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June
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   1(5) Tired, but ok.
(2) I had anorexia a year ago & I recovered from it pretty much. But I just saw photo of my friend, she lost so much weight & I'm happy for her, but I feel like shit and I'm struggling not to relapse.
2(8) Feeling good and I wish other people feel good too! Nathan P, wherever you are, whatever you're doing, remember I believe in you! #TechSupport
(5) anxious a bit... #studentwithmentalillness
3(8) Waiting for the results of the exam... Generally feeling good. Bought a beer but didn't drink it; instead of it I gave it to my flatmate. Also took my meds regularly...So proud of myself!4To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
5(4) Day 1 of my weekly challenge - Took my meds. Not really into drinking water but I'll try my best. Feeling super-abandoned cause my bf is never going to want to live with me...oh, God, help me!
(5) Had half a liter of water and one non-alcoholic beer. My impulsivity is on high level - spent a lot of money on some stupid shit and now I will probably starve to death. Never mind, I'm used to it. xD
6To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter7(4) Splitting very hard on every possible thing in my life... #borderlineproblems
(2) Thank you God for making me not being able to control myself and my actions.... I feel guilty. I will loose a friend for my stupidity, and maybe I should... I'm such a whore around a men.
8(9) Here's update I'm feeling great Thank's a lot #TechSupport
(3) Is this roller coaster of anxiety-guilt-hyperactivity-anxiety-guilt-sadness-anger... ever going to stop?
(3) Day 3 of weekly challenge - took some water, however, I'm craving beer big time and idk what to do...
(6) I was on the edge, but #TechSupport saved me! ?
9(2) Worried and lonely...10(4) Just wish that good ppl of the world knew how awesome they are...
(4) Oh God...these mixed emotions! I have no idea what to do...
(1) Struggling not to self-harm...
(0) I just want to quit everything.... I don't want this life anymore! I should be dead...
(0) I'm so sorry...
(5) Feeling better. Still stressed out and guilty, but grateful that I have ppl who care.
11(5) Mixed emotions again... So confused and paranoid...I want to know what to do with my life and my heart but...idk I'm such a mess. To be honest, I feel guilty because I feel good.
(6) WHAT IS LOOOOVE, BABY DON'T HURT ME, DON'T HURT ME, NO MOOOORE...
(5) love, anxiety and guilt...my my
(7) Studying Serbian epic poetry... ''I had an golden apple, This morning it fell into river, My soul's grieving...such a grief cannot be cured...”
(8) feeling loved and understood again...
(8) Learned 33 out of 48 questions. So proud of myself! Let's see how long this knowledge is going to last...
(5) emotionally happy, but in physical pain ... #stomachache
(2) This fever feels addicting........
12(9) I feel amazing! I feel loved! I feel beautiful again!
(3) worried about someone
(3) feeling like Ana Karenina
(4) why fighting who I am
(3) hypocrite
13To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter14(1) Worried about someone very important to me... I wish they knew how amazing they are and how great they are in their sorrow. True hero, in fact!
(5) As EDucating Shanny would say: 'Remember always, you're beautiful, you're worth it and I am too!'
(5) Guys, check out YouTube channel Kati Morton, she's therapist and psychologist; she answer some questions, explain some things about disorders etc... It helped me a lot to understand my disorder.
(4) Where's my motivation gone? O.o
(6) Have been productive today. Wrote an essay about women in Greek tragedy and rewrote a second one about revenge in Greek epics.
15(1) I'm so sorry I hurt you so bad! You don't have to do anything more than just to LOVE YOURSELF! PLEASE STAY SAFE! PLEASE FIGHT, MY HERO! YOU FUCKING BETTER LOVE YOURSELF BCS YOU DESERVE IT!!!
(0) I failed as a person...again....
(0) I promise I'll never love anyone else... I'll be wearing my mask of happy girlfriend or wife but I will never love again...never... I don't want to love...my love is hurting everyone.
(0) I killed love
(0) “But what can be done, the one who loves must share the fate of the one he loves.” ? Mikhail Bulgakov, The Master and Margarita
(0) If something bad happens to him, my heart will explode from pain...
