skin.
(7) Mostly feeling okay
(7) Mostly feeling okay
18(4) Somehow managed to sleep all day.
(4) Hoping to get some work done but not feeling very motivated.
(2) Feeling unhappy about things that have happened in the past that still affect me now. Not really sure what to do. Contacted the university counselling service to ask for a follow-up session.
19(2) I know I'm probably not going to sleep tonight. Not sure what happened today. I'd get some work done but I'm struggling to concentrate.
(4) Going to try to get more work done.
(1) Not feeling the best. Walked around for hours trying to clear my head and get rid of some of this energy. Will take a short break and then get back to work.
(5) Finally getting some work done. A little stressed but I'm sure I'll get it done in time. Maybe later I'll take some time to fill in my diary and get some of these thoughts out of my head.
(5) Word count is okay but not sure about the quality.
20(1) Feeling so restless. Will probably go on another long walk when it isn't so late.
(4) Haven't been feeling the best today but I'm not too bad now that I've managed to distract myself. Hoping things will be better when uni starts again next week.
21(5) Feeling okay. Should probably do some last checks on that assignment before I submit it. Have a feeling I won't do very well on it.
(4) Still just not feeling right.
(1) Still feeling low. Got my assignment in though. Will try to take better care of myself tomorrow.
22(1) Still feeling terrible.
(5) Feeling a little better. Looked into private counselling and emailed a couple of people. Hopefully I'll feel less lost soon. Ready to get some sleep.
(4) Slept all day again.
23(5) Feeling better but not great. I need to sort my sleep schedule out before I start lectures again.
(5) Feeling bad because I know some people close to me are going through hard times. Watching the Markiplier charity stream is cheering me up a bit.
24(6) Things aren't great but they seem to be improving. This livestream and having people to talk to has been a good distraction.
(6) Ended up staying awake pretty much all night again. Might start off the day with a walk and then get an early night before my lectures start.
(6) Still awake. It's weird how just watching a livestream can make me feel less bored and alone.
(5) Having my first proper meal all week.
(5) Another stream to distract me. Got an email from a counsellor who should be able to give me a consultation on Tuesday. Will call the mental health service tomorrow.
25(6) Feeling a bit better after seeing my friends. Bought a couple of jumpers from the vintage shop. Not feeling the best. My thoughts move too fast to understand sometimes.26(6) Still not feeling great, but I saw a counsellor for a consultation and she understood a lot more than I expected. Booked an appointment for next week. Feeling hopeful.27(5) Had a lot of mood swings today. I keep switching to wanting to give up completely to being fairly hopeful. I can't stand being indoors and have lost my focus. Hoping to get some decent work done soon.28(5) Been feeling pretty sick and had a lot of stomach pains since last night. Mum called today and we had a nice chat. Figured she'd be upset about not hearing from me for a while but everything was fine.
March
MTWTFSS
    1(1) Sitting by the river. Walked around plenty today already with lectures and shopping but I still can't stand sitting still and staying indoors. Probably should rest because I can't stop feeling ill.
(2) Just really unsure of myself right now. I feel like I need reassurance but I'm not sure where to turn a lot of the time.
2(4) Distracted myself for a while. Planned out the week so I have a few tasks to do each day. Hopefully it'll make me a bit more productive and a bit less anxious. Feeling very confused and conflicted.
(4) Feeling better after a walk but not great. Going to try to get at least a bit of work done. I've set myself just a few things to do each day.
(6) Feeling a bit better now that I'm being productive. Looking at some potential dissertation topics. It's good to distract myself from my own thoughts for a while.
3(7) Feeling better today. Not the best, but feeling more hopeful than I have been over the past couple of weeks.
4(5) Feeling very up and down. Had a busy day with a meeting, counselling and doctors appointment all in a row. Got some answers though and at least I feel like I've achieved something.5(4) Noticed some res flags with my new therapist but I'm not sure if I'm just being paranoid. My friend was concerned and helped me to look into it but I'm not sure what to do next.6(5) Feeling kind of tired. Got up early and was motivated to do some work but my housemates are kind of disturbing me.
(5) Still tired. Wish I had more space in this house but at least it's quieter now.
