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Lydia R · 17h 5
Day started with good mood and energy, then procrastination kicked in and now I'm tired and unmotivated. Been lying on my bed for hours. Mood okay though.
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Zoe D · 23h
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Alicia B · 22h
Good that mood is OK :) I find we all procrastinate when we have to do something that has no pleasure for us in it. I try to trick myself into enjoying chores now. Sometimes it works.
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Natalie C · 22h
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Manda P · 19h
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Manda P · 19h
Everyone needs a good stay in bed every now & then. Glad the mood has stayed ok!
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Margot L · 17h
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Lydia R · 17h 7
Still wondering about this quite persistently good mood lately, and also always a bit worried when it might be gone again, but more than that I'm trying to enjoy it as best as I can.
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Lydia R · 2d
Good and very helpful chat with friend this morning, put some things into perspective. Trying best not to forget it when I'm feeling bad again. Wondering if these honest talks are part of why I'm feeling better and/or if my meds are suddenly working.
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Bipolar Bear . · 2d
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Love 1 · 2d
Whatever it is, gives you some respite and, I hope, clarity to continue walking the path to self-knowledge and to peace.
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Manda P · 2d
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Manda P · 2d
So great to see all this green, My Sweet Lydia! I really hope it sticks! 💖
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Cindy M · 2d
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Lydia R · 2d
Thanks Love and Manda and every Panda for the hugs! ❤
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Tasha S · 2d
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Lydia R · 1d
Thanks Tasha and Jen!
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Cindy M · 17h 7
Saw M Fri night/yesterday: he gave me a portrait of my cat which his mother had painted. It was amazing! But also, no one's ever done anything like that for me: made me something themselves. Weirdly
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Lydia R · 1d
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Cindy M · 1d
I'd just been thinking the other day that she will
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Cindy M · 1d
have another birthday next month, she's already in the 'elderly' category (though really well) and that I haven't many pictures of her. She is particularly special to me because I adopted her with my last partner, and she's been with me since I broke
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Cindy M · 1d
up with him, lived on my own, moved to Scotland, became clinically depressed and ended up losing my job, unemployed for a couple of years while getting well, and now about to finish my first year back at work. She has been here through everything,
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Cindy M · 1d
including the el cheapo cat food. I was quite tearful when M gave it to me and tried to explain to him why it meant so much to me. Getting a card for his mother today to try to tell her. People are really amazing sometimes!
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Love 1 · 1d
these beautiful connections are sacred, because they get us in touch w/the goodness in ourselves & in others. We ascend together.
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Penelope P · 1d
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Manda P · 1d
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Manda P · 1d
That is so sweet, Cindy. Glad you've had such a great feline friend to be there for you through all of that & to have such lovely people in your life.
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Tuxi A · 23h
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Alicia B · 22h
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Alicia B · 22h
Close to tears here. Wonderful story.
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Natalie C · 22h
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Reba H · 18h
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Margot L · 17h
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John T · 8h
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Alicia B · 17h 5
Football, more bike fixing and a ride today. Exercise really helps. Feeling good about myself turned out to be a trap, though. It's made me look in the mirror more and hope to see hot. I'm not right
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Alicia B · 22h
now. I don't need to be, I've got all the love and attention I need anyway, because I don't know why, I just do. Boy, body dysmorphia is hard.
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Alicia B · 22h
I need to talk to Super*** again ( stupid name, but my bf who killed himself made it up, so I'm keeping it). This is exhausting, and so damn boring.
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Alicia B · 22h
Made it a 5 by mistake, I'm feeling pretty OK, actually.
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Manda P · 19h
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Margot L · 17h
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Lydia R · 13h
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John T · 8h
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Manda P · 17h 8
Such a big day yesterday. Beach again with Sis included (no problems there), dinner, walk along the MarshWalk, Sunset Cruise, hanging out on the pier, hair wrap, & night walk along the beach. Perfect!
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Natalie C · 1d
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Natalie C · 1d
Glad to hear you are having a lovely time! 😀
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Manda P · 1d
Thank you, Natalie. If my brothers & sister were here with us I feel like it'd be the best time of my life!
