Thank you and merry Christmas and happy new year to you, Penelope!
Thank you. You too. 2021 let it be calm and peaceful
💜 big hugs! Im late but its still January so... happy Newyear! 😁
Panda chums, I salute you all.
I don't believe that's entirely true
I hope you're okay Penelope xx
Are you ok Penelope?
Then he was hassling me when I'd just got into work. The job I now dread and cry over at least twice a week. Pressuring me again about something trivial. He told me he'd been depressed last week. I can't remember when I wasn't depressed this year!
He has money, a house, doesn't have to work. Wish I had that kind of depression. Keeps making comments about living together, then not living together, then doing up his house, not doing up his house, moving, not moving. Must be terrible for him.
I am so low right now that I get home from that hideous place to just eat my meal and go to bed. Not interested in doing anything. Want to sleep forever. Have to force myself to be normal at the weekend. It should not be this way.
Thank you Shellie for your words. I waited nearly twenty years to get this man and I would never be able to start again with someone new. It's a long boring story. If I was twenty years younger then I'd feel differently I'm sure.
BIG HUGS PEN. I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND XXX
Extra big hugs
Or just switch myself off and maybe leave it there.
There is always something to live for... Even though it might not seem like this.
...I am not sure I can do it again. Really reaching my limit now.
moved 30+ times. I'm feelin you.
Ask M to move in with you
I've done over 20 moves, too. It sucks super bad. Hope it goes smoothly!
Sorry to hear that, Pen - thinking of you x
BIG HUGS PEN XXX ❤
take care Pen x
Frozen hands. Went to shop but felt just as cold back in house. Put heating on. Did housework so warmer now. M coming over in an hour so going to get a shower. Lady business stalling. Annoying. Worried about staying at his tomorrow night.
People getting close to me outdoors, hate it. Sick of them not being patient or showing respect and decency to others. Racing past people. What is this fixation with always getting in front of people? The world, or at least England, has gone insane.
Really I despair and actually makes me long for another lockdown. Anyone would think alcohol is the only important thing in life. And for a lot of people it is.
What a lovely sentiment! I think of that too, sometimes, telling the past me not to despair I mean.
I'm scared of the COVID as it is but I found a nice place, good cleanliness reviews. Every time it's just like he doesn't really want to go away with me. Over two years now and not a single night away.
I just wanted a couple of days away to see the autumn trees. He then comes up with two other places. I say let's not bother until after COVID. I will p on his chips in return because I can be a btch like that.
Feeling like he only wants “us” on his terms. I'm expected at his every weekend. If I don't want to then he wants to come to me. You wouldn't believe it if I said that I feel smothered alongside being totally unloved. It doesn't make sense.
Smothered alongside being totally unloved... Been there! It's not right.
I'm sorry you aren't being treated as you should. Guys can be real big jerks! (Girls too!) I think a weekend away sounds amazing!
Thanks everyone x
And you sweet nixi bear!
No wonder I've not been able to shift weight. Typical. Good job it wasn't life threatening eh? Don't know whether I can be bothered to look at my UC account now. Have cut some of next door's hedge and just need a shower and a lie down.
wishing you rest