(1) Feeling lost after noticing issues with my therapist and now I don't know where to go.
7(5) Had a good time with my friend during lectures. It's nice to not be alone with my thoughts all the time. Have a doctor's appointment tomorrow.
(5) Hoping my doctor's appointment tomorrow goes well. I'm trying to prepare for it as much as possible.
8(9) Feeling relieved after that doctor's appointment. I finally feel like I'm heading in the right direction. I got advised to cancel my current counselling so will email later. Feeling a little anxious.
(7) About to go to a lecture I didn't realise I had until today.
(5) Very sensitive to noise and a bit anxious about the future but mostly feeling okay.
(4) Starting to worry a little but trying to stay hopeful.
(5) Been very up and down today.
9(7) Feeling pretty tired and relaxed. Spent some time reading for the first time in ages.
(7) Feeling pretty calm today. Going to do the food shopping in a bit and then hopefully tidy my room and get some university work done afterwards.
(6) Got a few things on my mind but it's definitely an improvement on where I was a few days ago.
10(5) Feeling a little stressed but decided to take some time to relax.
(4) Feeling pretty nervous but I'm sure everything will work out fine.
(4) Taking some time to read while waiting for a reply from this helpline. Feeling anxious and not looking forward to tomorrow but I'm sure things will get better.
11(5) Had a tiring day and have quite a lot of work planned for tomorrow. Hopefully I'll get enough sleep.12(5) Had to make a couple more doctor's appointments because they want to so the blood tests again.
(4) I've felt so frustrated over the past couple of days. My housemates are always so loud and they've started to use my stuff without asking and not even clean it off afterwards.
13(4) Haven't been up long and I'm already frustrated at my housemates. I've been very irritable recently and hate even the slightest bit of noise. The library probably won't be much quieter.14(5) Tired but mostly okay.15(5) A little tired and irritable but mostly okay. Will hopefully be able to go volunteering later for the first time in a while.
(6) Having a good time talking to people but feeling a little stressed.
(6) Tired but had a good day volunteering.
16(4) Didn't sleep well and I'm very tired. Going to relax and then hopefully I'll be able to get some work done soon.
(5) Set out a list of things to do tomorrow. Will try to get an early night tonight.
17(6) Managed to get up fairly early. Landlord took one of the fridges but at least it wasn't mine. Will hopefully get some good work done today.
(5) Listening to some calming music to get me in the mood to start working.
(4) Feeling anxious but at least I got some things sorted out.
(3) Anxiety is making me frustrated and irritable. I really need some time to myself. Will stop working and try to relax soon.
18(5) Feeling a little stressed but sorted some things out and getting work done.
(6) Finished one report. About to watch a film so I can analyse it. Should be kind of fun at least.
(6) Enjoying this film but not sure how I'll do on the essay.
(7) Still feeling kind of unsure but I'm sure I'll be fine once I start.
19(5) Got more done. Still got a lot of work to do on this essay though.
(5) Tired but feeling pretty good about this essay now that I've managed to get started.
(6) Halfway through this essay and feeling fairly good about it. My housemates are back and I'm hoping they'll keep the noise levels down.
20(4) Feeling anxious. Doing some volunteering so I'm just sitting here by myself. Just want to go home and finish my assignments so I can relax a little.
(6) Back home and about to have lunch before finishing my essay.
(5) Most of the way through my essay now.
21(4) Tired and irritable. Been feeling really low.22(6) Tired but had a good time volunteering. Still need to sort out what I'm doing for the Easter holidays.23(6) Still tired. Walked around quite a bit today. Will talk to dad tomorrow.24(4) Feeling a little down today. Planning some things I can do to feel better.
(5) Feeling a little better. Got a doctor's appointment tomorrow.
(5) Not sure what I'm doing for the holidays
25(6) Went for a walk and did some shopping and now I'm organizing my room.26(4) Feeling anxious and low.
(4) Worried about getting everything ready in time to go home.
27(7) Feeling tired but calm. Went for a walk into town to buy some presents.
(7) Still tired. Had a good day with family. Watching TV and doing some reading.
(6) Been a bit anxious but it's nice to talk to people I care about.
(7) Had a pretty good day.
