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Aiden Z · 29 Dec 0
Feeling like I'm unworthy of anyone's time or love. Being trans & trying to find a partner for love is tearing me apart at every seam just in time for my sister's wedding on the 31st. Nobody wants me
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Jeff M · 29 Dec
Maybe you don't need someone for the wedding. You can enjoy yourself without that person. Perhaps your putting undue pressure on yourself. Maybe you'll even meet someone at the wedding!
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Aiden Z · 29 Dec
It's not the wedding itself. It's more like that's the reminder of my single status that hasn't changed in 9+ years.
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Albertine M · 29 Dec
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Sophie V · 29 Dec
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Carmen H · 29 Dec
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Jen B · 29 Dec
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Jeff M · 29 Dec
Yeah, I can relate to that.
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Reba H · 29 Dec
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Janine S · 29 Dec
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Janine S · 29 Dec
That's understandable
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Manda P · 31 Dec
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Manda P · 31 Dec
Hey, Aiden. Glad to see you back but sorry it is under these circumstances. I wish I had better words to say except not to give up. That person is out there.
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Aiden Z · 05 Jan
@Manda P I didn't really know what else to do. And I think I found someone just by chance. I've kept pretty quiet about it too my family because I want things to work out and I don't want to jinx it. My family isn't the most supportive at times.
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Manda P · 06 Jan
You don't need your family's support, do you? As long as you're happy is what matters.
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Aiden Z · 06 Jan
No I don't need their support or involvement. I'm an adult and it's none of their business until I say it is.
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Manda P · 08 Jan
Have you met their family?
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Aiden Z · 09 Jan
No. It's gonna be awhile before that happens
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Manda P · 09 Jan
Well, good luck. I really hope everything works out for you.
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Ray T NEW · 19 Apr 2
How do you confess to a cis straight woman that you like her if you are trans? She's leaving for good and I can't show my grief to any of our common friends because they are all cis and straight.
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Lulu S · 18 Apr
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Aiden Z · 19 Apr
Are you not out to your mutual friends?
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Aiden Z · 10 Mar 4
Trying to get a date with someone when you're transgender is like walking on a minefield. It's hardly worth the effort of disappointment & ruined self-esteem but I still try & punish myself.
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Miles W · 10 Mar
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Olivia O NEW · 10 Mar
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Lydia R · 10 Mar
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Love 1 · 10 Mar
Wondering if theres an online , supportive dating site you can join. BTW, I admire your willingness to suffer for love.
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Aiden Z · 10 Mar
I looked into that. Too difficult to navigate since I don't have a proper PC at the moment. If it doesn't have an Android app, it may as well not exist.
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Aiden Z · 10 Mar
Plus a lot of sites are full of people that have unhealthy obsessions and fetishes and stuff concerning people like me and I'm not into that.
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Tasha S · 10 Mar
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Michelle W · 10 Mar
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Odie W · 18 Mar
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Ray T NEW · 19 Apr
Same situation here. I'm a trans guy and I have a crush on a friend's friend who is a straight cis woman. I feel hopeless and trapped. Glad to see another trans guy on MP. We should exchange some experiences with each other.
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Aiden Z · 19 Apr
I've never encountered another trans guy on MP either. I tried the whole online dating thing but my profile read more like a disclaimer and it was so defensive I'm sure it had to be a turnoff.
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Aiden Z · 19 Feb 0
There's a difference between living and surviving. I'm just not sure what it is anymore. If I don't feel like I'm living anymore then what's the point of surviving?
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tEnT S · 19 Feb
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Edward C · 19 Feb
Because things don't stay as bad as they are now forever. As difficult as things are at the moment, they pass and things work out. It's worth hanging on/in there for the better times ahead. The good times do come back. Just hang in there buddy.
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Aiden Z · 19 Feb
Things have been bad for far too long and I've just gotten sick and tired of hiding how I really feel. Admitting myself to a psych ward would be a horrible idea since I'm transgender with a seizure disorder so I can't even reach out for proper help.
