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February
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April
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2To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter3(3) 4(3) 5To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter6(7) I have just had a funny conversation with a colleague, wish everyone the best mood all the time
(9) It's a beautiful sunny day outside and spring is coming! My mindfullness and meditation exercises seem to be helping, too.
(6) Just had a conversation with my mom, my mood kinda dropped a little after that
7(9) Selebrating Orthodox Easter this night. I feel so excited!8(10) Have just been to the Easter service in the church. I'm feeling very warm inside now, I know God loves me as He does everyone. Christ is risen!
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9(6) Poor impulse control and regretting it now :(
(4) Just seen a moment in the movie that made me cry and feel lonely
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(5) really don't like my impulsive behavior... got to learn healthier ways to regulate emotions, sadly been fighting for years with bpd...(
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11(6) 12(7) Just meditated, also I bought myself roller skates today, so feeling happy and excited
(6) Feeling sleepy today, haven't got enough sleep. Also I am allergic to the plants that seem to start blossoming now.... bad cough and eyes intching and a little trouble breathing
(7) I feel a little bit too excited to really feel happy
13To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter14(8) I have been so mindful and involved today, I wish it were like that all the time. Though I often feel ashamed/guilty of having to do one thing at a time when others aren't doing it.15(8) Just had a nice long talk with a good friend whom I haven't seen in a long while.
(8) I have been to the church today and feel content now. I'm realising I am a spiritual person and regular participation in church events makes me feel better
16(7) Nice beginning of a new work week - I've been given a real task (finally!), even though I'm just an intern17(4)
(2) I have just learned that one of my good friends is bipolar, she's tried to kill herself and she spent a month at a mental hospital. Moreover, she is homosexual and her girlfriend left her recently...
(1) My younger sister also is suffering from severe depression and she seems to have BPD, too. She keeps telling me how unbearable her life can be, and I know she's right because I've been in that hell..
18(6) 19No Reasons20(7) I have been to an interesting lecture today. Although in the evening I have had a few flashbacks
(7) Nice morning, I've been to McDonald's and feel fine
21(8) I've met with my friend today whom I love very much but haven't seen in a long time. She's really the type of person I need in my life to function well22(9) I've been to a training session on effective communication in conflicts. I hope I will be able to use all that knowledge at least in part. Yet talking about conflicts makes me angry and sad in itself
23(6) I feel confused about my mood... too many mixing emotions... I feel very attracted to a colleague of mine (actually, my boss) and that is kinda weird, I guess I like him o_024No Reasons25(1) 26(3) Oh no... No no no not again!! I am too attracted to this guy from my workplace who actually has been friendly with me and who tries to always help me and make me feel better... but just now I have27(7) I'm at my friend's place right now, we're watching an Indian movie
(7) Today has been a fairly normal day... I guess I'm starting to come to terms with my work situation. I've got a question, though, that has been bothering me for a while: is BPD completely curable?
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30(7) I went home for a couple of days. Don't like being around my family, yet I kinda have to pay them a visit once in a while
May
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 1(7) I'm still stsying at home with the family. It's fine as long as I am around my sisters who are way easier to deal with than my parents. Anyway, I just like them more2No Reasons3(4) I'm staying at home with my family. It's feels like the worst company I could possibly have now4No Reasons5No Reasons6No Reasons
7No Reasons8No Reasons9No Reasons10(6) Have to study a lot for the upcoming exams =(11No Reasons12(8) 13(5) Too much to study, my sister leaving me and going back home and also my best friend being badly physically abused at home - this is just too much tor one day
(7) ohh I've just cleaned the whole apartment on my own. That's pretty much the workout I need
14No Reasons15(5) Terrible lack of sleep and still I don't have as much time as I need. In order to continue my education next year, I have to study very hard and I still feel like it's just too much...16No Reasons17(4) I feel intense anxiety about my future which is so persistent I've been feeling it for weeks... the thing is, I feel like my future is being decided this summer18No Reasons19No Reasons20(7) Feeling good, because today I have been to a special group therapy session related to fear in interaction with other people. I had fun, even though some moments were hard for me to get through
21(7) I'm going to meet my best friend today after a long while that we've been apart. Feeling excited about it22(4) Guys, do you know any effective ways to deal with / cope with anxiety which is intense and persistent, considering having a history of bpd? I feel at a loss here, I have no idea what to do23(4) My younger sister who I thought had BPD but was diagnosed only with major depression has just been told she's actually bipolar. The doctors are going to study her for a while, but they are certain24No Reasons25(7) I finally feel a little bit relieved from the anxiety I've been experiencing. I'm trying to figure out ways to regulate this anxiety, because I know deep down I can do it, I just have to figure it out26No Reasons27(9) I've felt really happy today... I've hung out with my friends, played some games with them and then we went to a restaurant, then we walked in the night Moscow... it was beautiful, and I didn't study
28(5) I'm feeling so so... I have financial issues which are rather serious and also intence anxiety about my future (which is justified, considering how low my chances are of pursuing what I want)29(7) nothing much to say... I've slept for 5 hours today and I feel too sleepy... also trying to fix my laptop30(6) I'm sick and it seems like I have some sort of a weird virus... Let's hope it's not Ebola xD Anyway, I went to the doctor on Sunday and she said that was just a cold, but then it got worse
(7) I feel really good today, probably because I took a day off due to being sick and now I can relax at home
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June
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    1(6) The doctors told me my latest anxiety issues were due to magnesium deficiency in my body. Now I've been prescribed pills that seem to really be helping. I feel so relieved! Hope this helps2(8) today I'm in love, let's see what tomorrow will bring3(7) and again I'm sick... this chronic kidney infection I have is so annoying I'm about to sell both kidneys xD just so I could get rid of the problem! I can't even catch a cold or go swimming, I get sick
4No Reasons5(6) My kidney infection isn't getting better. I hope the bacteria isn't resistant to the antibiotic I'm taking now, because it is resistant to some other atibiotics... and I have drug allergy to some(6No Reasons7(6) I've been feeling like hell lately due to these awful side effects of moxifloxacine (maybe I misspell it). I've been feeling intense anxiety (way worse than I used to), it felt like a constant panic
(6) Feeling a bit better today, even though my heart is still pumping intensely
8(6) Feeling kinda normal today, although a little sad since I have to leave my current internship and move on to another one9No Reasons10(4) I'm so upset with myself! Why am I so sick and so weak? I often feel like I'm the weakest person among everyone I know. By weak I mean physically. My mental strength is what still keeps me going
11(4) I've been kinda sad lately( pissed off with the weakness of my body and with my inability to accept it even though it's always been like that. I often think, if only I didn't have that disease or this12No Reasons13(5) feeling so-so today... still sick, still anxious, still worried... I wish everything were over already: the entrance exams, my work situation, money issues, health issues.... I just want to be happy
(5) Not feeling like specifying anything at all...
14No Reasons15(6) 16(7) I've met with a friend of mine today. I feel good about it, even though I overspent money in the restaurant we went to and am feeling a little guilty17No Reasons
18No Reasons19No Reasons20(6) I had to call an ambulance and go to hospital, because my kidney infection got completely out of hand. I don't know what to do with it! I've been staying at the hospital for three days and I still21No Reasons22No Reasons23No Reasons24No Reasons
25No Reasons26No Reasons27No Reasons28No Reasons29(5) Finally I'm back after a long stay at the hospital... and I'm still sick. I feel so guilty for being do sick, I feel guilty because my doctor has to worry about me, and my family, too30No Reasons