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Binky B · 11 Nov 3
Did not sleep well last night at all. It was my birthday yesterday and I partied a bit too hard, overindulgence. Thankfully I've today off, and going to the spa tomorrow. Good sleep is no1 priority...
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Binky B · 11 Nov
I don't really like partying anymore. Drugs are bad for me, even if it is only a few times a year, it's too much, I want to quit completely.
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Lisa C · 11 Nov
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Lydia R · 11 Nov
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Lydia R · 11 Nov
Happy belated birthday, Binky! :) Even though you're awfully tired and realised you don't like partying the way you did anymore I hope you still had a great time. And the next time you can change your style of partying. Hope you can relax today.
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Kris B · 11 Nov
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Tasha S · 11 Nov
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Love 1 · 11 Nov
Happy birthday, Scorpion B.
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Jeff M · 11 Nov
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Jeff M · 11 Nov
Happy birthday, Binky! Hope you're feeling better and all recovered!
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Cindy M · 12 Nov
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Cindy M · 12 Nov
Belated happy birthday Binky!
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Binky B · 11 Nov 4
Feeling nervous about my mums funeral today. I woke up with a headache and feeling a bit sick. Reminding myself it's only 30 minutes long.
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Lydia R · 19 Oct
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Lydia R · 19 Oct
Oh no, dear Binky. I'm so sorry about your loss. I hadn't seen any updates from you lately and thought something to do with your mum might be the case. I can't imagine how you must feel like, but I'm sending you strength to get through today.
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Lydia R · 19 Oct
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Dan E · 19 Oct
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Dan E · 19 Oct
my mom passed on when i was younger and now that i'm older it just starts to hit me. i'm not sure what to say because i feel like i'm still struggling with how i feel about it and maybe always will, but please know that u're never alone and that
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Dan E · 19 Oct
you'll be okay
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Tasha S · 19 Oct
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Jeff M · 19 Oct
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Jeff M · 19 Oct
I hope it goes/went well, Binky. Just remember that this is for you (and her family/friends), not for her. Celebrate her however feels right for you. You are so super incredibly strong, I know you'll get through this!
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Manda P · 19 Oct
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Manda P · 19 Oct
Hope you made it though ok, Binky. Just remember how thankful you can be for all the time spent together through her illness. *big hugs*
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DesBear D · 19 Oct
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Love 1 · 20 Oct
youre in my thoughts
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Esther B · 20 Oct
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Esther B · 20 Oct
love and hugs x
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H F · 10 Nov
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H F · 10 Nov
My deepest condolences Dear Binky.
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Binky B · 11 Nov
Thank you H F x
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H F · 14 Nov
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Love 1 · 11 Nov 6
3am. Rain falls. Beautiful. Been awake since 130. My littlest one is sick. Standing vigil. Motrin & ice packs, prayer & monitoring. Fever has come down.
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Tasha S · 10 Nov
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Love 1 · 10 Nov
I do a tonglen meditation and hold in the light all parents who are standing watch over their sick children. May they be comforted.
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Love 1 · 10 Nov
I meditate on death. My young children are not promised a long life. I reflect on this and the fire of determination to father more mindfully, to love more fully, and to be more wholly present burns even more brightly.
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Lydia R · 10 Nov
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Margot L · 10 Nov
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Julia L · 10 Nov
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Kristin L · 10 Nov
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DesBear D · 10 Nov
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Mark W · 10 Nov
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Binky B · 11 Nov
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Emma Luna L · 11 Nov
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Tasha S · 11 Nov 5
Work. Sleepy.
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Love 1 · 10 Nov
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Lydia R · 10 Nov
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Margot L · 10 Nov
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DesBear D · 10 Nov
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Esther B · 10 Nov
How's it going at work atm?
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Binky B · 11 Nov
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Tasha S · 11 Nov
Meh. Today is my last day, thankfully.
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Tasha S · 11 Nov
Thanks for the hugs
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Éva H · 11 Nov 0
I feel alone. Cried throught the whole last evening. It's not about this girl only but every peope I met in my life. Our landlord will come this morning to discuss stuff about the apartment and my ...
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Lydia R · 10 Nov
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Lydia R · 10 Nov
That's about the same I'm struggling through at the moment, too, so I can imagine how you feel. I've been on the verge of tears every day since Monday and just feel completely dejected. Big hugs!
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Éva H · 10 Nov
Big hugs for you too Lydia! hope you will get calm soon.
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Margot L · 10 Nov
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Jeff M · 10 Nov
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Binky B · 11 Nov
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Emma Luna L · 11 Nov
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Lydia R · 11 Nov 3
Physically and mentally exhausted, nights too short and head too full. At work but can't concentrate at all. Time seems frozen. Just want to sleep for a whole week straight & stop spinning in circles.
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Lisa C · 10 Nov
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Margot L · 10 Nov
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Kristin L · 10 Nov
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John T · 10 Nov
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Kristin L · 10 Nov
Is it possible to call in sick next week? Sounds like you really need it?
