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Esther B · 1d 5
Day at the spa. It was nice but my skin is itchy and dry now. Happens every time after swimming. Too bad.
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Natalie C · 1d
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Max T · 1d
Have you tried moisturising after swimming? My skin always gets dry after swimming in chlorine water and it always helps me.
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Esther B · 1d
I use a lot of moisturizer Max! I have two on doctor's prescript actually. Thanks for suggesting though :)
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nixiblu . · 1d
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Maite P · 1d
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Missy C · 23h
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Jeff M · 11h
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Jeff M · 11h
Glad you got to relax at the spa and get some swimming in! I wish I could take up swimming...supposed to be so good for you. But I barely have time for running let alone another physical activity, and the gym with a pool is not nearby.
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Natalie C · 1d 2
Not feeling well β˜ΉπŸ˜” Day off tomorrow, got to prepare myself for a big hospital meeting Wednesday. Consultant will explain surgery & the plans if it doesn't work.
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Esther B · 1d
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Maite P · 1d
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Missy C · 23h
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Cindy M · 1d 5
My birthday - 51, so at least a little better than having to face 50 last year...but rather meh. Spent last night and this morning with M, for first time in a while. Had nice time, gave me the book I
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me M · 2d
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me M · 2d
wish you very happy birday!
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Cindy M · 2d
asked for - meh. Got myself some chocolate etc for tonight, with new book - meh. Not feeling much yet still feeling like I'm trying to hold off sadness.
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Catarina M · 2d
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John T · 2d
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John T · 2d
Happy birthday!
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John T · 2d
Plan a day out in those lovely Scottish hills. Nice days out don't have to be expensive, or on your birthday, sounds like you need something to look forward to.
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Penelope P · 2d
Happy birthday Cindy, hope you had a nice day.
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Natalie C · 2d
Happy Birthday Cindy πŸŽ‚β€
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Jeff M · 2d
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Jeff M · 2d
Happy birthday, sweet Cindybear!
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Maite P · 2d
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DesBear D · 2d
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DesBear D · 2d
Happy happy birfday!
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sonny S · 2d
Happy Birthday Cindy! Hope you have an amazing year!! We grow from knight to prince to king, in your case a Queen. Build your castle and rule the way you want. You can do what ever you want this year because your the ruler of your castle! Happy Bday
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nixiblu . · 2d
Happy Birthday Cindy.
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nixiblu . · 2d
I hope it was amazing. I'm happy you had time with M.
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Esther B · 1d
Happy belated birthday dear Cindy. May all your wishes come true. 🐼😘
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Jeff M · 1d 4
Had a minor revelation last night. Maybe part of why I struggle so much in groups is because decades of being alone has made me unable to communicate with people socially appropriately. (more...)
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Jeff M · 1d
I've come to realize that no one cares about anything I have to say. That's not just me being down on myself; it's true. So with that realization, I tend to close up and be quiet and don't share. People don't like that person either.
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Jeff M · 1d
If I want to participate in social conversations, I have to make everything all about THEM. Because it's clear to me that people are selfish and focused on their own thoughts. I suppose I am too...but more on that in a bit.
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Jeff M · 1d
So I have to ask THEM conversations and be focused on what THEY have to say and show interest in them and not chip in with my own contributions and thoughts, no matter how much I want to. That's what people want.
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Jeff M · 1d
The problem is, I don't have anyone to talk to. No one cares about what I think or say. And sometimes I feel like I'm going to explode if I don't get things out. So when I'm in a social situation, I want to talk and share.
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Jeff M · 1d
I'm a smart person, a witty person. I always have something to share and contribute. I'm fascinated with what people think and love good conversations. But when people talk to me, I can tell they're on to their next thought before...
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Jeff M · 1d
...I even have a chance to contribute. I see in people's eyes that they've lost interest when I chime in. They look away, they start talking about something else or to someone else. It's not just one or two people; it's all people.
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Jeff M · 1d
So what I need to do is not talk to anyone and keep holding it all in. But rather than be quiet and reserved and say 'F--- 'em' as I want to, I have to engage them and let them talk and show interest in what they have to say and not be a person.
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Jeff M · 1d
It makes me very sad that this is true. It also makes me sad that I'm so socially awkward from years of rejection and loneliness that it's a realization to see how to communicate with people properly. Should be so obvious and natural.
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Jeff M · 1d
I may try it. Ask banal questions. Let the other person talk and show interest. Maybe even chime in something brief and reinforcing now and then, no matter what I think or what I have to say. Perhaps they will appreciate that.
