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February
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March
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June
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July
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October
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(0) My brains all over the place... I'm tired but no I won't be able to sleep. There's nothing to do on the physc ward... watching tv but headaches MASSIVE. ???????
(3) So #tired and in need of #sleep been a rather anxious type of day. #anxiety #braintoofast #mentalhealth #sleeppls #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #ptsd
19(7) Good day I think... well better then others of recent. #goodday #awake #hello #maybehyper
(0) Stressed out and anxiety attack hyperventilating shaking like anything Trying so hard to calm down and breathe normally. #help
20(0) Went out with hubby and daughters and then ok them out for tea ? was great. Then went to Morrison's and I had a fcking anxiety attack in front of everyone!!! Like wtf!!! I don't even no where it came21(1) #sleep #sleeptime now #pls22(5) Had a shower and feeling revived... waiting a few hours before I'm allowed off ward with my husband for a few hours. #timeout #hubby #qualitytime
(3) My bed is calling me...
23(0) #lonely #loneliness #physcward maybe surrounded by people here #24/7 but I feel alone.24(3) Time to rest my head for the night. Hopefully sleep too.25(0) So I've just spoken to nurse about the fact their gonna change my sleeping aid which does jack all. And he's just mentioned diazepam as they can get it in liquid form... not sure there's another one b
(0) Just wanted to say thank you to everyone for your kind words today. My heads extremely fckd after that meeting with the physcologist and I'm feeling extremely fragile and vulnerable.
(0) Anxious, exhausted, sleepy and now have had my 15mg mirtazapine and it's kicked in so gonna good night all!! Speak tomorrow. Hugs to all!!
26(5) Well that sleeping tablet worked wonders last night. Went to bed at 11pm and was flat out five mins later. Only bad thing is I didn't wake up until 10.53am... #sleepyhead
(0) Mood has suddenly rocked downwards and feeling my mind spiral out of any happiness and feeling numb and empty... #spiralingmood #struggling
(0) Mood is SUPER LOW... voices are SUPER LOUD... I'm struggling so much today haven't felt this low in quite a while... sorry if I don't respond to people. Am literally just staring at the tv
27No Reasons28(3) Just been watching the Spanish lesson lol... I kept translating it all into French bless them...
(5) Went for a walk with J (staff) and D (patient) legs are aching so bad but felt sooo goood lol ? D wouldn't shut up the whole time nattering non stop rubbish lol ? How are you? Xxx
(10) Just spent an hr and a 1/2 in asda... haha!!! H (patient) (makeup bestie) made me buy two lipstick ? and a new mascara... never owned a lipstick ? in my life and now I have 2!! Walked over 4 miles.
(0) Mood has all of a sudden gone in a MAJOR downwards spiral...
(0) Tired and exhausted... moods severely low... scared of my thoughts
29(0) Seen my parents... was good seeing them but really could of done without all the demanding questions and demands... my head is even more of a mess then it was before
(0) Feeling really sick... she's found me!!! She's gonna get me!!! No no no... this can't be happening why can't she not get the hint I don't want to no her... leave me alone pls!!!
30(0) Really need to talk...
(0) Night all... really don't want to sleep because of nightmares but the sleeping drugs is kicking in and I can't resist it... DAMN THIS...
31(0) Twenty minutes until my 2nd physcologist meeting. Then 50 minutes of mind fcking up questions and delving into subjects that I'm not actually sure I'm ready to talk about. Scared now only 11 minutes?
(0) Feeling extremely suicidal after that meeting with my physcologist. Talked about my bio parents etc... now emotions have come to bursting out!!! I've told one of the nurses how I'm feeling too...
November
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  1(0) Feeling extremely suicidal still... struggling to keep it all together... even tried to join in on the game of rummykub with the other patients and all of a sudden I wanted to s/h but I walked away2No Reasons3(0) Haven't slept well yet again... F was on a major rampage last night which scared the life out of me. Have just had bloods taken ahead of my operation on Tuesday at 8am... urgh!!! But it needs doing.
(0) Been out with my husband and that was good kept me distracted but felt guilty because I'm still feeling rather suicidal and he has tried to help me but it's not worked... I feel like a total failure
(0) I've just had 5mg of liquid Temazepam... which is supposed to help me sleeping. Had it about 15mins ago and already feeling dizzy and blurred vision so please excuse misspellings...
4(0) Slept in until 11am bt didn't get to sleep til 2am. Still feeling really suicidal but hoping to go for a walk with a staff member to clear my head a bit.
(5) Sat in room 136 watching lord of the rings: return of the king with F she's a massive lotr fan too. We both LOVE IT... others being far too loud so we're in here with blankets and stuff on our own lol
5(0) Think I officially give up... night all
6(0) 5.30am and I've slept maybe 4 hrs and I can't sleep now because F and H are snoring so loud I can actually hear it above my music at FULL!! I'm exhausted and I no only too well that I'm gonna crash
(0) Good morning for the third time!! Yep I went back to bed yet again at 8am and woke up at 11am. Knackered still but can't sleep no more as I might not sleep tonight and tonight's the crucial night
(5) All packed for my operation and overnight stay tomorrow over to Wednesday... gonna try and sleep... fingers crossed cos I no I need to. Think it's a night for #kateysegal music tonight. Hugs to all.
7(2) Anxious ahead of today... been awake since 5am and now 5.40am and Just waiting for the husband to pick me up... was great being able to call him at 5.30am (on his request) to be like MORNING!!! lol!
(0) I'm tonnes of #pain from my surgery on my oesophagus today but all went well and 1/2 way there got to have another one in six weeks but the pain is only temporary. Night all xx
8No Reasons9(0) Really struggling with my ED10(0) Watching holiday programme in Cyprus... damn I miss my holidays over there. Trying to keep distracted... bless H she's said she'll smack the physcologist if she “puts me down”. Bless H...
(0) DAMN IT!!! got the time of my physcologist appointment wrong!! It's 3pm not 10am... and trying to get hold of my other half to tell him all this and he's not answering phone or responding to messages
11No Reasons12(0) I'm so angry right now... such an insensitive comment and remark
13No Reasons14No Reasons15(0) Trying to find out what's wrong with my husband but he's refusing to talk to me about anything... think I now no how it feels because we are both as stubborn arses as each other...
(0) No one would care if I disappeared off the face of the planet....
16(2) Too many two faced bitches on this ward and that's three of the female patients... and I'm stuck in the middle of all three because me being me don't want to piss anyone of them off or become bitchy17No Reasons18(10) Haha I've had my hair cut and have dyed it myself... just been out with my husband and daughters around asda and Morrison's and realised I have blue dye stained ears haha!!!19No Reasons
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