28(5) Not had a bad day but got some things on my mind.
(5) Feeling okay. Getting kind of tired.
29(5) Didn't sleep too well last night. There are too many sounds here sometimes and I'm quite sensitive to that.
(6) Went for a walk. My anxiety around a certain area isn't as bad as I thought it would be.
30(2) Cried in front of my mum. I hate showing my feelings even though I know I have to. I wish people listened now.31(6) Feeling okay. A little anxious because it's my birthday tomorrow. I'm sure the next year will be great though.
April
MTWTFSS
1(6) Having a good day but have a pretty bad headache.
(7) Having a pretty good day.
(5) Tired. Dad tried to talk to me about me getting upset the other day and I just ended up feeling even more guilty than I did before.
(5) Hoping work will be good tomorrow
2(6) Tired and have a pretty bad headache but I got through work.3(6) A little rushed at work but mostly okay.
(7) Got back from work and then a walk.
4(6) Tired. Had a late break because they forgot about me.
(7) Finished work
(7) Mostly okay. Starting to get a headache.
5(5) Not looking forward to work tomorrow but at least it's my last shift.6(7) Work is going better than expected.
(9) Just got back from work. Looking forward to getting my ears pierced on Monday.
7(7) Feeling okay but had a weird nights sleep.
(7) Looking forward to this meal
8(5) Got my ears pierced and I'm really happy with them but kind of upset about family issues.
(6) Feeling a little pushed out when it comes to family things. Having a good talk with a friend.
(6) Trying to stay positive
9(5) Heading back to university later
(6) Trying to stay positive
(5) Just got back to my place at university. Feeling tired but calm. Trying to plan some goals.
10(7) Should probably be asleep already but I'm in bed now
(7) Feeling tired. Got my doctor's appointment done with.
(7) Feeling slightly anxious but can finish off the rest of my tasks tomorrow. Feel like I did pretty well today. Tired so I'm going to relax for the rest of the day and hopefully have an early night.
11(6) Overslept but probably needed a day off anyway. Feeling better after a walk around town.
(9) Mostly feeling good but I can't seem to get rid of this headache.
(7) Went out to get some painkillers
12(7) Slightly anxious about exams and stuff but mostly feeling okay. Practiced the piano and did some mindfulness exercises. Went for a walk earlier. Feeling kind of calm and tired.13(7) Feeling tired.14(6) Feeling a little nervous about exams and stuff but I'm sure everything will work out fine.
15(3) Feeling anxious even though I know everything will work out fine. I've gotten through stuff like this loads of times but I hate feeling this way. Trying to do some things to relax.16(9) Got an exam over with. Made plans to meet a friend tomorrow.
(7) Starting to feel sleepy.
17(6) Was feeling upset earlier but calmed down since. Trying really hard to cope with my anxiety in healthy ways.18(3) Feeling tired and lonely. Did the best to take care of myself but still felt very anxious and sick today. Hoping for an early night tonight and a fresh start tomorrow.19(4) Housemates have had friends over all night and they'll all so loud. I'm going to go for a walk before I try to get some work done.
(6) Decided to not set an alarm tonight and to do self care before anything else tomorrow.
20(6) Still feeling anxious but have started to work through some of the things that are worrying me.21(6) Got a bit of work done. Getting irritated by how loud my housemates are.
(5) Sitting outside enjoying the sun. Was only meant to go for a quick walk but can't bring myself to go back inside. Anxiety is pretty bad. Maybe I should bring it up with my doctor.
(4) Feeling anxious. I kind of wish my housemates would stay somewhere else for the night so I can get a break from all the noise but one has her boyfriend around here. I feel bad but I just don't feel
(4) Feeling anxious and irritable. Really just need a break from the constant noise. Trying to stay positive but even hearing people talk through the floor is making me irritated.
22(6) Feeling a little better about the upcoming exam.23(0) Housemates are driving me mad. I know I should be the better person but I want to finally confront them about all the inconsiderate things they've done since I moved in with them.
(9) Had my last exam today and sorted some other things out. The house seems to be a little more peaceful so maybe I'll get some good rest tonight.