(0) why, why?
(0) 'I hurt myself today to see if I still feel, I focus on the pain, the only ting that's real... / What have I became, my sweetest friend, everyone I know goes away in the end....'
(1) Life is eternal suffering... I'm made of sorrow...
(1) kill me with love
(1) I lost you....didn't I?
(0) Everybody leaves...
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16To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter17(1) I miss him... I love him...I was at the party, but my mind wasn't there... I was with him in my dreams and I found him in every sound, in every face I saw...
(0) I miss you more than I thought I would! Oh, darling, you're now part of my soul forever!
(5) Singing for him... Sending my voice miles away, all the way to him.... Hoping he thinks about me.
(5) 'April in Belgrade, cuddles her hair gently...that might be her under Sava bridge, but other man kisses her lips...'
(5) 'Oh, mists, dens mists... where you're traveling so fast... You fly to the south...say last goodbye to my love...my love, my only friend...'
(5) I wonder how his lips taste... How his skin smells.. Is his hair soft as it seems?
(5) Tried to play some volleyball, tried to stay in thi slife, but #paralleluniverse is calling me... Thinking about him all the time!
18(4) Slept for about 12 hours, but still tired...
(6) Playing violin... It helps me reduce the stress...
19(4) Slept for just a half an hour... Had crazy dream... feeling wild, savage and quirky...
(5) Now belly dancing in 6 am... what is wrong with me? I suddenly got crazy amount of energy..
(7) Writing some recipes down for him...? ? ?? ?
(6) 'My sky, come down here, on my heart that prays to you....' / ''???? ????, ????? ???? ????, ?? ?? ????? ????, ??? ?? ???? ????...'
(4) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NW7oNpzBSGc 'But I know what is wrong, And I know what is right. And I'd die for the truth In my secret life.'
(3) #anxious but afraid to take a pill because I'm worried I'll fall asleep and I need to study
(2) Why can't I stay strong?! I have to keep fighting...
(1) #anxiety #emptiness #death_of_the_spirit #who_am_I #I_want_nothing
(1) writings poems again
(0) going insane please kill me
(0) please end my suffer
20(1) Fell asleep during my studying... I'm going to fail it... Idk shit... #anxiety level 1000
(0) Wtf?! I can't remember what happened yesterday....I can't remember any important information... I have flashback of my nightmares also... Fuck! This must be bcs of anxiety...
(0) paralyzed completely
(0) FML Forever!
(0) wanna get drunk as soon as I get the money
(0) Fuck!!! I want a beer, but I have no money...
(0) I stole owner's rakija and my flatmate's food.... feeling #guilty
(0) meds + rakija = disaster
(5) My mood is getting better.... :)
(6) I will fight for my life and my happiness! I'll never give up! Promise is given to my #TechSupport!
21(4) I LOVE YOU AND I ALWAYS WILL!!!
(6) Day 1 of my new challange: Took 30 min of walk and drank 1.5 l of water. Thinking of someone special...
(6) Day 2: Took a 30 min walk, but bought a beer... I'm sorry... However, I haven't still opened it, so.. :)
(7) I had a dream about him..we were happy together, and everyone else around were happy also... ^_^
(6) God gives me, god takes away... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PHFIIjuBVPw
(6) getting drunk with the blue caterpillar ?
(6) everything's just an illusion...
(5) 4 l of beer... I'm lost completely.................
(2) I'm sorry... I did it again...
(0) binged...and than purged a bit.... fuck this life
22(6) Slept for 12 hours. Went for walk for 15 min. Had fucking night terror, but feeling amazing right now... My mood is going like ?????? ...
(6) Day 3: Still managing to take some time and go for walk.... Thinking of you #TechSupport .
23(1) Cant sleep! Had panic attack cuz of my fear of insects. Only one person understands, others just think I'm spoiled. I'm paranoid now, scratching myself all over my body, screaming when hair touches me
(0) Also, some slutty singer from my country took pic in mental hospital just fro fun and wrote she's having some rest.... But no, she's not ill, just decided to make a video there... Fucking scumbag!!!