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Jeff M · 1d
The other option, of course, is to hold it all in and not talk to people. That doesn't work well either, though it is less work. Once again, I wish so much that I didn't need anyone, that I was able to be happy being alone. But that is not the...
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Jeff M · 1d
...human condition. This is very disappointing. But I will treat it as an experiment and be fake and see if that will allow me a few moments of inclusion. And if not, no harm done.
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John T · 1d
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John T · 1d
Aww Jeff I love this kind of thing. Natural interaction is surprisingly unnatural in my eyes... but I have some tips.
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John T · 1d
1. Don't talk through or over someone else talking. (This is easy if you are naturally quiet)
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John T · 1d
2. Appear interested by repeating a key word. Listen to 'yeah, I'm going camping at the weekend...' and interject with the key word in the sentence, here, 'camping?' - this is called reflection and is a listening skill.
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John T · 1d
3. Think of people who are easy to talk to. Think 'what would they do' (not what would they say... still be yourself).
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John T · 1d
4. Copy some of the basic rhythm, pattern of the speech, or phrases of the person you are talking to. This will make the other person more at ease with themselves.
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John T · 1d
5. Use gestures, these tips seem robotic so far but you aren't a robot, do something with your hands or put expression in your face.
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John T · 1d
6. Always try to be succinct and don't worry about hesitation - just slow down. People who say a lot with fewer words appear wise, they also tend to speak slowly.
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Natalie C · 1d
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John T · 1d
What I said might not help, and it ain't gospel, but I hope you find something in it. Just try to treat improvement like a training program for a big race and you'll get there in the end. Small steps, long way.
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Jen B · 1d
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Silke V · 1d
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Esther B · 1d
It's sad to read this Jeff. I do think people care about whay you have to say. At least we do.
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Anna D · 1d
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nixiblu . · 1d
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nixiblu . · 1d
Jeff and John you should publish this. You are both fantastic.
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nixiblu . · 1d
People will always want to talk about themselves, but listening creates bonds and allows for questions to discover who you arr
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nixiblu . · 1d
Btw I think you are both great listeners and people who have opinions worthy of hearing
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Jeff M · 12h
Thank you all! *Hugs*
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DesBear D · 1d 5
First day at new 2nd job, excited to have money again
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Jeff M · 1d
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Jeff M · 1d
That's great! I hope the new job goes well!
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Catarina M · 1d
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Natalie C · 1d
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Esther B · 1d
Good luck des!
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nixiblu . · 1d
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nixiblu . · 1d
How wonderful. 🎠
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nixiblu . · 1d 4
Leaving again. Trying not to feel so blu
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me M · 1d
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Jen B · 1d
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Shelley H · 1d
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Jeff M · 1d
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John T · 1d
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John T · 1d
Do something that makes you feel nixi then! 😊
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Esther B · 1d
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nixiblu . · 1d
Brilliant john. Missed the gym. Was optimistic thinking I would arrive in time. But ate well
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Shelley H · 1d 7
Good morning pandas. Hope you are all well
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Jeff M · 1d
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Robert H · 1d
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Jen B · 1d
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Silke V · 1d
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Esther B · 1d
You too!
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Alicia B · 5h
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Silke V · 1d 6
Survived the day. Bf still sick. He'll be home tomorrow and Wednesday. Dad is also home tomorrow. And as always mom and Julie will be here. So full house tomorrow.
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Jen B · 1d
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Esther B · 1d
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Esther B · 1d
Beterschap en fijne dag morgen!
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Natalie C · 1d
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nixiblu . · 1d
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Missy C · 23h
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Jeff M · 11h
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Jeff M · 3d 5
Run with different folks and beers last night. Working at home today, which is almost like a day off. Maybe will run at lunchtime (getting a bit warmer today). Not feeling great though. Don't know why
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Jeff M · 19 Oct
I petted the sweetest, fluffiest, softest dog at the bar last night! He rolled over for me to rub his belly and his owners were shocked. Love the doggos!
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Robert H · 19 Oct
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John T · 19 Oct
What temperature is it where you are? It is around 11C/50F here which is my perfect running temperature... It's just too gusty! Almost running backwards at times! I did over 5 miles with 4 walking bits a minute each for recovery other day...
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John T · 19 Oct
Today I did 2 runs with a 3 minute walking break in between, probably just under 4 miles. Looking forward to being able to run 4 miles in one go again, I don't feel far off... Hip doesn't feel 100% but it feels good enough! Happy about that!
