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Easter holidays. Finally relaxing properly for the first time since I started this job. So that's nice! haha . . . Only 5 weeks left after the holidays. Time is passing crazily fast! Not as sore today
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Keeping Track A · 2d
which is good. There are now a few love interests from the dating app. Luke, who I had two dates with is being very elusive, we have hardly communicated by text. But he said he is not a texting person. At least one or two texts would be nice though
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PuggyM R NEW · 2d
Enjoy your rest and good luck with the dating
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Keeping Track A · 2d
I am wondering if maybe he isn't big into committal and it's just going to fizzle out or if he is just into something super super casual. Which is a pity because there was a lot of chemistry. That said, he is working. I'm off on my holidays with
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Keeping Track A · 2d
loads of time on my hands. So maybe I'm just overthinking things!! Guy 2 - meeting him this eve and Guy 3 either Friday or Monday. Guy 4 - who said our first meeting was not a date - was scheduled for Sun. eve but I think I will reschedule because I
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PuggyM R NEW · 1d
Yea I guess maybe just give them a little more time and that's good
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Keeping Track A · 1d
want to avail of the lift my sis is offering to visit my family in Galway for the weekend! . . . This morning I taught a tutorial on a topic I really like. It wasn't really worth the money in the end because of the time I put into it but I enjoyed it
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Keeping Track A · 1d
all the same because it reminded me of how good it feels to explain something that you know absolutely inside-out! :D I am trying to decide whether I will correct exams during the summer or not . . . It would be great experience with the new
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Keeping Track A · 1d
syllabus as this is the first year it is being examined! And the extra income could pay for a holiday ... I am sure there are much easier and less stressful ways for teachers to make money over the summer though! Decisions, decisions!! Will apply for
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Keeping Track A · 1d
a job in a different school as one has cropped up. I have a contact in the school I met at a training day who said he would put a good word in for me so I will avail of that offer! :D I'm pretty sure there are more things I had meant to do too!
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John T · 1d
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Manda P · 1d
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PuggyM R NEW · 2d 4
Sunday night I had a really bad attack and was crying so much then Monday night I really wasn't doing good
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Keeping Track A · 2d
It's a bit of a funny one but I keep a really smooth, small stone with me. When I feel anxious, I find it soothing to rub the stone and focus on that physical feeling to get out of my head and ground myself. If you are suffering from panic attacks,
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Keeping Track A · 2d
you will benefit from learning skills to ground yourself. There is plenty online about it if you search it! :D
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PuggyM R NEW · 2d
Thanks so much I'll look for one today
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Tracy B NEW · 2d 0
I feel so lonely.....I've got no one that I can talk to. I'm at such a low point right now I honestly don't think I could sink much lower 🙁
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PuggyM R NEW · 3d
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PuggyM R NEW · 3d
Please just stay strong you can do this and I know how you feel there will be ups a downs but you just have to keep on going
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Keeping Track A · 2d
Talk to us fellow pandas! I have felt like that before. But you are NOT alone. There is hope. Things CAN be better. Even if it doesn't feel like that right now. I have had a year from hell. The past few years have been really tough in particular.
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Keeping Track A · 2d
This year, I experienced the lowest of my lows. I gave the idea of taking my own life more thought than I ever had before. . . But I am glad I did not give in. You don't have to either. There is (so much!!) MORE to life. Take care. Share your
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Keeping Track A · 2d
thoughts here with us xxx
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PuggyM R NEW · 2d
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Tracy B NEW · 2d
Thank you for all your replies you don't no how much each one means! I have given a lot of time to ***e, I feel it's the only way to stop this cycle of mess!
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Tracy B NEW · 2d
I was in an abusive marriage and for nearly 20 years and I'm now damaged beyond repair. I recently went to councilling but was told I'm not yet ready to face what he did to me. Will I ever be ready??
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Well got some of the blood test results back - Vit. D levels low. Which possibly explains fatigue (and joint pain?) Liver and kidney function fine which is a relief. (Phew!) Had to redo some tests
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Keeping Track A · 2d
as there were not sent into the lab on time. At least I am on my holidays so it wasn't too much of an inconvenience. :D Blood clotting factor test results will be interesting and may provide some insight into what is going on with my body. Due in a
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Keeping Track A · 2d
week approx.