(6) The maddest kind of love Is a love you know is wrong It burns a hole right through your soul And cuts you like a knife https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YXSD4r7LRjo
(5) Cant sleep. Having this crazy idea that I wanna do movie & book reviews... Yeah, like somebody will watch / read that shit...
(0) My mood just dropped as fuck... The fact that most ppl don't like borderlines and think we're crazy bitches makes me ask myself am I really that evil? I'm trying my best not to listen to that shit...
(6) Going for a walk...
(6) Feeling #anxious ... But...why?
(8) Day 4: Went for walk
24(2) D DAY! Exam.... #anxious
(9) Exam was madly tough, but I think it went pretty well... Waiting for results! On the other hand, spent 20 euros for makeup and blackberry vine...
(8) Day 5: Also, going to go for a walk in the evening when temperatures go down a bit...
(6) Drank a liter of blackberry wine...still feeling good...
25(0) Told my boyfriend I want to break up cuz I'm in love with somebody else. I'm so f-ing stupid, he made me stay with him. I cried because I don't want to hurt him or my puffy-fluffy...or anyone else...
(2) paranoid about everything
(0) paralyzed from fear and intense emotions
(7) Day 6: Walked for 4 km. It's way too hot here - 38 c. My head aches, but I feel emotionally better.
(7) I'm fat, lazy, I eat a lot of donuts and drink beer in crazy amounts - basically, I'm Homer Simpson. xD
(0) My bf doesn't understand my condition, he thinks I can just snap out of it. He made some shitty comments on my scars &my emotions. He says he loves me but he doesn't want to let me go or listen to me.
(0) I love him but he sometimes doesn't see how I feel... I'm trapped between loving him and loving a man who actually understands me... I have to make decision...
26(1) #anxious #lonely
(1) I have no money and I have really nasty cravings for all shit I've been taking - beer, vine, energy drinks... Oh, God...
(1) If someone is fucking questioning my knowledge of Serbian grammar, I will fucking question his life. #grammar_nazi_on_killing_spree #that_bitch_makes_me_furious
(5) https://vimeo.com/194276412 #alike
(1) Oh, great, he insulted my scars, saying I should be ashamed to walk out of house with short sleeved shirt and shorts. #f_him
(5) waiting
(6) Day 7: Skipped the walk... By the way, my chubby-puffy-fluffy love is so handsome and beautiful....
27(5) Day 8: Have to clean my room and go for a walk. I'm hungry af, but I have no money, nor food, so I guess I'll just eat some plain sugar and hope to survive for 3 days...
(10) Feeling great! Cleaned my room... Now it's nice and smells amazing. Also, took shower...feeling like female again. lol
(10) He's perfect! Can't stop looking at his pics....so charming!
28(4) Went for a walk. Everything was great until my friend decided to make a poor joke that I have a bug on me. I panicked, cried and screamed, I took my dress off in front of the ppl in park. #humiliated
(4) Also, couldn't see my fluffy love tonight because internet and skype and sh**!
(6) In the mood for studying...
(1) The owner of my apartment can be so paranoid, annoying, controlling... I'm sick of his accusations and questions I have to answer. He disgusts and scares me....but I'm stuck here, so...
(8) Motivated for studying!
(3) I cause troubles... I don't want ppl to get in trouble because of me...
(1) Feeling like Tantalus and my heart is broken in pieces. What have I done?!
(1) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vstNm5xzuKM 'I'm just a soul whose intentions are good, oh lord, please don't make me be misunderstood'
(1) I hurt him. He didn't deserve such a treatment.
(1) I miss my mom... :'(
29(0) I'm done with this!
(6) I was foolish...he's ok. Sometimes I'm paranoid...
(6) Day 10: Day 9 went without walking, but today I'll go for a walk...
(4) wtf?! crying
(10) My best friend just started uni with free scholarship. So proud of her! Now I'm motivated to study now!
(10) Dear Pandas, you're enough, you're wort it. Even if you think no one cares, there are ppl who do care. If you're s.o., child, parent, sibling, friend, etc. you're needed, loved! This world needs you!
