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Penelope P · 18h 1
Considering cooling things with M. I hear my panda pals' wise words but there's only so long I can be grateful to him for using me. I get nothing from him, laughs & company that's all. It's not enough
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Penelope P · 2d
He uses me for hospitality, company & more worryingly for sexual favours. All I want is someone that can admit they want to be with me. He doesn't. He wouldn't even admit he likes me. What sort of relationship is that. None.
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Penelope P · 2d
I feel cheap, pathetic, simpering. I want to see him all the time. I need reassurance. I get nothing. Wasting my time, I don't want someone who is so emotionally stagnant.
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Leona S NEW · 2d
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Leona S NEW · 2d
if u already know that he's not what you want start thinking about 'getting rid' of him. your mental health is more important than him and you'll feel better without him bringin you down xx
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C J NEW · 2d
I've been in one of these “relationships.” Do what's best for you, your partner shouldn't be the one making you feel terrible about yourself, even if they “can't help it.” Good luck x
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Jeff M · 1d
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Jeff M · 1d
I can understand that. If you feel like you're being used negatively, and it's affecting you so much and so often, maybe this is wise. Perhaps talk to him...you may be able to step away for a while and reemerge as just friends down the line?
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Cindy M · 18h
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Xavier M · 14h
Ik I'm justa kd and all but hypothetically speaking, if he is using you for just company and sex, but won't say he likes you, then wth are u still doing with him. If he wants to be a douche bag than let him do that away from you.
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Xavier M · 14h
You deserve better Penelope... we all do at times. You explain time and time again that he isn't always there for you, and how he doenst see you as more than a friend or sometimes doenst even acknowledge you are there...
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Xavier M · 14h
'I feel cheap, pathetic, simpering.' well hello, you are none of those things. Keep ur chin up girl... and find some1 better than him, some1 who can be there for you, and doesnt just want u around for pleasure. Sorry bout the language but I just got
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Xavier M · 14h
riled up. Dont let him weigh you down, instead throw him off and fly.- Your pal, Xavier :)
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Penelope P · 3h
Thanks all for your comments. Hopefully a little time apart this weekend will help me get my head around how I really feel.
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Natalie C · 18h 1
Not well again, scars badly rubbed on airboot (heavy hospital walking boot protecting from further injuries).. lots of painful blisters & burns. Told to leave it off, but I can't walk at all ☹☹☹
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Natalie C · 2d
So disappointed. Still no dates for my operations either. It's always one step forward & 10 back.
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Leona S NEW · 2d
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Tristan G · 2d
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DesBear D · 20h
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Cindy M · 18h
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Robert H · 14h
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Metron A · 18h 5
Finally got my cavity filled. Napped before work, then transcribed. Not the earliest shift tomorrow, but I'm still going to bed too late.
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Cindy M · 18h
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Bed @ 00:00 last night. Awake around 6:10am. . . Spent a few minutes watching the little birds outside my window and listening to them sing. Nice start to the day. 😊 . . Tummy a little upset.
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Keeping Track A · 1d
Definitely due to eating soya/berries. Need to look up more info about phytoestrogens and allergies. The discomfort is not really worth the transient pleasure.
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Linda H · 1d
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Jeff M · 1d
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me M · 1d
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Cindy M · 18h
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Asper K · 18h 6
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DesBear D · 20h
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Cindy M · 18h
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Asper K · 18h 5
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Jeff M · 1d
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Cindy M · 18h
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Max T · 18h 4
Filming today. In an odd mood. Very up and down.
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Cindy M · 18h
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Jeff M · 18h 5
Didn't sleep well, very tired and impatient today. Met a few people for some beer and bar food, so ate too late last night. It's so cold today, and have to run tonight. Feeling very blah.
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me M · 1d
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Anna D · 1d
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Linda H · 20h
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Natalie C · 20h
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Jen B · 19h
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Cindy M · 18h
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Lydia D · 14h
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Lydia D · 14h
Lack of proper sleep puts me all out of sorts, too. Hope you get a better sleep tonight (depending on your time zone). <3
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Reba H · 6h
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Silke V · 18h 5
Another bad night. But the two previous ones I slept better
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Jeff M · 1d
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Cindy M · 18h
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Kym S · 18h 5
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Robert H · 1d
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Cindy M · 18h
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Kym S · 18h 4
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Cindy M · 18h
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John T · 18h 6
Had a nice walk today through a few different woodlands in the city. Hip is hurting. On waiting list for physiotherapy. Taken tablets.
