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Jeff M · 1d 6
Wednesday nights are kind of nice with no obligations. Wanted to go out for beers, but stayed in and ate healthy and played with the dog, went to sleep early. Felt nice and relaxing for a change.
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me M · 1d
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Tuxi A · 1d
That sounds nice... :)
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Cindy M · 1d
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Cindy M · 1d
Good for you:)
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Jen B · 1d
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Robert H · 1d
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Kym S · 1d
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Kym S · 1d
Sounds good :)
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Manda P · 1d
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Manda P · 1d
Sounds like a wonderful evening! Glad you had a relaxing time.
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DesBear D · 1d
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Alicia B · 1d
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Alicia B · 1d
Ahh makes me want to have an evening alone. I think I'll pretend I am for tonight!
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Esther B · 1d
Sounds nice. How's your dog doing? Big hugs!
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Reba H · 11h
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George S · 1d 2
Im back to how i was I thought i sorted myself out I just was it to end I want to die
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Robert H · 1d
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Louisa W NEW · 1d
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Manda P · 1d
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Alicia B · 1d
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Alicia B · 1d
You had a good patch, that means you'll have more. Don't despair, most of us live in phases. It helps me a lot to remember that this too will pass. Hugs
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John T · 1d 6
Nephew is having his 4th birthday party. Everyone is full of cake (I'm having a sneaky time out upstairs away from the madness!). It's been a better day, but it's so wet, incredible rain. Taken tabs.
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John T · 1d
Tired of resting my hip. Decided I'll start running again when October starts, can't wait!
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Kym S · 1d
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Kym S · 1d
Ooh, I hope the running goes well, cake sounds good :)
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Jen B · 1d
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Manda P · 1d
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Manda P · 1d
Happy Birthday to your nephew! 🎉
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Maite P · 1d
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Alicia B · 1d
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Alicia B · 1d
Go easy on that hip though. Autumn has been postponed here, we're having 25+ C during the day, it's sunny and dry. I'd like some rain at this point.
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John T · 17h
It's 13° high temperature, high wind, and non stop rain forecast for today. Strangely, I quite like it. Summer was too hot this year.
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John T · 14h
Just looked it up. It's been changed to 11° high.
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Manda P · 1d 5
Feeling hopeful. Forgot to record another physically aggressive incident w/BF & in front of daughter. Yelling, screaming, kicking, hitting, shoved kitchen table, threw a drink that left a dent. I...
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Manda P · 1d
...obviously called my mental health center & was able to get an emergency appt w/psychiatrist this morning. He wanted to do Depakote which my oldest Panda friends may remember me having a bad reaction to & puking nonstop so I ended up in the ER.
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Manda P · 1d
Then he had the nerve to suggest Lithium again! You know, the one where I got severe Lithium toxicity & was hospitalized? No thanks. So here we are to day 1 at that place when they put me on Seroquel. I was either sleeping or a walking zombie the...
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Manda P · 1d
...whole time I was on it & I gained 50lbs! I said let's do it though. I need knocked out! BF cried yesterday over how mean I am to him. I wish he would understand it's my Disorder. I hate myself when I'm mean to him.
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Maite P · 1d
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Jamie D · 1d
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Alicia B · 1d
Sorry to read you're feeling awful about yourself :( Sending you hugs
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DesBear D · 1d
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Esther B · 1d
I'm sorry Manda you must be going through a difficult time. I'm sure you're doing your best when it comes to your family. I was a zombie with seroquel as well and I fainted constantly. How are you doing now.
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Bipolar Bear . · 1d
I'm so sorry Manda! Big hugs to you❤❤
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Margot L · 1d
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Manda P · 1d
Thank you, Pandas. I don't take my Seroquel until bed. They only had one pill left at the pharmacy so I have to go back tomorrow. I have a feeling I'll be WAY too groggy & drive them to school. Thanks for the hugs. 💚
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me M · 1d 4
He treated me like he did to his exes. He loved them too. He taught me that I deserved someone to love me. He set a high bar. I feel possessive to him. But He can hurt me and this is not love
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Maite P · 1d
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Jamie D · 1d
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Zoe D · 1d
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Alicia B · 1d
It's good you know now that you deserve to be loved. He's not the only one who can love you. You'll find the right person.
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me M · 1d
Thank you. He not only loved me, he also tried to control me, and to threaten me, so that I would not find anyone else. That's why I realized I couldn't be with him, no matter how strong the emotion
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Shelley H · 1d 7
Good afternoon
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Maite P · 1d
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Jamie D · 1d
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Zoe D · 1d
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Alicia B · 1d
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DesBear D · 1d
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Esther B · 1d
Hi there Shelleybear
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Shelley H · 2h
Hi Esther 😃
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Penelope P · 1d 5
Back at work and it changes my personality completely. Not in a good way.
