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I am praying for another lockdown. Selfish I know but I am longing to shut my door and never go out again for weeks. Hopefully for the remainder of this year. Getting very despondent.
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take care Pen x

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All over the place. Woke up in the night with the sweats. My body temp has been around 35.6 all week. Putting it down to my thyroid which should have had correct medication.
Penelope P
4d · LEGEND

Frozen hands. Went to shop but felt just as cold back in house. Put heating on. Did housework so warmer now. M coming over in an hour so going to get a shower. Lady business stalling. Annoying. Worried about staying at his tomorrow night.

Penelope P
4d · LEGEND

People getting close to me outdoors, hate it. Sick of them not being patient or showing respect and decency to others. Racing past people. What is this fixation with always getting in front of people? The world, or at least England, has gone insane.

Penelope P
4d · LEGEND

Really I despair and actually makes me long for another lockdown. Anyone would think alcohol is the only important thing in life. And for a lot of people it is.

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I have a sore eye and keep getting headaches. M rang me and he made me feel a bit better. He takes my mind off things but wish that was a constant thing. Lady business starting. Still a bit down.
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Basically I don't like working with numbers. Made more errors today. I just get confused and feel rushed and make silly mistakes. I know it's peri menopause and PMT but I need an easier job.
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Made some mistakes at work so I ended up crying. I don't like payroll but what else can I do, especially in the current climate. PMT as well. Need to get away from everything and just be with M.
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7 Penelope P
21 Sep 2020 · LEGEND
Ten years ago yesterday my life changed. If only I could go back to who I was then and whisper in my ear “don't cry over this one, you'll end up with the one you really want”. Dreams can come true.
Alicia B
22 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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Alicia B
22 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

What a lovely sentiment! I think of that too, sometimes, telling the past me not to despair I mean.

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22 Sep 2020 · 1+ YEAR

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7 Penelope P
20 Sep 2020 · LEGEND
So he actually said that he would like to live with me. And one day eventually marry!! It's been like prising a clam out of its shell.
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20 Sep 2020 ·

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20 Sep 2020 · SUPPORTER

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20 Sep 2020 ·

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20 Sep 2020 · GUARDIAN

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2 Penelope P
17 Sep 2020 · LEGEND
So I suggest a place to get away. Oh no, what if it's cancelled and we lose money, what if it rains and we're stuck inside, what if, what if. Always excuses. I never get enthusiasm or thanks.
Penelope P
17 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

I'm scared of the COVID as it is but I found a nice place, good cleanliness reviews. Every time it's just like he doesn't really want to go away with me. Over two years now and not a single night away.

Penelope P
17 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

I just wanted a couple of days away to see the autumn trees. He then comes up with two other places. I say let's not bother until after COVID. I will p on his chips in return because I can be a btch like that.

Penelope P
17 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

Feeling like he only wants “us” on his terms. I'm expected at his every weekend. If I don't want to then he wants to come to me. You wouldn't believe it if I said that I feel smothered alongside being totally unloved. It doesn't make sense.

Alicia B
17 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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Alicia B
17 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

Smothered alongside being totally unloved... Been there! It's not right.

Manda P
17 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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17 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

I'm sorry you aren't being treated as you should. Guys can be real big jerks! (Girls too!) I think a weekend away sounds amazing!

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17 Sep 2020 · GUARDIAN

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2 Penelope P
15 Sep 2020 · LEGEND
Lady pains are excruciating. Thought I'd escaped them this month, instead they are really bad right now. Taken painkillers in the hope that I can sleep uninterrupted.
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16 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

Thanks everyone x

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17 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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4 Penelope P
10 Sep 2020 · LEGEND
Choosing to look down from a higher cloud. Pragmatic.
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11 Sep 2020 · GUARDIAN

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3 Penelope P
08 Sep 2020 · LEGEND
I didn't check on the mistake at work, nobody has come back to me and I didn't dare look. Didn't have enough time anyway. Doctor advising me to up my thyroxine after over a month since blood test.
Penelope P
08 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

No wonder I've not been able to shift weight. Typical. Good job it wasn't life threatening eh? Don't know whether I can be bothered to look at my UC account now. Have cut some of next door's hedge and just need a shower and a lie down.

