4.9 avg
  226 days
  912 hugs
1(6) May you have a better new year, pandas!2No Reasons3(3) I have no energy or motivation, no goal, burned out, alone and deserving it. Also, heart is tired. And chestpains.
4(3) This whole week, when I step outside there's this feeling of horror and it's hard to breathe. My core is empty.5(5) Out of the depths again6(4) It's funny how people ask what's wrong and then start actively avoid the topic if you even hint what's wrong7(4) #annoying #pain
(5) I get sick if I don't have a #plan Well I have sort of a poor plan now and heart pain decreased
8(3) I'm so disgusted with myself, it's hilarious. As soon as I accomplish something, it becomes worthless, because I accomplished it.9(4) If your body thinks you should f*ck someone and realizes you are not working on a plan to do so, it will punish you by releasing stress hormone cortisol, causing tightening of muscles in chest area
(6) Full minute #iceswimming today
10No Reasons11No Reasons12(3) 13No Reasons14(5)
15No Reasons16(5) I don't know what I'm waiting for17(6) #calmer today18(4) I can't shake the #sadness this year. Outwardly I may look ok, but tears are flowing inside every evening. I need a change19No Reasons20No Reasons21(5) For change: no chestpains
22No Reasons23No Reasons24(4) She did not manage to leave. Also, she's not happy here and she not leaving makes it harder for me to leave. There's no foreseeable end date to this situation.25No Reasons26No Reasons27No Reasons28No Reasons
29(5) Vacation is coming up. I feel a bit better. Some things sort out themselves. It's not all me.30No Reasons31No Reasons