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Maite P · 2d
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paul M · 2d
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Esther B · 2d
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me M · 2d
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Bipolar Bear . · 2d
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Cindy M · 2d
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Alicia B · 1d
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Jeff M · 1d
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John T · 1d 2
Very disturbing thoughts last night. Went for a walk but still felt shit when I got back. Today has been a bit better. They are just thoughts. They'll pass. Still not nice thinking them. Taken tablets
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Kym S · 2d
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paul M · 2d
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sonny S · 2d
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Esther B · 2d
Happy to see you're still around. And indeed they're still thoughts
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Bipolar Bear . · 2d
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Lucy S NEW · 2d
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Xavier M NEW · 2d
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Cindy M · 2d
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Margot L · 2d
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John T · 2d
Thanks Esther, yes they are just thoughts and they're more or less gone now. I'll be a bit cautious for a few days and be back to normal. Thanks for the hugs!
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Alicia B · 1d
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Alicia B · 1d
Glad you're doing better. Love how you handle that, in an almost scientific manner. Well done! Sending you love.
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Manda P · 1d
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Esther B · 1d
Luckily they're gone. They can be quite upsetting.
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sonny S · 1d 2
I can't tell if I'm manic or just over stressed from my boss. I couldn't sleep last night because of racing thoughts. I've been up since 7am yesterday and still have a full day of work ahead.
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Esther B · 2d
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Esther B · 2d
Good luck today!
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Xavier M NEW · 2d
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Cindy M · 2d
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Cindy M · 2d
Look after yourself, sonny - that's a really long time to be awake! Stay safe xx
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sonny S · 2d
Thank you Cindy, I will.. I actually got news today so hopefully that will give me good rest tonight
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sonny S · 2d
Thank you Esther
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sonny S · 2d
Thank you everyone!
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DesBear D · 2d
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Alicia B · 1d
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me M · 1d 5
I still can't bear the thought of he moving on. Even though I told him to move on. And I know I can't be with him. And that's why it's a waste of time. But he loved me like no one before
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paul M · 2d
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Alicia B · 1d
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Éva H · 1d 5
I feel frustrated and very tired and powerless recently. I almost fall asleep at work. Today on the bus a woman's rude comment also made me nervous.
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Henriette S · 2d
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Jen B · 2d
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Mar G NEW · 2d
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Alicia B · 1d
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Alicia B · 1d
Always that one rude person on public transport, isn't there? Screw her, she doesn't matter.
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Jeff M · 1d
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Cindy M · 1d
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sonny S · 1d 7
So after all the grief my boss is putting me thru. He approved my transfer request today. He didn't have to do that and I'm very appreciative for that. Fingers cross I get it
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DesBear D · 2d
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John W · 2d
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paul M · 2d
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Alicia B · 1d
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Cindy M · 1d
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Cindy M · 1d
Congratulations on getting that far - fingers crossed for you xx
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sonny S · 1d
Thank you Cindy!
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sonny S · 1d
Thank you everyone!
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Esther B · 1d
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Esther B · 1d
Fingers crossed
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Love 1 · 1d 8
Adding VR Goggles to list. Contacted vendors directly to lock in discounts. Over $20K in equipment for under 15. Coming in under budget plus secured top gear for underprivileged kids.
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Love 1 · 2d
Wrote another grant and contacted a potential donor to sustain momentum. Ask and ye shall receive. Surprise call from director of program at immigrant assistance center. Wants me to put together a language lab. Cool. I can do that. Easy money.
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Love 1 · 2d
Duplex will pay for itself next month. Will use extra money for upgrades, repairs, investments & education. Confident the programs I am designing will be powerful, replicable & scalable. Using tech to empower. Inspired!
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paul M · 2d
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Alicia B · 1d
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Alicia B · 1d
You're amazing :)
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Jeff M · 1d
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Jeff M · 1d
Very cool!
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Cindy M · 1d
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Cindy M · 1d
Go Love!
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Kym S · 1d
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Kym S · 1d
Cool!
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Manda P · 1d
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Manda P · 1d
The One & Only Incredible Love! He can move mountains! Seriously, that's awesome. You are such a good person.
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DesBear D · 1d
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Esther B · 1d
Yay!!!
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Shelley H · 1d 7
Good night lovely pandas.
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paul M · 2d
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Linda H · 2d
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Alicia B · 1d
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Cindy M · 1d
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DesBear D · 1d
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I had a really good night watching movies and eating great food with my mom, brother, and his girlfriend. Now I'm back home and feeling sad because I didn't want to leave. I need to try and go to bed
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Bipolar Bear . · 2d
But I'm feeling kind of anxious and Restless. maybe it's just because I'm at home at night by myself. It's late and I will only get a few hours of sleep before work. It's really not bad being by myself, I guess I'm just not used to it
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Linda H · 2d
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paul M · 2d
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Alicia B · 1d
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Alicia B · 1d
It does take some getting used to. There are good things about being alone, though. You can listen to music or play an instrument at night. You can walk around naked :)
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Jeff M · 1d
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Kym S · 1d
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Manda P · 1d
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Manda P · 1d
I walk around naked & live with people. 😂 I'd be terrified to live by myself though. You guys are much stronger than I am. I could never survive!
