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Melody L · 10h 5
No matter how bad.. Just do something...anything...So today it felt good at work, i felt like i belonged, went to the gym, didn't do as much, but still it's better than nothing
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Melody L · 10h
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Penelope P · 1d 4
Already not looking forward to work tomorrow. M coming round for tea so that will cheer me up a bit. Down about housing, money, tired. Can't see any way out unless there's a big lottery win for me.
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June X · 2d
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Melody L · 1d
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Melody L · 1d 2
Trying to fall asleep to shut my mind off, but bad thoughts keep spiraling. In those moments i wish i had sleeping pills again.
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Melody L · 1d
Afraid to ask them from my GP, they always think i will get addicted. I hate that stereotype. I have never taken more than 2-3 sleeping pills in a month, but probably they wont believe me...
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Lynsey P · 1d
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Melody L · 1d
J ignored my messages and phone call, i wanted to share my worry. But i am on my own... like always... when something is making me sad in our 'relationship'. Maybe i am doin him unjustice. He seems to help when my problem is not so emotional or
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Melody L · 1d
related to us. Like switching my jobs. Then he was very supportive, encouraging and involved.
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Lynsey P · 2d 2
Feeling lonely after 🐝
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Melody L · 2d
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Melody L · 2d 4
Sunny day, went mushrooming and swimming, but sad cuz we missed a chance with j to enjoy that day together. Chances are low to get this sunny and warm day in August again here...
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Melody L · 2d
Cried a little about that. I know it feels good to be together even if we are between four walls. But we missed to spent time outside the whole summer cuz of his issues and now things are ok, but it bothers me still
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Melody L · 2d
I think more negative thoughts are connected with this seemingly pseodo problem
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Jen B · 1d
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nixiblu . · 3d 7
Pole class. Tiring week, relieved it's Friday
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Daisy O · 3d
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Daisy O · 15 Aug 4
Today was such a struggle i could hardly speak. I was really avoiding communicating with people without looking anti social. I'm trying to understand why im finding it hard to speak.
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Tiffany C · 15 Aug
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Jen B · 15 Aug
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Nebu P · 15 Aug
I have a lot of trouble speaking to people too.
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Melody L · 15 Aug
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Penelope P · 14 Aug 4
Keep getting headaches mid afternoon that last until bedtime. Still sleeping badly with night panics. Work bad. The only light in my life is my man, how lucky I am.
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Bipolar Bear . · 13 Aug
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T A · 13 Aug
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Daisy O · 14 Aug 4
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Daisy O · 14 Aug
The mental struggle is real hard.The positives are i've survived the many times recently that I've felt and thought of taking my life. I've survived the many different seasons of my life where i've felt like that and that must count for something.
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Daisy O · 14 Aug
I am exhausted from this fight, its taking alot out of me. Ill have to leave my house this week for things i should be excited about but im really not looking forward to any of them. I feel numb to everything.
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Daisy O · 14 Aug
I just want to be well, i'm not enjoying how unproductive i've been. I love getting things done. The fight in me has really given up but deep inside of me i still have hope. Hope is all i've been holding on to even when i can't see a way out.
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Asteria W · 14 Aug
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Melody L · 14 Aug
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Tayla O · 12 Aug 8
Actually feeling good today. Bring on today. Slightly nervous but still feeling good πŸ˜„
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Melody L · 12 Aug
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Chris A · 12 Aug
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Tayla O · 12 Aug
Thanks pandas x
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me M · 12 Aug
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nixiblu . · 12 Aug
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Tayla O · 13 Aug
Thank you x
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Tayla O · 14 Aug
Thank youuu x
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Alicia B · 3d
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Tayla O · 3d
Thanks x
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Melody L · 12 Aug
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me M · 11 Aug 5
I feel ambivalent. On the one hand I don't want to go back and answer him because I had very difficult years with him. On the other hand, it is very bad feeling to write to someone who does not answer
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me M · 11 Aug
you back. The feeling is terrible. And I don't want to make anyone feel so bad ..
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me M · 11 Aug
But I have a reason. That's because he hurt me. And I don't want to get hurt again. Even though it was a long time and he apologized.
