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1 Penelope P
23 Dec 2020 · LEGEND
Just wanted to come on and wish my panda pals a happy festive season and thank you for all your support this past year. Wishing you happiness and love for 2021.
Anna D
23 Dec 2020 · SUPPORTER

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Anna D
23 Dec 2020 · SUPPORTER

Thank you and merry Christmas and happy new year to you, Penelope!

Mandy H
23 Dec 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

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Ann L
24 Dec 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Ann L
24 Dec 2020 · GUARDIAN

Thank you. You too. 2021 let it be calm and peaceful

Spacekitten V
13 Jan 2021 · GUARDIAN

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Spacekitten V
13 Jan 2021 · GUARDIAN

πŸ’œ big hugs! Im late but its still January so... happy Newyear! 😁

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0 Penelope P
27 Oct 2020 · LEGEND
They say that you can never love someone if you don't love yourself. So if you totally despise yourself then there is no hope. The state of my mental health has stuffed things up for the final time.
Penelope P
27 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

Panda chums, I salute you all.

Tasha S
27 Oct 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Tasha S
27 Oct 2020 · GUARDIAN

I don't believe that's entirely true

Albertine M
28 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Albertine M
28 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

I hope you're okay Penelope xx

John T
29 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Spacekitten V
28 Oct 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Spacekitten V
28 Oct 2020 · GUARDIAN

Are you ok Penelope?

Spacekitten V
28 Oct 2020 · GUARDIAN

πŸ’œ

Spacekitten V
31 Oct 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Spacekitten V
13 Nov 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Ada L
27 Oct 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

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27 Oct 2020 · NEW

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1 Penelope P
26 Oct 2020 · LEGEND
Not a very good weekend. Broke down in front of M because he was pressuring me and I felt controlled. This morning cried so forceful in the shower that I ended up vomiting bile.
Penelope P
26 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

Then he was hassling me when I'd just got into work. The job I now dread and cry over at least twice a week. Pressuring me again about something trivial. He told me he'd been depressed last week. I can't remember when I wasn't depressed this year!

Penelope P
26 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

He has money, a house, doesn't have to work. Wish I had that kind of depression. Keeps making comments about living together, then not living together, then doing up his house, not doing up his house, moving, not moving. Must be terrible for him.

Penelope P
26 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

I am so low right now that I get home from that hideous place to just eat my meal and go to bed. Not interested in doing anything. Want to sleep forever. Have to force myself to be normal at the weekend. It should not be this way.

Tasha S
26 Oct 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Love !
26 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Penelope P
26 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

Thank you Shellie for your words. I waited nearly twenty years to get this man and I would never be able to start again with someone new. It's a long boring story. If I was twenty years younger then I'd feel differently I'm sure.

Anna D
27 Oct 2020 · SUPPORTER

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John T
29 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Spacekitten V
13 Nov 2020 · GUARDIAN

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1 Penelope P
25 Oct 2020 · LEGEND
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John T
25 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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nixiblu .
25 Oct 2020 · HERO

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Shelley H
25 Oct 2020 · HERO

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Tasha S
25 Oct 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Anna D
25 Oct 2020 · SUPPORTER

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Mandy H
25 Oct 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

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Shelley H
25 Oct 2020 · HERO

BIG HUGS PEN. I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND XXX

Max T
25 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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25 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Manda P
26 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Spacekitten V
28 Oct 2020 · GUARDIAN

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13 Nov 2020 · GUARDIAN

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1 Penelope P
20 Oct 2020 · LEGEND
It never leaves us does it? If it has left you then you're very fortunate. I want to cry it all out but I only have limited tears left. Really wish I could switch myself off and start again.
Penelope P
20 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

Or just switch myself off and maybe leave it there.

Molly C
20 Oct 2020 ·

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Anna D
21 Oct 2020 · SUPPORTER

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Anna D
21 Oct 2020 · SUPPORTER

There is always something to live for... Even though it might not seem like this.

me M
21 Oct 2020 · 1+ YEAR

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John T
21 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Albertine M
22 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Spacekitten V
28 Oct 2020 · GUARDIAN

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1 Penelope P
08 Oct 2020 · LEGEND
Found out today that I'll need to move again within six months. Since being on MP (nearly ten years now) I have moved five times already. It's exhausting and with things as they are...
Penelope P
08 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

...I am not sure I can do it again. Really reaching my limit now.