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Alicia B · 22h
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Alicia B · 22h
That sounds awesome. Happy for you
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Manda P · 19h
Thank you, Alicia. I had a feeling this would be exactly what I needed even though I fought it till the end. Fingers crossed I make it home & stay relatively sane!
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Margot L · 17h
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Jeff M · 8h
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Jeff M · 8h
Sounds like a perfect trip! I was running by the lake yesterday and caught the scent of suntan lotion and was brought back to happy times spent at the beach growing up. I miss the ocean so much...
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Tasha S · 17h 6
Work and then going for a picnic with Ryan
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Lydia R · 1d
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Cindy M · 1d
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Love 1 · 1d
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Manda P · 1d
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Manda P · 1d
Are you packing the basket? What'cha having? I hope you guys have a splendid time! 💚
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Natalie C · 22h
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Margot L · 17h
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Tasha S · 13h
Just grabbed salad boxes, crisps and samosas from Morrison's, nothing extravagant 🙈 thank you
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Tasha S · 3d 6
Glad to have the day off
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Alicia B · 3d
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sonny S · 3d
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Lydia R · 3d
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John T · 3d 6
First cloudy day in too long a time. Lovely weather for running this morning. Afternoon flew by without anything being done. Lovely evening with niece and nephew and Dad at the allotment. Taken tabs.
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Keeping Track A · 3d
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Margot L · 3d
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Jen B · 3d
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Lydia R · 3d 6
Highly amusing dream last night about being diagnosed as Bipolar - type chocolate. Went to work and energy level increased throughout day. Slightly annoyed at neighbour, but calmed down again.
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Jen B · 3d
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V R · 3d
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John T · 3d
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John T · 3d
Mmmmmm mental illness... 🍫🍫🍫🍫🍫🧙🏻‍♂️
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sonny S · 3d
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Margot L · 3d
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Shelley H · 2d
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Manda P · 2d
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Manda P · 2d
I missed this! So glad you have a diagnoses & meds now. Life is finally returning! Do be prepared for those episodes that break through the meds. It's hard & disappointing sometimes. We'll be here for ya! 💖
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Cindy M · 2d
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Lydia R · 2d
Yeah, John, tasty, isn't it? 😆
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Lydia R · 2d
No, Manda, I think you've misunderstood this post. It was just a dream, take a closer look at 'chocolate'. 😉 But I've had a few appts at the psychology department of a hospital (for a study, but a thorough diagnostic was included) and am awaiting
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Lydia R · 2d
their results now. I also have an appt at the end of July at the psychology department of my uni, where they'll most likely also do some kind of diagnostic and see if they have a free CBT spot for me. My meds are still the same since starting them.
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Lydia R · 2d
Thanks for the hugs, Pandas!
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Manda P · 1d
Oh, I see. Sorry for getting confused. Glad you're doing all that though. I really hope it's a help!
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tEnT S · 11h
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Manda P · 3d 8
I made it here without spazzing in the car (only a couple irritable moments that didn't escalate & were diffused quickly), only crying once, & even drove on the Interstate for a few hours which has...
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Jeff M · 3d
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Lydia R · 3d
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Lydia R · 3d
Great to see green! Wishing you an enjoyable holiday. :)
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Manda P · 3d
...been a fear for many, many years now. I feel amazing being here! I've gotten a few seconds of irritability towards BF here & there, but it's to be expected. Beach today & tomorrow & then a walk along at night. No worries, Manda! NO WORRIES!!!
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Lydia R · 3d
Definitely no worries, just enjoyment! 😊
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V R · 3d
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Margot L · 3d
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Manda P · 2d
Thank you, Lydia. It's 98% enjoyment. I about had a panic attack last night as we were listening to live music because I'm so nervous to wear my skintight dress tonight. Wtf?! I also cried my eyes out in bed last night. 😢 Thanks for the hugs! 💖
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Cindy M · 2d
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Manda P · 11 Jul 5
Up at 4:30AM but so is daughter because we went to bed super early. It's fine because the plan is to pull out of here at 6AM tomorrow. I mania spent $ on new clothes yesterday after...
