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Lisa D · 12 Feb 0
Been put on diazepam as of last Friday on a take when needed basis. Had some yesterday and some today. Gotta take some with me every time I go out.... hating anxiety right now...
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John T · 12 Feb
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John T · 12 Feb
I hope you can start to cope better soon. The more diazepam you use it the more you need. The more you take increases the danger of being dependent. I try to save it for emergencies, despite that I now need to take 5mg to do what 2mg used to.
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Michelle W · 12 Feb
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Jeff M · 12 Feb
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Lisa D · 12 Feb
@John T thank you I'm on 2mg for as when I need it
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Zoe Z NEW · 12 Feb
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Lisa D · 07 Feb 0
It's my birthday tomorrow and instead of feeling oh so happy I really cbfa with it. Cos every time I wake up on my birthday I get the exact words that my biological mother said to me ringing in my ear
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Michelle W · 07 Feb
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Alicia B · 07 Feb
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Alicia B · 07 Feb
What did she say?
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Lisa D · 07 Feb
@alicia B
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Lisa D · 07 Feb
That I am the mistake she created...
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Alicia B · 07 Feb
Wow... I'm sure many people feel that way, but saying it to your child is a very cruel thing to do. Parents are just human, their opinion means nothing more than anyone else's. I was a mistake, too. Now it's my life, and all the less reason to care
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Alicia B · 07 Feb
what my parents wanted me to be. In a way, being a mistake is freeing. My life is all mine, you know? Sending you big hugs and lots of panda love.
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Lisa D · 05 Feb 0
The other are watching the film “silence of the lamb” and I've just seen about 10seconds of it and that's the worst thing I could ever of done literally sat here shaking cos flashbacks and nightmares
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Lisa D · 05 Feb
are flying to me and I don't wanna sleep. I'm scared to sleep. I knew as soon as he got on shift something was wrong and I cried on him I really cried in fact sobbed some of it out. He was so shell shocked I think he didn't no how to respond but was
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Lisa D · 05 Feb
rescued by J telling him it was time for his obs. I'm at a loss cos now I don't no how to feel...
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Christel D · 05 Feb
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Lisa D · 01 Feb 0
FaceTimed my husband this morning and my mother turned up to speak to him. He put me on silent so my mum couldn't hear if I said anything. But my god I certainly found out what she really thinks of me
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Lisa D · 01 Feb
Let's say tomorrow is gonna be a very hard day for me as she's taking me to get my new glasses and I have to act all nicey nice when she's being so hurtfully two faced to me about me and my diagnosis....
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Fay C · 01 Feb
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Mark W · 01 Feb
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Lisa D · 30 Jan 0
Feeling like I'm stood on the edge of a cliff about to drop in to the deep dark decent of depression... I know it's coming and I can't stop it catapulting towards me... I'm scared so very scared...
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Dan P · 30 Jan
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Dan P · 30 Jan
Sending you lots of love xxx
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Lieteke G · 30 Jan
Thinking of you. ❤️
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Lisa D · 30 Jan
Thank you both. Can't do this anymore
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Lieteke G · 30 Jan
It must be a scary thought, knowing where you are heading, but not able to stop it. Do you have any support around you?
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Éva H · 30 Jan
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Kyle M NEW · 30 Jan
I know that feeling really well.Sometimes it's ok to hurt, we all go through some kind of pain. I hope this helps, because I hurt the same way
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Jack W · 30 Jan
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paul M · 30 Jan
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Lisa D · 30 Jan
@lieteke G
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Lisa D · 30 Jan
I'm currently on a physciatric ward so have loads of support it's just me being able to reach out and ask for the help
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nixiblu . · 30 Jan
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Jeff M · 30 Jan
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Lieteke G · 31 Jan
It is difficult to ask for help. Well done for doing so! And you recognise when things are going to go rong. That is a big thing!
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Lisa D · 29 Jan 0
When I'm trying to not only #convince myself that I'm fine but everyone else at the same time... I can't carry on like this... but the fight is there somewhere inside me I hope still. Contd below
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Dan P · 29 Jan
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Lisa D · 29 Jan
Maybe not able to feel it today maybe not tomorrow BUT maybe some day sometime...
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Jack W · 29 Jan
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Nick N · 29 Jan
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Dan P · 29 Jan 3
Hardly slept and have woken up feeling queasy 😔 feel so drained...
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Monika S NEW · 29 Jan
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Lydia R · 29 Jan
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Lydia R · 29 Jan
Me too...
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Dan P · 29 Jan
Big hugs Lydia ❤️
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Lisa D · 29 Jan
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Chloe E · 29 Jan
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Dan P · 29 Jan
Thank you everyone ❤️
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Kerry C NEW · 29 Jan
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Rosie L · 29 Jan
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Rosie L · 29 Jan
Oh lawd I feel so bad for you. Not being able to sleep is the worst!
