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February
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March
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April
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May
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June
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July
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September
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    1(6) restless kinda night. ° must have been all of the tea 'n' coffee.. hope to get a decent nap in later. [lots of naps this week ?]
(9) productive day ??
2No Reasons3(5) restless- no sleep tonight ° podcasts.
4(7) wide awake with music whilst the city sleeps.
(6) in bed with some books ° trying to take the time to read more.
(6) a friend o' mine asked me if i use a bullet journal. i do not- but i would love to make one! tomorrow's project perhaps? ? pandas, do any of you use a journal? if so, do you find 'em helpful?
5No Reasons6No Reasons7(7) so much to do today- and i'm feeling hopeful. x8No Reasons9(7) finally got some sleep °? today: more sleep & more self-care.10(8) 8 days in a row of taking my meds and i'm feeling better. a new record. hopefully i can keep it going. ° cleaning, reading, & resting- until i start walking to a pub with the beau after his shift.
11(5) no sleep. again. thank goodness for my cat & music during these lonely hours. ??
(7) have an interview tomorrow morning ° excitement has been replaced with nervousness. it has been so long.. hope it goes well.
12(7) got a decent night's sleep for once <3 ° interview today ° first things first, coffee & meds.
(4) interview didn't go well- quite bummed about it. ° a workout helped a little, and reading is somewhat relaxing- so there's that.. hoping to feel better tomorrow. x
13(7) disappointed about certain areas of my life -but i'm in the green & the sun! * went on a walking adventure around town for about 3 hours w/ the boyfriend. hot chocolate & pad thai stops were made. <3
(7) goals: weight loss ° job search ° build relationships ° play the piano.
(7) yoga before bed. ?
14(6) cleaning and fitness/meditation indoors, methinks. not feeling outside activities today.. ?15(6) two full weeks on meds: less of an appetite, gradual increase in energy, becoming social 'n' active again, less depressed & anxious... so far, so good. <316(6) down 10lbs. ° using a couple of calorie/weight trackers again -starting today. hopefully the tracking, communities and challenges will be an additional motivation.17(8) made a cherry cheesecake yesterday- but wasn't craving it. ° got my yoga & pilates workout on today- so i feel less useless this weekend + this cheesecake sounds more inviting.. note: add to food log.
18(9) should probably be doing more important tasks- yet i am sitting at the end of the couch groovin' to fun upbeat songs and checking my socials. ° pretty happy with my mood of 9, at the moment.19No Reasons20No Reasons21No Reasons22(8) went out for breakfast & shopping with mum. the weather is warming up- a good start to the near weekend. ° plans: visit the in-laws, workout, enjoy the sun & apply for work. no luck; still hopeful.
(8) can't wait to test out new hair products for my short hair. :3
(3) exhausted. ° can't fall asleep. :c #restless
23(3) time is flying yet i am moving in slow-mo. last night's lack of sleep is messing with me.. wanna do everything & nothing..24(8) got a decent night's sleep + woke up to cleo beside me- she's soo cute! =^.^= ° going for a short outta the city drive & plan on bringing my camera. it has been ages since i've captured something! <3
(8) hope to get some decluttering & organization done tonight. work on my bullet journal {new layouts & collections} + bust my butt with this job search madness. [still no luck (9) drove today! only have my permit. so i only do it with someone in the car. ° i'm an okay driver- sometimes i am not in the mood; it isn't a great joy of mine- but i will go for my road test soon-ish.
(9) it is such a lovely warm day in autumn. ° visited the in-laws. gonna organize this evening, work on journal & practice the piano for awhile. :3 feels good to have a great day. x
25(4) in the red zone. ° when your efforts don't amount to anything.. 26(5) sent the dr.'s office an email early this morning. hopefully they can handle my meds before thanksgiving. {i'm canadian, eh!} x
(5) trying to nurse m'self back to health. haven't been feeling too well since yesterday -- nothing serious. lack of healthy eats & sleep probably. plus loads of additional stress. nothing new there. sigh
(3) i've been unemployed for over six months and it is really eating at me.. i don't know what to do anymore. all i do is stay in the apartment & drive myself additionally mad. just hate m'self sometimes.
(3) i do things w. my partner because i enjoy their company but when they're working- i'm a mess. being alone sucks. i have people but sometimes being around them makes me feel worse.. idk anymore.
27(7) thanks to pandas [carl b., ronnie r., cindy m.] for yr words & hugs yesterday. ° today: MEDS, resetting my pc, getting my cleaning done & piano practice in, looking into online courses & volunteering.
(8) picked up some groceries & .n. treated me to a healthy supper to go with my meds- something i needed. i would be so lost without him in my life. x <3 if only i could express my gratitude more.
(8) are there any pandas who take anti-depressants? if so, normally what time do you take yours? ° i have been taking them in the a.m. with breakfast- they help but i'm in a lazy state throughout the day
28(8) positive vibes & love on a FB status that i made. ° i haven't been on the site in ages- the short of it: wanted peeps to know that i'm still around, always use messenger & to send me their novellas. x
(8) there are soo many things that i want to do tonight- but sleep might be the better bet. ?
