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Nick N · 22 Mar 6
Just got a trial session volunteering for the local credit union. That's a huge achievement for me so feeling very proud
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Jeff M · 16 Mar
Congrats!
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Janine S · 16 Mar
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Lieteke G · 16 Mar
Congratulations. So proud of you!!!
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Cindy M · 17 Mar
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Cindy M · 17 Mar
That's great news!
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Tasha S · 17 Mar
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Tasha S · 17 Mar
Well done :)
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Rosie L · 22 Mar
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Nick N · 22 Mar 0
Oh well I knew it was happening sometime might as well be when i feel low anyway. Been served with divorce papers today. But I'm not letting it ruin my cinema outing this eveming.
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Abbie B · 19 Mar
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Tasha S · 20 Mar
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Tasha S · 20 Mar
Hope you had a fun evening. Tried adding you but it won't let me 🙈 big hugs :)
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John N · 20 Mar
Going through a divorce myself. We'll make it through!
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Rosie L · 22 Mar
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John T · 15 Mar 7
Looking around museums today was fun. I've been enjoying daydreaming all day, a lot of dreams stay dreams which is ok, but I hope I can make at least some of them reality one day. Taken tablets.
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Lydia R · 15 Mar
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Lydia R · 15 Mar
Museums are awesome!
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Manda P · 15 Mar
Oh, man. I miss NYC's museums!
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Rosie L · 15 Mar
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Love 1 · 16 Mar
Thanks for the inspiration. Think Ill hit a museum before I.return to airport.
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Eva P · 27 Feb 1
Worst day ever. I cried so much. Even at school.
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Rosie L · 27 Feb
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A.J L · 27 Feb 4
First day back to school after the holidays, thankfully I only have English and I'm dreading the results of my 'functional skills' English writing. I know I haven't passed and it'll be a miracle if I
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A.J L · 27 Feb
Do pass.
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Rosie L · 27 Feb
Fingers crossed for you Aaron
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Lydia R · 27 Feb
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Michelle W · 27 Feb
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A.J L · 28 Feb
Thanks you Rosie
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Jayne H · 26 Feb 1
So upset last night I had to take lots of extra meds to dull my emotions, get them under control and get some sleep. Just want to hide under my duvet and block out the world
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Rosie L · 26 Feb
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Rosie L · 26 Feb
Awh Jayne I'm sorry to hear this. Sounds like you need the biggest hug. I hope things get better for you x
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Michelle W · 26 Feb
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Margot L · 26 Feb
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Tomás H · 26 Feb 5
It is midnight. I've driven home from the dance club. I've taken care of myself by taking a shower and rubbing my body with cocoa butter. The workweek begins tomorrow. I have a lot of things to do...
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Tomás H · 26 Feb
...between now and then. I want a good breakfast tomorrow and to pack a full lunch.
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Rosie L · 26 Feb
Excellent way to start the week
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Michelle W · 26 Feb
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Kara L · 28 Feb
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Rosie L · 25 Feb 6
Woke up sore throat and a cold :( went out for few drinks last night with my best friend. Gary offered to drop us in and pick us up which was really sweet of him
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Keeping Track A · 25 Feb
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Keeping Track A · 25 Feb
Hope you feel better soon Rosie! X
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Dan E · 25 Feb
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Love 1 · 25 Feb
Thoughtful act
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Tasha S · 25 Feb
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Rosie L · 25 Feb
Thanks KTOA, these things tend to feel worse in the mornings and evenings. It was really thoughtful love1.
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Keeping Track A · 26 Feb
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Michelle W · 25 Feb 3
Finally recovering from the food poisoning. Still very weak tho.
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V M · 24 Feb
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Janine S · 24 Feb
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John T · 24 Feb
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Love 1 · 25 Feb
on the mend
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Rosie L · 25 Feb
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Rosie L · 25 Feb
Hey Michele - that is so awful, poor you. I hope you get better soon x
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Michelle W · 25 Feb
Thanks Pandas. I'm feeling better 😊
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Nick N · 24 Feb 6
Had a good day today. Went to cinema and watched darkest hour. Excellent movie. Had a long chat with one of the nurses this evening. They seem to have finally accepted that my suicide may still happen
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Nick N · 23 Feb
and just by speaking to me more openly and less patronisingly about the subject it makes me calmer and more objective about the subject.
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Nick N · 23 Feb
I still think it is the most likely outcome as i still see no hope of any sort of future life that i want to live. But I'm still here and still trying to find that glimmer of hope. The nurse hopes i get too scared on the cliff top 🙂
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Nick N · 23 Feb
Tomorrow heading into the city for coffee with an ex patient from here. Then might go and watch I, Tonya.
