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March
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20To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter21(6) 22(8) 23(4) Struggling with addiction today. Some days I feel strong. But not today. Mediation this evening really helped me see how I was feeding the urge even if I wasn't drinking.24To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter25(9) Really relaxing #dayoff. Korean BBQ always makes me happy.. Going to get a little less sleep than I'd like, but it will be properly restful. #stretching #??26(7) Relaxing evening. Some mild stress at work. A little #dehydrated afternoon #walk
27To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter28(6) Having a nice breakfast!
(4) Ignored my rest for #videogames Made me realize that was? probably my first addiction when I was young. Still trying to find a #balance #?? Logan was good though.
29(6) Odd day. Ups and downs. Tomorrow will be a long day. I hope tomorrow is better.30(5) Call out at work made the day more stressful than it needed to be. Definitely didn't get enough done. I have to write the schedule tomorrow so I won't have a proper day off. At least I can sleep in.31(8) Productive day at home. #laundry #dishes #cleansheets #??
April
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     1(6) I hope next week everything goes right and I can just do my job without having to put out fires first. #stress At least I'm sleepy now so I can be well rested.2(9) Calm day at work allowed me to get ready for a week of being short staffed. #reading #yoga I got this.
3(4) I feel #depression coming on. At least I have spotted the patterns and feelings somewhat early. Hope to keep from getting too much further. Guess I should try some excercise. We'll see.4(7) Great team work today allowed me to not feel rushed during my interviews. #Free dinner helps a lot. Tried toning #yoga . I feel relaxed. One day at a time.5(8) Looking forward to my day off. Stress caused me to make a mistake at work. Handled it ok. Calm evening.6(6) Another stressful day. Only one more until I get 1 day off.7To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter8(9) Foolmoon.
(9) Really long #walk today. Felt wonderful to be outside. Back to work in the morning.
9(5) She said she was going to bed, I wanted to read. So she stayed up and put on a show. I go to the br to read she says what are you doing? I tell her I wanted to read, and she said she's just waiting? ?
10(7) Smooth day. #exercise Doctor appointment in the morning.11(4) Work was insane today. So many people messed up and I did my best to help, but it really just caused me more stress.12(3) Scolded for wanting to play videogames before bed. She felt hurt that I wouldn't be in bed with her, even though I woke her from her sleep in the couch and have gone to bed with her nightly for weeks.
(1) Wow. Now I'm in the bedroom where she wanted me to be with her. She is sleeping on the couch and I'm not allowed to follow her.
13(2) Wow I hate my boss's business partner. Keep your micro-managing fingers out of my department. I know I'm overly sensitive bc I'm fighting with my SO and depressed, but FUCK YOU.
(4) Waiting for an apology that will never come. Need to drop expectations. I just did the same thing she did to me and I'm supposed to be the bigger person? How about don't go there in the first place?
14(8) First day off of 3. Work has been a major source of stress for me. I'm so glad to not be there.15(8) Shake Shack, Moana, and a vaporizer. Haven't smoked in a while. Great to finally be able to relax.
(9) Morning #walk, #breakfast, coffee milk. #yum
(7) Feeling fine at home. Family obligations tomorrow.
16(9) Oh I am sleepy! #snooze
(7) Going to bed so early. Fine day today. A lot of driving.
17(6) Last week to get stuff done. Better make the most of it.
(6) A bit of a headache.
18(8) Today has gone really well. I'm hoping that it continues like this. Why am I worried when nothing has gone wrong?
(9) Great dinner tonight. Was up late because of it, but so delicious. Early day at work tomorrow.
19(7) I feel like I'm all over the place. Long day tomorrow, if I have the opportunity to nap after work I will.20To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter21(8) Day off. Slept in.
(4) I feel like you don't tell someone you love to 'answer the fucking question!' I didn't really know how to respond, but I hope she doesn't come to bed tonight. Unless she wants to apologize. Unlikely.
22(5) Not thrilled to be at work today. At least it is calm. Need to get to bed earlier on work days.
(4) I'm irritable. My coworker just came back from lunch but is now crunching something at her desk. What the heck were you doing at lunch?