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Keeping Track A · 16 Apr 8
Had a perfect date yesterday. Trying to tell myself to take it slow and not get carried away like I usually do. Think I need to reflect on what exactly I want in a relationship too. In other news,
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Keeping Track A · 16 Apr
I went to the wedding Saturday. I ended up drinking at the reception and carried on for the night but I was fine. No tears, no hangover! :D . . . Then, the day after I did some exploring along the Ring of Kerry. I collected lots of shells, got some
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Keeping Track A · 16 Apr
great photos, got absolutely soaked twice and ended up in skirt, bare legs and flip flops visiting the waterfall but it was all worth it. I have realised I need to do this more often. So glad of the break too. All of my other breaks I was working and
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Keeping Track A · 16 Apr
/or super stressed out and last time attending my Grandma's funeral! This feels like the first break I am having where I am actually relaxing and enjoying myself. Maybe it's because the summer is approaching too, who knows!!
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Albertine M · 16 Apr
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Albertine M · 16 Apr
So much good stuff there - yay! Good luck with your date - as you said taking it slow is key but I know that is easier said than done xx
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Jeff M · 16 Apr
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John T · 3d
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John T · 3d
You sound happy. I'm sure you are making your date happy too. Enjoy it!
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Keeping Track A · 3d
Thanks all! I met him again the next day so so much for taking things slow but I am just going to pace myself in terms of emotional investment. I think I am not ready to commit to anything right now, so I am going to date and browse for a while, keep
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Keeping Track A · 3d
things casual. If my feelings change and I only feel like seeing one guy, then that's what I will do at that point. But right now, I am scared of getting in too deep. Of being hurt or hurting someone. Of things not working out . . .AGAIN. So, I will
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Keeping Track A · 2d
having fun on dates, not take things too seriously, play things by ear and re-evaluate regularly as I go along! KEY INTENTION - Stable emotions, slow & steady. Don't rush in headlong!! PACE emotions and how much I share. Maintain healthy boundaries.
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Keeping Track A · 11 Apr 4
Went to doc on Monday. I have psoriasis, most likely caused by stress. Need to go back on meds I stopped taking for digestion issues and got a load of tests done for easy bruising. Taking Pharmaton
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Keeping Track A · 11 Apr
for fatigue. Wedding Saturday. Will be traveling tomorrow.
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Keeping Track A · 07 Apr 7
So. I met a guy I met on a dating app. Even though he specified it was 'not a date'. I don't think I felt a spark either. But he took me to do my grocery shopping which was very kind. And he is honest
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Keeping Track A · 07 Apr
and open. I feel sorry for him. He is stuck here in Ireland and hasn't been able to return to Syria for 5 years
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Keeping Track A · 07 Apr
Maybe I have started a new friendship now. He said he would like to see soon. I will see where it leads. Either way, I quite enjoyed my day. 🙂
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Bipolar Bear . · 07 Apr
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Joseph F · 08 Apr
Make sure you always meet in public and let your friends/family know where you will be. I'm not saying you aren't safe, but no body likes to worry 😊
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Jeff M · 08 Apr
I always feel like people should be open to friendship on those things. Unfortunately, when no spark in my experience, the woman moves on. Friendships can lead to sparks or be good on their own!
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Manda P · 08 Apr
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Keeping Track A · 11 Apr
Thanks all!
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Keeping Track A · 07 Apr 4
I always look forward to the weekend and then it comes and I don't know how to spend it apart from working/doing housework . . . Lonely and empty :/
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Anna D · 07 Apr
You could try to find a hobby. Have you ever had one?
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Keeping Track A · 07 Apr
Hi Anna, yes. I like music..I played the keyboard for a while today. Then I went out and I met my sister and then I met someone. It was better after I had gotten out and about.
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Gabrielle H · 06 Apr 5
Did a full factory reset on my phone :/, been offline for a little while, 3 days according to this. I haven't been feeling good. Friend helped me feel valid
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Keeping Track A · 06 Apr
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Lydia R · 06 Apr 3
My mum called and asked what's wrong because apparently I didn't sound good. As usually I deflected, but sometimes I wish I could just tell my parents that I'm not okay. Too scared of the reactions
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Lydia R · 06 Apr
and consequences, though. Talking to her helped a bit, but things still don't feel right. Beautiful weather, had plans to go to the Botanical Garden, but I'm just staring straight ahead of me and can't find any motivation to do anything.
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Keeping Track A · 06 Apr
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Anna D · 06 Apr
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Anna D · 06 Apr
Maybe you could try to tell it, but not everything at once? I mean to begin with aspects she could easily understand, and then add new ones any time you speak with her?
