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Lydia R · 2d 5
The last two short nights have left me feeling quite rough round the edges and emotional. Caught me falling back into old patterns. Thought about two friendships I've lost in the last year and felt
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Lydia R · 3d
very blue and melancholic, but the memories haven't completely crushed me (yet). I miss them badly, but learning to accept loss would be a giant step for me.
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Tasha S · 3d
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Love 1 · 23h
Not easy to accept loss. Theres celebration of love & friendship as well as mourning of the loss of same.
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Silke V · 2d 5
Can't sleep :(
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Binky B · 2d
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Han M · 2d
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Han M · 2d
try to take a hot bath and drink some warm tea
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Silke V · 2d
Well of course after this post I fell asleep.
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Tasha S · 2d
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Tasha S · 2d 5
Had a horrible dream. Sleepy, got my interview this morning.
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Alice T · 2d
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Tasha S · 23h
Thank you for the hugs
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Esther B · 2d 3
Talked with therapist. He said 'the good thing' is that its a pattern. When men make me insecure or vulnarable I tend to push them until they get so annoyed they dump me. This one told me pretty soon.
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Esther B · 2d
I think theres still hope. He still talks to me and wants to meet.
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DesBear D · 2d
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Liz K · 2d
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Cindy M · 2d
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Cindy M · 2d
Good to see a post from you - I worry! Sounds like your therapist is helping. Glad there's still hope with Him
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Margot L · 2d
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Alicia B · 2d 4
Depressive phase definitely. Ashamed of having it right now, when I should be energetic and charming. Silly, right? Need self-care, to let myself be who I am, including bipolar.
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Alicia B · 2d
Feels like I'm hanging in emptiness, nowhere to stand on. Seeing myself as sick and accepting this version of me is the only thing that helps.
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Liz K · 2d
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Cindy M · 2d
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Cindy M · 2d
Really good attitude in the midst of pretty difficult circumstances, Alicia - big hugs xx
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Margot L · 2d
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Katie Rose S · 1d
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Love 1 · 24h
I'm hearing a need for acceptance, allowing this feeling to be. Also, I sense a need for grounding when you say you feel suspended in emptiness.
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Esther B · 3d 2
crying in train because he said I'm being very dependent all of a sudden. it's just my insecurities. why do I keep on pushing people away by constantly asking them to like me
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Lydia R · 3d
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Lydia R · 3d
I'm in a bus almost crying wondering about the same thing. I can't give you an answer though, I'm sorry. 😞
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Anna . · 3d
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Richard E · 3d
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Tasha S · 3d
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Margot L · 3d
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Cindy M · 3d
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Cindy M · 3d
Big hugs, dear Esther xx
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Binky B · 2d
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Curtis M · 3d 6
I'm writing a short film script about a day in the life of someone suffering from depression. Any1 have any visual metaphors to share? Abstract ways of describing how symptoms feel?
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Curtis M · 15 Aug
I want the film to be visual so there's no dialogue. The idea is to use visual metaphors to make the audience empathize with symptoms...
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Curtis M · 15 Aug
...for example, ideas I've had include: Trying to get out of bed but being physically chained to it, everyone around him is overly and annoyingly happy. Etc, any other ideas would be greatly appreciated!
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Binky B · 15 Aug
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Binky B · 15 Aug
What about feeling like a fraud (not sure how you'd show that... Like not fitting in?), or wanting to die - perhaps gladly going to sleep in a coffin, or perhaps that could signify the 'death' of one's ambitions.
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Sara P · 15 Aug
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Sara P · 15 Aug
Yessss, my depression feels like I'm laying in the coffin watching ppl living while I lay down dead yet conscious of everything.
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Sara P · 15 Aug
Also, feeling l
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Sara P · 15 Aug
Ups... Anyway, also feeling like I am thorn apart between life and death... Existing in the middle like two forces or men pulling me each on their side while I suffer.
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Sara P · 15 Aug
Aaaalso, depression for me feels like I'm not able to see my future and seeung ppl around me having lives while I live in the neverending nightmare of waking up in the same empty day.
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Sara P · 15 Aug
Don't wanna be annoying but... Sometimes it feels like being followed by someone who holds me from speaking, interacting or walking, forcing me pay all attention to him while he just keeps silently staring at me.
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Love 1 · 15 Aug
Our moods are filters. So what if you have a scene and then two orbits representing the eyes panning the scene filtered in blue.
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Curtis M · 15 Aug
Wow thanks guys! Great ideas. The coffin idea is interesting, maybe a glass coffin invisible to others.
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Curtis M · 15 Aug
Love 1 I like the use of colour when presenting depression. There's a great film 'A Single Man' and the colours are very desaturated, but becomes more vivid in scenes that gives the character a reason to live
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Curtis M · 15 Aug
What do you guys think of the character being underwater? But the rest of the world is normal, so would use VFX to put a water filter over the world
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Love 1 · 15 Aug
That's interesting too. one more thought. Rumination, or excessive thinking, is characteristic of depression. I would have the din of thought, the cacophony playing and contrast with, say, the sound of a bird singing. But protagonist can't hear b/c
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Love 1 · 15 Aug
din of thinking is too loud.