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DesBear D · 10 Nov
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Binky B · 11 Nov
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Emma Luna L · 11 Nov
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Lydia R · 11 Nov
Kristin, I was sick last week and stayed at home. Was like a little holiday, especially for my mind. This week though has been hell, but I know it's mostly because of the residual effects of the cold. Not much I can do there, I'm still rather weak,
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Lydia R · 11 Nov
but not really sick, so I'd feel guilty for calling in sick. Have to push through and hope that it'll be better soon. It is getting better a little bit every day, but it takes time. Thanks for the hugs!
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Kristin L · 11 Nov
Ok I see. Take care at least. Hope you soon get better
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Lydia R · 11 Nov
Thank you. :) I hope so too.
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Shelley H · 11 Nov 6
Good morning pandas. Have a splendid day my friends.
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Amy J · 10 Nov
👍 :)
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Lydia R · 10 Nov
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Jeff M · 10 Nov
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Alicia B · 10 Nov
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Binky B · 11 Nov
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Emma Luna L · 11 Nov
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Love 1 · 11 Nov 6
My baby wakes me us: 'Dad, can I have some icecream? You have dots on the back of you head. Here. Here. Here. Here. Daddy, can I see your scar? Yickity yack. Yickity yack. Guess she's feeling better.
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Lisa C · 10 Nov
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Lydia R · 10 Nov
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Lydia R · 10 Nov
I hope so too!
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Tasha S · 10 Nov
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Alicia B · 10 Nov
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Alicia B · 10 Nov
So cute :)
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DesBear D · 10 Nov
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Love 1 · 10 Nov
I think the fever broke, Lydia. She's too cute, Alicia. Thx for the hugs, pandas.
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Binky B · 11 Nov
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Emma Luna L · 11 Nov
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Pseudo Bear ! · 11 Nov 10
Going to have a great day!
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Tasha S · 10 Nov
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Binky B · 11 Nov
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Lisa C · 11 Nov 0
Tried to treat heartache with buying nice stuff for myself. Doesn't make me feel any better. This shows that money means nothing, all we need is love, and when we lose our love, there is nothing left.
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Samantha C · 10 Nov
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Laurel B · 10 Nov
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Jeff M · 10 Nov
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Kristin L · 10 Nov
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DesBear D · 10 Nov
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Esther B · 10 Nov
When I feel sad I shop as well but if you're not happy stuff doesnt make you either. love and affection is important indeed
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Alice T · 10 Nov
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Binky B · 11 Nov
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Binky B · 11 Nov
Wise words from your pain. Sending you a big warm hug, dear Lisa
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Margot L · 11 Nov
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Lisa C · 11 Nov
Thank you dear pandas
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Lydia R · 11 Nov 3
Got my ADs three days ago, and haven't looked at or even thought about taking them. Pretty reluctant and worried about all those side effects. Don't want to feel even worse than I already do.
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Éva H · 10 Nov
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John T · 10 Nov
Side effects usually last a week or two, with ADs typically picking you up after a month or so. If you do try them bear this in mind 🐻
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Tasha S · 10 Nov
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John T · 10 Nov
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Kristin L · 10 Nov
It is not even sure you will get that much side effects. And they will dissapear and then you might feel better and be happier.
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Kristin L · 10 Nov
I resisted the ADs for long too, but started a few weeks ago. So far not so horrible that I was afraid of.
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Alicia B · 10 Nov
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DesBear D · 10 Nov
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Mark W · 10 Nov
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Binky B · 11 Nov
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Margot L · 11 Nov
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Lydia R · 11 Nov
Thanks for your comments, John and Kristin, and everyone for the hugs! I know that I can't know if I'll get any side effects or not, but I'm a drama queen by nature, and worry about everything. After reading the horror list of side effects I've felt
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Lydia R · 11 Nov
disbelieving in the extreme. And me being me, I always need a lot of time to work through things. A part of me has wanted to give them a try, and so I did. I just hope it'll work.
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John T · 11 Nov
I've taken 3 or 4 different ADs over the years and only had side effects once. Venlafaxine is a stronger AD which caused me zapping electric sensations in my brain. Fluoxetine, Citalopram, and Imipramine all fine.
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Lydia R · 11 Nov
I've read about the electric zappings... and I'm scared. Ironically, I'm most concerned about possibly gaining weight even though no one pays any attention to me at all, so what does it matter what I look like. Vanity.. stupidity.
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John T · 11 Nov
SSRI and SNRI you are more likely to lose weight. Sometimes quite a lot.
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Lydia R · 12 Nov
Tbh, I wouldn't mind that at all. I just took notes of my weight and measurements, as I do a few times throughout the year, so we'll see if something changes.
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Éva H · 11 Nov 0
The day gets even “better”. At my workplace they fucked up my schedule and now I will work one day less which means I will get less money... I let them know about stuff on time and now I am the one...
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Éva H · 10 Nov
...who sucks in the end.
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Lydia R · 10 Nov
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Abby D · 10 Nov
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Alicia B · 10 Nov
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Alicia B · 10 Nov
That sucks :( But you know it's not your fault and you did your best. That's what matters. Don't let them get to you.
