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January
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 1To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter2To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter3(2) Back to work Monday. I have been trying to get some prep-work done and plan ahead so that I won't trip over myself while teaching but I have really struggled with procrastination, guilt and anxiety.4To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter5(6) Not feeling too bad at present. Delayed in bed this morning as has been my habit this past week. Did a grocery shop with sister. Lunch. Sorted some papers. Snack. Now going to do some work for school.6To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
7To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter8(8) Returned to work. Was much better than I thought. Still have a LOT of work to do both physically and mentally but it feels good to be back. 1.Work goals: Low input, max output.2.Reduce perfectionism9To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter10(5) Worked on after school again today but not for too long. I'm so tired. Time for an early night. Otherwise, all good.11To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter12(4) Met my sister for breakfast which was nice but now I am feeling tired and a bit at a loss of what to do . . .despite the fact that there is LOTS to do :/13(5) Feeling a little overwhelmed about all the work ahead of me in the next few weeks. Apprehensive and unsure of how I will manage workload. Finding it difficult to layout a schedule/routine.
14(7) I have been through a lot these past few months. Today, I achieved most of the goals I set out for myself. I am proud of how I have improved on my time management and self care. Little wins.15To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter16To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter17To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter18To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter19To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter20To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
21To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter22To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter23No Reasons24No Reasons25No Reasons26(8) Accidentally missed therapy today but I was glad I got on with my work and I did some things I had been putting off. Took a sleeping tablet last night. I think that combined with a lighter schedule27No Reasons
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March
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    1No Reasons2(8) Staff night out last night was good fun. Today I felt super motivated and iin a better mood than usual despite a few lonely moments. Had a very productive day. :D Now, time for some yoga :D3No Reasons
4(7) These days, instead of seeing problems, I see solutions. Lack of motivation is no longer an issue. Little things which were previously so difficult are now just easy. Yay for progress! . . .5No Reasons6No Reasons7(3) So tired. Poor night's sleep each night this week so far. I thought it was just caffeine but last night proved that wrong. Still some residual sadness about Grandma's passing. Still seem to miss my ex8(6) Really enjoyed my birthday dinner with friends tonight. (Actual day of my birthday is Friday. :) - 28 years old! ) It was really lovely. The food was superb, the company was fantastic. It was the
(7) I have had such a wonderful birthday so far. I woke to several voice and text messages wishing me a Happy Birthday. I had the first and last class of the day free so I got extra sleep and left work
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11No Reasons12(3) 3 because I feel strange physically - tired and this weird feeling of sweating a lot and kind of feeling too hot but then getting cold and needing to put on my coat. Feeling kind of exhausted and
(4) I had one of those therapy sessions where I found myself getting sidetracked and going off point and I didn't get to finish what I set out trying to say. Bit frustrating. . . It was a busy day and I
13(2) My friend's wedding is on this weekend. I was trying to get a week ahead in terms of school-prep but I haven't managed that yet. I will be leaving on Friday straight after work so there's not much
(4) Super tired and feeling overworked, stressed out and behind. . . Mainly just overwhelmingly tired but quite calm. So hopefully the tiredness will take over and I will get to sleep soon tonight.
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18No Reasons19No Reasons20No Reasons21No Reasons22No Reasons23(4) Wrote in my diary this morning. Then replied to some comments on here. Trying to work out feelings about my parents (still) and relationships with friends. I had a dream about my Grandma who recently
(3) Not sure what to do with myself today. I got up at 8 but so far all I have done is eat breakfast, write in diary, spend time on here and then looking up some things online. Feel like I'm wasting my
24(6) Woke at 8 again this morning. Got myself a cup of tea and went back to bed. I am expecting a tax refund of over €1,800. It will go a long way towards repaying the loan from my parents so I may be
25(4) This strange feeling of loneliness but also a sense of wanting to be left alone. . . ? . . . I am feeling quite irritable at the moment and finding it hard to drum up the energy to do some work.