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John T · 19 Oct
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me M · 19 Oct
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Kym S · 19 Oct
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Anna D · 19 Oct
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Jeff M · 19 Oct
That's awesome, John. It was about 40F last night. We did 5.5 at an average of 8min/mile. That's fast for me!
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DesBear D · 20 Oct
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John T · 20 Oct
Yeah 8 minutes a mile is too fast for me too!
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Linda H · 3d
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Esther B · 3d
Woohoo we can do a run together some day
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Reba H · 3d
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Jeff M · 3d
I'll run with you anytime, Esther! We could all do a panda run!
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Relaxed and worked on 'me,' exactly what I want to do on a day off.
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me M · 19 Oct
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Maite P · 19 Oct
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DesBear D · 20 Oct
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Esther B · 3d
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Natalie C · 3d 5
E-mailed friend who left yesterday, wrote to her personal email to say goodbye & goodbye, thank her for her hard work and let her know we care! 😊 .. It's been a tiring day.
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Natalie C · 19 Oct
She wrote a lovely email back, which made me smile. Although I'm still sad she's gone. I know I done as much as possible to be a supportive colleague.
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John T · 19 Oct
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Kym S · 19 Oct
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Cindy M · 19 Oct
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Cindy M · 19 Oct
What a lovely thing to do, Natalie - so like you xx
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Jeff M · 19 Oct
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DesBear D · 20 Oct
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Esther B · 3d
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Robert H · 3d
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Natalie C · 3d
Thanks Pandas🐼😊
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Natalie C · 3d
Thank you Cindy πŸ˜„ xx
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Manda P · 3d 7
Starting Clozapine & weaning off Seroquel. It wasn't doing sh*t. Super serious time now. My blood draws will be every Wednesday for 6 months & then monthly for as long as I'm on it. You have to be...
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Manda P · 19 Oct
...registered in some kind of database where the pharmacy will only give 7 day supply until they get you next results & then they hand out another 7. This *** is crazy. Gotta go to a new pharmacy for it but it's not too far from home & pretty sure..
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Manda P · 19 Oct
...it's an easy parking lot which you guys know is essential! So, yep, if all goes well I take my first dose tonight.
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Manda P · 19 Oct
Daughter spending the night with MIL. He said he has come down with so
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John T · 19 Oct
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John T · 19 Oct
Good luck! I hope it works well for you.
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Natalie C · 19 Oct
Glad to hear you have had a better day. Fingers crossed with the new medication. Hope it works with minimal side effects xx
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Gabrielle H · 19 Oct
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Cindy M · 19 Oct
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Cindy M · 19 Oct
Hope this helps xx
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Manda P · 19 Oct
Thanks, Pandas. Of course there was a million things to deal with & we found out my labs from last week are invalid so back I go Monday for that. Hospital parking lot causes a lot of anxiety. πŸ˜”
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Jeff M · 19 Oct
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Jeff M · 19 Oct
I hope this helps you, sweet Mandabear!
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Manda P · 20 Oct
Thanks, Jeff! πŸ’š I've put high hopes on it because it's known to work miracles. Also because I have a feeling they are really going to try & push ECT on me if it doesn't work. He brought it up today & I said no way because my Mom & husband don't...
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Manda P · 20 Oct
...want me to do it & I know it can cause significant memory loss which is something I definitely don't need to make worse!
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DesBear D · 20 Oct
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Esther B · 3d
I hope it will help you dear Amanda. You're in my thoughts
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Margot L · 3d
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Shelley H · 3d 9
Sleeping like a queen!
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DesBear D · 20 Oct
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Penelope P · 20 Oct
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Jenny D · 20 Oct
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Cindy M · 20 Oct
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Cindy M · 20 Oct
Woo! You pretty much are a queen!
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Silke V · 3d
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Esther B · 3d
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Esther B · 3d
Queen Panda or Shelley the Panda Queen 🀩
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Robert H · 3d
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Shelley H · 3d
Lol
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DesBear D · 3d 5
Busy day. Start new job next week. Shop all weekend
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Penelope P · 20 Oct
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Jenny D · 20 Oct
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Cindy M · 20 Oct
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Jeff M · 3d
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Esther B · 3d
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Natalie C · 3d
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Natalie C · 3d
Good luck, thinking of you :)
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DesBear D · 2d
Thanks pandas ❀️❀️
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nixiblu . · 3d 9
Back at Gatwick. Weekend away :-)
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Cindy M · 20 Oct
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Cindy M · 20 Oct
Have fun!