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Éva H · 10 Nov
The main problem is that I can't work for 5 weeks because I will be in a psychiatric hospital and I won't get salary. But I still have to pay for my room and other stuff, so every little money counts. Thank you Alicia your kindness! I will keep it...
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Éva H · 10 Nov
...in mind if I will feel this angry again.
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Binky B · 11 Nov
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Ali H · 11 Nov 9
Feeling good today probably because I'm not working this weekend
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Tasha S · 10 Nov
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Shelley H · 11 Nov 5
Panic attack. Third in three days
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Rosie L · 10 Nov
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Lydia R · 10 Nov
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Rosie L · 10 Nov
Ugh you poor thing :( they are no fun at all. I've only ever had one in my life! Biggest hug to you🙏
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Alicia B · 10 Nov
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Esther B · 10 Nov
Oh no shelleybear!! :( How did that happen :(
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Binky B · 11 Nov
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Binky B · 11 Nov
Biggest calming hugs, dearest Shelley x
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Emma Luna L · 11 Nov
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Ink D · 12 Nov
I have an app on my phone that helps me regulate my breathing when I'm having a panic attack, would that help?
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Pseudo Bear ! · 11 Nov 7
I just want to love.
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Alicia B · 10 Nov
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Binky B · 11 Nov
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Binky B · 11 Nov
You are love
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Love 1 · 12 Nov
So am I. :)
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Love 1 · 11 Nov 5
Tired & irritable. But sons are with their friends. Dropped off oldest; youngest is with me and a friend. Theyre happy, engaged in play, building connections.
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Lydia R · 10 Nov
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Alicia B · 10 Nov
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Alicia B · 10 Nov
Hope you get some quality sleep and rest over the weekend. <3
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Kristin L · 10 Nov
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Love 1 · 10 Nov
I will Alicia. I need it. I had a deep meditation and fell into a restful trance. Still, I can use more rest.
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Binky B · 11 Nov
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Kristin L · 11 Nov 4
I am going crazy sometimes being a parent. God damn she can really be rude, mean, teasing, anoying and push all my buttons at once!!! 😫😤😖✋️I dont know if I can do this anymore... 🤦‍♀️🚀🌕
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Lydia R · 10 Nov
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Crystal C · 10 Nov
Being a parent is hard I'm not looking forward to when my daughter is older and can be verbally mean to me :/ I hope your ok
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Kristin L · 10 Nov
Thanks Crystal. Yeah I am ok now, its just sad when I missed her all day and just want to do something nice with her and she gets all bossy and rude for no reason. She is only eight yet so I guess it will get worse when her hormones start to kick in.
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Binky B · 11 Nov
I heard 8 and 9 can be so hard, and being a parent is one of the hardest things in the world. You've done amazingly to get this far. Is there anyone you can talk to about your child? I think you and your child deserve support... Bless you
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Binky B · 11 Nov
I think children are the most testing of relationships. Hugs
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Margot L · 11 Nov
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Emma Luna L · 11 Nov
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Kristin L · 11 Nov
Thanks Binky. Well I am not alone in this, her father (my hb) is also here but I am the one to get her to and from school since he has to travel every day for work. If it gets out of hand I know where to turn I guess.
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Kristin L · 11 Nov
But in the heat of the moment it is hard to stay focused and not react with emotions and anger.
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Kristin L · 11 Nov
And sometimes I miss life before child, it was so much easier then. Not this much conflicts and drain of energy.
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Binky B · 11 Nov
I can't imagine how much patience is required! I'm glad you have your hubby for support :) do you have any other children?
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Crystal C · 11 Nov
It's good you have your partner for support!! Being a parent is so draining 😩 I'd imagine it's hormones though
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Kristin L · 11 Nov
Only one Binky, thought it was enough.
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Kristin L · 11 Nov
Yeah Crystal. Cant imagine how if would be to be a single parent. But even harder I guess.
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Crystal C · 11 Nov
My mum was a single parent and she was so stressed I'd imagine it's terribly hard being a single parent
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Alicia B · 11 Nov 5
My Moscow neighbour died a few days ago. She was nice, and always hanging out with out family. Sad. The past seems to be dissolving fast, no more holding on to the illusion I could one day go back.
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Lydia R · 10 Nov
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Binky B · 11 Nov
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Binky B · 11 Nov
I'm sorry for your loss, dear Alicia. It sounds like it was someone who was fairly close to you, close to home. Deaths are tough..mourning, in whichever way resonates with you, as well as quiet contemplation of the life of the deceased. Hugs x
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Alicia B · 16 Nov
Thank you, Binky, it means a lot. She was a big part of our daily life.
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Alicia B · 11 Nov 9
UPD for day before yesterday. German lesson, then Russian trivia night. 6th place out of 24, not that bad. I like my life here. Or I should say I have some sort of a life here :)
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Lydia R · 10 Nov
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Binky B · 11 Nov
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Binky B · 11 Nov
I'm happy for you, dear Alicia. You're learning and growing every day xx
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