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January
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      1(2) 2017 freaks me out. Nothing's going to get any better. I don't really know why I'm still here.
(4) Don't know how I'm feeling. Finished all assignments so feeling at a loose end. Best friend and best guy friend spending time together tonight so can't message either of them. Hmm...
2(4) Feeling lost without anything to do. Also worried about dates clashing.
(3) Going incredibly downhill, quite quickly.
(2) I just want to be without this mental illness so that I can feel normal and good enough for my friends and not a burden to them.
3(2) I don't feel good enough to be friends with my best friends.
(2) It's so difficult not to be negative with all these horrible thoughts going on in my brain. I'm really trying, but I know I'm letting my best friend down.
4(4) Feeling a little bit better this morning.
(1) I was on the verge of a panic attack in front of my best friend and I feel so so guilty, absolutely horrific, I want to cut as a punishment, she's going to hate me, why can't I be brave and okay?!
5(2) My mood is so rubbish it's unbelievable, I've never been more scared my best friend hates me and now I have to fight this illness on my own.
(1) I'm incompatible with life.
(1) I completely messed up my teenage days and I regret it so much. I didn't do anything teenagers are supposed to do and I feel so uncool and so backward and left behind.
(1) So desperate to self harm.
6(1) CAN SOMEONE PLEASE MAKE ALL THIS STOP PLEASE?!?!7(3) Mood is going downhill because alone. I hate it.8(3) Was doing so well even though it's a difficult day, but now I'm sad.
(0) My best friend's going to die I'm so scared she's going to die please don't let her die please
9(6) Group was shit, but I'm so proud of myself for tonight.10(6) New job is fantastic and just what I needed. Came along at exactly the right time.11To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter12To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter13(4) Bro's birthday. Was being brave. Done so well this week. But now my mood is declining.
(3) Kinda at a loss at what to do. Bit sad. Promised myself I wouldn't bother my best friend because she has mocks and also I don't want my issues to be the basis of our friendship. Struggling on my own.
(3) I don't know what I feel like anymoreeeee
(3) I hate myself so much for being such a negative presence in my unbiological little sister's life.
14(3) I'm 2 weeks clean and I feel good about that, but also feeling majorly guilty because best friend is also so proud but she shouldn't have to be proud for this reason!
(3) So hard to resist the urge to self harm but I managed it. Went for a run instead.
15(2) Feeling awful. Lovely night with the bestie but came home and it went downhill. Wanted to die. Feel like I've ruined my teenage years and so far behind everyone else. So upset.
16(2) Struggling to resist self harming.
(0) :'(
17(1) First day back at uni = anxiety overload. Also feeling shit because I've pushed my best friend away.
(1) Friends hate me so much.
18(0) Scariest dream and it makes it so much worse that it was my best friend.
(1) Anxiety regarding my friend is horrific. I hate this so much, I just so wish I was normal.
19To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter20(3) Productive morning but my mood is fluctuating like crazy.
(2) Anxiety is sky high because I'm scared Mum's found the note I wrote last night :/
21(7) My unbiological little sisters make my weekends amazing and I love them so much.22(1) I just want to die :'(
23(3) So not sure how to cope with this life.24To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter25To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter26To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter27To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter28(0) I so desperately want to die29To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
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February
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  1To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter2To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter3To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter4(6) Fab night with my girls last night, 5 weeks clean today. Things are okay right now.
(2) Hallucinating like crazy, so scared.
5(2) I'm scared my best friend thinks I'm lying.
(1) I just want to die.
(2) This night has just been such a disaster.
6To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter7(6) Chats with my mentor make me feel better about life.8(4) I'm okay. Just anxious.9(2) Can I stop feeling this way now please? Can this all just be better?10(2) I'm going to cry!
(3) Still trying to be okay.
11(3) Been very productive this morning, but still feeling like I've lost my best friend and still incredibly upset.12To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
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March
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