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February
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March
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April
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May
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(6) Finaly a have a big task at work. It's big and monotonic and l'm starting to hate it right how, but I hope it will take my mind of my melancholy
(9) I've been persuaded to put myself forward on the election for the new guildmaster in my guild in the online game. They think I'm cool. I know this is silly, but I'm very moved and exited.
26(5) I have energy and absolutely no idea what to do with it. What did I enjoi before my illness? I don't remember doing anything except lying around for five years. I'm glad I'm better. But what's next?27(5) Didn't think of anything I wanted to do, so.. another day of lying around. Well, at least I almost didn't hate myself for it, that's something. Promise myself to go out tomorrow.
(7) Walked for two hours straight, 10km. Not that this is really what I wanted or needed to do, but I though it's better than lying all day. It turned out to be quite nice. Recharged a bit.
28(4) I feel like something scratching from inside, making me think that everything I say or do is stupid. I miss my antidepressants.. Do healthy people feel this way for no reason? I don't remember anymore29(3) Had an akward meeting at work. It's not enough to cry in the bathroom, but enough to want to hide from everyone. Crying would be easier. IhatemyselfIhatemyselIhatemyselfIhatemyselfIhatemyself
(6) Positive social commucation at work made me feel better. I wish I wouldn't depend so much on what people might think of me.
30(5) To much social actuvities today. My mood jumps up and down like crazy. Mostly positive I think, but anyway, I'm exausted from this emotional roller coster31(6) Despite my occasional axiety attacks I think I'm almost mentally healthy .Today was a very busy day, a lot of work and communications and I'm handling It. No crying in the toilets or anything
June
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    1(3) Every time I get a little better my husband feels that and flushes all his frustration on me.He is very supportive while I'm having a hard time and entitled to be tired.But what am I supposed to do:(2(5) My doctor said that I have to much thyroid hormones with the current medications and she want's to cancel it for a while. What if I'll be back in that hell, that was without pills? I'm scared..3To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
4(8) Went to see a fine movie, ate a tremendos amount of frozen yogurt. Now I even have strengh to be there for my husband and don't annoy him with my problems.5(5) Feel absolutely nothing today. I suppose this is a good thing.
(6) I'm suprisingly stable. I guess tryroid gormones leveled out to normal values. I hope this lasts
6(7) Still no signes of gormone imbalance. Plus I've been helpful ay work today. I like being helpful:)7To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter8(5) It's been pretty dull day. I'm lazy and tired. Took a couple days off, not really sure what to do with them, but hoping to recharge.
(9) A day by myself with a long bath, tv shows and cuddling with my cat. That's just what I needed:)
9To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter10(6) Had a great time with my husband last night. But I'm starting to feel anxiety again if anything at all goes wrong. A month left for my thyroid check. I have a feeling that it won't be easy
11To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter12(5) Hey, hypothyroidism! Today I thought of terrible scenarios that might happen to me and my loved ones an cried for an hour. Genious..
(5) I feel disconnected from my feelings. Like I'm just a shell of a person. The only thing that bothers me is that one pill can make me feel sane again and I feel stupid to be so dependent on meds.
13To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter14(5) Weird day. Getting up from bed was the hardest thing to do. But on the evening I feel almost good.
(6) I've been a little nervios today, but basically ok.
15(5) Soooo, soooooo tired. A lot of monotonic work, drivers school, a cat, that demands to keep him company at 5am and a husband that wants to spend time with me till 2am. Just..Want..Sleep..16To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter17To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
18(5) Really bad hangover. All day long.
(3) An anxiety attack. Thinking of using my prescription for antidepressants for the time of finding the correct dosage of my thyroid meds.
(5) A positive meeting with marketing where I could shown myself as a good specialist made me feel a little better. The sad thing is that usually it makes me feel a lot better
19To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter20(5) Got a lot of work to do. Not a good time. My memory sucks. My cognitive skills suck. I don't even have strenght to worry about how I'm gonna survive next 3,5 weeks till I resume my meds. Just tired
(7) I just won an argument with a collegue that is 15 years older than me. He thought I was just lazy, but finally I proved that the task can't be done. Have a headache now, but it was totally worth it.
21(4) Everyone at work seem to be on edge. A great environment to feed a chaos in my head. Feeling extreemly irritated.22(5) Laaaaaazyyy daaaayy. Didn't do almost anything at work. I think I'm just making up for yesterday's haste, but still feel a little guilty.23To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter24(7) A great day with my friends. We played new really cool board game. I didn't win once, but it was a lot of fun anyway. I am nervios and distracted, but the energy from the game compensate everything.
25(6) Slept like 12 hours, have a headache, but it was a nice day. Played online with my friends, spend some time with my husband and cat.