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John T · 06 Apr
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John T · 06 Apr
Anna's right. You might get some vital support you need to move on. There's no shame in feeling depressed or anxious. If not, express yourself some how. There's a vicious circle you need to break.
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John T · 06 Apr
I hope you feel better soon. All us pandas are cheering for you!
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Robert H · 06 Apr
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Brandt B · 06 Apr
John T and Anna D speak wisdom. Please consider. I hope you feel better soon.
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Manda P · 08 Apr
You really should try to open up to them about your struggles. They are your parents & want you to be happy and healthy.
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Lydia R · 08 Apr
Maybe. I guess it'd be better but my fear of rejection is still pretty high. And in general I don't think anyone is interested in my wellbeing, so that only makes it harder. We'll see. Thanks for your words and hugs!
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Keeping Track A · 04 Apr 5
So I reinstalled Tinder (dating app) yesterday. Not too sure if it's the right time. Scheduled a phone call with ex tonight. But I have accepted we are just friends. I suppose I will just take things
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Keeping Track A · 04 Apr
super slow.
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Sean C · 04 Apr 4
Did absolutely nothing. Other than actually going to show choir I've just been trying not to itch my legs. I feel like the stress from school is replaced with sickness when I am sick. Never ending bad
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Lewis D NEW · 04 Apr 1
It's 4:43am. I am having another night of no sleep. I am new to this and found it on a website so decided to try it out. I think I'll keep my diary but summarise here.
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Tim S · 04 Apr
Hope you like it as much as we do.
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Bipolar Bear . · 04 Apr
Welcome to mood panda! 😊
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Keeping Track A · 04 Apr
Good idea, Lewis! That's what I do. I find that Moodpanda is good for tracking your mood longterm. It's very easy to see if any patterns arise 😁
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Gone Batty ! · 04 Apr 5
Every time my door gets buzzed via phone & I'm not home, whether I answer or not, & they figure I'm not there; I dread my apt. will be broken into again. Day time, it could be package, but @ night...
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Bipolar Bear . · 04 Apr 6
Almost have everything I need to finally start cycling my aquarium, im excited! Also doing research for building myself a gaming PC. Feels a bit daunting because im not computer savy
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Keeping Track A · 04 Apr
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John T · 04 Apr
It's just a jigsaw but with extra instructions. You can do it.
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Manda P · 04 Apr
BF did this & loved every bit of the process. Good luck!
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Keeping Track A · 03 Apr 5
Prinicipal told me yesterday that 'There will be a science job next year. I will see it being advertised in May and I am welcome to apply.' . . . Very non-committal. I just replied that I hadn't
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Keeping Track A · 03 Apr
thought about next year yet. . . There is still the potential competition of the other new science teacher who has a year's more experience than me in the school, I am not sure if I want to teach in Cork again, or if I want to go back to my hometown
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Keeping Track A · 03 Apr
Galway . . . or if I want to teach in a different school in Cork. . . it all depends on the contract they offer me! We'll see what happens!!!
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John T · 03 Apr
I've never been to the Republic. I lived in Fishguard and one or two days a year, visibility was good enough to see the Wicklow Hills if you climbed high enough.
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John T · 03 Apr
I think I have some family history in the Cork area on my Dad's side, but they were originally from Norfolk I think... I have some Celtic blood though, I'm 50% from NI and have fond memories of visiting family in Ballycastl and the giant's causeway.
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John T · 03 Apr
*Ballycastle
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John T · 03 Apr
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Keeping Track A · 03 Apr
I have to admit, I felt a little self conscious sharing that. I'm always worried someone I know will find out I use this and figure out who I am! . . . That's nice John! So do you live in Northern Ireland now?
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John T · 03 Apr
No my Mammy's side of the family live there.
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John T · 03 Apr
Don't worry there are MILLIONS of people in Ireland. Also I don't think you've ever shared anything you should be ashamed of. It is nice having semi anonymity here. Although I don't think the world would end if that were to be broken.
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nixiblu . · 03 Apr
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nixiblu . · 03 Apr
Being on here is nothing to be ashamed of and everything to shout about.
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nixiblu . · 03 Apr
I stayed in the best hostel in Ballycastle
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Keeping Track A · 03 Apr 6
Energy levels quite good. Still a little tired overall. I have a lump in my arm underneath where there was a dirty bruise. The area is tender and the veins are very obvious. There are quite a few
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Keeping Track A · 03 Apr
broken veins further up the same arm . . . I'm a little concerned. I think I will book a doctor's appointment for Monday to get it checked out. . . Apart from that, my tax refund has been confirmed so I am due to receive €1853.76 into my account!