24(3) Feel like crying. Spent all day looking forward to going out with friends only for it to get cancelled. One friend cancels or forgets about things all the time but I don't know if I should ask her
(4) Feeling a little calmer after a walk but not great.
25(5) I get the feeling that I'm not going to get much sleep tonight so maybe I should take this opportunity to reach out to people. I've been feeling really lonely recently.
(0) Getting some really weird urges. Probably because I've been so anxious recently. Definitely have a cold or something.
(2) Not too bad but been feeling kind of numb and weird for some reason. Maybe it's just because I'm sick. Having a day off.
(5) Feeling tired. Might try to get an early night.
26(2) Feeling anxious and tired.27(9) Feeling pretty good considering I only slept for about four hours last night. Went shopping with my housemate which was fun. Spending some time relaxing for today. Going out with friends tomorrow.
(7) Aware that I feel physically anxious but not sure why. Techniques I normally use to relax don't seem to be working. Should probably bring this up with my doctor.
28(4) Had a good day with friends but now I'm feeling anxious.
29(6) Mostly okay but tired and a bit anxious.30(6) Haven't had a bad day. Anxiety seems to be easing off but hasn't gone fully.
May
MTWTFSS
  1(0) Feeling weird. Not sure what's wrong exactly.
(6) Going out tonight. Got lectures tomorrow so I won't stay out all night.
(5) Back home. Thoughts and feelings are all over the place but I'm doing okay now.
2(2) Been feeling guilty for no real reason over the past couple of days. Not really sure how to deal with these feelings. Only slept for 2 hours last night so took a nap.
(0) I'm really starting to scare myself. The crisis text line is great but replies are slow tonight. Really wish I didn't feel so alone.
3(2) Got a bit more sleep last night but I'm still tired. I can't stand this feeling, even though I know it'll pass soon.4(0) I can't shake this feeling that I'm a bad person. Not really sure where it comes from.
(1) I should probably tell my doctor what's been going on for me.
(2) Been feeling really weird recently. Filled in an online consultation form for my doctor but worried I'll come across as an attention seeker or something. Feeling embarrassed about last night.
(0) Feel like I can't cope any more.
5(5) Mixed emotions. Feeling fairly calm and have more motivation today but thoughts still haven't quite settled.
6(5) Feeling conflicted about a lot of things. First day of my work-based learning placement tomorrow.7(4) Not feeling great. Placement went okay.8(1) Really feel like I'm losing patience with other people and with life in general.9(5) Feeling tired. Placement went well and we got to finish early. Have to call the doctor's again tomorrow to see if I can get an appointment. Called almost every day this week already.
(0) Trying to take care of myself but it's hard to convince myself that I deserve it.
10(6) Went to the doctor and got put on anxiety medication11(6) Feeling calmer today. Housemates aren't being too bad and I'm starting to feel bad about telling my landlord about what's being happening lately. It's so easy to make me feel guilty sometimes.12(9) The happiest I've been in a while. Listening to some good music. Not even too bothered by my housemate taking to her boyfriend in her room below me. Just a slight feeling that something is wrong
(2) At least I had a few hours of feeling calm. I wish I had the courage to tell my housemate that her boyfriend needs to keep her voice down.
(5) Very tired today.
13(5) Feeling calm but struggled with obsessive thoughts.14(6) Feeling a little more hopeful but still struggling to not be obsessive.15(6) Mostly feeling okay. Had a pretty good day at work.16(5) Very tired. Trying to stay positive. Going to the doctor tomorrow to review my medication.17No Reasons18(6) Going out with a friend tonight. Really looking forward to it but hoping obsessive thoughts don't get in the way.19(5) Had a great night with a friend but finding it hard to think clearly today.
20(1) Not feeling great. Can't exactly explain why.
(0) Things keep piling on
21(5) The day started out rushed and stressful but I've sorted some things out so hopefully it'll be better after today.22(6) Feeling okay. A little tired and stressed but better than yesterday
(5) A bit more anxious at placement than usual but feeling okay now.
23(5) Feeling okay but can't wait to get home.
(6) Feeling okay now I'm home. Getting something to eat.
(0) I don't even know why at this point
24(5) Feeling tired. Slept a lot last night25No Reasons26No Reasons
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