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Alicia B · 20h
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Cindy M · 18h
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Alicia B · 18h 5
Yesterday was kind of sad, I told Inga about the self-harm. She took it well, when I said I needed to confess something I think she expected something worse :) She was very cool about it. Admirable,
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Alicia B · 21h
I must say. Called the English-speaking therapist, need to try again tomorrow to get an appointment. Painted today. Did OK in German class. Seeing how I feel without the Seroquel. Good, actually. I only take the fast-acting pill before sleep. The
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Zoe D · 21h
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Alicia B · 21h
one that's got a long-lasting effect makes me too hungry and maybe even too crazy. Could that be? It worked well for about a year, and then I started to spiral. Will try a couple weeks without it, then with it. I sound like a crazy person off their
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Alicia B · 21h
meds, don't I? Hopefully if I go totally bonkers, Inga'll tell me. I think I can trust that girl.
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Linda H · 20h
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Cindy M · 18h
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Jens K · 18h 5
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Zoe D · 21h
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Cindy M · 18h
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Alicia B · 18h 6
Today's been sort of nice. Except for feeling fat and yuck. Enjoying the sunlight and the drive through the fields. Focused. Feeling strong. Feeling I can face myself. I'll need help, probably, but I
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Alicia B · 21h
don't feel helpless and lost right now. I like it.
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Linda H · 20h
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Natalie C · 20h
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Urzara Z NEW · 19h
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Cindy M · 18h
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DesBear D · 18h 4
Long weekend starts. Depressed.
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Natalie C · 20h
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nixiblu . · 19h
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nixiblu . · 19h
Ooh. A long weekend. Lucky panda. Enjoy
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Cindy M · 18h
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me M · 9h
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Jeff M · 1h
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Penelope P · 18h 1
So one of my closest friends says I will end up stuck in all on my own over winter if I end things with M. She forgets that I don't mind being on my own at all, it's how I was before him
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Penelope P · 20h
and it's how I'll end up once he has tired of me. It scares me not. Took some effort but I think I've successfully put him off meeting up tomorrow and he's busy Sat/Sun. Hopefully a nice peaceful three days ALONE, just how I like it.
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Natalie C · 20h
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Xavier M · 14h
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Mr X · 18h 6
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Cindy M · 18h
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nixiblu . · 18h 6
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Alicia B · 2d 6
Ran for 30 min straight, then 30 more after a little break (had to go to a pharmacy). Progress is fast in the beginning. Last week I couldn't even keep running for 15 minutes. It's not a sport where I
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Alicia B · 3d
shine, I know :) But that's fine, I just need to move more on the reg so I feel better both psychologically and physically. What else? Inga's bought a car today. It's a Renault Twingo, the newer version. I know, living in Germany and buying a French
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Alicia B · 3d
car, WTF? I dunno, it just happened. It's cute, it's relatively new, it doesn't scream in the 1st gear. 1.2 liter engine. So there we are, two happy chicks in a Twingo. It was my ex's first car, the older version. I tried driving it back then, it
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Alicia B · 3d
kept stalling on me. He was such a dick about it. I don't say this to just badmouth him, it's because I need to remember he's a dick so I don't miss him when depressed. Gosh, I'm tired of myself.
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Alicia B · 3d
It's been a good day. Everything was great about it, including the picture I'd cut on my thigh recently. I like it a lot. I was being artistic about it. I know it's messed up, but this is where I am at the moment. I get the addiction to cutting now.
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Alicia B · 3d
What else? I'm a mess. And also I'm doing good in many ways. I'm studying, looking for a job, feeling positive and strong, and hopeful, and ready to do things that are hard, and trying to be healthy, and trying to be emotionally avalable.
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Alicia B · 3d
I'm Bipolar, that's what I am. Both ends of the spectrum, often at the same time. I've got a love-hate relationship with myself. Good thing I'm nicer to others now, eh? Whining done now, thank you for reading, friends. Love you, MP. I can't talk to
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Alicia B · 3d
anyone this way.
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Jeff M · 3d
Way to go on the run! That's great strides! :) Also, happy to see you happy and feeling positive about things! You're a strong panda for sure!
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Jeff M · 3d
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John T · 2d
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John T · 2d
How quickly you've got good at running is actually a bit infuriating! 😁
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Cindy M · 2d
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Alicia B · 21h
Nah, I am the slowest runner on Earth :) You've got nothing to worry about.
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