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Melody L · 11 Aug
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Alicia B · 11 Aug 5
Following advice for PTSD suferers, I've been trying to treat myself in a childlike state as an actual kid. I've been feeling very good today doing that. Letting myself be this way. I don't think it's
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Alicia B · 10 Aug
very visible, except that my emotions are more obvious. The idea is that PTSD exists on the spectrum with DID. There is fragmentation to some extent, and triggers send us into 'states'. Those states are not actual distinct personalities.
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Alicia B · 10 Aug
But we behave differently in those states. The trick is to learn to recognise them (give them names and stories if you want to) and accept them, rather than blame yourself for being 'weird'.
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Alicia B · 10 Aug
This has been eye-opening for me.
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Alicia B · 10 Aug
I've always felt a wild inconsistency in my relationships, my behaviour, my desires and goals. I've been told I was 'like several different people all in one' many times. I've learnt about family systems and re-parenting myself, it's been incredible!
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Alicia B · 10 Aug
This is another step, and I feel good about it. I've asked a part of myself for the first time today: 'How do YOU feel about J?' The response was such pure joy and tenderness, I didn't know I was capable of that. Also, I'm painting all of this :)
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Shelley H · 10 Aug
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Melody L · 11 Aug
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Gabrielle H · 11 Aug
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Manda P · 11 Aug
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Manda P · 11 Aug
This sounds great, Alicia! Can't wait to see how it transfers to your paintings.
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Tayla O · 11 Aug
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Jen B · 11 Aug
*Very* interesting about the link to DID. I have not heard that before. It has occurred to me pretty recently that I can be very similar to what you're describing here and reading this seems timely. ❀️
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Alicia B · 11 Aug
Jen, I'm very glad it's potentially helpful. I'm new to it as well. From what I understand it's a spectrum of trauma-based responses.
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Melody L · 11 Aug 7
I had an exciting and relaxing day. Can't fall asleep tho, i am anxious like something bad has happened..so weird. I think it's just brain error.
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Melody L · 11 Aug
Oh, it can be anxiety from having to make a big desicion about my job tomorrow...i think i ignored it during the daytime
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Gabrielle H · 11 Aug
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me M · 11 Aug
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me M · 11 Aug 1
I didn't eat healthy today,I did't exercise. I didn't do anything.
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Shelley H · 10 Aug
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Melody L · 11 Aug
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me M · 11 Aug 4
He wrote to me again. On the one hand, I feel lonely and I want to answer because I know he always knew how to be a friend and listen. On the other hand, Am I ready to get back in touch?
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me M · 10 Aug
Am I ready to meet soon? Am I ready to move forward in this connection? Maybe in the future but not now. So if I answer him I'll just waste my time because I'm not moving forward with him.
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me M · 10 Aug
Do I want to live with him? Do I want to bring children from him? Am I ready to have all his less good qualities? Can I forgive the arguments? These are questions I have no answers to.
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Tayla O · 10 Aug
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Melody L · 11 Aug
You are asking so good questions. Hugs!
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Gabrielle H · 11 Aug
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Alicia B · 11 Aug
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Alicia B · 11 Aug
Keeping a clear head. Well done!
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me M · 11 Aug
Thanks guys xx
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me M · 08 Aug 5
I want this person I can take pride in and say that he is the person who supported me. For which I am happy. I'm lucky to be in my life. Where's that person?
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nixiblu . · 09 Aug
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me M · 09 Aug
Thanks all!πŸ™
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nixiblu . · 08 Aug 7
Too tired to exercise
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Tayla O · 07 Aug
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Daisy O · 06 Aug 0
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Shelley H · 06 Aug
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me M · 06 Aug 5
I feel lonely. I think he sees someone, Although he wrote to me the other day (and I didn't answer him). I see that everyone is moving forward in life. People were getting married, than divorce
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me M · 06 Aug
And get married again. People have children.Buy cars.Sell ​​cars, and only for me all is stuck, even my project is stuck. I feel like I do change but in my life nothing changes. And I don't want to lose hope that something will change.
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c m · 06 Aug
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Melody L · 06 Aug
I'm stuck too :D hello there :D
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Melody L · 06 Aug
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me M · 07 Aug
Melody, They say Good things take time :DπŸ™, hugs back
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