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Lieteke G · 19 Feb
These are 2 difficult things. I have a few questions: seizures, do you get medication for that? Is
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Lieteke G · 19 Feb
Sorry, touched enter by mistake. Is there a reason which trickers the seizure, or are they unprovoked? It must ne really tough not knowing when to expect them. Must make you very insecure.
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Lieteke G · 19 Feb
Transgender. That is very hard. I don't know in which country you are living, only a few countries will socially accept it. Do your family know, are you in transition already, is there someone to talk to about it? It must be very tough and I
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Lieteke G · 19 Feb
And I understand your post. But it might get better. Really hope you have someone to talk to. Remember we are here for you
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Tasha S · 19 Feb
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nixiblu . · 19 Feb
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Edward C · 19 Feb
I understand that it's difficult, but there are some things we can't fix on our own, and the only way to get a helping hand.... is to reach out to someone who can. It might be just the start of mending things for you.
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Edward C · 26 Feb
I would like to think that you have the strength and courage to get through this by yourself, but sometimes we need a helping hand, even if it's just to get started on the right track. No-one should have to suffer or go through difficult times alone.
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Aiden Z · 18 Feb 0
What do you do when you're desperately lonely but don't want to be expected to put on an 'everything's okay' face for your family? They don't solve the problem anyway.
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Michail S · 18 Feb
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Michail S · 18 Feb
I go drinking so I give the same shy their
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Michail S · 18 Feb
*the same sht they give about me being lonely. They can't help it anyway.
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Aiden Z · 18 Feb
Can't drink with my anti-seizure meds unless I want to end up 6ft under in a real hurry plus no driving with seizures anyway to even get anywhere let alone a bar.
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Reba H · 19 Feb
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Michelle W · 19 Feb
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Michail S · 19 Feb
Given up on meds and resumed my drinking. Feel rather better. It's up to you anyways. Once you'll have realised meds no longer help you know an option :รพ
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Michail S · 19 Feb
The people that take you for granted don't seem to be able to have much empathy and condolences.
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Tasha S · 19 Feb
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D M · 18 Feb 0
Being single in your late 30s when all you wanted was to have a family with someone is the worst place to be.
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Michelle W · 18 Feb
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Jen B · 18 Feb
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Richard E · 18 Feb
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Richard E · 18 Feb
I know but enjoy being single.....its what I have done
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Aiden Z · 18 Feb
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Tuxi A · 18 Feb
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Margot L · 18 Feb
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Tasha S · 25 Aug 6
First day working at Holland & Barrett in Sheffield
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Noel L · 25 Aug
Sounds good Tasha. Hope it goes well for you
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Kaya L · 25 Aug
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Aiden Z · 25 Aug
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Christina S · 25 Aug
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Christina S · 25 Aug
Hope it goes well xx
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paul M · 25 Aug
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Alicia B · 25 Aug
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Tasha S · 25 Aug
Thank you Noel, Christina, it went well thank you x
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Claire M · 25 Aug
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Noel L · 26 Aug
Brilliant
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Albertine M · 27 Aug
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jade V NEW · 21 Aug 3
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Aiden Z · 21 Aug
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Abbi M · 21 Aug 2
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Aiden Z · 21 Aug
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Maria I NEW · 21 Aug 4
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Aiden Z · 21 Aug
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Sarah H · 21 Aug
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Tamsin B · 20 Aug 2
Feel angry that I have been left to deal with the flat when I didn't choose this situation in the first place
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Aiden Z · 20 Aug
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Alicia B · 20 Aug
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Keira C · 20 Aug 3
Sometimes I'm so afraid of disappointing people. I feel like I'm just inches away from failing. It's paralyzing and I wind up sabotaging my own success. I don't know why I do this to myself.