(3) Feeling super tired all of a sudden. At least it's bedtime. Also, low mood and negative inner critic beginning to creep in. I had planned on doing yoga this eve but I feel too tired. Maybe just some
26(4) It feels like life is a race but as I approach the finishline, it continues to move further away so that I am always running but always behind. ? I'm very tired of it all, this hamster wheel life.27(3) Tired. Trying to focus on the progress I've made rather than the things I could improve on. I wonder if I will ever reach a place of stability, calm and happiness. 3 for tiredness.
(4) Still tired. . . Had the chance to pop home today for half an hour. It was a nice quiet break from the incessant hustle bustle at school. I felt quite energetic when I got home after work so I cooked
28No Reasons29No Reasons30No Reasons31(7) Just back from visit to my parents in my hometown. I arrived at 9pm last night and left at 3pm today. It was the right amount of time. I spent time with family, went to the beach, saw my Grandpa,
April
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1No Reasons2(5) Felt a bit lonely today. It was my sister's birthday. I wanted to meet her to give her an gift but she was spending the evening with her husband. I feel a bit childish but it made me feel a little
(2) Phone ran out of battery so my alarm didn't go off. I woke up later than usual but still on time to get ready. .. Finding it difficult to get up out of bed though ?
(6) Didn't eat today until 1:41 but had a lovely lunch. Wasn't weak/feeling ill with hunger before then either. Didn't have any supervision classes this afternoon so I was off early at a record 1 o clock!
(6) Had another very productive therapy session. Actually, I think some of the best work I am doing is outside of the 50 minutes of therapy. That's where the golden reflection time comes into play.
3(6) Energy levels quite good. Still a little tired overall. I have a lump in my arm underneath where there was a dirty bruise. The area is tender and the veins are very obvious. There are quite a few
(5) Prinicipal told me yesterday that 'There will be a science job next year. I will see it being advertised in May and I am welcome to apply.' . . . Very non-committal. I just replied that I hadn't
(8) Early night. In bed already@8:43, even though the clocks only went forward on Sunday so my body clock should be on 7:43. I have not yet overcome or out-rested The Tiredness. Pretty content though! :)
4(5) So I reinstalled Tinder (dating app) yesterday. Not too sure if it's the right time. Scheduled a phone call with ex tonight. But I have accepted we are just friends. I suppose I will just take things
(3) Been hit by a wave of tiredness, loneliness, emptiness and inexplicable sadness. I feel like I need to cry.
5No Reasons6(4) I always look forward to the weekend and then it comes and I don't know how to spend it apart from working/doing housework . . . Lonely and empty :/7(7) So. I met a guy I met on a dating app. Even though he specified it was 'not a date'. I don't think I felt a spark either. But he took me to do my grocery shopping which was very kind. And he is honest
8No Reasons9No Reasons10No Reasons11(4) Went to doc on Monday. I have psoriasis, most likely caused by stress. Need to go back on meds I stopped taking for digestion issues and got a load of tests done for easy bruising. Taking Pharmaton12No Reasons13No Reasons14No Reasons
15No Reasons16(8) Had a perfect date yesterday. Trying to tell myself to take it slow and not get carried away like I usually do. Think I need to reflect on what exactly I want in a relationship too. In other news,17(6) Well got some of the blood test results back - Vit. D levels low. Which possibly explains fatigue (and joint pain?) Liver and kidney function fine which is a relief. (Phew!) Had to redo some tests
(6) Well got some of the blood test results back - Vit. D levels low. Which possibly explains fatigue (and joint pain?) Liver and kidney function fine which is a relief. (Phew!) Had to redo some tests
18(7) Easter holidays. Finally relaxing properly for the first time since I started this job. So that's nice! haha . . . Only 5 weeks left after the holidays. Time is passing crazily fast! Not as sore today19No Reasons20No Reasons21No Reasons
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