(10) Check her channel, guys! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Te2PVgFUpnE&feature=push-u-sub&attr_tag=VbCIneN4bizJ06ID-6 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o-6G1sUJ4T8 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-JQqJfNA
(10) Got the highest grade on my exam. I'm the only one that got that grade now (the grade is 10). :)))
30(9) I can't sleep because of excitement mixed with anxiety... ?/?
(4) Can't sleep. Looking at the Morningstar?... #anxious
(10) Passed another exam! Grade - 9 out of 10! ^_______^
(10) https://youtu.be/yE3kW9-tjO8
(6) singing for him :'(
(6) Loosing myself completely in the parallel universe...
(6) He's finally happy...that's important. Nothing else matters...
(6) Trying to learn 3 different subjects at the same time... ?
(5) I can do it.
(3) I can't...loosing my mind...
July
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     1(1) Well...f*ck!
(1) everything's falling apart
(1) Am I a bad person if I want to have someone else's happiness...?
(4) Trying to study again. Not going for a walk, sorry. Splitting on my bf, on fluffy, his gf, God and myself... Basically everything's black&white for me rn.
(4) What the f with my splitting on her?! I hated her 2 min ago, now I think she's cute... #confusedforlife
(5) https://allpoetry.com/Sara_Plazinic follow me on All Poetry if you find yourself liking my work there... +feeling motivated again
(3) guess I'm the definition of the crazy b*tch
(1) She's sexy, blonde and successful... I'm just a ginger freak.
(1) Am I passive-aggressively bullying the ppl I love...? #confused
(0) ugh, not noooooow! think i'm slipping into derealization...great great
(0) hop hop..here I am...just a fun to have while waiting for something you really want. *being unfair and not understanding ppl rn because my mind tell me I'm always a 2nd choice, I know I'm not but...*
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2(0) he's doing well...me, on the other hand, getting drunk while crying huh
(0) 2 sleep paralyses in a row, than some strange body sensations and auditory hallucinations every time I try to fall asleep and even an intense derealization for 20 min WTH?!
(0) ok I need to go on my antipsychotics again
(4) My friend messaged me after quiet a while. He made my morning! So quirky and fun! Love him! hahahaha
(2) I feel physically sick and mentally drained... Please, God, make me fell better or kill me quickly! just.stop.this........
(2) pushing myself over every possible limit...i don't f-ing care if I d*y, I just want to do achieve my goals
(0) I'm the same type of a slut as a woman who my father cheated my mother on with. To the girl who'll probably never see this - sorry, you didn't deserved this! You're better person than I will ever be!
(0) https://www.facebook.com/TheLegandaryMr.JohnnyBravo/photos/a.10150486974836444.369233.18755656443/10154688584691444/?type=3 Found my station...
3(2) #anxious about the exam, worried about him and somehow wanting him to have his life with her again... well, maybe it's going to happen, idk, but just hoping he'll be happy soon...
(2) still tired, tho
(2) I have to promise myself I'm not going to harm myself if I fail...
(0) #anxiety strikes again...I have to take med before it escalate into panic attack
(10) I'll always be there for you, #TechSupport!!! I hope you're ok! People who truly love and care will never leave you, NEVER!!!! <3 ...also, passed another exam, got the highest grade!
(4) Maybe I should sacrifice and leave him...
4(7) FEELING GREAT...LET'S NOT SPOIL THIS DAY :)
(7) Nathan, Aleksa, Hope, Noel, Love, David, Sajida, Anna, Lydia, Aaron, Linda, John, Ali, Richard, Pseudo Bear, Sean, Binky, Claire, Shyra, Jeff and all the other Pandas here... ? ya! Stay safe!
(6) I just admitted I practice some unconventional things... I think he's going to run away now... :/ Every time I say those things to ppl they think I'm joking...
5(7) Feeling motivated for studying.Thinking about my fluffy love and hoping he's going to have a nice day! Also, my father sent me some money, I'm riiiiich! *looks at 20 euros and cries*
(7) 'Come on fluffy love just last a year... Pour a little fluffiness we were never here... Puff puff puff puff puff puff... Staring at the chubby face that you have...' ??
