5.2 avg
  186 days
  700 hugs
      1(7) really happy this morning
(5) dad keeps taking over my room, i just want it left alone how it is not moving anything about
(6) tv has been good tonight
2(5) woke up to two nosebleeds this morning, still feeling food tho
(6) nice bath relaxing
3(5) work work work work work
(7) acctually feeling good today, and a good shift today
4(7) loving life atm
(6) ok so not the best shift today, had a panic attack but im still smiling
(7) no work tomorrow!!!
(4) so my exs sister messaged me, kinda put a downer on me now
5(6) bored!!!
(7) fone my hair nice, crocheted, and cycled to the drs, id say it was very productive today
(5) ok so being ignored is not the best feeling in the world, they better have a good excuse hahaha
6(5) bit of a downer today7(6) bored so might do some knitting
(7) i love my room, its so perfect!!!
(5) i love my room its so pretty!!!
8(5) i ate too much and was sick :(
9(5) day off in bed
(5) in a bad manic state rn and i wanna sleep
10(3) bad dream
(5) sooooo happy got an interveiw for a sch teacher
(7) sooooo happy got an interveiw for a sch teacher
11(6) work12(8) interveiw went brilliantly13(4) i hate this, been stapped down as a cadet
(6) work was good and there was snow
14(6) loving life
(6) lazy day today
(5) watched a film, dad chose it and it was me and my exs film we used to watch all the time, but it was still a good film
15(6) slipped over on the ice in my moped, not the best start to my day but still feeling optimistic
(7) 5 days off, time to do some knitting!!!
16(6) so nearly done on my friends baby cardigan cant wait to finish it!!!
(6) part one done on my knitting project now onto part two after i sleep
17(5) today was boring
(5) my mate keeps bragging about things and its annoying me so not in best mood
18(6) woke up at 3
(6) having some respite at nanas
19(6) went walking with nana, very nice 3.25 miles20(7) seeing mum today!!!!21(5) so today was interesting, started bad but shift was quick today and was VERY busycause of football traffic. glad to rest, watch a film and do some knitting22(6) even tho i woke up at 6 im feeling optomistic
23(6) i want coco pops
(5) god i hate being clingy!!!
24(6) im so lazy
(4) feel like i wanna overdose
25(6) loving life even tho i didnt sleep at all
(7) brilliant day today
26(7) had a really good nights sleep
(7) had a really good nights sleep
27(6) woke up to a nose bleed
(5) date bailed out on me and got hot and colds, think im coming down with a cold
28(6) good nights sleep and watching glee
(6) dyed my hair blonde, fwb screwed me and then left me so was in a bad mood but gonna ignore boys and try to focus on me for a change
29(5) came home from work after an hour cause i felt sick
(5) still feel sick
30No Reasons31(6) lovely day with mum yesterday
  1(7) had a lovely day at work and had a relaxing bath!!!2(6) didnt sleep well
(5) cleaned my make up brushes, been bored all day told fwb that i was very miffed with him and i was dissapointed, ngl he deserves alot more than that!!!
(5) been so bored today
3(5) soooooo tired this morning and i have to work omg i hate it
(6) so i think my best mate has got me into the gym, well i wanna get toned and let my ex see what hes missing hahaha
4(6) glad i have the day off
(7) had a lovely day off
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6(6) lovely walk then gym later
(4) feel like absolute shit, keep thinking about my ex and how many times he hurt me and how many memories there were
7(6) gym was really good8(6) woke up at ten, and to the washing up
(7) at the gym again and theres really hot guys here
9(7) gym lastnight followed by a pizza party at mine was brill lastnight, now off to see mum10(6)
(5) work was shit
(5) work was so bad i wanna quit
11(6) day off thankfully wanna sleep12(5) work
(6) nice evening
13No Reasons14(4) i wanna quit work, theyre threatning to suspend me and i hate it had an awful night last night bumped into an ex and i wanted to throw my drink over him, cant wait to go home and just sleep
(5) wanted to overdose and kill myself earlier wanna quit work cause im not happy there they sent ne home early cause i had bladder spasams and was behind on drinks
15(5) i dont like the dentist
(5) im a wreck
16No Reasons17(5) lastnight was crap but i liked the bowling today
(4) still feeling suicidal
18(6) went to the beach today and applied for jobs19No Reasons
20(5) i hate work, need to get a new job
(5) hate this feeling
(5) interveiw went awful, didnt get it, soent the evening with my dog and grandad and went for a walk then git a email saying another company wants an interveiw #behopeful
(5) interveiw went awful, didnt get it, soent the evening with my dog and grandad and went for a walk then git a email saying another company wants an interveiw called 111 cause i was feeling suicidal
22(5) got a callback for my interveiw23(6) callback today cant wait!!!24(6) lovely day with mum25(5) halucinating about times with my ex bf isnt great...26(5) today wasnt so bad, had a bath and ate chocolate after a successful shift at work
27(6) glad i have the day off28No Reasons
  1(5) hate calling in sick, been ill all night and couldnt breathe2(7) work was really really good3(0) its at the point where i am taking my emergency meds cause im so worked up, my best friend wont talk to me and its killing me4No Reasons5(6) nothing but rest today
(6) nice day at nanas, had photos with our dog too
6(5) friend bailed out on me and now wint talk to me.... great start to my week7(6) happy even though work was hard i saw my friend8(6) interveiw went really well9(6) didnt get the job :(10No Reasons11(5) day off tgen 3 days of work12(5) oh the joys of work
13No Reasons14(5) two days off now15No Reasons16(6) gym was good ladtnight17No Reasons18(6) totally love being ignored
(7) saw a show with mum and it was really good!!!