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Lisa D · 29 Jan 0
Woken up this morning wishing I really hadn't... and that I'm a total failure at everything I do...
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Dan P · 29 Jan
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Dan P · 29 Jan
Sending you lots of love ❤️
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paul M · 29 Jan
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paul M · 29 Jan
Sounds all too familiar... can you manage to do something and lose yourself in an activity?
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Lisa D · 29 Jan
Been talking to my husband on FaceTime most of morning, had a wee sleep then just had some of the lunch
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nixiblu . · 29 Jan
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Lisa D · 28 Jan 0
Afraid: at how much I'm literally NOT coping anymore
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Alexis D · 28 Jan
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Alexis D · 28 Jan
Hey, you want to talk ?
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Richard E · 28 Jan
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Lisa D · 28 Jan
Wish I could. Ty I just can't get the words out
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paul M · 29 Jan
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Lisa D · 28 Jan 0
Sat waiting for my husband to come and get me for the afternoon/evening. not sure how it's gonna go though and my anxiety is on edge mainly cos he's in a knackered mood. Pls tell me it's gonna be ok
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Dan P · 28 Jan
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Dan P · 28 Jan
Big hug xxx ❤️
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Carmen N · 28 Jan
You'll be ok and if you're not we'll try and help!
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paul M · 28 Jan
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Carmen N · 28 Jan
Are you okay? Please say if you're not
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Lisa D · 28 Jan
@carmen N
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Lisa D · 28 Jan
@Carmen N all was fine with my o/h ty I'm not good In myself though
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Carmen N · 29 Jan
I'm happy to hear that. I'm always here to talk if you need to talk to someone.
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Lisa D · 29 Jan
Thank you @Carmen
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Lisa D · 23 Jan 0
Really not coping today. My #shit days keep happening in 3s or more and I'm hating it. I really need to speak to member of staff about it... Cont.d in comments
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Lisa D · 23 Jan
I've spent all evening with my husband by and girls but keep looking behind me as have the feeling my biological parents are coming to find me!!!
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Mark W · 23 Jan
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Line R · 23 Jan
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Janine S · 23 Jan
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Steph B · 23 Jan
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Jeff M · 24 Jan
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paul M · 24 Jan
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Lisa D · 11 Jan 0
Voices are super loud right now!!! I don't think I can deal with them anymore. 1 of my voices is called “Anna” and a new patient has arrived yesterday who is called Anna and it's freaking me right out
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Lisa D · 11 Jan
Have been sick again today but #not told the #staff cos they'd be so #disappointed in me. And I cannot handle that right now. Anyways I'm gonna shut up right now cos I'm just annoying people now. Night all xxx
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Lisa D · 28 Nov 0
Operation went really well which is great. Extremely sore throat but by end of week should see some results. Need another 2 or 3 goes at the same operation. Got discharged by the hospital cntd in msg
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Lisa D · 28 Nov
decided to go to Morrison's to get some soft foods for me to have in place for when thoat is better and I nearly collapsed!!! The whole place starting spinning and my eyesight went totally blurred. Tbh like it is right now hoping this all makes sense
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Josie B · 28 Nov
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Lisa D · 27 Nov 0
Packed and totally ready for tomorrow's operation... here we go again gotta be up by 5.30am to be able to have a cup of water. Even got a copy of my blood pressure chart to prove that I have low bp
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nixiblu . · 27 Nov
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Jeff M · 27 Nov
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Jeff M · 27 Nov
Best of luck for a successful operation and speedy recovery!
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Lisa D · 27 Nov
Thank you Jeff m
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Lisa D · 25 Nov 10
Thankful for the damn awesome husband I have. He's spent 6 hrs with me today patiently waiting whilst I was able to get out what was wrong. Patiently waiting whilst I sipped my tomato soup slowly.
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Noel L · 24 Nov
He sounds good Lisa
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Lisa D · 25 Nov
He really is Noel
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Richard E · 25 Nov
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Lisa D · 19 Nov 0
Oh my gosh!!! I've just been weighed and xx amount I have put on. My head is spinning... trying not to think about it too much but I'm obsessing over it and I can't stop thinking bad things.
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Rosie L · 19 Nov
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Rosie L · 19 Nov
Hey Lisa, don't worry about it! I have too - and whilst I didn't plan for it, I've had a tough few weeks and it's winter so I'm allowing to cut myself a little slack and you should too :) xx
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Lisa D · 19 Nov
Thank you @rosieL I really struggle. Thank you xx
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Beth M · 15 Nov 5
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Lisa D · 15 Nov
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Anatole L NEW · 15 Nov 3
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Lisa D · 15 Nov
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Anatole L NEW · 15 Nov 2
Feeling powerless to accomplish anything.
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Ashlee L NEW · 15 Nov
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Lisa D · 15 Nov
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David J NEW · 15 Nov 2
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Lisa D · 15 Nov
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