(4) ''?? ??????, ???? ?? ??? ?????, ?? ?? ????? ?? ????? ??? '????? ? ?? ?? ?? ????? ??????...'' / 'Poor me and my bad luck, if I touched a green pine tree, it would dry completely...' #having_no_luck
(6) http://www.boredpanda.com/positive-animal-comics-4amshower/ This is how I feel about Nathan P... ^^
(1) diarrhea and headache again, #anxiety level 100
(0) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sj9esSu0lg0 how I see tomorrow's exam...
(0) Oh, Lord I'm dying... #anxiety_attack
6(1) Is it too weird that I want to marry the man I've never actually met in person? :) ....anxiety is still on, I'm trying to be as positive as I can
(0) aaarrhg I'm in pain because of my #anxiety... up all night and having no fate in myself
(0) crying shaking owner of my flat jus measured my blood pressure, its 146/91 im dying
(10) My exam went super good, I got highest grade (10) with 100 out of 100 percent. YAAAAY! But...I lost some hair out of stress... :/
(2) my hair ?
(0) broken
(0) My f-ing bf says I'm guilty for loosing my hair and I had power not to have anxiety attack...but HOOOOOWW?!
7(5) People do not need this kind of shit in their lives. I CANNOT NEVER EVER DECIDE... I keep making up my mind...
(5) Sometimes I intentionally stop taking meds, so I could stay awake to study or do something. Because antipsychotics make me feel like a zombie. So, after a month I need to start taking them again, ugh!
(5) 'I despise people who escape from any situation like worms...without a scar, without a scratch...clowns!' our writer, Danilo Kiš, on people who live their 'flawless lives'
(2) Having trolley paradox in my mind and feeling like burning alive from inside...
(4) guy on the FB just called me spy and satanic and teased me for supporting LGBT community. I told he can kiss me right in my Satanic Materialistic ass and fuck off on cloud of unicorn's rainbow fart!
(0) I hurt myself again... I made a man suffer, so who shouldn't I..
(0) done with this life
(0) Can I die looking at your eyes?
8(5) I'm happier when I see others happy...
(0) hop hop here I am selfish slut who has 2 options...
(0) i'm a ruin ...
(0) s***idal
(0) I'm loosing everyone! My mother died 14 years ago ... My grandmother who raised me is too ill now, she's literally waiting for death... I hurt person I love and he's suffering...guess he's gonna leave
(0) If my grandmother dies before she sees her grand-grandchildren from me and by brother...I'll fucking kill myself!
(0) I can't watch one more person dying... I can't..
(0) TRIGGER WARNING!!! I want to sl** my wr*sts....now...I can't handle this anymore
(0) I need my #TechSupport ... If stay alive today...it'll be miracle
(0) back to black
(0) Does anyone else has those moments when they feel empty and full of emotions in the same time?
(0) he's gonna be mad but I know I'M DOING THE RIGHT THING
(0) Nathan, I care! I fucking care for you! <3 We all do!
(0) Stay safe and I'll try my best to make you happy!
(0) Massive panic
9(5) Thanking god for keeping ppl I love safe...
(5) Thankful for all the people in my life and proud of all the people I love...
(6) I'm in love and I need to make decision as soon as possible!!!
10(4) I cant make a single decision in my life...
(6) Cleaning my room...listening to some cabaret /circus /steampunk / macabre music...
(6) I swear I'm gonna go in hell...I lie, I steal food, I cheat, I curse, I envy.... R.I.P. my soul xD
(5) Someone keeps turning light in bathroom off... But... I'm the only one in the apartment rn... :o :(
(6) I finally have some money, after engaging into some ONLY FOOLS AND HORSES stuff... xD sold some old clothes and gold...
(5) getting drunk and mood is going down down down
(4) ...he's happy and so am I...well, except for the fact I'm unreasonably jealous and also scared of future...
11(5) Mixed feelings of emptiness, sadness, love and guilt..
(9) My fluffy received letter! <3 I'm gonna do some belly dancing! ^^
(10) My mind going all around, switching emotions, but I actually feel great!
