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January
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(5) Feeling better today overall than I have been feeling.
(5) Restless day.
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(3) I fucking hate waking up.
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(6) Going out to dinner in a little while. Feeling mentally lighter than my norm which is nice and, whatever the reason, I'm grateful.
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(4) So irritable today...
(5) Took me a long time to balance myself out today. Needed anxiety meds. Haven't gone out.
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(5) Feeling uneasy today and have a bad headache but still my mood could be worse.
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15(5) Morning ??
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16(5) Feeling unsure about what to do today.
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(4) 4.5-ish mood. Just feeling lonely. A little on edge.
17(5) Kinda anxious but... Mood isn't terrible.
(5) Heading to my sister's soon to spend some time with her ?
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18(4) When I'm tired my ability to keep my mood afloat is incredibly compromised.
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(4) Feeling so irate today. Worked myself up into some painful tension. Hate that my bad mood involves my bf--he's usually the place to turn when I feel this way. I just need to find my balance again...
(3) Today has been mentally awful. The snow was a really nice little detail to cheer me up a little though ??? Trying to be as strong as I can given how rough I feel.
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20(3) Waking up full of alternating hopelessness and rage.
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(6) Out at my favorite place and my mood is improving a lot.
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21(3) SO much anxiety.
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(5) Keep getting hit with waves of sadness... But they don't last very long. I think I feel lonely. Sometimes I can't quite tell.
22(5) Nervous about a doctor's appointment I have today (just hate dealing with doctors in general) and not physically feeling very well...
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(4) Not very focused today. Physically hurting....
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24(5) I'd probably be in a worse mood if I wasn't going out soon. I'm tired of staying with family. About 3 more weeks and I'll be with my boyfriend again. And then I'll be missing my family.... ha... Bleh.
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(5) Feeling a little unstable today... I don't feel bad but I'm not exactly feeling cheerful either.
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(5) Spending the day reading in bed.
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(4) Feeling a little unfocused and anxious... I guess I'll push myself to get ready and go out to see if it helps my mood. Woke up feeling good for once and then things kinda went downhill.
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28(4) Had such a nice dream about my dog (who we lost a few years ago) but I woke up feeling depressed and very lonely.
(5) Feeling better for the moment. It's snowing and instead of enjoying it, I'm just thinking about how it's got me stuck in the house all day which is never good for my anxiety lately.
(4) No interest in anything today. Going to make something for lunch and then I guess I'll just continue doing next to nothing ?
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29(4) Worried about various things.
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30(5) Think I'll be stuck inside all day because of how super cold it is, but I'm going to try to make it cozy and try to minimize anxiety by staying in bed with books and coffee and tea.
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(4) A bunch of annoyance going on trying to change my phone number because the AT&T guy messed everything up. I have such a bad headache. Lots of tension. Just want things straightened out.
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(4) Lots of irritability. I'm focused lately on keeping my anger in check. Problems that arise can be handled in ways that do not involve letting my rage get to me.
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February
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    1(5) Woke up feeling very scared/panicky but I've kind of brought things back around to 'fair enough.'
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2(5) Kind of a stressful night. Little focus.
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(5) I've been tired and irritable for most of the day. Grabbing some much needed alone time right now.
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(6) Out with my mom.
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4(4) So, so irritable today. Down. Tired on top of it so trying to get out for awhile seems like so much exhausting work...
(4) Mood low. Energy low. Worries, fears. It's that kind of day.
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(6) Out with my sister.
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6(3) It's almost hard to believe how bad I feel given that I've stayed somewhat evenly afloat for awhile now.
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(4) Struggling with my temper and emotions in general today. I feel drained and overwhelmed.
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8(3) Overwhelmed and it's coming at me from different directions.
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(6) Have been reading. Feeling inspired. Feeling more positive.
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(5) I'm heading back to NY on Thursday and today was spent preparing for that. No matter what it feels difficult to leave home and my family. In the back of my mind, I'm waiting for my mood to dip.
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(5) Feeling kind of blank today.
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15(2) Very rough waking up.
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16(4) Better time waking up today than yesterday but still rough.
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(5) Kind of a stressful ordeal of day (for a few little reasons) but I'm hanging in there as best I can. I just talked to my mom and that was nice.