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08 Sep 2020 · HERO

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08 Sep 2020 · 1+ YEAR

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08 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

wishing you rest

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09 Sep 2020 · HERO

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3 Penelope P
07 Sep 2020 · LEGEND
Nothing's right. Universal credit site down on the only night I want to use it. May have made a slight error at work which is playing on my mind. M nowhere for support. What a life.
Anna D
07 Sep 2020 · 1+ YEAR

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08 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

Thanks everyone, nice to get some hugs at the end of the day.

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08 Sep 2020 · HERO

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5 Penelope P
03 Sep 2020 · LEGEND
Been at my new job eight weeks now. My colleague is off next week so getting ready to take the reins on my own. The vibe is totally different to my last place. Colleagues are actually normal.
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03 Sep 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Penelope P
03 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

Maybe because there are slightly more males than females. Maybe because it is not a warped organisation. Gradually breaking contact with my ex colleague. She isn't working now and doesn't want to by the look of it.

Penelope P
03 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

I can tell the difference in me. Mood is still sometimes quite low but that's just hormones and humans. Things with M are okay, I'm learning to live with the situation. Giving love but not getting much back. Oh well, that's life.

Penelope P
03 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

I am sleeping much better but my diet is off. Given up the running but I'm more active than I was in lockdown anyway. Need to sort out my weight but I don't think peri menopause helps. Things are better but not perfect.

Penelope P
03 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

My goal is five years and everything should be right. We will see. This year is a write off. We start anew in January. Not wishing my time away but things are stuck, stagnant. Let's just get through each day, little by little, for now.

Albertine M
03 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

Normal colleagues is a good thing:)Maybe there's scope for change in the situation with M? You deserve to get a lot back - does he know how lucky he is?

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03 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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04 Sep 2020 · 1+ YEAR

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3 Penelope P
02 Sep 2020 · LEGEND
If we had all the answers then there wouldn't be as many of us here.
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03 Sep 2020 · GUARDIAN

Answers come with years.well,as for me...,but I am here) because I think ,I know one very important answer 🙂.

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03 Sep 2020 · LEGEND

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2 Penelope P
28 Aug 2020 · LEGEND
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28 Aug 2020 · LEGEND

Thanks all x

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28 Aug 2020 · LEGEND

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4 Penelope P
25 Aug 2020 · LEGEND
Learnt new stuff at work and it was easy. Don't actually know what all the big fuss is about. Either I'm brilliant at payroll or they have aggrandised views of complexity.
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25 Aug 2020 ·

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26 Aug 2020 · LEGEND

You **are** brilliant, Pen! :)

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2 Penelope P
23 Aug 2020 · LEGEND
Hate having to leave him after the weekend. I want to live with him but feel like it's never going to happen. Two years now and counting.
Penelope P
23 Aug 2020 · LEGEND

I am feeling inexplicably down. Went to visit his friend today and it made me feel worse about what I haven't got and what I want.

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24 Aug 2020 · HERO

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24 Aug 2020 · HERO

Similar! But nearer 3!

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24 Aug 2020 · LEGEND

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3 Penelope P
20 Aug 2020 · LEGEND
Really I need to disconnect from strangers who mean nothing to me. People are very annoying but friends and pandas remain constant. Need to remember this.
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21 Aug 2020 · GUARDIAN

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2 Penelope P
19 Aug 2020 · LEGEND
Trying to lose myself in music. Will shower then read until sleep. Anything and everything to not think. PMT however, we know this.
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19 Aug 2020 · 1+ YEAR

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20 Aug 2020 · LEGEND

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20 Aug 2020 · LEGEND

Got a Spotify playlist, Pen?

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20 Aug 2020 · GUARDIAN

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20 Aug 2020 · LEGEND

Yes John, I have a few under penelopepemberton. They're my saviours many times.

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21 Aug 2020 · HERO

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2 Penelope P
17 Aug 2020 · LEGEND
Mostly things are rubbish again. As it goes.
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17 Aug 2020 · LEGEND

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17 Aug 2020 · 1+ YEAR

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