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Zoe P · 24 Feb
That's so good!
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Lieteke G · 24 Feb
I do see some sort of progress here. You are making plans and doing nice stuff. Hope you have a good day. And the other plan, well lets take it 1 day at the time ❤️
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Tasha S · 24 Feb
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Tasha S · 24 Feb
You have been truly wonderful here on MoodPanda, I hope you decide to stay with us because the world is better with you on it!
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Rosie L · 24 Feb
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Rosie L · 24 Feb
You are wonderfully self aware Nick, what a characteristic to have. And another green too. It's blue skies here in Bristol UK today
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Nick N · 24 Feb
Thank you Zoe, Lieteke, Tasha and Rosie for your incredibly kind words. Rosie I'm afraid that the self awareness is a double edged sword. It is that self awareness that makes me so certain i no longer wish to live...
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Nick N · 23 Feb 6
A fairly normal night's sleep last night ☺ no meds slept most of 7 hours So today heading to the cinema again for 'Darkest Hour'. Really looking forward to it. Gone green to celebrate...
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Tasha S · 23 Feb
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Rosie L · 23 Feb
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Rosie L · 23 Feb
Congratulations nick 🙌 this has made my Friday :)
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John T · 23 Feb
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Noel L · 23 Feb
Really good Nick. Enjoy the movie.
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Natalie C · 23 Feb
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Natalie C · 23 Feb
Good to see green, Nick 😀
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Cindy M · 23 Feb
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Aspie T · 22 Feb 0
I love my family, the world is beautiful but I don't think I want to wake up tomorrow. I'm so sorry for being ungrateful and selfish.
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Marit F NEW · 26 Dec
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Rosie L · 22 Feb
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Lena S · 22 Feb 2
Just read in an old diary of me that I never really felt love to my mother. Until now she keeps asking why I've been this way and why I didn't really love her. Everytime I ask her then why she
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Lena S · 22 Feb
Hit and slapped me when I was younger she doesn't give an answer. I understand. I wasn't the easiest child back then, but imagine getting yelled at everyday for things you don't understand.
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Lena S · 22 Feb
Now I have a lot of problems up there in my head. Tbh I kinda blame her for that. She always treated me like a piece of sh**.
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Lena S · 22 Feb
But anyways I'm happy that everything happened this way. Otherwise I probably wouldnt know my current boyfriend and he is the most important thing in my life. We're together for about 18 months now..
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Rosie L · 22 Feb
Thanks for your honesty Lena, it sounds like you had a tough bringing up. But also it sounds as though you are championing through you difficulties.
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Lena S · 22 Feb
Yes... I don't have another choice. I have to be strong for the ones I really love. And I want to show everyone who pulled me down that I became way stronger. I just have to learn how to deal with everything...
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Lena S · 22 Feb
This platform and all those people on here will help a lot I think...
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Rosie L · 22 Feb
I think you're right. I really admire your attitude Lena x
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Odie W · 22 Feb
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Lena S · 22 Feb
Thanks a lot ^^ you made me smile x3
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Michelle W · 23 Feb
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Nick N · 23 Feb
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Aspie T · 22 Feb 0
I hate that I've met you
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Odie W · 22 Feb
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Yondie Y · 22 Feb
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Mark W · 22 Feb
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Rosie L · 22 Feb
Hey aspie :( I'm sorry you are hurting right now. I'm making a hot chocolate and would give you one as well as a listening ear if you were here. Try and get some rest x
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Aspie T · 22 Feb
That is very sweet. You are a good person
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Michelle W · 23 Feb
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Metron A · 23 Feb
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Wendy J · 22 Feb 8
Feeling pretty good. Like life is getting back on track. Even though i have had a few setbacks i have been able to work through them and not let them get me down.
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Rosie L · 22 Feb
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Rosie L · 22 Feb
Wendy - you're a star. Thank you for being so open, it's refreshing to read your successes tonight and has even made me feel more positive.
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Michelle W · 23 Feb
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Nick N · 23 Feb
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Wendy J · 26 Feb
Thanks Rosie, i just been taking one day at a time and focusing on me for once. Having a good psych has helped alot to make me be able to recognise my entrenched thought patterns and disordered thinking. I have also been looking at my family and
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Wendy J · 26 Feb
Working out that alot of the behaviours and stuff i have in my family are generational. So it has given me even more momentum to chamge
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Rosie L · 22 Feb 4
Seriously - what a cunt. After a tense phone chat following the horrid Monday we had I just sent a resolution text. Has he answered? Has he fuck. I'm sick of shitty relationships, they never work.