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Manda P · 11 Jul
...therapy yesterday including a skin tight dress which I've never owned one of before. I've gained some weight. So much that I haven't weighed myself in a week because I'm scared. Nothing drastic, but obviously still freaks me out. I was trying...
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Manda P · 11 Jul
...to celebrate my
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Manda P · 11 Jul
...F*CK!!! I can't type here today. ANYWAY, I was trying to celebrate my curves when I picked it out. I haven't clothes shopped for myself in years. Daughter told me to wear the dress & “show of all my goods”. 😂
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Manda P · 11 Jul
Ok, I weighed myself. (BF got a new scales that pushed data to an app for all of us. It freaked me out.) 115 lbs. Exactly 10 lbs up from the weight everyone thought was dangerously low. It's like I planned this perfectly. I will start losing again.
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Lydia R · 11 Jul
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Lydia R · 11 Jul
Why do you want to lose weight again after finally gaining some? ED stuff I don't understand? 😕
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Jeff M · 11 Jul
Aw, Manda, be proud of those curves! Show 'em off! :) You deserve that...and I hope you don't lose the weight. (BTW I was up at 4:15 this morning...4:30 sounds nice! :) )
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Jeff M · 11 Jul
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Love 1 · 11 Jul
Stay healthy. :)
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Manda P · 11 Jul
Thanks, guys. I'll also be in the skimpy two piece swimsuit I bought. I had lost my mind! Lydia, yes, stupid ED stuff. I am hardcore bingeing in the middle of the night & I've never binged like that in the 20 year ED history. So ashamed. 😔 I just...
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Manda P · 11 Jul
...want back at 110 lbs. It's so silly. Obsessing over a 5 lb difference. Maybe I'll get down there & feel confident in the clothes. My hope anyway. Jeff, that 15 minutes makes all the difference in the world, doesn't it? 😊 Thanks for the hugs. 💚
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Jeff M · 11 Jul
That confidence issue...that's the hard one. Most of us are not confident in our bodies, especially for someone facing ED issues. You need to hear all the positive things and force yourself to believe them! Good for you for trying!
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Cindy M · 11 Jul
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Cindy M · 11 Jul
I think your daughter's got the right idea. I don't feel confident in my body, as Jeff says, and I find that hard enough, even at my age - I can't imagine how tough it must be for you with the ED pressure as well. xx
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Manda P · 11 Jul
So glad you guys are able to be honest with me. It does help to know I'm not the only one who struggles with this. I'm really starting to spaz now. I will be seeing my sister & you all know about her! Plus, I've always felt in competition with...
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Manda P · 11 Jul
...her. She's a lot prettier than me & I've always counted on being skinnier than her. 😢
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Margot L · 11 Jul
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Anna . · 12 Jul
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Anna . · 12 Jul
You are perfect NOW, Manda! Don't let the ED thoughts win - your weight is totally perfect. It's more about how you see yourself than the real need to lose weight
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Manda P · 3d
Aw, thank you, Anna. xx I'm going to the beach today so I'll really have to kick those bad thoughts out so I can enjoy myself. Thanks for the hug, Margot. 💚
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Tasha S · 11 Jul 5
Don't feel like going to work today. Had to deal with drunk Ryan last night - not fun.
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John T · 10 Jul
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Jeff M · 10 Jul
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Lydia R · 10 Jul
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Robert H · 10 Jul
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Manda P · 10 Jul
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Manda P · 10 Jul
Yeah, drunk people suck. He's lucky to have you to take care of him!
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Tasha S · 12 Jul
Yeah he is Manda 😂 thanks for the hugs
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John T · 11 Jul 6
Nice day today. Good run this morning. Got a walk planned for tomorrow. World Cup semi final now. Purring cat. Taken tablets.
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Lydia R · 10 Jul
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Robert H · 08 Jul 6
The day went by a little slower than I thought but I don't mind. Breakfast and lunch were great and I did some thinking on what I hope to get out of this summer.
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Margot L · 08 Jul
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John T · 08 Jul 4
I had a good morning. This afternoon I've wanted to do something creative but not done anything. Thought about making detailed plan and notes for writing but didn't. Chores are piling up. Taken tabs.
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nixiblu . · 08 Jul
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Alicia B · 08 Jul
Maybe another day. It's hard to start after a long pause. Have you had a long creative pause?
