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Bad night's sleep last night. Work ok as my colleague doesn't work Mondays and there's never many people in. I'm still dizzy but doctors was engaged and I can't be bothered to keep trying.
Tayla O
4d · 6+ MONTHS

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Penelope P
4d · LEGEND

Bus packed on way home but managed to read a bit. But will have to re read it all actually. It's cold and I feel lonely without M. Wish I could be with him all the time. I'd drive him nuts though. I'm kind of numb.

Lyuba A
4d ·

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Ian D
4d · 6+ MONTHS

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Robert H
4d · GUARDIAN

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Jeff M
3d · LEGEND

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Albertine M
3d · LEGEND

Hope you will follow up the dizziness issue if it continues, Pen - good to get it checked out

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Dizziness back again today. I have no idea what is wrong with me but something isn't right.
Tayla O
5d · 6+ MONTHS

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Shelley H
5d · HERO

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Bea M
5d ·

Drink TONS of water and if that doesnt help go to the doc! <3 <3 <3

Jeff M
4d · LEGEND

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Jeff M
4d · LEGEND

Bea is right: dehydration and dryness due to the weather can cause that. Drink a lot and rest up!

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I know that M wants me to stay at his tonight and I will end up going but do I really want to?
paul M
7d · 1+ YEAR

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Tayla O
7d · 6+ MONTHS

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Robert H
6d · GUARDIAN

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Feeling slightly better.
Robert H
7d · GUARDIAN

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3 Penelope P
15 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
Still dizzy but due to meet a friend for coffee later. Could do without it but I might as well try.
Jeff M
7d · LEGEND

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4 Penelope P
14 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
Going to lie on the couch all afternoon, catching up on tv shows and might start a new book.
me M
14 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Lyuba A
14 Nov 2019 ·

Sounds cozy

nixiblu .
14 Nov 2019 · HERO

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Robert H
15 Nov 2019 · GUARDIAN

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3 Penelope P
13 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
Dizzy all day. Left work early sick. Don't care. Came home and vomited. Feel a bit rubbish really. Don't want to go to work tomorrow but that's more about my dislike of my job rather than my illness.
Shelley H
14 Nov 2019 · HERO

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Shelley H
14 Nov 2019 · HERO

Big hugs Pen ❤

Robert H
14 Nov 2019 · GUARDIAN

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Jeff M
14 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

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Jeff M
14 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

Hope you feel better! I know how hard life is when you don't like your job...it can take over your life. :(

Penelope P
14 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

I've still got it today but seem to have kept some food down now. I wish I could be more positive at work but it's hard once you've got into that negative mindset. And my colleague doesn't help with her moaning attitude either.

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4 Penelope P
07 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
So my colleague sends a work email to my personal email address today. She said she would not contact me about work and I didn't want to be contacted. I know it's a mistake but that's the problem.
Penelope P
07 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

She makes too many errors. I'm on leave for a week and I still get reminded of her cock ups. My time off is spoilt. Emailed my manager but she's off until I return. I don't know how much longer I can cope with that place.

Penelope P
07 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

It's really upset me and perhaps I'm overreacting but I just wanted to get away and not think about the place. Now I know that I've got a whole load of her work to check when I get back. Naturally, I don't want to go back.

Jason E C
07 Nov 2019 · SUPPORTER

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Maria K
07 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

Your email should have an automatic reply (or make one) saying your out..perhaps?

Jeff M
07 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

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Penelope P
07 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

Thanks Maria, but it shouldn't have been sent to my home email in the first place.

Anna D
07 Nov 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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08 Nov 2019 · GUARDIAN

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7 Penelope P
06 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
Off up a hill today and then down into a cave. With M I do lots of things I wouldn't be brave enough to do on my own. Small adventures maybe, but massive achievements for me.
Kimberley C
06 Nov 2019 ·

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Jeff M
06 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

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Anna D
06 Nov 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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07 Nov 2019 · GUARDIAN

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3 Penelope P
04 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
Bad panic attack last night so scared of sleeping tonight. I could do with someone to talk to but I have no one and nobody understands anyway. M not really talking so will listen to radio all night.
Penelope P
04 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

Waking up panicking with heart racing feeling like you're going to die is not nice but I suppose I should be used to it after all these years. No one I know gets these so I have nobody to empathise.

Alicia B
04 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

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Alicia B
04 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

Sounds horrible :( Do you get them a lot?

Kimberley C
04 Nov 2019 ·

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Spacekitten V
04 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Penelope P
05 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

I go through spells of them Alicia. I only get them when I'm sleeping, never had a panic attack when I'm awake. GP just said it's psychological. So why don't I have them when I'm actually thinking about stuff? Thankfully didn't have one last night.

Penelope P
05 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

May get three in a week then none for three months. Quite scary. I'm convinced it's to do with menopause. I don't really have any other explanation. They happen whether I'm happy or sad, stressed or calm.

Penelope P
05 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

Thanks for the hugs everyone.