(5) Don't have energy to work
26(5) Still can barely work. Feeling too tired. At least my boss didn't seem to think that I'm doing less than I'm supposed to, that's good. And my anxiety is tolerable.27(4) Cried like a baby for a couple of hours yesterday. Feeling a little better after that. Don't know how much more anxiety I can take.28(5) Feeling better. Mostly because my husband is taking care of me and my boss is being friendly. Still very tired29(4) My mind is too lazy to think. I'm trying to do at least routine work, but still get distracted. If I think of anything more complicated that I have to do, I get a headache.30(4) Saw my father while skyping with my mom. He didn't even say hello, but it's already enough to ruin my day. She knows I don't want to see him, couldn't she call when he wasn't there?..
July
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      1(8) OMG! All Mocsow is yelling and chearing! It was exosting to watch, but I'm happy for our team.
2(5) I feel like I'm a bug stuck in the resin. To tired to work, to think, to talk. I'm not sad or anything but every move or thought cost me a lot of effort3(5) Still very tired4(6) My first drivers practice on an actual car! If I would've been healthy it'd be a lot less stressfull and much more fun, but still.
(3) Accidentally called my instructor Alexy as Alexander by the phone. After the call burst into tears right in the call-room in the office. I don't know what's worse: these mood swings or no mood at all.
5To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter6(2) I can't take it anymore. I don't care that I'm suppose to wait for a couple more weeks for the blood test. I'm doing it the first chance I get and starting the meds. No one should feel this way.
(1) Anxiety. Tears. Fatigue. Mussle weakness. Irritability. Low memory. Acne. Constant hunger. Puffy face. And a strong feeling thay everyone wan't either laught at me or kill me. Hashimoto sucks
7To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter8(7) What a great game! Russian proved that they can do more than defense. A little sad that they lost, but I'm still proud of them. P.S. gave up and took L-thyroxin
9(6) Adjusting to braces. It hurts when I try to eat, but it's not that uncomfortable then I thought it would be. Worried about my leg, it hurts for the fifth day right where I have a cyst in the bone.
(6) Almost can't eat because of the braces. It hurts a lot. But there is a positive side: I can't bite my nails anymore:) If I lose a few kilos it would be great too.
10(6) I've been very social today at birthday cakes at work. Almost without anxiety and panic. Planning to watch football in a pub with my husband. So far it's a good day11(7) It's been a crazy day on the sence of work interactions. I handled them without wishing to die on the spot. That's a major improvement in comparisson to the last month12To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter13(6) The continuos argument with marketing is uniting our R&D department. It's been socially full day.
(8) I'm functional, social and maybe a little nervios, but I've always been a nervious girl, even before my mental health problems. I wish my mood could be like this more often
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16(7) Played board games with my friends yesterday and forgot to leave a note here. It was a nice day, won once, watched 'up' with my husband, he always cries when he watches it. I think it's sweet ^_^17(6) Spent 11 hours at work. Tired, but good in general
(6) Two hours of fire safety traning, hour of chit chat on the kitchen (birthday cakes), hour of empty marketing meeting. Absolutelly meaningless day.
18(6) Feeling an important member of the team at work. That's nice. But I really want a vacation. It's been a year since my last one, I'm tired.19(6) Starting to think that this calm mood and high energy that I had lately are a lie. I snaped at my husband yesterday with no apperent reason.Didn't even see it coming, it felt like it wasn't my anger.20(8) Productive day at work, dinner in the italian restorant with my husband. I love my life.21(6) Lasy day in bed with a laptop22To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
23(7) 24(7) Long productive day ay work. Proud of myself!25(8) So unusual full life. I almost don't have time to write here. Finished one big urgent thing at work, started to read a book for the first time in 3 years. Everything great
(7) Continue my productive week. Oh, I don't recognize myself. Last time I've had so much energy without antidepressants was 6-7 years ago.
26To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter27(6) People from my online game guild had a fight. Since I'm the guild master I felt obligated to do something. I think I did good, but I hate conflicts, I hate to meddle and now I'm exhausted.28To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter29(6) Slept through all weekend. I guess, energy couldn't come from nowhere. It doesn't matter: there is only one week till my vacation! Yeeeei
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(5) Kinda awkward and meaningless day. Starting from rust in my shower, continuing with nothing much to do at work and ending with a lonely evening with a book while my husband is working late.
August
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  1(9) Results of annual evaluation at work came.I got promoted! But very upsetting thing about that was the first reaction of my husband. He started whining that he works more than me, and gets less money.2To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter3(8) One day and... it's gonna be two weeks of vacation! Beach and drinks! I'm waiting a year for this. One day...4(6) 5(6) I expected to feel better when vacation comes. But for now mostly I'm anxtious about a trip: did I forget something? How will my cat take two weeks without me? What if something goes wrong?
6(7) First day of vacation went fine, but not great. I was a little irratated because of the poor sleep and I don't like such hot weather, but it's nice to take my mind of work7(7) Had an unpleasant fight with my husband in the morning, lost my bank card that I got specifically for this trip in the evening. But in between it was a great day! Now I feel like it's a vacation!8To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter9To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter10(8) Vacation is going great. Finished the sightseeing part, going to vedge out on the beach for the next week. Small stuff still bother me, but not that much11To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter12To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
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