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Bipolar Bear . · 1d
Haha I lie
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Bipolar Bear . · 1d
Not lie, Love you guys is what I meant lol
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Alicia B · 1d
<3
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Alicia B · 1d 5
Played trivia quiz yesterday, we started well but effed up the end. Alex had a fit and blamed me in very aggressive terms. Naturally I told him I didn't like his tone and if he's gonna be like that I
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Alicia B · 1d
might not play with him anymore. Of course, he saw himself as a victim who didn't get emotional support when upset. No, I don't support people who attack me, whatever the reason. My duty is to defend myself first. I've stepped on my feelings long eno
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Alicia B · 1d
enough, thank you very much.
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Jeff M · 1d
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Jeff M · 1d
Damn straight! You have every right to defend yourself, and the fact that he plays the victim when he's in the wrong says all anyone needs to know! Sorry you didn't do so well this time!
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Cindy M · 1d
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John T · 1d
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John T · 1d
Alex sounds like he needs DBT. *takes psychiatrist hat off* Look after yourself, Alicia, you deserve your self care and a lot more.
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Robert H · 1d
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Kym S · 1d
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Manda P · 1d
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Manda P · 1d
Good for you for standing up for yourself like that. This makes me really want to work on not taking my bad moods out on BF.
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Alicia B · 1d
You guys rock :) JEFF, it's OK, it's just a game (to me anyways), and I had a lot of fun before the actual crisis. JOHN, impressive! He's got Borderline. You're one good shrink :D MANDA, it's hard being blamed for just expressing my feelings in a
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Alicia B · 1d
calm way, for sure. Makes me feel like I don't matter to this person AT ALL. Makes me want to just check out emotionally.
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Silke V · 3d 7
Enjoying our last day in France. Tomorrow around 10am they come to close the pool and in the afternoon we probably go home. Think I'll miss it it here a bit, but it's also good to go home.
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Jeff M · 3d
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Jeff M · 3d
Glad you're having such a good time!
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Bipolar Bear . · 3d
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Alicia B · 3d
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Alicia B · 3d
France is lovely , I miss it quite a bit.
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Lydia R · 3d
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sonny S · 2d
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Silke V · 2d
Thanks pandas!
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Jeff M · 3d 5
Ran a 13-mile trail race yesterday...was so hot! Hard run, lot of walking. Then beers over football. Almost got in a fight at the bar with a guy who called me a 'f-ing idiot'. Bothered me a lot...
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Jeff M · 17 Sep
Really feeling that I ate too much and drank too much this weekend...again. And I didn't get groceries, so no food for lunch. Blah...stressing over time and getting things done...feeling very anxious this morning in general.
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Lydia R · 17 Sep
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me M · 17 Sep
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Kym S · 17 Sep
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paul M · 17 Sep
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Esther B · 17 Sep
Maybe it's from the booze? I get anxious after alcohol as well. Proud of you for doing your 13mile trail!!
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Manda P · 17 Sep
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Manda P · 17 Sep
Well done on your trail run! That's awesome! I would be bothered by the comment too even though it so silly to let something like get to you. He's not worth getting upset over. Hope your day turned out better than expected!
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Cindy M · 17 Sep
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Alicia B · 3d
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me M · 3d 4
I can not bear the thoughts he has with someone else. we had 3 years and he was with her and I think he gave her a baby while he were with me and she said hes the love of her life while he was with me
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me M · 17 Sep
all this time he said to me Im the love of his life while be with her and if he with her and give her baby I feel I cant It will break me
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Bipolar Bear . · 17 Sep
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me M · 17 Sep
I deserve good things, I know I do. Its just not fair someone like that enter to my life and cause me so much pain. and steall my time, my everything and just play with me and lie.
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me M · 17 Sep
he's been with her, She put pic,and she has baby so what? from whom the baby if not him? she write she in a relationship and when he was with me I asked him and he lie that He with me only, and I didnt want him I felt in my heart something wrong.
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Robert H · 17 Sep
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me M · 17 Sep
but he still wanted me and keep caling and tell me he will give me everything but gave me nothing but fears and unsecure.
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paul M · 17 Sep
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Alicia B · 3d
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Alicia B · 3d
People who lie, people who don't treat us with respect and honesty should have no place in our lives. Stay strong.
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me M · 3d 4
Im not going to answer him anymore in my life. I'm going to go for date with freinds that wanted me and have fun. I dont forgive him! he literly ruined my life!!!!!
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Henriette S · 17 Sep
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paul M · 17 Sep
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