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January
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1(6) May you have a better new year, pandas!2To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter3(3) I have no energy or motivation, no goal, burned out, alone and deserving it. Also, heart is tired. And chestpains.
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4(3) This whole week, when I step outside there's this feeling of horror and it's hard to breathe. My core is empty.5(5) Out of the depths again6(4) It's funny how people ask what's wrong and then start actively avoid the topic if you even hint what's wrong7(4) #annoying #pain
(5) I get sick if I don't have a #plan Well I have sort of a poor plan now and heart pain decreased
8(3) I'm so disgusted with myself, it's hilarious. As soon as I accomplish something, it becomes worthless, because I accomplished it.9(4) If your body thinks you should f*ck someone and realizes you are not working on a plan to do so, it will punish you by releasing stress hormone cortisol, causing tightening of muscles in chest area
(6) Full minute #iceswimming today
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15To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter16(5) I don't know what I'm waiting for17(6) #calmer today18(4) I can't shake the #sadness this year. Outwardly I may look ok, but tears are flowing inside every evening. I need a change19To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter20To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter21(5) For change: no chestpains
22To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter23To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter24(4) She did not manage to leave. Also, she's not happy here and she not leaving makes it harder for me to leave. There's no foreseeable end date to this situation.25To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter26To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter27To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter28To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter
29(5) Vacation is coming up. I feel a bit better. Some things sort out themselves. It's not all me.30To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter31To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter
February
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   1(6) Not bad actually2(7) #cautious #hope3To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter4To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter
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12To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter13(5) I have seen indescribable beauty the last 10 days, but somehow I feel something terrible is about to happen. Perhaps just tired.14To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter15(5) Life seems to move in right direction, but about one week now I've had horrible dreams. There's always something.16To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter17To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter18To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter
19(2) #empty
(1) Everyone I care about is leaving my life
20To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter21To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter22To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter23(4) 24(5) Life is like a neverending war with myself. And sometimes I'm defeated, but I keep fighting.25To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter
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March
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   1To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter2To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter3To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter4(6) They told me that my standards to relationships are unrealistic. But she was real. There are actual people in world for whom I *would* give up my solitude. This knowledge will remain with me.
5To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter6(2) #sick #lost #nosleep
(2) #fever #withdrawal Seriously I haven't had fever in years. I think.
7(5) Past the low point I think.8(4) Extremely tense. Almost panic. No idea why.9To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter10To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter11To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter
12To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter13To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter14(1) I'm afraid of a new coworker. I cannot sleep.15(4) I'm constantly tired. Sleeping does not help.
(3) I feel as if world is ending. But it isn't.
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19To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter20(5) I've had two serious crushes in my 39 years. Both of them told me they have very high requirements on men. I think this is what can't resist - it sounds like huge opportunity for personal development.21To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter22(3) Saaad wooorld ?23(4) Dreams come slow and they go so fast24To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter25To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter
26To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter27To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter28(5) 29(6) I'm interested in something. Also, successfully finished ice swimming season30To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter31To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter