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January
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15To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter16To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter17(2) Currently sick and tired of having panic attacks, feeling sick, feeling ill, shaking, constant headaches. This is all because of stress. Also I lost my old account so hey I'm back :)
(5) I know crying can clear your head and helps when you sad but, can it help get rid of stress, anger and anxiety??
(2) Emotionally and physically drained from school once again. Had a bad morning today, involved tears, being late and a small panic attack. The school is good at catering for everything expect test prep.
18(5) Enjoying reading 'No kind of atmosphere'. Red Dwarf fan fiction and is actually one of the better ones I've read in a long while. Usually you get the occasional 'What the...' fic.
(6) Sunk in that this year I'm a young adult and next year I can learn how to drive. Don't expect to end up driving until 2021.
(3) I feel like someone has crawled into my spine and ripped it apart, and that someone has chopped up everything in my torso. Loving the cold, thanks mate - Torso triggered by my back pain caused by cold
19(5) Just one more lesson then it's the end of the week. Just hoping my baby cat can make it or alright.
(2) Dad news about my baby cat, she had to be put down because of a brain tumour. Whatever they would've done would've still of ended up hurting her in the end:
20(5) Feeling slightly better today. I have my other cat sitting on my legs just staying with me.21To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
22(5) Had a lazy and depressing morning. Still depressed and have CAMHS in the morning but felt alright this evening, moved things around in my bedroom, changed the sheets and bathed. Feeling okay-ish now.23(5) CAMHS and then school. My teacher will be asking about the cat, then doing a test and finally telling my CAMHS lady about everything that's happened. Well that's before school anyway.
(2) Feeling ill, but convinced that's because I had to recap the whole month to my CAMHS worker and felt awful afterwards. If stress can just kindly not be a thing I think that'd be great.
24(5) Not looking forward to school, one there's s storm and two school. I mean I like storms.
(6) Despite having a bad day at schoo I've been to a free jump place and now McDonald's.
(3) Fed up of feeling sick and ill all this month. It's alls that I've ever done, despite feeling ill I've been doing my daily routines and they're more tiring than they used to be.
25(7) Had a pretty good day today. My Rimmer (RD) cosplay patches came in, I need to wait a month for the shirt now. Still it gives me time to get the rest of the things needed in on time.26(7) Got gifted s military style coat today, thank you manager.27To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter28(5) Didn't update yesterday but spent it being lazy then did some crafts. About to go to sleep now.
29(8) Good morning everyone. I slept at 6pm last night and woke up at 7:41am this morning. A good sleep. Now I feel as if I've been awake for agessss
(5) Done nothing all day now I feel rubbish for it. I wish Comic Con and my cosplay parts would hurry up :I The fish tank too.
(3) Felt like I've wasted my day. Going to sleep now as I have school in the morning. Just hope tomorrow is better.
30(4) Wearing all black today, feeling okay. Not sure weather to come home or go to volunteer (they know why I am out at the moment.)
(5) My sister from Scotland is coming down on Thursday. Want to escape the first half of school to pick her up from her grans.
31(5) On my way back from school and on the rattling bus again. Thankfully Wednesday is over now so I can relax again.
(6) Listening to War of Worlds while I doodle. How are you pandas?
February
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   1(7) Had a decent day today, definitely got to go on a healthier diet due to nothing that's junk food agreeing with me..ever.2To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter3(5) Had a panicked sick feeling evening, talking to a friend made me feel much better.4(6) Spending today out with my family before my sister leaves to Scotland.
5To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter6(7) Talking to s friend I haven't heard from in four months. He left to focus on his happiness and wellbeing. It's good to have him back.
(3) Found out I have to catch the bus to school, I don't know why but my anxiety causes me to hate bus rides. My father is home but isn't taking me as my two sisters have kicked off about going to school.
(4) Had a rubbish morning but I'm glad I am home. Planning on waking up two hours earlier than normal to avoid anything else..
7To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter8(6) Only two lessons today and then three tomorrow. May and April are busy months that I can't wait for. May we're having a party, April we're going to London and then I'm having another x-ray; nervous.
(6) Making my way to school, anxiety lower than usual which is great, music high. Temperature, moderate.
(6) Watching The Brittas Empire wrapped up in a blanket and my cat upon my knee.
9(6) Had an alright day, did cooking and double Lit. Finished all the poems now. I'm sad due to hating language and loving English Litrature. My friend came over we went on a walk and just spoke about life
(6) Hoping to see my girlfriend around Valentine's Day, I have a plan of just making her coffee and pizza and just watching movies. Not much but it's the little things. I hope to add more later.
10(4) Feeling sick and lightheaded. Most likely caused by the shouting that's just happened between my father and siblings, then myself and my father.
(3) I'd give anything to swap out my Anxiety attacks for a once a month meltdown caused by my Aspergers again. Really sick and tired of feeling sick and well tired from the attacks.
(5) Drawing, feel a lot better since eveything has calmed down.
11(5) Had a decent sleep, hopefully today is a better day.
12To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter13(8) 3:23am marks the time I finished a huge digital drawing (for me anyway). Goodnight all!
(4) I keep twisting my ankle, it's the same one and can happen just by walking, three times so far sand was in the same amount of pain from when I sprained it badly. It wears off after a while and I can
(4) This human is single again due to a bad patch in her family life.
14(6) Made another new friend today, and the other is coming over again on Friday this week. Just need Thursday to pass quickly :I15(5) At school early. Hoping at least my other friend is here, sadly will only see him for one lesson as different science groups.
(6) Got a job at a doggy daycare, nervous but looking forward to it. Not because of the dogs, because how would the staff will react to a teen who looks ten and is started their first day?
(5) Back of my heel feels like Jelly, getting a doctors appointment due to having twisted that heal really badly twice in one 24h period.
16(5) Was close to an anxiety attack earlier, went downstairs and talked about anything. Came back up, drew and now I plan to sleep, hopefully.
(7) Feel a lot better than yesterday.
(3) Friend never came over.
17(8) Had s good day at my new job. Covered in mud and smell like dog but it's part of the job and I love dogs.18(6) Hoping either of my friends can meet up, I don't have any plans until the evening of all week. No structure before that is horrible.
(4) Dropped some 'friends'. Whenever we went out they invited someone else and never told me and mostly stayed with them. I always ended up tagging behind. Same for when the group went out, tagged behind.
(7) Going to town tomorrow with friend who couldn't meet on Friday. Going bowling then subway, then back to mine for a sleepover.
19(5) Checked my mood calendar and only one red square. A lot better than Jan where there are more.
(6) Lazing around a bit before I go to town to meet Hol.
(6) Drew in a game of bowling, brought some more putty, brought subway and Just the smeg ups from Red Dwarf. Got asked for ID (JTS was 15) as I really do look 13. Luckily my friend was with me and she
20(6) Had a great day in York! Went to Roman Bath, York Castle Museum, Cathedral, York's chocolate story, Three Harry Potter stores. Glad to be home though. Was some stress in the morning when we arrived.21(5) Dear chocolate lovers, Easter eggs are £1 in Morrisons. You're welcome.
(5) Watching Red Dwarf with my cousin I haven't seen since I was nine. Send help.
22(3) Having a really bad nights sleep. I'm overheating and woke up at one, went back to sleep at around 3:40am terrified myself in a dream about my labelling machine the noise it made wasn't very pleasant.23(5) Had a somewhat better sleep than last night. Keep randomly waking up at six-thirty. If only I woke up that time on a school week.
(7) Doing one of those copper scratch drawing things. Relaxing.
24(8) Got work with the dogs today, extremely greatful for where I am now than two years ago. This time last year I was depressed, didn't attend school, do work. I didn't have the motivation to do anything.
(7) I'm the morning ran around with the puppies after their training class. Waited for people on the open day, only one showed up but the owner and helpers dogs I got to watch over and play with when wait
(6) Woken up from my nap, now watching S7 E8 of Death In Paradise.
25(4) Got a friend coming over today, I need to clean my room and I'm actually debating just shoving it into my wardrobe to sort out later so I have time to shower...whoops?
26(2) Not looking forward to school tomorrow. Found out they have my phone number for them to call me and ask where I am if I'm late. They have my mothers phone number for a reason. I am uncomfortable with27(4) First day back to school after the holidays, thankfully I only have English and I'm dreading the results of my 'functional skills' English writing. I know I haven't passed and it'll be a miracle if I
(5) At school earlier than expected, cleaning my phone case. It's silicon and picks up everything )_<
(6) Found audiobooks are better for bus journeys. Having to take the bus more as my father isn't able to take me due to work at 8:00am.
(3) Feel like splitting open my spine and getting this operation over and done with. Nervous for my spine appointment in April.
28(5) Internet friend got jealous I have a friend in real life (I only have the one in real life) and began texting me stuff such as 'I'm done. That's it I'm being used as a doll again'. No I'm not using
(3) Every morning is a battle waking up and then having the motivation to go to school. I've shortened my charity work time because of this too.
March
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   1(8) Woken up to find out it's a snow day, thank you weather. The only time I can have a day off without it affecting my attendance score (trying to aim for 85%)
(2) Post meltdown, over a game not rage-quit it. Thankfully my cat has come upstairs with me after being reassured that I'm not going to hurt her. (I made loud noises) now on the floor with her butt on my
2(1) Been up early and have avoided my family since. Only problem is I have a headache and I'm a bit hungry. Avoiding them because of meltdown yesterday evening.
(5) Went down around late afternoon. Ate and feeling much batter.
3(8) Did my dog work today, tired after playing in the snow with them.
(5) Finally working on my cosplay. Top half is complete when I add the badges. Filling out everything Listy's been put on report for in the book. Anyone know where I can get black army style boots from?
4(5) Mother has just plucked my eyebrows, my scar in the eyebrow is now really visible. There's two together and they're in the shape of circles.
(6) Starting a big project. Drawing project on my phone. While listening to music. Link to your favourite song (no swearing please) ??
(6) Should I make a place for my art to be viewed if any of you pandas would like to see it and give feedback?
(5) Hoping the weather clears up so I can start going on evening runs. I just need to invest in sports shoes.
5(7) Watching The Brittas Empire, then again I only watch TBE, Red Dwarf and Sooty. Anyone got any other shows I should watch?
(7) Just been extremely productive by hanging my bed sheets, pillows and cover. Cleaned my shelves and organised my desk.
6(5) After two weeks my friend is coming back to school which is good because I have missed her.
(7) Just had my hair cut, hopefully it's not cold so my ears can retain some warmth. Been wanting the long side off for ages.
7(5) Good day at school, going to look around a collage tomorrow. Won't accept I'm growing up whoops.
(3) Just realised that my only friend in school will be leaving, all my favourite teachers are retiring or leaving too. Come July I'll be alone again. I hate change.
8(4) Lesson starts in eight minutes and I thought it started at 9:30am which was yesterday /).- At least I'm early.
(3) Had a okay-ish day today. Teacher brings on stress by treating us as if we're about two years old. Treat us like mature humans we are and maybe we won't have more anxiety about coming to school.
9(3) Woken up to parents yelling st each other.
(8) Can't wait to work with the puppos tomorrow.
(6) Glad I have the same sense of humour as my father otherwise things would be very different. In the car we made some offensive jokes and he told me about what happened at his fathers funeral.
10No Reasons11(7) Had a good day yesterday, my friend got stuck in a elevator before we met xD
(3) Wish someone would tell dad that we'd have more respect for him if he didn't loose his case every time something is left out. Sick and tired of the arguments and shouting that happen.
(5) Feeling really rubbish within' myself. Not quite sure what's up with me. Depending on the weather I'm going to go for a run.
12(5) My cat is somewhere in the house. Where? I'm not sure13(5) Good time at athletics14No Reasons15No Reasons16(5) Sad. No WiFi :(
(4) Felt sick, had my first anxiety attack in over two months and I'm now tired and ready for bed feeling less sick.
17No Reasons18(6) Had a good day at work yesterday. Mopped and picked up dog business, played with the dogs, went out for some milk, came back played some more and mopped the floors (kennel cough etc) before we left.
(7) On a six hour call with old friends. Had been a good day
19No Reasons20(5) Back to school later so off to sleep I go.
(6) Half decent sleep, thankful my father is at home so he can take me.
(3) Had a talk about my youngest sibling at school, she's nine and has autism. From own bad experiences with getting help, with my own autism I don't want her to go through the same thing.
21(5) I have a platonic partner, we act like a couple yet we don't have the official title which for me at the moment is good. Considering we're both still young too.
(4) Woken up with a scratchy throat, doubt I'll be talking much.
(4) Sad my favourite teacher has left. My friend and the teacher cried, I didn't. I cried yesterday. We're meeting again in August for a McDonald's to celebrate the Year 11s GCSEs :D
22(5) Woke up feeling much better, throat isn't as bad as it was. So hoping it was just the tail wind of the cold that's been going round.
(5) Going on a train later today with my youth group.
(7) Had an alright last day of school, waiting to be picked up.
23No Reasons24(5) Hopefully going to go on a run after work tomorrow. For now it's get some sleep.
(2) Thought I had escaped where people tell me what effects they want from injuring themselves and then saying they'll love it more then anything. It brings up my anxiety and fear having it happen twice.
25(3) I've started wishing horrible things upon my father because of soemthing he constantly does.
(4) Managed to get rid of my anger by playing a duelling game online. Still stressed.
26(6) My cat has started rubbing her face against mine. I mean I don't mind it just wondering why my cat is being extremely cuddly. Oh well ?
(6) Just been on a run had a mish-mash of athletics clothes on but feel better.
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27No Reasons28(5) Hoping I can go to my friends house vice-versa. I miss her :I
(7) My friend is coming over soon, my back hurts from cleaning but I've applied gel to it to take away the pain.
29(3) When adults shout at their children it's perfectly acceptable, but when the kids shout back to defend themselves they need to be punished. Great logic.
(0) I want to...
30(5) At my grandads recovering from my sensory overload.
(8) Felt compelled to eat the food my aunt had started making in the oven, she never told us about it. So my grandad and I have had one bite and have left the rest. Whoops xD
31(7) Came home before my mother who walked in with a hamster, the cage and everything. Have welcomed Syrup into the family.
April
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      1(5) Lazy day today, I might ask to go out with a friend tomorrow. Can't stand being cooped up.
2(3) Late night, I need to fix my sleep patten before I go back to school. Have a feeling this is from the many times of randomly waking up at my grandads house.3(4) Sleeping patten is messed up. Quite badly.
(5) Had a bath and brushed my teeth and washed my hair this morning so I don't feel gross. Now 'force feeding' myself as I know I need the energy and food to get back to where I was than back in this pit.
4(5) Keep having dreams about flying in a plane. I've never been in a plane and have anxiety around it. It's helping in a way but it'd help if we left the ground in my dreams xD
(8) Feeling ontop of the world, told my father how I fell about him and how it's not right for his own children to feel scared of him as he can react to anything we say. He told me to F off.
5(7) Re-drawing s portrait I did back in 2016. Can already see the improvement. The hair has more detail and the nose is no longer a weird rectangle.6(4) Hoping my body can and will allow me to get up at half eight everyday. Simply because of my body clock being out of it. Wish I still had melatonin but have to be prescribed that :I
(4) Had a meltdown today, hoping the extreme burst of sudden energy that has now been lost is all I need to kick my ass back to sleeping properly again. It's taken it's toll.
7(8) Had a good day st work today. Had a nap when I came home but other then that I'm okay.
(7) Positivity time! Post one thing that you've accomplished that is positive. If you feel as if you haven't done anything positive comment something you'd like to accomplish! #Kindness #Positive
8(7) Meeting my partner today at 10:30am definitely need to start moving.
(10) What did you do today? Well, my friend and her mum and I got threatened by a swan.
9(7) Finally feel like I'm making progress with my sleep schedule. Feeling tired towards 1:00am is always a record when you've been sleeping at 3:30am each evening. Definitely needed to go on that walk.
(3) School have added two extra lessons onto my timetable tomorrow without consulting me first. Just when I thought they were understanding me ?
(7) Just went geocaching. Tired now but needed the walk.
(4) Aye one too many mints earlier. Now I'm paying for it. Whenever I get stressed I like chewing hard boiled sweets. And I think mints were not my best option to do so.
10(5) Back at school. First day back and I already want to leave. I won't be there on 17th or 20th so that's good.11(5) Might make it in on time. Who knows.12(7) Day off school because of CAMHS.13(2) WiFi is back and I say hi to a friend I missed and she's starts describing what she's going to do to herself. Great, exactly what I needed, a hello would've done. But that's too good for her it seems.14(2) Sister is making me nervous when she handles Syrup (hamster) Syrup has already bit me and it's no surprise when my sister face is always in hers, putting Syrup on her head and rocking her. ??
(2) Now my 'friend' is having a go at me as I told her about my anxiety and nervousness around my sister handling the hamster and she said 'once you get the hamster you aren't going to like it/deal withit
(4) Mother is planning to search my room for things I could hurt myself with just because I had used the tomato slicer for a tomato. It's really nice not to be trusted. Why is everyone against me?
15(4) Two rounds of toast, a tomato sandwich and chips. I went out and brought healthy snacks to have instead as I noticed I had been eating my emotions. I never do that so something in its place instead.
(5) Not allowed to go and meet a friend I haven't seen for ages :I
16(4) Only tomorrow until my yearly spine check up. That soon came around fast. Faster than I thought. Thankfully once that's over it's a three day wait until we go to London.
(3) Created a playlist for tomorrow's journey to an Orthopaedic hospital, and hour and a half depending on traffic. Nervous and anxiety filled but I'll be okay. I think.
17(7) Good results on my spine. They're going to leave it for six months before giving me another X-Ray. I'm due a growth spurt and the thing that could change negatively in that way is the thoratic curve.18(6) Goodnight sleep, all ready for school just need to brush my teeth.
(5) When did England hit twenty-four degrees? I mean I'm making no effort to cool down as I'm sat in my winter clothes and everyone on the bus around me are in summer clothes.
19(8) Attenborough: Three shovels, and then everyone claps. Sir Attenborough on the queen doing some royal planting. Enjoying The Queen's Green Planet.
(7) Goodnight pandas, I'm off to London tomorrow. Hope you all enjoy the weather if you have it good. If not don't let it get you down :)
20(3) Sister is causing an argument between everyone in the family by not getting ready. I'm just sat in the background waiting for everyone to finish and for Ellie to finally get ready.
(9) Having a great time in London so far
21(7) Goodnight sleep :)
(6) Feet ache but had a good day. Time to go home.
(5) My bed has never felt more comfortable.
22(5) Went back over my blips in London. I was at meltdown point for two of these occasions. Told a girl my age that if she kept staring at me I'd hit her. A woman was staring so I said 'Yes?!'
(5) Probably should point out that when I'm in meltdown mode I have no control over what I say to people.
23(3) Felt like rubbish ever since my panic attack on Saturday evening24(5) School have changed my timetable .
(5) First in the bus until the first stop. A mother and child got on, child in a pushchair. IT EXTENDED ITS LEGS AND TRIED TO KICK ME. I don't know how to feel ?
25(3) Can't wait for the day to be over. Only have half of I.T today due to a meeting.
(6) A smell of a new book is one of the best smells.
26(5) Had a good day, glad it's Friday tomorrow.27(7) A man came into our youth club yesterday and was also a fan of red dwarf. He gave me a 'H' letter as I was missing the H. JUST BOOTS AND TROUSERS TO GO.
(3) Feeling a lot of sudden anxiety on the bus, joined with back pain. Almost in town so hopefully I'll be okay.
(3) Having an anxiety attack over a stomach ache as I stupidly drank milk when lactose intolerant. And had lots of sugar with it so now it's taken it's toll. Very inconvenient when I have to officiate a
28(8) Can't wait for the competition, I'm officiating and if it rains I'm going into Photo Finish.29(7) Had a good day yesterday and slept well.
(7) Off to see Infinity War tomorrow with Holly.
30(5) Got home from watching Infinity War. I don't know how to feel.
May
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 1(3) Don't have the motivation to get up and go to school. Even when I have an off day the school says 'At least come into school' yada yada.2(4) Don't want to go on the bus..
(3) Tempted just to skip school and go to town. It's in town anyway. Not like anyone will notice. They ignore me anyway and all my friends are leaving so what's the point?
(4) Told my keyworker how I felt, got passed onto the head and resulted in a phone call home. On the bus back home now. Thankfully I'm meeting my friend tomorrow after school.
(8) Best thing that's happened. My London friend is allowed to join us in London for a day in October :D
3(7) Hoping today warms up. Got science and maths then I'm meeting my cousin.
(4) Almost was in a bus crash this morning. Car pulled it in front of us so the bus had to slam it's breaks on. I was sat behind the driver and went flying into the seperation screen. A woman hit her face
4(5) Going into town with my grandad is going to be an adventure.
(5) Watching Sooty (2011) and B*Witched are singing on the show. I bet some of the kids are like 'Who the heck are B*Witched?' CEST LA V'IE(?)
(9) Watched Infinity War again, had an anxiety attack but ignored it and got invested in the movie and it helped an awful lot. Thank you Marvel for ten glorious years.
5(7) Glad to be going back to work. Missed the dogs.
(5) Hot and sunny, already had a nap. Diet currently consists of ice lollies
6(6) Time for bed I think.
(5) Had a good night sleep. Got a bit of a headache but that's expected when I've been in bed two hours later than normal.
(5) Think I'm going to have an early morning bath. Found my bath melt :)
(7) Just made my favourite treat, it's in the over cooking now and ive never made these treats without my cookery teacher, so it's going to be interesting on what happens.
(6) Room is almost all clean, bed has been changed and I've had a bath. I am feeling very clean from the hot spring sun.
7(4) No internet, and sad that Comic-con has been pushed from June to October. One of my comic friends was looking forward to see me again. Hopefully can meet her again :I
(7) Just had my hair cut, feels a lot lighter and better now it's off my face.
8(3) Hate my keyworker with a passion. I'm so angry at her that I can feel it in my chest, and I have scinece with her today ? She usually asks me how am I and I'm going to tell her. Weather she likes it
(3) I feel ill and have a huge urge not to be here(school).
(4) The head of the school now knows why I'm angry and also why I dislike my keyworker.
(4) Best friend is currently in hospital being checked out. He won't tell me what's wrong but is going to, I've made him. Someone needs to collapse in school and then the day of drama will be complete.
(7) Kept up with the day, and got on the bus to discover it's my favourite bus driver. He's so happy and cheerful, I tend to have less anxiety when I'm around people who are happy.
9(7) Two more lessons to go, then I'm going home. Back into town to babysit my sister then back home and out with a friend.
(5) Just moved to the outside seat on the bus so no one can sit next to me. The bus is practically empty anyway.
(2) I give up on friendships. Almost an hour later and I'm still waiting for my friend to show up. Texted. Nothing. This friend has a skill at being incredibly late and not texting.
10(6) Just today and tomorrow to go and then my sister comes done from Scotland!
(3) At Trampoling place, and feel sick so stopped bouncing. Sat on the sides with my dad. Have a few days where the feeling of my food digesting can just throw me off the whole day.
11(7) Bus is packed with OAPs. Lots of chattering. Tempted to start singing 'The wheels on the bus'12(1) Went to meet a friend. I don't know who the their five are after planning it was just going to be us two.13No Reasons
14No Reasons15(3) Ran off from friend in town on Saturday now have WiFi back.
(8) Feeling okay, applied to be an extra in The Sooty show and waiting a response as only first thirty made it in. Hope I did.
16(5) The coach who I call my 'superior' (technically is because I'm still not qualified yet) told me to take the athletes on a lap around the forest. Only problem is half the forest went with the new build
(7) Friends mother took me out for dinner (with my friend) and now I'm on the way back home avoiding a mosquito.
(7) Anxiety attack from feeling sick earlier. Quickly passed and I'm fine now. First time I've ever had an anxiety attack where at the end of it after I've recovered I feel okay. As if nothing happened.
17(4) Not getting enough sleep, so having an hour nap. Woke up from it and it makes me feel worse...
(4) Sadly did not get the part, but other opportunities are open.
(4) Girlfriend split with me, but I'm fine. Didn't get the part, I'm fine. Physically feel weak and ill, I'm okay. I'm not sad, I'm fine. I'm just fed up and loved the whole of January like this too.
18(7) Presuming I've got a day off school, due to the fact of no one has come and woke me up like they usually do.
(7) Woke up from a nap, I'm lacking behind on sleep. But I wnd up feeling worse after waking up.
19(5) Had an okay sleep, but now I need to get up for work
(7) Deleted two posts by accident. Good day at work, muddy shirt and I wanted to take Ronnie home.
(3) Middle sister is being a proper arsehole to everyone she talks too.
(7) On my way to my fathers party, on the long route round but doing just fine. Brought my door key in case I have to leave early from anxiety. (Left before due to it, but at my cousins wedding)
(7) Back from the party, very tired and ready for bed but have to clean room because friend is staying over tomorrow.
20(6) Watching Patrick Melrose with my frienfvwhislt drinking Coke.
21(3) Really don't want to go to this options meeting.22(5) I need to be gone by 0900 it's 0858....
(2) Teacher drove me home because I apparently seemed like a threat to myself and incapable to go home without exploding. I let her get on with it to make her feel better.
(3) Had a nap earlier to catch up on major missed sleep. Extremely tired again...What is wrong with me.
23(4) Wondering if I should pull a 'sickie' to avoid the longest day of the school week..Y11s have their exam, luckily I'm Y10 and get different lessons despite being in the same class, non exam season.
(5) Having a discussion with myself about equality between men and women. We're all human, it shouldn't matter what gender we are. Why is it hard to stick by the meaning of 'equal'? The world is f*cked.
(5) I should seriously sleep, but I can't due to the nap earlier and I'm still really tired now...WHAT DO YOU WANT BODY
(4) Skipped school, feel like crap emotionally and physically. Dad shouted at me this morning being 'scary'. I sat there unphased. Apparently I'm a different case because I'm have autism.
(1) School called me twice, thanks to my mother giving them my number. First time I just listened to them repeatedly saying my name and hung up.
(3) Tempted to scratch and headband the wall to relieve some pain. I'm currently curled up in bed and haven't stopped crying. Mother is telling me
24(5) Woke up feeling slightly better than yesterday, then again I have have to because it's my friends birthday and today I need to be a ray of light for her.25No Reasons26No Reasons27No Reasons
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