23(7) Sleepy, but I have tomorrow off so I'm sleeping in.
(4) I waited for you to watch ALL your Instagram stories. I could only go 4 of 9 minutes of a video about implementing Lean at home before you interrupt me to watch another vid you have already seen.
(6) Up and down today. Last day off until next Sunday.
24(3) 3 hours into 6 days of work this week. Already massively frustrated with having to redo shit that should have been done. And I have heard another gripe that my staff couldn't seem to talk to me about.
(6) Well, at least today's work day is done. Had a great sandwich with pimento and prosciutto just now.
(7) Good evening. Finally got to watch something I wanted to and enjoyed the first episode of Preacher. I had forgotten a lot from the comics. Some #stress about tomorrow.
25(4) Really disappointed in the people at work. Why is it so hard to do your jobs correctly? Can not fucking wait to be moving out of this state.
(7) I'm getting better about not carrying work stress home with me. Still a long way to go this week, but for today I'm done.
(6) Spent too long on the internet. Going to bed.
26(9) Told my employee with an attitude problem to stay home today and the day was smooth as silk. Crazy busy with graduation orders. Was only able to attend half the mgr meeting, but not so bad. Walk next.
(10) I feel very #relaxed Long #walk and not too much stress at work. Tomorrow will be fine, but right now is #great #budget before bed.
27(7) I'm not going to let anyone else dictate my mood today. It is a really busy day full of a lot of detail oriented work. This is where I excel. I got this. And #breakfast
(5) #annoyed at work. Phone calls from angry customers because their deliveries were late. Good thing no one from production or delivery let us know when it was apparent there was an issue. #sarcasm
(7) Sorted my personal email, went from 900 in my inbox to 125, 15 more min and I'll be fine. Created labels for everything, now I can process them when they come in and keep a zero inbox. Feels better.
28(2) I hate when we fight in the morning. She is so hurtful and then when I do the same thing to her she 'tried, but you just shut down'. Fuck her hypocrisy. If I have to move without her, I'm doing it.
(1) No of course you won't volunteer to fix a problem created by your department. Why should you fix it when I can? AND they left the fucking gas tank with the gas light on. Fuck this place maximally.
(5) Well, I'm home. Only one more day of work to go until my day off. I'm eating fast food tonight. Been a while and at least I've been working out recently, unlike before.
29(6) Up too late. Relaxed a little. Only 9.5 more hours of work this week. I got this
(4) I have a headache, I've had to set my work aside to fix problems a lot today, but I'm only about a hour behind. Even though I came in early to keep up, still behind. Want to be at home so much.
(6) Home. Finally.
30(8) Fun day off.
(7) Wow, long day. Need to rest.
May
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1(5) So tired. Need more sleep2To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter3(8) Stayed up too #late but I had fun.
(5) I feel weird this morning. Probably just lack of sleep.
(6) Did some house work, played a lot of video games. Have to be careful I don't engage with addictive behavior for too long. Stopping for the day. Now to do some writing.
(8) Feels good to write and listen to #music wish I could have #relaxing days more often.
4(4) Frustrated again. Was in 58 minutes early, but still beat my employee that I scheduled to open, who was 5 minutes late. And not prepared. Why is it so hard to get people to do what is expected?
(6) I'm having mood swings. Can sertraline do that.
(7) Calm before #bed should have gone sooner.
5(5) Forcing myself out of bed so I'm not late.
(5) Annoyed.
(4) I wish her rudeness didn't bother me. I worked hard today too. You don't have to take it out on me.
(3) Wow, she said that I'm overly sensitive. And she got pissed off when I watched her slurp ramen at lunch. She said 'you know I hate it', me: 'you are just going to have to get used to it' 'no, I'm not'
(4) She was 'done interacting with me' so I went for a walk. Haven't ran out bc of a fight since before I started therapy and Zoloft. I stayed pretty calm. At least I wasn't sobbing and yelling this time.
(6) When I came back she hugged me and told me she was glad I was back. I read Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban aloud as she made cookies.