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Tasha S · 15 Aug
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Sara P · 15 Aug
I like it! Break a leg! <3
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Margot L · 3d
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Alicia B · 2d
I see it as watching one's life on TV. Things happening, people talking, but in the end you are still alone in your room in front of a box.
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Lydia R · 15 Aug 6
Dear god, it took me almost all day to find (not even the best or right) words to tell my friend that I miss her and why I'm such an idiot. Result is 1,5 Word pages of some serious Blah Blah shit...
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Lydia R · 15 Aug
...but (for now) I'm glad I finally did it, very good feeling. I'm also mighty scared of her response, so I'll hide somewhere far away from my mobile.
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Margot L · 15 Aug
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Tasha S · 15 Aug
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Kristin L · 15 Aug
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Moritz H · 15 Aug
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Moritz H · 15 Aug
Great job :)
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Silke V · 15 Aug
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Silke V · 15 Aug
Really good you took the time for that!
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Love 1 · 15 Aug
I think it's sweet.
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Lydia R · 15 Aug
Thank you all for the hugs and comments, Pandas! I'm still glad I did it, even though it's just the start, but I'm also a bit worried if I've found the right words because she hasn't replied yet and it's been 4 hours. Which is funny, really,...
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Lydia R · 15 Aug
because sometimes I disappear for days without replying or even saying I'll be off for a while, but I'm worried if someone else doesn't reply instantly. Double standards. :/ Bit worried, but it's okay. Thanks all. 💖
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Manda P · 15 Aug
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Manda P · 15 Aug
I'm so proud of you for doing that! I know she'll reply. Just try to distract yourself while you wait on it. Way to go, Lydia!
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Alicia B · 15 Aug
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Joe M · 15 Aug
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Binky B · 15 Aug
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Binky B · 15 Aug
I bet she loves it! Maybe she hasn't replied because it's a long message. She might think it's a lot to think about, like she will need to take time to write a reply that's 'good enough' to match your msg. If that makes sense! Perfectionism!
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Lydia R · 16 Aug
Thanks Manda! 💜 It did feel good to get something off my chest, but I had to turn off the wifi at some point and go to bed or else I'd have checked for new messages every minute. She actually did reply around 10pm, so we missed each other.
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Lydia R · 16 Aug
Tbh I still haven't read them, today turned out to be busier than expected and I didn't want to read it before work in case it's not as positive as expected. Can't sit there crying my eyes out bc of my stupid life choices. Still anxious to open them.
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Lydia R · 16 Aug
Thank you Binky! 💛 I hope she did (and if I just read them I'd actually know duh). It's normal that she wouldn't reply instantly at this time; she's a mum of two little ones and quite busy, but my mind doesn't care about logic sometimes.
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Lydia R · 16 Aug
Perfectionism is what kept me from writing it for weeks. I never found the right words and just kept thinking 'it's not good enough yet' and stopped every attempt at giving it a try.
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Cindy M · 16 Aug
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Tasha S · 15 Aug 6
Today is going to busy methinks
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Binky B · 15 Aug
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sonny S · 15 Aug
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Lydia R · 15 Aug
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Margot L · 15 Aug
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Tasha S · 15 Aug
Thanks for the hugs
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DesBear D · 15 Aug
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Manda P · 15 Aug
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Manda P · 15 Aug
How was it? As busy as you thought it'd be?
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Alice T · 15 Aug
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Tasha S · 16 Aug
Not too bad!! Had time to play some games in the evening which I haven't done in a while!
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mik W · 15 Aug 2
Can't get help. One best friend is sleeping and has been for 16 hours, and the other is doing god knows what, most be hanging out with the Huntsville crowd or friends, the ones I don't get to see.
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mik W · 15 Aug
I'm just reaching for anything that will sedate me frantically... I have to be not awake right now! Doxepin, Ambien, trazodon, Zyprexa, clonidine, and more Ambien
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mik W · 15 Aug
Wish I still had my Thorazine...
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Margot L · 15 Aug
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Tasha S · 15 Aug
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Lydia R · 15 Aug
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Manda P · 15 Aug
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Manda P · 15 Aug
Oh, I know those days. Gobbling it all up just to make the day end. Hope tomorrow is better!
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paul M · 15 Aug 5
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Margot L · 15 Aug
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Tasha S · 15 Aug
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Manda P · 15 Aug
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. :Maxii: . · 15 Aug 4
Drunk ma and i managed to misplace my key ....
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Margot L · 15 Aug
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Curtis M · 14 Aug 6
Hey Pandas, updated to my real name. I was quite ashamed of my mental illness when I joined MP so wanted to be more anonymous. Not the case anymore, nice to meet you all! - Curtis
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Kristin L · 14 Aug
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Kristin L · 14 Aug
Hello Curtis
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Love 1 · 14 Aug
Hello, Curtis M formerly Nathan
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Éva H · 14 Aug
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Sara P · 14 Aug
My fluffy looooove!