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Odie W · 22 Feb
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John T · 22 Feb
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John T · 22 Feb
This is so different from the kind of thing you were posting when you first got together. But *** happens. At least you are living life, it takes decent mental health to get yourself through things like this, so don't despair...
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John T · 22 Feb
...you might look back in a couple of weeks and just shrug any thoughts off. Life goes on, Rosie. Whatever happens.
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Yondie Y · 22 Feb
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Rosie L · 22 Feb
Yeah - life goes on. I don't know if I'm overreacting and things will work themselves out. I'm just so frustrated that communicating has got really hard.
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Rosie L · 22 Feb
We just seem to really misunderstand each other lately and it makes me sad. And frustrated :(
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Rosie L · 22 Feb
Thanks john. Maybe it's me. Work is so stressful - my job has just dissolved and I'm moving to a new team on Monday and it's all so full on with a new process to complete my April. I'd like to get away but i know he can't commit to that right now
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Rosie L · 22 Feb
I just feel like so many things are out of my control :(
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John T · 22 Feb
Just an idea: Write him a letter, and long as you like, you don't even have to send it... I think just writing it would be beneficial to yourself.
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Mark W · 22 Feb
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Rosie L · 22 Feb
Thanks John, I will do - good advice
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Molly W NEW · 22 Feb
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Rosie L · 22 Feb
As it turns out - I over generalize, proportionalise and over complicate.
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Rosie L · 22 Feb
Thanks to anxiety. Man - it must take a whole load of patience to date someone like me.
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Tasha S · 22 Feb
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Michelle W · 23 Feb
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Michelle W · 23 Feb
I love Johns idea of the letter.
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Nick N · 22 Feb 5
Managed a good few hours sleep last night. So a positive start to the day :)
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Rosie L · 22 Feb
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Rosie L · 22 Feb
Excellent - I'm pleased for you - it feels so much better having a good sleep :)
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Lydia R · 22 Feb
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Tasha S · 22 Feb
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Nick N · 22 Feb
So true Rosie. And many thanks for all the panda hugs...
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Nick N · 22 Feb 5
Just back to the ward having been to see 'the shape of water' at the cinema. It was good. Violent man is just being controlled by medication. Sad to see but deserved.
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Hannah S · 21 Feb
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Rosie L · 22 Feb
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Rosie L · 22 Feb
Ah interesting I've thought about going to see this film, sounds good
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Nick N · 21 Feb 5
At least three more weeks here. On condition they do something with the uncontrollably violent patient who has been reported to police for 3 assaults in 10 days. Many other incidents too.
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Mohammad H NEW · 20 Feb
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Lieteke G · 20 Feb
I hope they do something. You should feel safe in your environment, especially now
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Nick N · 20 Feb
Julia (consultant psychiatrist) tells me that the wheels are in motion regarding violent man and i will get an update in the morning. Here's hoping...
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Lieteke G · 20 Feb
Well, that's a start! Keep us posted
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Margot L · 20 Feb
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Tasha S · 21 Feb
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Rosie L · 21 Feb
Good morning nick. Well it is certainly all going on in there! I hope the update you get is positive! Try and have a good day. I just got to work.
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Nick N · 21 Feb
Thanks Rosie. Hope you have a good day at work. I'll let you know when i get an update.
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Nick N · 21 Feb
Same violent guy caused another patient to break her arm yesterday by throwing something at her, she stepped back and tripped falling and breaking her arm
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Lieteke G · 21 Feb
Wow, he really has to go! Really hope they take action asap. Stay safe!
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Love 1 · 21 Feb
Sad. People are there to recover, in search of relief not for more abuse. Dude sounds like hes tormented and taking his rage out on others who are suffering. Guessing because he poses such a liability something will be done.
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Rosie L · 22 Feb
Wow I cannot believe that guy! They really need to put him somewhere else...work was ok :) I have a training day to attend today which is good because it doesn't start till 10 so I get a nice lie in :)
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Nick N · 22 Feb
I overheard a conversation i shouldn't have between 2 staff. Sounds like he's been transferred here cos he's terminally ill. They want him nearer family. The brain tumour is causing his violent outbursts.
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Nick N · 22 Feb
While i feel sorry for him it's still not fair on either him or us
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Max T · 20 Feb 0
Spent my time playing with Lego today instead of killing myself.
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Rosie L · 20 Feb
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Lieteke G · 20 Feb
Nice alternative. Build something nice?
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