(7) Going to bed calm. One more day before a day off. Only one more week with only 1 day off. I always hated the phrase 'working for the weekend' but I am feeling that right now.
6(8) Day is off to a good start. Only minor problems that I was able to solve quickly. 4 more hours until a day off.
(8) Nice #walk after work. Got a milkshake.
7(7) Nice day off.
(8) Just played a #boardgame Pandemic. Nice evening. #relaxing #??
(6) Stayed up too #late again playing #videogames Need to have good sleep habits even on my #dayoff #addiction
8(5) She blew up in Target because I asked her 'What are you doing?' When she was walking really slowly with her face in her phone. She went off on a 'fucking family' that was blocking her way, they heard.
(5) I have to set limits on myself for gaming. Need sleep. #addiction
9(6) Smooth day so far. Rather be home, but only 4.5 more hours. #work
(4) If you don't like that I'm a doormat then leave. You take advantage of me more than anyone else does anyway.
(4) We are at an impasse. She doesn't respect me, she thinks I'm a door mat. I asked her to be nicer to me, her response was 'I'll try, but...' Sorry, I've done everything you've asked. No more buts.
(5) Blessed sleep. Relieve me of this burden for a while.
10(5) Trying for a better day, but already had a call out so I'm going to be #busy as hell. I guess that will keep me distracted from #depression
(9) OMG, so involved in my own drama I forgot to celebrate 2 years without alcohol! I can't believe I made it this far. I'm very proud of myself. 5/10/15 was my first sober day. Keep it going!
(8) Great day. Wish I was going to bed earlier, but I did some #writing and felt good at my accomplishment.
11(6) So far so good this #morning
(8) Nice day at work. Really busy, but steady. Glad to be home.
(6) Go to bed earlier!
12(6) Crazy busy today. I'm so far behind, but I know I've got this. And a day off tomorrow. Just got to get over other people's bullshit.
(7) At least I have time to lunch. 3 more hours.
(8) I'm home, and we are meeting a friend for dinner. I really need some time off.
13(8) I've got to #meditate for longer than 10 minutes a day. I've been making mistakes, dumb ones. Also time off would help. Less video games more mediation. Active day off tomorrow. Should be fun.
(6) It is my one day off this week. Already received a text from work about problems. Off to the ropes course in an hour. Should be awesome.
(10) Super amazing day. Ropes course was more intense in parts than I imagined. Not super scared of heights, but almost dropped my hat down 35 feet into the woods. #games bed on time.
14(8) Animal Collective first thing in the morning. I love being in the office #alone only 2 hours left of peace.
(8) Was an hour late at work, but a 10 hour day of all overtime will be nice in 2 weeks. #relaxing evening at home, instead of videogames I #researched credit unions in the area that I'm moving to.
15To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter16(8) Roller coasters all day. Didn't get enough sleep, but I'm going to have an awesome day.17(9) 3 days in a row without playing videogames. Mindful to not spend too much time on Twitter one night. Addiction is hard. #Survivor tonight so that always helps. Going to bed earlier than normal. #whoa18(8) Great #flow at work today. My favorite/best employee gave 3 weeks notice. Will make double what we can offer. Already training one new employee, good luck to us. At least I'm moving in August.19To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter20(5) Up too late. Not being good to myself. I need to avoid naps when I work closing. It throws off sleep schedule. Also #videogame and my #addiction wouldn't let go.
(6) Annoyed at coworker. Can't keep babysitting. I already work 10 - 15 hours a week more than anyone else in the dept. Can't keep picking up slack. Joys of management?.
21(9) I actually felt like I had enough energy to clean the house finally. 3 loads of dishes, 1 laundry, vacuumed. Everything looks so much better. #5S #cleaning
22(7) Smooth morning so far. Working 6 days at least means I can do 8 hour days instead of 9 like I'm expected. That extra hour will be enjoyed going for a walk.23(6) Need more sleep.
(5) Melancholy seems to be creeping in. Trying to keep it at bay.
(4) Don't get upset with me because you don't know where you left your pills. Try keeping things in a place instead of dropping everything as soon as you are done using it, wherever that may be.