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Tasha S · 08 Jul 6
Glad to have 2 days off to get some stuff done
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Lydia R · 08 Jul
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Tasha S · 09 Jul
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Lydia R · 08 Jul 6
Feeling a lot better. Put ear plugs in and started tidying out a part of my flat. Made great progress, feel satisfied and pleasantly exhausted. Beer, food and tv now, then off to bed.
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Robert H · 08 Jul
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Alicia B · 08 Jul
Well done! Great to have a nice evening after all the work. Hugsies to you
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Line R · 08 Jul
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Love 1 · 09 Jul
I wear earplugs every night as I'm sensitive to noise. Hope they help you
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Lydia R · 1d
Thanks Pandas, and hugs to all of you! Love, they did help and I was awfully productive, but my ears hurt a lot after wearing them for 5 hours as they're not used to them. Tried sleeping with them but it's still weird.
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Love 1 · 1d
hehe. I now have the opposite experience where it feels weird to sleep without them.Guess the body habituates
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Lydia R · 07 Jul 4
Day started all right, though tired the whole time, but mood turned bad around noon and I can't seem to snap out of it. Tired, moody, lonely, but also unapproachable, irritable and withdrawing.
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Maite P · 07 Jul
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Alicia B · 08 Jul
It's amazing how aware you are of your feelings and reactions. That has to change things for the better.
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John T · 08 Jul
I agree Alicia. I think using MoodPanda regularly keeps self awareness on the mind. It's good.
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Lydia R · 08 Jul
I don't know if this is good or not. I just try to give names to what I'm feeling because otherwise I find it hard to describe my emotions. It's possible I've become more aware of them over the years, but I still can't handle them very well. What's
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Lydia R · 08 Jul
the point of self-awareness then? Yes, I know I'm feeling like *** and maybe also the reason for it, but I can't change and just continue to feel like ***.
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Lydia R · 08 Jul
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John T · 08 Jul
It's better than not knowing what's happening and being on a different planet with entirely irrational thoughts and beliefs, and not realising. I know that all too well, and I don't think ignorance is bliss in this particular case.
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John T · 08 Jul
CBT will help make sense of the processes behind how these thoughts and feelings operate. You've already got a base with the awareness. Most of the help out there is proven to help, or it they wouldn't offer it. Sending a little hope, hopefully!
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Lydia R · 08 Jul
You're right. But since I'm apparently one of the few lucky ones when it comes to mental health I don't think it's much of an achievement. Lately I feel like I don't actually belong here, again. So also feel bad for ranting when others have it worse.
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Lydia R · 08 Jul
We'll see how that goes/if I can start at all. Not so sure about it anymore. Just doubting everything again.
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John T · 08 Jul
I guess what I'm trying to get at that you can change things when you have understanding and reasons for your mood. I think that will come and you're on the right path. Don't feel bad, you haven't done anything wrong.
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John T · 08 Jul
Well all the pandas want you to get better, and without pressure or judgement, we'll try and get you closer to where you want to be. Recovery is not meant to be easy and it's easy to feel overwhelmed, just look after yourself best you can.
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John T · 08 Jul
I think you are the most genuinely good, and brutally honest person I know. That is true strength. Now that's something to be aware of...
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Lydia R · 08 Jul
Not sure if brutally honest is how I would describe myself. Also not sure if it's a compliment. :D Being honest is good, but I don't really think of me that way. Interesting view you've got there.
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John T · 08 Jul
Well if you are telling lies, I'm believing them! 😁 [I hope you feel better soon :)]
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Maite P · 07 Jul 7
Despite my difficulty eating, I've been having a really decent week in terms of mental health - visited Cambridge today and later spoke a bit with someone I really love, so overall, today was great.
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V R · 06 Jul
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Tasha S · 07 Jul 5
Been to the dentist, they've prescribed me antibiotics, said it's probably going to happen again while my wisdom teeth are still growing (yay). Have work today, it's still hurting but hoping it will
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Tasha S · 07 Jul
Subside before I go to work.
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Lydia R · 07 Jul
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Love 1 · 07 Jul
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Tasha S · 08 Jul
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