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January
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February
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March
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April
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May
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14(2) 15(1) 16(2) Still working out my own rating system 0 is dead so that's never gonna happen 1 is can't leave my room So 2's got to be can leave my room suicidal thoughts very prevalent though
(2) Yesterday was very much an angry depression day Bitter and resentful Today is just a morbidly sad depression day Please DON'T send hugs, this is not what this is for
(2) Going to try to take 5http for a sustained period to try and level out my mood over the coming weeks Had enough of myself to start keeping a diary of my mood and try and sort myself out a bit
(4) Perked up slightly, cup of tea had but now I'm in the 'I'm not letting myself be above average because I was so bad this morning' essentially sulking for feeling a bit better...
(7) Has lifted over the course of this afternoon -3rd cup of tea -Finished long day of work -Chilling out and relaxing -Half day tomorrow -5http kicking in?
17(6) Levelled out a bit so I think I'm out of the woods for the time being... Until next week maybe ? took more 5http last night though, taking some with me to London today #helpyourself
(7) Tired but contented. Saw Akala and Frankie Boyle talking about Akala's book Natives tonight in Brixton. Good company, good food, few beers, snooze and a long trip home on the coach and bus now ?
18(7) Absolute pig of a morning having to do yesterday's work today because someone didn't do anything yesterday but relatively good mood despite that keeping regular with the 5http19(8) Boop boop de boop boop ? overtired? 5http done and dusted
(4) 'Something's off' ?
(3) Well isn't this fantastic ? pretty annoyed at myself that I didn't do any of the things but just hoping I needed some rest even though I didn't really get any rest... ????
20(7) Still drunk ?
21(3) Run down and quite sad, think I might hit alcohol on the head for a bit, get myself back in shape and sort my life out a bit more
(2) Really fucking angry. Was really sad this morning and this just turned into unbridled anger and I don't know why. But since I am angry writing a long overdue letter to the ex ?
(1) Pretty fucking shit right now but football in a bit, hoping that gives me some much needed endorphins
22(1) This is not ok. Played football last night and the suffering in my head is just overwhelming, seriously considered jacking in football and trying medication again for the first time in 17 years
(4) Fucking shit day at work AGAIN but at least I've got two days off now
23(1) Another shit morning and I don't know what it's about which is more upsetting than anything sad and suicidal more than anything
(2) Had a bit of a cry letting things out and wrote some stuff down so feel a little bit better but finding things so difficult to do today, just gotta be kind to myself and notch the wins so restless tho
(4) All extreme feelings have subsided, figured out it might be a friend I was picking up on, normally symptoms relieve if I'm feeling someone else's emotions which is apparently what's happened here
24(4) Better than yesterday just so tired and weary of it all, feel very hopeless and out of control with feeling everyone else's emotions there's nothing I can do to stop it feel like I'm sliding back down25(4) Still flimsy, feel like I've been through the wringer, I am recovering it just takes time, just feeling very hurt about some of the things that have happened and been said but onwards we go
(3) Completely and utterly exhausted after the last week, didn't sleep well either last night, on the upside means I can't feel much at all today, everything's dampened but still comprehensively miserable
(7) Finally out of the woods and relatively chuffed just before going to bed ?
26(5) Mornings on not enough sleep urgh ?27(6) Tired, high and a bit pissed but on the right side of happy
(7) Healthy enough to think about things rationally and try and sort out timelines to things when I was growing up
(9) Peaked at a 9 today but so incredibly busy I didn't really have time to stop and fully acknowledge it but I know it's there buzzin in the background just gotta do things as and when now ?
28(8) Very productive day and some good news regarding work, well dunno if it'd be good news or not but seemingly good atm29(7) Coasting along nicely albeit quite tired30(7) 7 cups of tea today seems to have done the trick ?31To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
June
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    1To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter2To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter3(2) Working on my own again with no break, had a pint last night so wondering if that's affecting my mood today, will do a bit of reading about that just generally feeling shit
(6) Bit better, bit more productive in my personal life, things are starting to not be such a mess
4(3) Late for work because of the bloody buses and figuring out I'm about 20k in debt has hit me quite hard too. Happy Monday peeps ???5(8) Hangin' but happy, didn't realise how many unresolved issues I've had of late until yesterday, nice chat with two of my friends though so levelling out a bit
(9) Absolutely brimming with and overflowing with love. Jesus fucking Christ these mood swings ?
6To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter7To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter8(10) Full blown 10 yesterday but then I am manic as fuck atm but yesterday was a fucking good day probably at a 9 this morning but still extremely happy and very content ?9To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter10To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
11(2) Work. Pure and simple. Fucked off with it now.12(7) Fucked physically and tired but generally ok, looking forward to the lie in tomorrow though ?13(7) Things aren't ok but I think I've got a handle on them for now14To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter15(2) Woke up depressed and has just got worse throughout the day :/16(8) Far. King. Mood. Swings. ?17To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
18(7) Levelling out a bit, flying through a lot of things that I've needed to process so that's all good ?19To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter20(7) Relatively level headed ? slowly chipping through the mess ?21(7) Still steady ??? bit stressful at work but taking everything in my stride email sent off to two of my boys, slowly getting through my big to do list ?
(10) My good moods are getting better. I'm possibly at an 11 is that even a thing? ??
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25No Reasons26No Reasons27(5) Wavering, although can't remember the last time I took 5http, which tells me I haven't been looking after myself very well and work's been really stressful recently28No Reasons29No Reasons30No Reasons
July
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2No Reasons3(2) Piss poor work is proper stressing me out so haven't been able to concentrate on anything else need to take back control of my life but I'm constantly worrying about money. Life isn't very much fun rn4(8) Cruising. Chilling and watching Bojack Horseman and loving life ?5(7) Work stress pretty much gone, self loathing gone, for now, relatively chilled although I'm pretty sure I have rapid cycling bipolar as well as bpd as these weekly cycles are insane6No Reasons7(7) Sound. England through, Carnival time ???8No Reasons
9(7) Still steady as she goes. Became an uncle on Saturday, absolutely elated now scheming to get back to see my newborn niece ?10No Reasons11(7) Still steady ? tired and my eye really fucking stings but other than that I'm pretty good ?12No Reasons13(4) Below par today, can't sleep properly because of the heat so I'm quite tired and walked into an absolute shit show this morning so work's pissed me off as well14(3) Just absolutely done with this job, it used to be fun, it used to be social, I used to be happy in it. Just absolutely done.15(2) Still absolutely fuming. It is completely the job. There's a few things that set me off with my mental health when the inner voice starts playing out 'this is all you're worth' or
16No Reasons17(4) Mood's still pretty bad, saw my niece which is amazing but stayed at my Mum's which isn't really good for me, got another stay there in August but think I'll go back to staying at my mates after18No Reasons19(3) Only just holding things together. Therapy today, hopefully that helps
(6) Head's back in the game a bit, possibly on the up again
20No Reasons21No Reasons22(7) Feeling delicate after last night but much refreshed and back on a relatively even keel ?
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