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Binky B · 14 Aug
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Binky B · 14 Aug
Hey Curtis. That's very different from Nathan! Thanks for coming out so to speak
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Margot L · 14 Aug
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Alicia B · 15 Aug
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Alicia B · 15 Aug
Hello, Curtis. Lovely name :)
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Silke V · 14 Aug 7
Today was a pretty ok day. And my bed sheets are freshly washed so hopefully I sleep well! Goodnight pandaq!
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Zoe D · 14 Aug
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sonny S · 14 Aug
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Margot L · 14 Aug
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Jeff M · 14 Aug
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Jeff M · 14 Aug
Love clean sheets night!
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Manda P · 15 Aug
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Manda P · 15 Aug
I washed mine today too! Getting ready to hop in the shower & snuggle in all nice & clean. Hope you sleep well!
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Kristin L · 15 Aug
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Lydia R · 15 Aug
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Silke V · 15 Aug
Me too, it sleeps so much better! :) thanks for all the hugs!
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Lydia R · 15 Aug
I want fresh sheets, too, and a clean body and clean hair... but nah. Not today. :/ Glad you had a good night, though!
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Tasha S · 13 Aug 8
Had a perfect day with Ryan ❤️
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Lydia R · 13 Aug
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Richard E · 13 Aug
Give it a 10.!!!!!
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Kara L · 13 Aug
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Manda P · 14 Aug
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Manda P · 14 Aug
Yeah, c'mon! Perfect is a 10!
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Tasha S · 14 Aug
Hahaha I'm saving the 10 🙈 you two are so funny!!
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Tasha S · 14 Aug
Thanks for the hugs
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Christina S · 14 Aug
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Love 1 · 14 Aug
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DesBear D · 14 Aug
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Manda P · 14 Aug
I'd save the 10 too! 😜
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Tasha S · 14 Aug
Haha 😂
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Binky B · 14 Aug
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Patty D · 12 Aug 4
Had a nap to outsleep the low. Thank you Pandas! I'm such an emotional yoyo today. Other than work, I've been on my own. No calls. No texts. For days. Only had one when s.o. wanted sth. Other than FB
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Patty D · 12 Aug
no communication. I used to think I had lots of friends. They all ditched me when I 'wasn't fun anymore'.
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Patty D · 12 Aug
I don't want to go begging people to hang out - and I don't want to because it seems they don't give a *** anyway. But I feel so alone. So betrayed. Nothing ever comes back. I feel so empty, angry and disappointed.
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Margot L · 12 Aug
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Liz K · 12 Aug
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mik W · 12 Aug 1
Another day. Maybe enough Klonopin will make it go away. I was hoping my 800th post would be happier, but it just didn't work out that way.
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Alicia B · 12 Aug
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Lydia R · 12 Aug
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Margot L · 12 Aug
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Manda P · 13 Aug
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Manda P · 13 Aug
Sorry, mik. 😔 Did you just start taking the Klonopin? I'm up to 2mg twice a day & it barely feels like it helps.
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Tasha S · 12 Aug 6
Finished the painting! https://instagram.com/p/BXsS5a_AfCD/
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Manda P · 12 Aug
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Manda P · 12 Aug
The leaves are gorgeous. Must've taken forever to put so much detail in them!
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Sara P · 12 Aug
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Love 1 · 12 Aug
I love i
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Love 1 · 12 Aug
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DesBear D · 12 Aug
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Cindy M · 12 Aug
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Cindy M · 12 Aug
Wow!
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Margot L · 12 Aug
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Richard E · 12 Aug
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Tasha S · 13 Aug
Thank you Manda the final details on the leaves took me about 2 and a half hours so not too bad :)
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Tasha S · 13 Aug
Thank you Love and Cindy :) thanks for the hugs everyone
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Manda P · 13 Aug
Jeez! Only 2 & 1/2 hours? I can't even draw a stick person with that little of time! 😆
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Silke V · 12 Aug 7
Shopping with mom, sis and godchild. Nodest since 1 or 2 months, I'm more attrected to the craft supplies than clothes in a store. Pretty tired, didn't sleep well last night.
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Lydia R · 12 Aug
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Jeff M · 11 Aug 4
I hate when all my comments disappear. Posted long messages on several people's posts (using web site), and they're all gone. Frustrating...Seems to happen more often lately.
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Christina S · 10 Aug
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Lydia R · 10 Aug
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Silke V · 10 Aug
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Silke V · 10 Aug
Oh no, not fun. We put so much time in reading and commenting, not good to see they're gone. Did you contact chiefpanda? Maybe they can help?
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DesBear D · 10 Aug
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Manda P · 10 Aug
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Manda P · 10 Aug
That happened to me recently too. Was so frustrating. I just stopped commenting for the rest of the day.
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Jessica S NEW · 11 Aug
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Love 1 · 11 Aug
Me, too. I hate it when my comments disap
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Reba C · 11 Aug
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Margot L · 11 Aug
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Manda P · 11 Aug
Love! You're full of 'em. It's never ending with you & I love it! You keep MP filled with humor.
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Anna . · 12 Aug
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Love 1 · 12 Aug
:)
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