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Keeping Track A · 03 Apr
Will definitely help speed up repayment of my loan from parents. :D Delighted about that. Work is going far better these days. I am much more organised, my thinking is far clearer and I have learnt to let the little things go. I have a far better
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Keeping Track A · 03 Apr
grasp on timing now so I am more or less on track with all of my classes. I may have to do some extra classes at Easter with the third years but even if I don't, I would probably just about be able to finish the course if I speed through the rest of
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Keeping Track A · 03 Apr
the chapters . . . Feels great! :D
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Albertine M · 03 Apr
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Albertine M · 03 Apr
Well done you!
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Keeping Track A · 04 Apr
Thank you! 😁
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Keeping Track A · 02 Apr 6
Had another very productive therapy session. Actually, I think some of the best work I am doing is outside of the 50 minutes of therapy. That's where the golden reflection time comes into play.
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Keeping Track A · 02 Apr
So then therapy is just about thrashing about ideas with the therapist. . . Not entirely true, she does challenge my thoughts and emotions which I really needed. It's a great fit. It's working very well. I'm very pleased with my progress. I finally
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Keeping Track A · 02 Apr
feel like I gaining super clarity, letting go of many things (material) and emotions I had been clinging on to, healing, growing, embracing my adult independent self, which is fantastic. Yes, it's great. PROUD OF ME! :D
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Keeping Track A · 02 Apr
Oh! Also, since the start of September, I have paid back over half of my loan from my parents. At the beginning of Sept., I owed them €7413. Now, I owe only €3,200. I have been paying back €400 every two weeks mainly, which works out at between
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Keeping Track A · 02 Apr
30 to 40% of my take home pay. . . I am due a tax refund, so I hope to make my last repayment on May 9th or definitely by the end of May! . . . Such a weight off my shoulders. I'm proud of myself for paying off the debt so quickly up until now. :D
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Jeff M · 03 Apr
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Jeff M · 03 Apr
Great to see those accomplishments and be proud of yourself!!
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Keeping Track A · 03 Apr
thanks Jeff :D :D :D
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Manda P · 04 Apr
Well done with the hard work in therapy. It's tough but so worth it. I've been in therapy for 12 years & feel like I'm just now working in the core roots of my problems. I hope I can see this kind of improvement.
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Keeping Track A · 02 Apr 6
Didn't eat today until 1:41 but had a lovely lunch. Wasn't weak/feeling ill with hunger before then either. Didn't have any supervision classes this afternoon so I was off early at a record 1 o clock!
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Keeping Track A · 02 Apr
Dresses I had ordered for a friend's wedding don't suit so I will be returning them. May avail of extra free time to go to doctor's, write to a friend, get some photos printed, return the dresses and get ahead on planning for school!
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John T · 02 Apr
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John T · 02 Apr
Busy busy, I wish I could be arsed to do something. Anything...
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Manda P · 02 Apr
I'm pooped just reading this!
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Keeping Track A · 03 Apr
Alas, all I actually did was cook, eat, have a look at my budget, may a bank transfer and . . . I thought I did something to do with school, write some notes to parents on the online system maybe?
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Keeping Track A · 03 Apr
I was too tired to be any more productive despite my ambitious plans!! 😋
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Keeping Track A · 02 Apr 5
Felt a bit lonely today. It was my sister's birthday. I wanted to meet her to give her an gift but she was spending the evening with her husband. I feel a bit childish but it made me feel a little
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Keeping Track A · 02 Apr
left out. . . On the up side, I woke to the Dawn Chorus, danced about the house and had a super productive day. . . Another negative though, I have put on weight and I feel quite self conscious and fat nowadays. Decided to diet (well just reduce
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Keeping Track A · 02 Apr
portion sizes and eat healthier) and exercise from tomorrow onwards. I am attending a wedding in two weeks and I don't want to feel self concious!!
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T O · 02 Apr
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Jeff M · 02 Apr
Maybe surprise your sister on the weekend with something special? Nothing better than extending our birthdays! Good luck with eating better!
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Keeping Track A · 02 Apr
I met my sister today and gave her her gift and treated her to coffee, Jeff. :D It was OK, though I had hit a real energy slump and was feeling very tired so I didn't overly enjoy it too much. But it was fine. And I was glad she liked my gift. :)
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