19(5) i need mitivation, my dads abusing me again and ive lost my confidence for my interveiw tomorrow, i just need some love atm cause kinda feeling like im alone...
20(6) my interveiw went really well21No Reasons22(5) mixed feelings today not the best tho23(5) not in the mood for work today24(7) free weekend yay!!!25(8) day with mum doing her hair!!!26(8) a very happy mum and a happy charlotte!!!
(6) i doubt anyone would ever cope with my bipolar ass, on the other side i did sone gardening after a big lunch
27(6) not feeling work today
(6) not feeling work today
(7) lovely bath after a REALLY stressful day at work
28(7) i feel like stabbing my sister hahaha on the other hand mum got married29No Reasons30(8) 6 days off now wooohooo
(7) gum vibes feeling good, but very hungry
31(6) so ladtnight i wanted to punch my best friend in the face.....
(7) got an interview for a cattery!!!
     1(6) so mental health are coming over to assess me.... joys2(7) happy bunny today
3(7) beach today!!!
(6) ok beach is cancelled due to a bitchy sister
(5) en route to wroxham now
(6) trying to apologise to my friend about being manic but hes being a douche....
4(6) taking my bike in for a service, long walks here i come
(7) walks with my nans dog!!!
(6) i made a smoothie, but a bit down feeling like no one will want me as a gf case of my bipolar
5(7) wanna go to spring fling
(7) finnally got something to do, go to work for an extra shift
(7) finnally got something to do, go to work for an extra shift
(6) i have no energy to go back to work from my break omg the struggles!!!
(7) done a ten hour shift and feeling great, but knackered
6(7) roll on today!!!
(6) why is work so tedious
(7) loving life, got my ped back but lost £200 to get it back lol
(7) gym was good now going out so see where i gotta go tomorrow for interveiw then cooking with bestie
7(7) hair washed for later cant wait for this interveiw
(7) work was really good and interveiw went well!!!!
8(5) im so done with work!!!!
(6) dont want to get out of bed
(6) roll on tomorrow last day at work
9(6) too early zzzz
(6) glad i got a few hours left
(7) aaaaaaand im done for two days time for gym then to relax
(7) bff sleeping over woooohoooo
10(7) good vibes today
(7) got a bit drunk whilst out for food hahaha
11(6) dont want to get out of bed today12(7) work went so fast good vibes today
(6) work was good, so was gym but i have a problem, dad wants me to take out a credit card in my name but i dont want one and hes really forceful, and my friend keeps sending me dp and its wmbarrasing lol
13(7) seeing mum today trip to the cinema!!!!
(8) brill day, with mum at cinema, now at bowling with family and young carers too, saw work friend deffo loving life
14(7) work today erhhhhh
(6) i want to go back to bed
(6) came home to nana coming over and i have no energy to do my knitting but friends baby due in few days
(6) soooo bored
15(7) legit started a lesbian relationship with my best friend hahaha
(6) minds racing which is annoying cause i wanna sleep but my brains like YAY LETS THINK ABOUT RANDOM THINGS AND BE HYPER AF!!!! i hate it lol
16(6) dont wanna go to work lol
(6) glad works over it was awful
(6) acctually wanna go to sleep for one night where there isnt oise in my head
17(6) brilliant way to start my day: nose bleed for 20 mins
(7) was talking to this guy and we seemed to hit it off, i reallyblike him but the only problem is that i dont want to get to close and have another psychosis again, cause i lost my ex to that
18(7) day off
(5) im so stupid, saw my ex and panicked, now i cant sleep
19(6) work was good and i acctually slept lastnight
(7) i cant believe i got like 6+ hours of sleep lastnight
(7) lovely bath and talking to my crush omg im in love with him hahaha
20(6) very tired lol
(7) got my hair extentions in and im feeling good
21(7) day off woohooo
(5) its not fair, i want someone whi wants me, who will take care of me
(6) knitting with nana
22(6) feeling good today wanna do stuff
(7) doing good today, had breakfast downstairs and went to city with dad, then went to a shop by myself and got sone buttons and ribbon for baby clothes im making for a friend, pretty productive i say
23(7) loving life!!!
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