24No Reasons25No Reasons26(7) We are at SO's mother's house. Uncle's funeral tomorrow, making the best of it. I put together her elliptical while SO visited with her bestie. Also doing #laundry for both of us. Without quarters.27(10) Felt extremes in both directions today. I feel alive, out feels good.
(7) Had to run to catch the bus home. Just made it. Need to work out more... or any amount.
28(5) I need time off. Badly.
(8) Nice evening at home. Going to bed late but very relaxed.
29(7) Long day, two more to go. Bed #late30(8) Today is going well. Before change over to the new month of production can be stressful. So far, so good.
(5) Up too late playing #videogames #addiction sucks. At least I'm not smoking and drinking. I'm really just avoiding work tomorrow. Blah blah
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June
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   1No Reasons2No Reasons3(5) Rough day, even though it was a day off. Going to bed very late.
(4) I dislike being at work so much. I can't even have two days is a row off without every fucking thing going wrong. I dislike so many my coworkers. I am sick of fixing their mistakes.
(7) So glad to be home. Fried chicken makes so many things better.
4(7) Feel OK going to bed. I don't want to work, but at least it is Sunday and it won't be busy.
(8) Calm day at work. Getting a lot done. Last day for my most dependable employee, not yet worried about my sanity, but I have an 11 hour day tomorrow and only get 1 day off, so my energy may be drained.
5No Reasons6(8) I ate so many jelly beans tonight.7No Reasons8(7) Only one more day until I have my day off this week!9(8) Long few days at work. I am so ready to relax tomorrow.
(2) I hate wasting energy on my one day off this week fighting with SO. Now instead? of energized from relaxing I'm exhausted from fighting. We were both wrong, but she insists that I am more wrong.
10(5) I'm better.11No Reasons
12(6) Still so drained. Only 2 more months at this job. Can't flipping wait to be out of here. At least I have 2 days off this week.13(8) Good night. One more day of work to get through. Then...14No Reasons15No Reasons16No Reasons17No Reasons18No Reasons
19(5) Problems with work again. Affecting me at home again. Gotta stop thinking about that place when I'm not there. Only 2 more months.
(7) Quiet evening at home. #skipbo going to bed late. Half a day tomorrow. See how well I stick to that.
20No Reasons21No Reasons22No Reasons23No Reasons24(7) Things have been good at work. Still not getting enough sleep.25(6) Zzz. Bed late.
26(9) Really great evening, going to bed a little early even! Didn't even play videogames.27No Reasons28(5) Up too late. #addiction #videogames29No Reasons30No Reasons
July
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     1(9) Really great three days off. Not thrilled to be going back.2(5) Do not want to be at work. I'll make the most of it. At least I'm first in so I can pick the music.
3(7) 2 days in a row no videogames. Work may be getting less stressful. Still need to work on going to bed at a reasonable time.4No Reasons5(7) Late night holiday. At least I'll be free from hangover, unlike many will be tomorrow. Can't wait for days off to sleep.
(8) Having the proper staffing levels is really making my work days so much better.
(6) Pretty good day. I know tomorrow will be better. #addiction
6No Reasons7No Reasons8(10) In between two days off with my SO. Rarely get the same days off.9No Reasons
10(5) I wish I were tired.11No Reasons12(5) Bed #late work 2 more days and then a day off.
(6) Stayed up too #late again. At least I had fun. Tomorrow will be a long day at work, but then I have 2 days off.
13No Reasons14No Reasons15(10) Most wonderful day!
(8) Back to work in the morning.
16(9) No video games tonight!
17(7) Really long day at work but it wasn't stressful. Bed on time.18(5) Call-out at work, I was fine with. Fixing a bunch of mistakes, stress is building. Just have to breathe. Only 1 month until my last day. If it weren't for the end of the fiscal year bonus then19(4) 29 more days. Get me out of this hell hole.
(6) 12 hour day at work. Going in tomorrow on my day off. Not thrilled.