Jeff M
05 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

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Jeff M
05 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

I get them in the middle of the night too. For me, I come to instantly awake feeling sure I'm going to throw up. Breathing super quick, stomach roiling so that I have to hold it. Then it settles. Super scary...:(

Penelope P
05 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

That sounds horrible too, Jeff. You have my sympathies. With me it's heart racing and thoughts of impending death, occasionally I leap up like last time. Nothing I do seems to help. They're so unpredictable anyway it's probably impossible.

Alicia B
10 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

Oh god you guys, that sounds tough. I've only had those when I was in a toxic relationship... I guess I'm lucky!

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4 Penelope P
03 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
Great weekend with M and I can see being with him forever. But whether he wants the commitment I need is another thing. Sometimes it seems he does, sometimes it's the last thing he wants.
Kimberley C
03 Nov 2019 ·

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Kimberley C
03 Nov 2019 ·

Have you talked with him about that? The best you can do is voice that concern, don't keep it in, it will destroy you. No matter the outcome you will know were you are and knowing is better than not knowing. If you need support, we're all here x

Ian D
03 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Jeff M
04 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

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6 Penelope P
30 Oct 2019 · LEGEND
Finished work. Waiting for shopping then I can relax. Night out with M tomorrow. I am hoping I can relax and get back to feeling something like my true self over the next week.
Shelley H
30 Oct 2019 · HERO

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John T
30 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

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Robert H
31 Oct 2019 · GUARDIAN

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Jeff M
31 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

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Jeff M
31 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

I hope so too, Pen!

nixiblu .
31 Oct 2019 · HERO

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5 Penelope P
29 Oct 2019 · LEGEND
Only half a day at work tomorrow and then I'm off for 11 days. Haven't had a week off in three months so really looking forward to it. Hopefully I will get kidnapped during this time.
Shelley H
29 Oct 2019 · HERO

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Jeff M
30 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

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31 Oct 2019 · HERO

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7 Penelope P
27 Oct 2019 · LEGEND
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2 Penelope P
18 Oct 2019 · LEGEND
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Spacekitten V
18 Oct 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Robert H
19 Oct 2019 · GUARDIAN

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me M
19 Oct 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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3 Penelope P
15 Oct 2019 · LEGEND
Stayed off work again because I can feel anxiety. Have a gas engineer coming soon. I hate workmen in the house. Hate, hate, hate. Ignoring M. Everybody else ignoring me which suits fine.
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15 Oct 2019 ·

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Bipolar Pandy J
15 Oct 2019 ·

Incredible: I was about to share I'm waiting in for washingmachine man +how much I loathe +waiting 4hours 4 too. And if doesn't come have to go right thro again.I've put off +piles of stuff and unhygienic stink.He's late 5 mins. Day ruined if no show

Spacekitten V
15 Oct 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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nixiblu .
15 Oct 2019 · HERO

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Robert H
16 Oct 2019 · GUARDIAN

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3 Penelope P
14 Oct 2019 · LEGEND
Sometimes I wonder whether I'm being low key controlled 🤔
Jen B
14 Oct 2019 · HERO

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14 Oct 2019 ·

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Anna D
14 Oct 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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paul M
14 Oct 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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Natalie C
14 Oct 2019 · GUARDIAN

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Shelley H
15 Oct 2019 · HERO

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15 Oct 2019 · HERO

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3 Penelope P
14 Oct 2019 · LEGEND
I bruised my hip and I've got pain down my leg so not going to go to work. Not that I take much persuading to sack it off. Hate the place. Anyway, just going to take it easy. Also have headache.
Penelope P
14 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

Going to give the Queen's speech the respect it deserves by staying home today 😂

Anna D
14 Oct 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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paul M
14 Oct 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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Shelley H
15 Oct 2019 · HERO

Feel better PEN ❤

nixiblu .
15 Oct 2019 · HERO

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7 Penelope P
13 Oct 2019 · LEGEND
M stayed over last night but he was a bit obnoxious. I love him unconditionally so I let it go. This morning he apologised. I make allowance for him being out of his usual routine.
Penelope P
13 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

Having the rest of the day on my own, eating sausages and watching first dates hotel. It's maybe nice to be alone sometimes.

Shelley H
13 Oct 2019 · HERO

😃 Morning PEN. I had sausages with hash browns this morning. Sure was good. Have a good day my friend xxx

Penelope P
13 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

Thank you Shelley bear. X

Shelley H
13 Oct 2019 · HERO

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Anna D
13 Oct 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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14 Oct 2019 · GUARDIAN

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14 Oct 2019 · GUARDIAN

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9 Penelope P
12 Oct 2019 · LEGEND
So excited for today even though it's just having my boyfriend over. Feel like a young person again 😂
me M
12 Oct 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Anna D
12 Oct 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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13 Oct 2019 · GUARDIAN

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13 Oct 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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13 Oct 2019 · HERO

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