29(7) decent sleep- maybe meds-at-night are meant for me. ° visiting mum today. photo adventure on saturday. then hopefully a girls' night with j. i miss her and our talks + laughs over wine. x
(7) thanksgiving is coming up. thinking of having a mini-dinner & inviting a great friend because they don't really have anyone. they are such a selfless person & they have been there for me. a lot. x <3
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October
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      1(7) 2.4 lbs down since last weigh-in. down 12 lbs overall. ?? slow go- but it's goin'. xx
(8) in a late evening cleaning & dancing mood. x <3
(5) wide awake & feeling hurt. ° listening to a classical music playlist in the dark- sometimes it helps with the heaviness on my heart.
2(8) trying to prioritize my quality of life. x
(6) about to embrace an intermittent fasting lifestyle. ° so many various changes in the works for this gal. x
3(6) zero sleep ° hoping for a morning nap & workout later. ?4(6) dr. appointment went well, i think. nothing special. ° 13 lbs. ?? ° feeling a little better since i've been eating healthier & working out. x
(7) stare the lion in the face. || heard some hard truths today- a few were hard to swallow but needed 'em at the same time. x ° it's time to get out of my own way.
5(3) in need of a nap before getting ready for the day. ° feeling below average- at the moment.. ?6(4) ???
(7) thanksgiving supper with the in-laws tonight. ° applied for a couple more jobs -- feeling a little more grateful + hopeful about my recovery; the now & the future. x
7(5) wearing a dress today ? ° this lifestyle shift: from poor to healthy has been great thus far. appearance and confidence wise. xx ?8(8) happy thanksgiving to my fellow canadian pandas! xo ?
(8) dinner at the parents' was amazing! ° n. is in cleaning mode & i am pro-nap right now. x ?
(7) people get upset when they don't hear from me for awhile. yet they don't make an effort to contact me..? why do i have to move the first piece? ° other than that, i am quite fabulous still. xo ?
9No Reasons10(5) laying in bed- knowing i have made no grand progress in over a year. idk what to do anymore.. ° long weekend is over. ate soo much- derailed. i have to start over: fitness & medication[s] wise. ¬_¬
(6) still in bed _ listening to jazz through spotify. trying not to think too deeply. ?? ° at least it's six & green worthy.
11(6) taking charge of my life. again. ° hitting the restart button. ??
(7) using a medication reminder/tracker app. ° trying to welcome different ideas this time around- hopefully it will be effective.
12(8) an ol' friend of mine sent me a message saying they're proud of me _ when it comes to getting back up over the years & keeping on with my recovery journey. ??13(8) messages through messenger disturbed my sleep -after that, i laid in bed & played a game. not a bad way to wake m'self up. now it's time to rise & take on the day. x ° ?? hope you have a decent day!
(8) thinking of having an at-home spa date with m'self. ?? just a full evening of relaxation. x
14(8) can't wait to take the clippers to my hair today ? short hair vibes ~ plus cleaning the apartment isn't so bad either. ° it's a gloomy yet calm saturday. love it. ?15(2) crying out of nowhere, or maybe something triggered this. i really don't know. sometimes crying can be healing -but it flippin' sucks right now.. #crumbling ° nothing is moving forward- i wanna sleep.
(2) the people around me are living -or surviving. and i am trapped in my own mind- frozen. ° maybe the lack of social interactions in my area, & the 6+ m. of unemployment are eating at me more & more...
(3) i want to be a better being- than i am presently. if a hiatus is needed -then bring it on. accountability n' guidance, perhaps. ° no idea where to start but in need of a change mightier than ever.
16(3) falling asleep at night has been so difficult. ° :c ° probably won't be able to shut my eyes until naptime.. ?
(5) it's nice to finally take the time to sit in my art space. <3 presently writing here -- listening to music & doing a creative brain dump. i am going to give artsy stuff as Christmas gifts this year. x
(2) sorry for all of the posts. i am all over the place today. still can't fall asleep -- and i have too much of a headache to paint. ? i feel so useless rn..
(7) sorbet & a movie [LOTR] with n. ??
(5) the lack of sleep lately has been getting ridiculous -- gonna try some stretches & meditation. x
17(8) about eleven hours of sleep. so happy ~ ?? ° might be a productive day on this end, afterall.
(7) in a re-organizing mood. saving the closet until the end bc i know i'm going to be super disappointed when i get in there. [i have nothing stylish nor professional- & it's going to discourage me lol.]
18(7) wide awake at four o'clock in the morning with n. & some tunes. ??
(1) i'm allowing the ppl in my life to get to me.. i need to seek anger management/help bc things have been awful this week- angry to an emotional wreck -- feeling like such an unpredictable mess..
(1) rest easy, Gord Downie. xo <3
19(1) massive headache - poor diet w. bad stomach pains [again] - anger & extreme crying, etc. ° gained all of my lost weight back. ° always starting over w. everything; i hate m'self most times..
(5) changed my mind × going to have a self-care day. ??
(2) the flu is kicking my ass. :'c
20(2) still super sick. × almost 5 a.m. i have been up & walking around- over 20 times. can't sleep and my joints are in an awful state. ° gonna go for a walk later, maybe. exhausted..
(5) if i'm not up by a certain time- cleo [my kitty] comes to check up on me. × so sweet; nurse cleo. =^.^=
(6) Stargate SG · 1 & snacks kinda night with n. ??
21(7) haven't smoked in about 4 years- yet purchased an e-vaporizer. the itch is back. * did a guided meditation for an hour; well i really slept for most of it. feeling a lot better. chili for supper. xo
(5) finally decided on an online course to take. ° realization: i have been out of school for 10 years. wowz.. ° now to work on finding employment & making money again to pay for the payments- and so on..
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