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Maite P · 3d
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Anna D · 3d
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Esther B · 3d
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Esther B · 3d
Enjoy
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Natalie C · 3d
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Natalie C · 3d
Have a good time :)
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Anna D · 2d
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Silke V · 3d 5
I disgust from people
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Maite P · 3d
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Esther B · 3d
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Jeff M · 3d 4
Waited around all day yesterday for guy who did my floors to come back and finish something. Never showed or called. Angry. Lonely last night. Beers and ice cream. Feel ill from it this morning.
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Jeff M · 3d
Trying to get myself motivated to run this morning, but don't want to. Maybe will just do a short run. Have a social beer run this afternoon (it won't really be much running, more drinking). Anxious about the social aspect.
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Maite P · 3d
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Linda H · 3d
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Anna D · 3d
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Esther B · 3d
How did it go?
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Alicia B · 3d
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Natalie C · 3d
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Silke V · 3d
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Jeff M · 3d
@Esther - it was ok. I enjoyed it, but I wasn't included. It was obvious I was an outsider to this group. Frustrating and sad...can't get used to this...
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DesBear D · 2d
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Jeff M · 3d 4
Thought maybe I was getting burned out on the running and exercises, and that seemed normal. Maybe I needed a break. Then I realized - this is how it happens. You feel tired, sick, a little low...
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Jeff M · 3d
You justify it...you figure you can get a good night's sleep or take a day off or do something you enjoy to recover. Sometimes, maybe, you can. But other times, you suddenly find yourself in the ditch of depression...
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Jeff M · 3d
Sometimes it sneaks up on you and slowly sucks you in, and sometimes it takes you out at the knees and throws you in, but you don't really recognize it until you're in that ditch looking up.
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Jeff M · 3d
The cold weather...the nagging cold or allergies...the stress and anxiety all contributed. I know that. I'm trying to fend it off with physical activity and meditation. Maybe this ditch isn't so deep. Maybe I'll climb out quickly.
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Jeff M · 3d
But I've long since learned not to fight it. It takes what it takes - sometimes a lot, sometimes a little. I have to let it take and be ok with it. It's a part of me...fighting it is like fighting my breath. I don't have to embrace it or wallow in it
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Jeff M · 3d
I've learned that I don't have to live in this ditch, buried deep. Because when you do that, you find there's always a deeper pit to suck you in, and the climb out gets harder and longer. There's a danger you can't get out...
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Jeff M · 3d
I just hope this hole is shallow. I try to remember that the sunlight is still up there and shines down in this hole...it just takes longer to get here and is diminished by the shadow. I try to forgive myself for this being a part of me...
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Ade W · 3d
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Anna D · 3d
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Anna D · 3d
I hope you'll feel better soon...
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Esther B · 3d
Hugs for you my friend. I think you've accomplished a lot these last months. Keep fighting xoxo
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Alicia B · 3d
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Alicia B · 3d
Thank you for sharing, Jeff, it's helped me reading this. I'm pretty much in a ditch too at the moment.
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Margot L · 3d
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Natalie C · 3d
Thats a great way to word the struggles Jeff. Big hugs :)
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Silke V · 3d
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DesBear D · 2d
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Penelope P · 3d 5
Okay but not quite right. Chores are done but now I'm a bit lethargic and no creative motivation. So the rest of the day will just be wasted away like usual.
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Ade W · 3d
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Leah N · 3d
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Leah N · 3d
That's ok, when I know watching tv is the only thing I'm capable of doing on a day, sometimes illl watch something I've never seen before to make things more interesting. Oh and checking out movies from the library is always fun 😊
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Anna D · 3d
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Esther B · 14 Oct 5
weekend at friends place, beautiful nature. Pelvis still not right. Afraid that I can't race next Sunday. Will call physiotherapist tomorrow.
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John T · 14 Oct
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John T · 14 Oct
Always more races, Esther. Enjoy the nature and your friends company, this just means you'll come back stronger and faster next time!
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nixiblu . · 14 Oct
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Cindy M · 14 Oct
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Esther B · 14 Oct
Thanks John Cindy and Nixi. 🐼
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Esther B · 14 Oct
And I know John but I've been preparing for this one for so long..
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Lydia R · 14 Oct
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DesBear D · 14 Oct
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Silke V · 14 Oct
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Jeff M · 15 Oct
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Jeff M · 15 Oct
I have faith that you'll be able to do it, Esther! I'm 'rooting for you!
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Margot L · 15 Oct
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Reba H · 19 Oct
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