Lucy C
08 Oct 2020 · SUPPORTER

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Ada L
08 Oct 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

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Love !
09 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

moved 30+ times. I'm feelin you.

Robert H
09 Oct 2020 · GUARDIAN

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paul M
09 Oct 2020 · 1+ YEAR

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John T
09 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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John T
09 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

Ask M to move in with you

Anna D
09 Oct 2020 · SUPPORTER

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Manda P
10 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Manda P
10 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

I've done over 20 moves, too. It sucks super bad. Hope it goes smoothly!

nixiblu .
10 Oct 2020 · HERO

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Spacekitten V
28 Oct 2020 · GUARDIAN

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1 Penelope P
06 Oct 2020 · LEGEND
It's all just way too heavy on me
Anna D
06 Oct 2020 · SUPPORTER

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nixiblu .
06 Oct 2020 · HERO

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Albertine M
06 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Albertine M
06 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

Sorry to hear that, Pen - thinking of you x

Alicia B
07 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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John T
07 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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2 Penelope P
04 Oct 2020 · LEGEND
Don't want to go to work tomorrow. That's the first time I've felt this way at the new job. Managed to pretend to M that I was okay all weekend but nearly broke down when he left. Hating life.
Nik S
04 Oct 2020 ·

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John T
05 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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1 Penelope P
30 Sep 2020 · LEGEND
Cried at work again. Don't know how much longer I can do this.
Tasha S
30 Sep 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Daisy O
30 Sep 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

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Spacekitten V
30 Sep 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Sarah H
01 Oct 2020 ·

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Love !
01 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Shelley H
01 Oct 2020 · HERO

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Shelley H
01 Oct 2020 · HERO

BIG HUGS PEN XXX ❀

Robert H
01 Oct 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Ann L
01 Oct 2020 · GUARDIAN

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me M
01 Oct 2020 · 1+ YEAR

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John T
01 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Esther B
03 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Manda P
03 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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2 Penelope P
28 Sep 2020 · LEGEND
I am praying for another lockdown. Selfish I know but I am longing to shut my door and never go out again for weeks. Hopefully for the remainder of this year. Getting very despondent.
Max T
28 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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Shaun A
28 Sep 2020 · NEW

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Jen B
28 Sep 2020 · HERO

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Metron A
28 Sep 2020 · SUPPORTER

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Ada L
28 Sep 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

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Beth A
29 Sep 2020 ·

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Ann L
29 Sep 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Esther B
29 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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Esther B
29 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

take care Pen x

tEnT S
29 Sep 2020 · SUPPORTER

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Spacekitten V
29 Sep 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Manda P
30 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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3 Penelope P
25 Sep 2020 · LEGEND
All over the place. Woke up in the night with the sweats. My body temp has been around 35.6 all week. Putting it down to my thyroid which should have had correct medication.
Penelope P
25 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

Frozen hands. Went to shop but felt just as cold back in house. Put heating on. Did housework so warmer now. M coming over in an hour so going to get a shower. Lady business stalling. Annoying. Worried about staying at his tomorrow night.

Penelope P
25 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

People getting close to me outdoors, hate it. Sick of them not being patient or showing respect and decency to others. Racing past people. What is this fixation with always getting in front of people? The world, or at least England, has gone insane.

Penelope P
25 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

Really I despair and actually makes me long for another lockdown. Anyone would think alcohol is the only important thing in life. And for a lot of people it is.

Sophie J
25 Sep 2020 ·

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nixiblu .
25 Sep 2020 · HERO

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Jeff M
25 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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John T
25 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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3 Penelope P
24 Sep 2020 · LEGEND
I have a sore eye and keep getting headaches. M rang me and he made me feel a bit better. He takes my mind off things but wish that was a constant thing. Lady business starting. Still a bit down.
Tasha S
24 Sep 2020 · GUARDIAN

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25 Sep 2020 ·

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Ann L
25 Sep 2020 · GUARDIAN