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Aiden Z · 20 Aug
Yeah I can completely relate to that. Right now in fact.
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Keira C · 22 Aug
That paralyzing feeling passed, thankfully. I feel better today. Thank you. I hope your feeling passes soon too.
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Aiden Z · 20 Aug 3
I created a live.me account but am finding myself too shy to broadcast my own singing even though I know I'm good. Always had stage fright as a soloist. Any ideas panda's!
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Lex M · 20 Aug
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Tasha S · 20 Aug
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Tasha S · 20 Aug
You can do it!
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Anna 2 · 20 Aug
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Aiden Z · 20 Aug
And I have no clue what to sing. I look young so I guess I should pick something bearing that in mind. I have one of those voices that can sound like just about anyone else's. It's weird.
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Herbie M · 20 Aug
Sing what makes you happy inside. If you do that, you might somehow be able to push away your fears & get lost in the music. Sing what feels right for you. Start with something simple & then build on what you can. Baby steps. You got this! ๐Ÿ™‚
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Aiden Z · 20 Aug
This is the part where being a perfectionist absolutely sucks.
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Herbie M · 20 Aug
Ah, yeah that's a pretty difficult one to get around isn't it? Still, are you going to give it a go?
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Albertine M · 20 Aug
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Aiden Z · 23 Aug
I really want to, Mandy M. It's hard to open myself up like that I guess.
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Herbie M · 23 Aug
Shame as you said you're really good, and am inclined to believe you ๐Ÿ™‚ You gots to do what you feel is right
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Carina N NEW · 15 Aug 3
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Aiden Z · 15 Aug
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Wendy J · 15 Aug 1
Feeling slightly down again due to ex thing contacting me to tell me i was yet again wrong. Its so frustrating that he cannot even see what he did to make me walk away.
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Aiden Z · 15 Aug
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Aiden Z · 15 Aug
Well for one, honestly most guys I know are like that. Or maybe he's emotionally damaged and loves playing the victim in a breakup situation. Everyone is different but guys do seem to be more dense.
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Aiden Z · 15 Aug
And the burning question, why didn't you make a clean break from someone who obviously hurt you a lot? You're allowing him to still contact you and that's a huge part of this ongoing problem. I wouldn't recommend it.
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Wendy J · 15 Aug
Thank you Aiden z, i know you are right. I think like you say he is a broken person who is not going to change at all, because he doesn't have the emotional insight within himself to change. I know it takes two to tango and i wasn't the easy one in o
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Wendy J · 15 Aug
Our relationship. You are however right i do need to cut the ties and let go because i am just continuing to let him manipulate the situation if i dont.
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Aiden Z · 15 Aug
Well the whole it takes two to tango fails to take into account that one person is usually an enabler of the other's worst behavior. Good example would be putting up with an abusive relationship with someone. You get what I mean?
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Aiden Z · 15 Aug
And he probably knew that you might be a bit of a challenge. He had to have known what he was getting into. His pseudo-acceptance turned ugly is totally on him. Don't take responsibility for him.
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Yara D NEW · 14 Aug 3
I feel like I'm nothing, or something like that. I'm really feeling bad, like if I'm nothing in the world. It's so bad :( i Just want to talk with someone:(
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Aiden Z · 14 Aug
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Kat P NEW · 14 Aug 1
My mom never knows when to quit. She's so miserable all she does is try to bring everyone else around her down. Pathetic. I can't wait to get away from this abusive shit.
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Aiden Z · 14 Aug
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Matt H · 14 Aug
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Aiden Z · 14 Aug
Kat, you being here shows your strength. You will make it through this just like I did with my Dad. I emerged intact and so will you.
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Anna 2 · 14 Aug
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Kat P NEW · 16 Aug
Thank you Aiden I'm sorry you had to deal with it as well. And thanks everyone else.
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Meghan H NEW · 14 Aug 2
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Aiden Z · 14 Aug
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Aiden Z · 14 Aug
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