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(5) Got ready so I could go out and have coffee and read and spend some time alone. Feeling better right now.
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(4) I'm trying, I really am, but... I don't know that it's working.
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(5) Dealing with stuff I don't want to deal with today but my mood could be worse.
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March
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(5) Feeling anxious and unfocused today.
(6) Alone time all night ?
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(6) Getting dinner.
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(6) Last night alone for awhile. Playing video games, listening to Harry Potter podcasts, and doing very few chores ?
7(6) Had a nice night by myself. I really do love my alone time...
(5) Haven't stayed up all night in such a long time.
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(4) Feeling lonely and empty.
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(4) Feeling depressed today.
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(4) Issues to deal with. Feeling frustrated and irritable.
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(3) Headache, stress, frustration, worry.
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14(3) Slept so much yesterday. Didn't want to be awake. Feeling about the same today. I'm letting my worries take over and it's not good...
(4) Still not doing great but feeling an improvement since earlier today. My mom called and talking to her felt good. I have so much gratitude for my family. Now getting a few things done around the apt.
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(4) SO MUCH anxiety today.
(5) Finally feeling calmer. Glad to have some alone time right now. My boyfriend's presence in the apt was adding to my anxiety today.
17(5) Woke up in a panic but was able to let those feelings go pretty quickly.
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(4) Guess I'm up and down today.
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(4) No energy. Very little motivation.
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(5) Bad day. Looking forward to TV and totally zoning out before bed.
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(5) Walked and just now got coffee.
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22(5) My mood feels very tenuous. Like it could dip at any moment...
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(5) Took a short walk and got a few groceries. Bf still sick but my mood is less dismal today.
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25(3) Depressed. Lonely. Anxious. Lots of tension and pain throughout my body.
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28(4) Waking up feels painful almost every single day.
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(5) Very low energy today.
(5) Restless! But my mood is fairly ok.
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April
MTWTFSS
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(3) Well my mood dipped significantly in a short amount of time. I could just break down and cry right now.
(4) Feeling a tiny bit better. I cried and it felt like such a great release.
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(4) Took a nap. Managed to make dinner.
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3(3) Still really down. SO lonely. Everything is bothering me...
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4(2) I feel so low...
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(5) Because I'm reading & having coffee and focusing very hard on ONLY each individual moment (and not worrying into the future), I feel slightly ok right now.
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5(4) Terrible night. Argued w/the bf over something that could have been a productive discussion had it not turned into an absolutely ridiculous feud. Left me feeling even worse than I have been feeling.
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(5) I haven't been going out because I've had a pretty rough week mentally speaking... Today we're going to go for a walk, maybe stop at a couple stores... It's warm today.
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(4) Restless. Want to be working on something but unsure how to start.
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9(4) I try not to take any anxiety meds before I'm out of bed in the morning but today that didn't pan out so I slept in too late but I'm calmer. Sad but pretty calm.
(5) Reading, writing. My mood doesn't feel steady.
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11(5) An empty day but... painless too.
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(5) Stayed focused for a couple hours. Feel OK but mood still not lifting above a 5. Not complaining though, I'll take it.
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(4) Feeling blah. Uninterested. Lazy.
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(5) Dealt with some family stuff I was worried about and putting off. Feel ok but still lazy. Oh well. I've managed a few chores already anyway.
(4) So anxious that it's detracting from my focus and I'm not accomplishing what I want to accomplish right now.
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(5) Kind of restless but trying to channel this weird energy to get things done. Talked to my aunt for awhile on Facetime. That was nice.
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18(5) Been getting up a little earlier every day.
(4) Feeling so restless and scattered still... Third day without TV or internet (due to no fault or choice of our own) and I don't really like how much it is bothering me to be without it.
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(5) Went for a walk. Was probably good to get some exercise but it's already feeling too hot for me.
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(4) So anxious. Nervous about all kinds of upcoming things... Not trying to think about them and mostly succeeding but I'm still experiencing the emotions.
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(5) Finished my book and called my mom. Trying to keep from getting too negative about... Everything. Going to have a... weird few months going forward.
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21(5) Woke up early today. I'll probably need a nap.
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