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Chris C · 19 Sep 2
A good couple of week spell comes to an end, therapy was pretty brutal last week so I know it's partly that, partly that I'm doing too much, not got enough time to myself it could be a couple of other
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Chris C · 19 Sep
Of other things, could be the fact I went out all over the weekend, drinking is my distraction so could be feeling the effects of that, alternatively I could be picking up on my friend again but can't be sure of that too. I'm not sleeping well so
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Chris C · 19 Sep
That's something I'm going to try and put right tonight but yeah not great atm, just gotta go easy on myself and pick off the things on my to do list one by one. Also need to incorporate this into daily life, keep thinking I'm better and I'm not
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Kym S · 19 Sep
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Chris C · 15 Jul 2
Still absolutely fuming. It is completely the job. There's a few things that set me off with my mental health when the inner voice starts playing out 'this is all you're worth' or
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Chris C · 15 Jul
'you're not trying hard enough' safe to say I'm not ok. Stressing out about going home too. This is supposed to be a happy occasion and all I'm focused on is trying not to flip out at my family because my life is so *** right now
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Chris C · 15 Jul
Last time I had anger surface from my old relationship as the last time I was working for this lot I was with her. Managed to work through that and it dissipated now I'm just getting unbridled anger towards the company. Every cloud, might make me
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Chris C · 15 Jul
Focus on getting the *** out of there at last
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Maite P · 15 Jul
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Chris C · 05 Jul 7
Work stress pretty much gone, self loathing gone, for now, relatively chilled although I'm pretty sure I have rapid cycling bipolar as well as bpd as these weekly cycles are insane
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Chris C · 05 Jul
Learning that I may very well just have to ride these waves out and make the most of when I'm ok
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McKayla S · 05 Jul
I'm glad you're feeling better. Have you considered talking to a professional about your concerns? :)
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Chris C · 06 Jul
I do. Fully checked in on all accounts 😋
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Chris C · 05 Jun 8
Hangin' but happy, didn't realise how many unresolved issues I've had of late until yesterday, nice chat with two of my friends though so levelling out a bit
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Chris C · 05 Jun
Drank last night and although a bit delicate and emotional today I'm still relatively happy so I don't think alcohol plays *THAT* much of a part in me feeling ***ty
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Hanna H · 05 Jun
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Chris C · 03 Jun 2
Working on my own again with no break, had a pint last night so wondering if that's affecting my mood today, will do a bit of reading about that just generally feeling shit
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Noel L · 03 Jun
Hope you feel brighter soon Chris
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Chris C · 03 Jun
Managed to get quite a lot of me time at work so I think that's helped thanks though
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Chris C · 29 May 4
'Something's off' 😂
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Chris C · 29 May
Figured out what this funk was: -Possible Emotional manipulation - someone not taking ownership of their feelings and so pushing them on me - Invalidation from a close friend all triggers in just under 4 days
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Chris C · 25 May 4
Better than yesterday just so tired and weary of it all, feel very hopeless and out of control with feeling everyone else's emotions there's nothing I can do to stop it feel like I'm sliding back down
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Lynn M NEW · 24 May
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Cheyenne M · 24 May
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Gabriela A · 24 May
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Zoe K · 24 May
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Zoe K · 24 May
If you an see what you did in the beginning to make yourself happy, try doing something similar to that, but adjusted to current events. I know you can do this. And I hope you feel better soon.
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Chris C · 25 May
That's the problem, they aren't/weren't my emotions, if they're mine I can deal with them, it's not a case of finding what made me happy and do that it's a case of not feeling someone else's ***tiness then I'll be fine
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Chris C · 23 May 4
All extreme feelings have subsided, figured out it might be a friend I was picking up on, normally symptoms relieve if I'm feeling someone else's emotions which is apparently what's happened here
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Chris C · 23 May
Just emotionally exhausted and drained now so I can't be above a 5 gonna try and get a good night's sleep and start again tomorrow
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Ade W · 23 May
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Maddi K NEW · 23 May
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Chris C · 21 May 3
Run down and quite sad, think I might hit alcohol on the head for a bit, get myself back in shape and sort my life out a bit more
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tEnT S · 21 May
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Chris C · 21 May
Didn't take 5http last night so done it this morning, might have not taken it a couple of nights now but back on it, could be the drinking affecting me too
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Stephanie W NEW · 19 May 1
Suicidal? Sudden very strong urges. Self-harmed
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tEnT S · 19 May
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Chris C · 19 May
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Lieteke G · 19 May
💜 anything specific that triggers it? Please stay safe! We are here if you want to talk
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Chris C · 16 May 4
Perked up slightly, cup of tea had but now I'm in the 'I'm not letting myself be above average because I was so bad this morning' essentially sulking for feeling a bit better...
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Love 1 · 16 May
Sounds like there a an inner critic who gives no relief and doesn't celebrate victories
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Love 1 · 16 May
but also sounds like there's a part who delights in small things, enjoys the beauty of life... and a cup of tea.
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Shelley H · 16 May
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Chris C · 16 May
Complex but simple animal. I am who I am. Not brought up in a very loving household so I genuinely don't need sympathy and a little bit of love goes a long way with me
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Chris C · 16 May
Perfectionist with a harsh inner critic but it means I push my boundaries and limits so I keep on growing which is fine by me
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Chris C · 16 May
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Valeria P · 16 May
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Love 1 · 16 May
Love is a core need. The inner critic is a manager that tries its best to keep us safe. It does push us outside of our comfort zones. 'Life begins where our comfort zones end.' But it's methods can suck. Self-Compassion goes a long way.
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Chris C · 16 May
Aye I kinda try and grit my teeth and get through it, go easy on myself for feeling ***ty now, I'm extremely empathic so half the time what I'm feeling isn't even my own ***, it's exhausting
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Chris C · 16 May 2
Yesterday was very much an angry depression day Bitter and resentful Today is just a morbidly sad depression day Please DON'T send hugs, this is not what this is for
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Lulu S · 16 May
Hi Chris. People send hugs to express their support. If that isn't what you want what do you need instead?
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John T · 16 May
You can turn on privacy mode if you want.
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Chris C · 16 May
So this requires a bit of explaining on several different fronts
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Chris C · 16 May
Firstly I have traits of bpd, so I'm using this to try and track my erratic mood swings and see if there are factors which contribute this
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Chris C · 16 May
Secondly because of the stigma associated with people who have bpd/eupd I want to make it EXPLICITLY clear that I'm not doing this for attention, whether that aggravates or alleviates the stigma is another discussion
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Steve E · 16 May
I use it for the same reason mate, turn on private mode and no one can see your updates but you. Hope you get what your after out of the app and good luck tracking your moods. 👍
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Chris C · 16 May
Nah, I'm ok with people seeing my thoughts and commenting I'm just not ok with garnering sympathy when it's not needed, if people are doing it for their benefit and it makes them feel good then sure but I don't overly want or need it
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Chris C · 16 May
Guess it taps into an inner core belief that love is limited which is quite funny as I identify as poly and think that love isn't limited... There's the splitting again 😂
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