20(7) Going to do the best I can today.21(8) A good day even though I had to work on my day off. River float, got to meet my so's long time friend. Open at work, bed #late22(7) Tough in the beginning, but it was nice at the end. Laughed a lot because we watched the Lego Movie tonight.23(4) Going to a friend's informal wake. I still had to open at work, but I got someone to cover so I could leave at 11. Mixed emotions, right now. He was always a bright spot of people's day.
(5) Bed early. Long day off work tomore then funeral on Tuesday.
24No Reasons25(5) Funeral for a friend today. A fellow addict. It is hard to watch people die before they should. I'm so glad I don't drink anymore, and I'm even more thankful that I don't take pills anymore.
(5) Funeral for a friend today. A fellow addict. It is hard to watch people die before they should. I'm so glad I don't drink anymore, and I'm even more thankful that I don't take pills anymore.
26(7) Spent the evening with some friends, getting to that point where you know when you hang out with someone it'll be the last time you see them before I'm headed out of the state. We had fun at least.27No Reasons28(2) My gf took me to see Baby Driver because I love Edgar Wright, now we are in different rooms and fighting. I keep trying to stop. I kissed her and thanked her for taking me out, called me insensitive.29(5) Two more days as manager. Can't wait to get out of here. Frustrated only a little bit today. Wish other people would start to care, but I can't make them so eff this place.
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30(10) Part time at work starting now! Now I can feel relief of work stress. I stayed up late just for fun clearing out my personal email box. One week until vacation! One month until I'm out of this state!
31(8) Feels good to be so close to vacation. Only two days of work left. Have to do a lot of scheduling to make this move happen at the end of August but I've got the desire to get the eff out of here.
August
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 1(9) Nervous and excited about the future. Had a meeting with a professional resume writer that was recommended by someone that I can trust and I am not worried about work at all!2(7) Working today. Lots of loose ends to tie up before vacation. Only have to work 8 hours today though! It feels so good to be part-time.
(4) I don't like feeling like a hostage in my relationship. If I take too long, I get yelled at, or if I go ahead to make the way easier. The only way I don't get criticism is if I do things EXACTLY right
(6) One day of work until vacation. So flipping close. Good night.
3No Reasons4No Reasons5No Reasons6(8) I'm on vacation, but my girlfriend is sick.
(9) So sleepy, did a lot of walking today.
7No Reasons8(3) I'm in an emotionally abusive relationship. I don't know how to get out of it.
(1) Shaking.
(3) Hard to deal right now. I'm supposed to be on vacation.
9No Reasons10(5) Finally starting to relax on vacation. Thought this would be different.
(6) Sleepy.
11(2) Well, first thing upon waking up, criticism. Sleeping without an alarm on vacation apparently isn't a good idea. Or taking too many sheets while you are sleeping. Long day ahead.
(4) 'I wish, I wish,' just take care of yourself and stop whining. I don't have sympathy for you anymore today.
(2) 'Get the day over with.' You don't have to spend it with me.
(1) 'All I'm doing down there is waiting for the next thing to do.' - the beach according to my gf. Why the fuck did you even come? Just to ruin my day. Fine, stay at the cottage.
(4) I want to be home.
(1) 'It's not something I like being around.' Re: my lack of voice on family vacation. Funny, you love it at home because we always do what you want to do. When we do what I want you just complain.
12(4) I just want to be alone. No family with thier anger and alcohol addiction and no gf with her anxiety and criticism. Just me by myself, just for a while.
(3) 'Put on whatever you want! Not that, not that. How about blank?' I deleted blank because you were sick of it. 'Fine just fall asleep listening to your dreamy ethereal crap, I'm putting on headphones.'
(5) Home on Monday. So close.
13(2) Brought her to museum. 'Complete waste of time. No artists here. Just looks like some rich person's house.' So much for planning. Even doing her type of activity she won't be happy. Home tomorrow.
14(5) Heh. Come back from shitty non-relaxing vacation to find my gf's mom had left the interior car light on in car. So dead battery, had to call and cancel the therapy session as the jump is too far away.15(3) Another bad day. Waste of time and money driving GF to Mom's house. And I don't get to be alone either.16(6) Finally a good night of sleep. Getting ready for my third to last day of work.17No Reasons18No Reasons19No Reasons20No Reasons
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