12(2) Extremely worried for a someone special...13(10) My friend had an exhibition of his art work, I won 1st place on karaoke and got 1 year free in fitness center...no more excuses, I guess... lol14(4) Stood for woman that got harassed.. Got a lot of insults how I'm a cunt / attention whore and a lot of sexist jokes like 'that time in a month' thing...Huh, Pandas...World is fucked up!
(4) My 5th relationship anniversary is today and I'm happy... But I'm also confused and in love with someone else...and it makes me feel guilty. 'Should I stay or should I go?'
(1) I'm such a slut! I have bf, our anniversary is today & I can't stop thinking about a crush & seeing him kissing his ex gf broke my heart! She was there...well..was she really ever there for him...?
15(10) My father had exibition yesterday! So proud of him!!! HERE. LOOK SOME PICS: https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=1837469476569413&set=pcb.1837471179902576&type=316To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
17To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter18(1) bittersweet life...19(1) Oh, bother, anxiety level 100 and idk how to solve my situation... I feel like I'm ruining two men's lives...
(6) Applied for the job on Taste of Cinema. Sent some of my texts for the university magazine. Attending an exhibition organised by my dad in the evening. My fluffy love made my day by feeling better. ^^
(7) Proud of Nathan P!!! ^^
20(7) Oh I'm listening to the sad music, daydreaming about him and refusing to go to sleep. I'm in the phase when I don't wanna sleep at all.21(5) drunk
(2) i have 7 days to decide what to do with my life
(1) I'm the one that looses everything even before having anything.
22(0) so sorry, I'm leaving this world, it's for the best23To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
24(4) Hey, Pandas! I had my 2nd s. attempt, but now I'm safe and at home. Sorry if I worried you.... I was weak but I'm ok now. THANK YOU, NATHAN P and all of you Pandas for caring ans support!! Love u <325(5) My mood going up but my family see it as a sign my sui attempt was fake cry for attention... :( My brother asked me how can I sing after all? :/ I understand him, it's weird, but that's how it is...
(2) My grandmother just told me I made up my polycystic ovaries, bpd, etc. I told her I'm not gonna mention it anymore, but the she shouldn't be surprised if I tried kill myself, when no one believes me.
26(2) oh bother, now she told me I should better kill her that say my best friend I attempted sui... oh god I know she was always strong, she had much worse life, but it doesn't mean my life is all rainbow
(2) i was supposed to give him love and romance..i gave him pain :(
(2) worried bout bf he has weak heart and i sensed something strange...im calling he's not answering
27(2) vodka, rum and disappointment for dinner aaah ...
(5) tried on some old mom's clothes...felt like her for a brief moment...felt love and joy ..gonna wear em
28To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter29(5) im in loooooveee
(1) 1 l of vodka per day keeps memories away.
(1) What hapebs whn two pandas fall in lov..?
(3) my dad can be real asshole
30(2) worried about my love... :(
31(0) Left my bf and felt ok. But now I am madly worried about panda I love. If something happened to him I will kill myself. I don't want to live without him.
(0) I will not sleep until I am sure he is safe.
(6) My Panda is safe! ^^
(6) broke my last life rule - I had my first cigarette smoke ever
(10) I'm maaaaadly in loooovee!!! <3
August
MTWTFSS
 1(10) Dear Pandas, visit my new art-themed blog ARTGASM: https://artgasmblog.wordpress.com/2To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter3(4) I feel out of my body...
(6) I am in love with one of pandas...
4(5) Anxious...
(3) I love my fluffy panda and i will fight for his happiness... Ppl that can hurt a honey like him are s**t!
(3) I love my fluffy panda and i will fight for his happiness... Ppl that can hurt a honey like him are s**t!
5(1) On my way home and feeling degraded by my sis in law...
(0) Sui***al again...
6(0) im alive just bcs of him...have to be strong
(0) Tired of living.
(0) I'm dead inside.
(0) sweet smell of blood
7(6) My mood is slightly better, I entered a green zone. ;) Dear Pandas, I have something to announce, in case you couldn't guess by your own :p... I'M MADLY IN LOVE WITH NATHAN P! ? #love #TechSupport8(5) Playing Neverending Nightmares ^^ and my mood is going down a bit, but nothing too bad...9To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter10To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter11To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter12(6) On jazz festival with my friends, but thinking about my panda love...
