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I didn't get to go to the gym tonight. Things kinda took a turn for the not-so-good. Maybe tomorrow will be better.
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Pseudo Bear ! · 17 Sep 10
Local fest just down the street! Food trucks! Booths! Swag!
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Accidental, necessary, nap!
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Retreat is going very well. Great students!
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Love 1 · 17 Sep 8
Installed wood ceiling. Enrolled in beginner's electrician course. Submitting proposal for tech program which may be only 1 of its kind. Helped 2 families obtain free furniture. Life is good.
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Shelley H · 17 Sep 8
Good night my friends. My mom. Told me today that she will stay here while my daughter travels to Italy.I am so so appreciative.
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Night night Lydia. Sweet dreams my friend xxx
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Penelope P · 17 Sep 7
Going out today with the man that I have loved like no other. I feel so lucky to have a second chance with him whilst also terrified that I'm going to stuff it up again. I wish I could relax about us.
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Nakila C · 17 Sep 5
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me M · 17 Sep 5
Feeling alone. Even though I broke up, they gave up. I know that the one will not give up. I wish I had a chance, that I would take both hands from a good person and that it would make my life better.
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Alicia B · 17 Sep 5
I got this book called 'Intuitive Eating' and started reading it. I check all the boxes in a test for a bad relationship with food, of course. The hardest thing they ask of you in the beginning is to
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Alicia B · 17 Sep
put the desire to loose weight on a backburner. I can't do that yet, but since I've started doing the other things they advise I don't have any weird cravings in the middle of the night. That's a huge relief, because either you give in and feel
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Alicia B · 17 Sep
guilty, or you don't and feel miserable. It's a great book, truly (I'm only four chapters in though). I talked to Inga about it and it turns out she already knows pretty much everything about intuitive eating. She's never had weight problems
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Alicia B · 17 Sep
or eating disorder problems, but she was interested in the subject at some point and read up on it. She looked me in the eye and said: 'You'll never be skinny, you know. That's just not your body type.' Then paused.
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Alicia B · 17 Sep
Then repeated: 'You'll never be skinny'. It felt bad. I mean, I used to be much thinner than now back when I had one tiny meal a day. I was hungry all the time, I had a headache all the time, but I looked good. Really good as I see now in the photos.
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Lydia R · 17 Sep
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Alicia B · 17 Sep
I still FELT fat and ugly back then. What Inga said made me realize I have made a choice and must not deny the consequences. I'll never be skinny. If I'm lucky, I'll get to see what my body thinks I'm supposed to be like. That would be amazing,
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Alicia B · 17 Sep
actually. I'm so curious about that. But first, I need to grieve that dream, even obsession that I've had ever since I was 11 and my dear mom told me I needed to eat less, and my sister got the pictures of 90s supermodels hanging around the apartment
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Alicia B · 17 Sep
I'll never be perfect, that's a given. But I'll never be even just thin. This is something for me to process in the coming days. I feel so good physically though.
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Lydia R · 17 Sep
I think I know how you must feel, skinny also isn't my body type, slim and normal and healthy could be achievable, but never skinny and fair and delicate. But as much as I'd like to be that I also don't have a problem anymore not ever being skinny.
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Lydia R · 17 Sep
I like the way you're handling this because I know how hard this can be (and I still have those days when I despair over my body), but in my opinion feeling good in ones own body and being healthy is the best what can happen to us. You don't have to
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Lydia R · 17 Sep
be skinny to be loveable. You're already lovely no matter what your body looks like. It's a hard fight but I'm sure you'll emerge as the winner!
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Alicia B · 17 Sep
Thank you, Lydia, you are so sweet <3 It's helpful to hear from someone who's ahead of me in the process, too :)
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me M · 17 Sep
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Kym S · 17 Sep
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Kym S · 17 Sep
It's a tough one. I relate to what you say a lot.. Even at my thinnest I still thought I was overweight. Nowadays I'm trying to focus on being muscular, instead of thin, and it's helped my self image a lot.
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paul M · 17 Sep
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John T · 3d
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Manda P · 3d
You are gorgeous no matter your weight, Alicia. We really need to pound this into our heads. Sorry to hear that you had to grow up in that environment. What is the trick to not give into the middle of the night cravings?
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Alicia B · 3d
Thank you Manda <3 Your words do mean a lot. The trick is, well, you gotta make yourself believe that when you're hungry you'll eat something nice no matter what where and when. When your subconscious believes you're free to eat whenever, and you've
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Alicia B · 3d
eaten enough during the day, you won't binge , like ever.
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Alicia B · 3d
The thing is you gotta eat :) And listen to your hunger, and not starve yourself. Forget dieting altogether. Which is HARD.
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Manda P · 8h
Yep, I've started to restrict again. Not good. I sleep through breakfast on the weekdays. Will try to start adding something small before I lay back down & really makes an effort to eat more than just a piece of string cheese for lunch.
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Alicia B · 7h
Maybe you could get that book, too, Intuitive Eating? It's awesome. Advised by a therapist specializing in Eating Disorders. I can't say it's the cure for all, but it might help a little bit.
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Alicia B · 7h
It really puts in you in zone for working on those issues. Which is the most important for me. Not just excercises, but a good understanding of what's going on in my head.
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Alicia B · 7h
Kym, you're right, it'd be cool to be strong and muscular, but I'm too lazy for that :( Plus, no real high from sport (I hear it's common for Bipolar peeps). Ugh.
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Manda P · 6h
I wrote the title down & will add it to my wishlist when I get home. Thanks for the recommendation! xx
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Tasha S · 17 Sep 7
Get to spend the day off with Ryan ☺️❤️
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Natalie C · 16 Sep 5
A smile hides a thousand emotions, but also it's shows true strength ❤ I may not be happy or where I want to be, at the moment but I Will keep battling until I can say I'm fine & actually mean it
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Esther B · 16 Sep 3
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Charly P NEW · 15 Sep
Don't feel discouraged about what people say or do. Just keep on living your life and forget them.
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Penelope P · 16 Sep 9
Had a nice day to myself after a little stress at the hairdresser. Even four sp*ders in one day has not brought this arachnophobe down. Hopefully a restful day tomorrow.
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Janine S · 16 Sep 7
About to go to sleep and hopefully get a good night's sleep before first aid training tomorrow.
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Alicia B · 16 Sep 7
Helped Alex with motorbike, painted, did some chores. In the evening mum wrote back all smiles and jokes. It works pretty well when I ignore the accusations. Mood's been good, and dreams are back.
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Alicia B · 15 Sep
I've always had very vivid, colourful and emotional dreams, but after a few years of abuse they've gone, with the exception of an occasional nightmare. I hated that; my dreams have always been a joy. Could I finally be getting over it all? I've been
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Alicia B · 15 Sep
no contact for a year and two months. I've been feeling much less emotional about the whole thing for the last month. There have been no changes in my life during this time, meds or otherwise, so I guess it's just that the time had come for me to
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Alicia B · 15 Sep
break free. I'm so happy it's only required a little over a year. I'd been prepared to withstand it for much longer.
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Manda P · 16 Sep
Here's to moving on! It felt so great to stand up to my ex & say I couldn't talk. Maybe one day I'll cut him off completely.
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Alicia B · 16 Sep
Yes, Manda, they say no contact is the only way to heal completely.
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Manda P · 3d
Which explains why my therapist strongly pushed for me to block him. I don't feel like there is anything to heal but I assume that just means there is actually a lot to heal?
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