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John T
25 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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2 Penelope P
23 Sep 2020 · LEGEND
Basically I don't like working with numbers. Made more errors today. I just get confused and feel rushed and make silly mistakes. I know it's peri menopause and PMT but I need an easier job.
Tasha S
23 Sep 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Ada L
24 Sep 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

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John T
24 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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Manda P
24 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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3 Penelope P
22 Sep 2020 · LEGEND
Made some mistakes at work so I ended up crying. I don't like payroll but what else can I do, especially in the current climate. PMT as well. Need to get away from everything and just be with M.
Manda P
22 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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Ada L
22 Sep 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

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7 Penelope P
21 Sep 2020 · LEGEND
Ten years ago yesterday my life changed. If only I could go back to who I was then and whisper in my ear β€œdon't cry over this one, you'll end up with the one you really want”. Dreams can come true.
Alicia B
22 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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Alicia B
22 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

What a lovely sentiment! I think of that too, sometimes, telling the past me not to despair I mean.

sonny S
22 Sep 2020 · 1+ YEAR

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John T
22 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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Manda P
22 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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7 Penelope P
20 Sep 2020 · LEGEND
So he actually said that he would like to live with me. And one day eventually marry!! It's been like prising a clam out of its shell.
tEnT S
20 Sep 2020 · SUPPORTER

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Tasha S
20 Sep 2020 · GUARDIAN

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J M
21 Sep 2020 · NEW

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Ann L
21 Sep 2020 · GUARDIAN

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John T
21 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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Manda P
21 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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2 Penelope P
17 Sep 2020 · LEGEND
So I suggest a place to get away. Oh no, what if it's cancelled and we lose money, what if it rains and we're stuck inside, what if, what if. Always excuses. I never get enthusiasm or thanks.
Penelope P
17 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

I'm scared of the COVID as it is but I found a nice place, good cleanliness reviews. Every time it's just like he doesn't really want to go away with me. Over two years now and not a single night away.

Penelope P
17 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

I just wanted a couple of days away to see the autumn trees. He then comes up with two other places. I say let's not bother until after COVID. I will p on his chips in return because I can be a btch like that.

Penelope P
17 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

Feeling like he only wants β€œus” on his terms. I'm expected at his every weekend. If I don't want to then he wants to come to me. You wouldn't believe it if I said that I feel smothered alongside being totally unloved. It doesn't make sense.

Alicia B
17 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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Alicia B
17 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

Smothered alongside being totally unloved... Been there! It's not right.

Manda P
17 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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Manda P
17 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

I'm sorry you aren't being treated as you should. Guys can be real big jerks! (Girls too!) I think a weekend away sounds amazing!

Tasha S
17 Sep 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Ann L
18 Sep 2020 · GUARDIAN

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2 Penelope P
15 Sep 2020 · LEGEND
Lady pains are excruciating. Thought I'd escaped them this month, instead they are really bad right now. Taken painkillers in the hope that I can sleep uninterrupted.
Ada L
15 Sep 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

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15 Sep 2020 · NEW

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Jeff M
15 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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15 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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16 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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16 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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16 Sep 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Penelope P
16 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

Thanks everyone x

nixiblu .
17 Sep 2020 · HERO

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Penelope P
17 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

And you sweet nixi bear!

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4 Penelope P
10 Sep 2020 · LEGEND
Choosing to look down from a higher cloud. Pragmatic.
Ann L
11 Sep 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Albertine M
11 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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Manda P
13 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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tEnT S
13 Sep 2020 · SUPPORTER

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3 Penelope P
08 Sep 2020 · LEGEND
I didn't check on the mistake at work, nobody has come back to me and I didn't dare look. Didn't have enough time anyway. Doctor advising me to up my thyroxine after over a month since blood test.
Penelope P
08 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

No wonder I've not been able to shift weight. Typical. Good job it wasn't life threatening eh? Don't know whether I can be bothered to look at my UC account now. Have cut some of next door's hedge and just need a shower and a lie down.

nixiblu .
08 Sep 2020 · HERO

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hi I
08 Sep 2020 · NEW

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Anna D
08 Sep 2020 · SUPPORTER

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Ann L
08 Sep 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Love !
08 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

wishing you rest

Anonmous A
09 Sep 2020 · HERO

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10 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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13 Sep 2020 · SUPPORTER

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