(5) Worried about my panda love... Am I a bad person if I'm having a good time on the festival while he is suffering...? But I can't do anything...
13(4) My ex can be such an asshole...
(1) I ran away from my ex who said some awful things to me and even tried to force me to stay with him...
14(6) Daydreaming...
(7) He's Curtis, I'm still Sara... Feeling ok, entering the green zone... Having some time just for myself.
(7) Watching talent show videos, eating chocolate and crying.
15(9) I'm in loooooveee!!!16To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter17To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter18(5) No motivation, but feeling ok. Passively sui****, but ok.
(7) Wanna dye my hair in some silly color.
19(3) Having no cigarettes, drinking wiskey and being nervous af.20(1) My father fell asleep while I was reading him my essay... Thank you papa for nothing. DIIIIIIIEEEEE!
21(7) I want to change my life, be more modest, quit smoking and drinking and wear a hijab.22(5) https://www.instagram.com/p/BYF2YbPFRXA/23(7) https://www.instagram.com/p/BYIepD7l_My/24(8) https://www.instagram.com/p/BYLWmGGlMfE/25(8) In my #evil_mode
(9) On the dark side ?
26(10) I'm evil bitch, evil bitch, beware of me I'm the witch!27(10) I feel amazing!
28(1) Wow, just wow! My father told about my illness to some weirdo who is now trying to engage me into some sect-religious bullshit & calling me on phone.I hurt myself again bcs I'm full of rage ...29No Reasons30(8) I got some money... Yaay31(2) I was evil bitch... I liked my panda's ex girlfriend'photo, I was jealous and paranoid... I'm so sorry... Now I hurt myself... ?? I hope my panda won't hate me and leave me.... I'm screwed up...
September
MTWTFSS
    1(1) My grandma is ruining my life...she is a control freak... She just searched trough my personal stuff... -_-2(4) https://www.instagram.com/p/BYg7XZVFVU9/?taken-by=malabundeva I colored my hair....it didnt go as planed...wtf is wrong with my hair...it was supposed to be just ends, and violet..it ended deep purple3(2) Headache and racing thoughts...
(2) Headache and racing thoughts...
(2) Headache and racing thoughts...
(2) Headache and racing thoughts...
(2) Headache and racing thoughts...
(2) Headache and racing thoughts...
(2) Headache and racing thoughts...
(2) Headache and racing thoughts...
(2) Headache and racing thoughts...
(2) Headache and racing thoughts...
(2) Headache and racing thoughts...
4(1) Empty
(0) craving death
5No Reasons6No Reasons7No Reasons8No Reasons9No Reasons10(0) Apart from feeling like sh** from other reasons...my country disappoints me more and more every day!
11No Reasons12(4) a soldier of fortune13No Reasons14(0) derealization :(15(3) owner of my flat is horrible...he made me clean the entire flat just bcs there were some sparkles on floor & even clean his disgusting mess...i had to clean even my flatmate's room
(5) took 7 km long walk... I feel slightly better.. also my panda love is very supportive ^^
16(2) Ppl say love but mean anything but love... I can trust nobody anymore...17(1) dizzy, hot flashes, sweating abnormally, nausea, bad sleep. Idk what's happening, I'm eating fine, I'm drinking water, walking, my blood pressure is fine. Does anybody have an idea what it might be?
(0) Owner of the flat took my keys and said I don't need them... Those are jeys of my very room. How am I supposed not to be stressed and paranoid now... Sleep... I dont think so..
18No Reasons19No Reasons20(0) I swear I'll never eat again! I'm fat and disgusting!21No Reasons22No Reasons23(0) Studying, stressing, not sleeping... I read 1130 pages today... I'm dying...24No Reasons
25No Reasons26(3) tomorrow is D Day...exam...27No Reasons28(1) Headache so bad I want to shut myself just to stop it... :'(
(0) My head is better but I feel super paranoid, like I can't trust anyone, not even the person I love so much, I feel abandoned, completely irrationally I know, slipping into ed again.feel so fat and bad
29No Reasons30No Reasons