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Skived at work. Off to the coast with M tomorrow and I am beyond excited to see him. It's been nearly a fortnight and way too long to be apart from him. Staying at his over the weekend.
Jen B
6h · HERO

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Tayla O
5h · 6+ MONTHS

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Think I've done enough to make up with M. Or the weekend will prove it ;)
Robert H
2d · GUARDIAN

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1d · 1+ YEAR

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Some kind of allergy and finding it hard to breathe through my nose. Very tired but hardly dare go to sleep now. Sent cute apology email to M. I'm such a suck. Work rubbish as usual, just read kindle.
Jake M
3d ·

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3d · 6+ MONTHS

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3d · LEGEND

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I've apologised to M for pushing him away. I'm stupid. He is the only good thing I have and I never want to lose him. Waited so long to have him in my life I'd be a fool to let him go.
John T
3d · LEGEND

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Eaten pizza and now feel bad. M keeps texting me. Feel bad about ignoring him but I wanted to go out yesterday, I wanted to stay with him. It's like he wanted to enjoy himself without me.
Penelope P
5d · LEGEND

That's fine but don't come to me now because you are having to spend the evening alone and I'm not there to cuddle in bed. Selfish, selfish, selfish. And I don't like that.

Albertine M
5d · LEGEND

Maybe you needed some pizza?:) Sorry about M - relationships are just so bloody difficult

Anna D
5d · 1+ YEAR

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5d · GUARDIAN

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5d · HERO

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Been to drop off a gift to my friend. Hasn't made me feel much better. Lucky with bus on way home. Switched my phone off. Feeling sorry for myself.
Riman V
6d · NEW

Hey, why did giving a gift not help? That's a lovely thing to do

Beanie G
6d · NEW

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6d · GUARDIAN

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6d · 6+ MONTHS

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5d · HERO

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So we're not going out today. Well, he is because he has been down due to the gloomy weather. I hate my job, have health worries, short of money, on lady things, drained and stressed.
Penelope P
7d · LEGEND

But he has obviously had a terrible week being a retired man and rolling in all his cash. Rushed off his feet with no time to plan us an outing. He has no clue. Sometimes I think this is never going to work.

Tayla O
7d · 6+ MONTHS

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Penelope P
7d · LEGEND

Thanks Tayla, I appreciate it.

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7d · NEW

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5 Penelope P
27 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
I managed to change my booking, they were really lovely about it. Of course they were. I really beat myself up unnecessarily. Watched last night's Gold Digger. Lady business started, three days late �
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28 Nov 2019 ·

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me M
7d · 6+ MONTHS

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7d · LEGEND

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3 Penelope P
26 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
Why does everything have to be so disappointing. I booked a tour for a certain day, now I find out for the same price we could go any time and I'd get a printed voucher. So annoyed with myself.
Penelope P
26 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

I realise it was easy to miss but now I feel like I've committed us to go in January when we could have gone in nicer weather. And I'm too embarrassed to change it now. I'm always so feeble and useless at things like this.

Anna D
26 Nov 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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26 Nov 2019 · HERO

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26 Nov 2019 · GUARDIAN

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3 Penelope P
18 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
Bad night's sleep last night. Work ok as my colleague doesn't work Mondays and there's never many people in. I'm still dizzy but doctors was engaged and I can't be bothered to keep trying.
Tayla O
18 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Penelope P
18 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

Bus packed on way home but managed to read a bit. But will have to re read it all actually. It's cold and I feel lonely without M. Wish I could be with him all the time. I'd drive him nuts though. I'm kind of numb.

Lyuba A
18 Nov 2019 ·

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Ian D
18 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Robert H
19 Nov 2019 · GUARDIAN

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Jeff M
19 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

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Albertine M
19 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

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Albertine M
19 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

Hope you will follow up the dizziness issue if it continues, Pen - good to get it checked out

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4 Penelope P
17 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
Dizziness back again today. I have no idea what is wrong with me but something isn't right.
Tayla O
17 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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17 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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18 Nov 2019 · HERO

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Bea M
18 Nov 2019 ·

Drink TONS of water and if that doesnt help go to the doc! <3 <3 <3

Jeff M
18 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

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Jeff M
18 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

Bea is right: dehydration and dryness due to the weather can cause that. Drink a lot and rest up!

Albertine M
19 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

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4 Penelope P
16 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
I know that M wants me to stay at his tonight and I will end up going but do I really want to?
paul M
16 Nov 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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16 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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16 Nov 2019 · GUARDIAN

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4 Penelope P
15 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
Feeling slightly better.
Robert H
16 Nov 2019 · GUARDIAN

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3 Penelope P
15 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
Still dizzy but due to meet a friend for coffee later. Could do without it but I might as well try.
Jeff M
15 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

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4 Penelope P
14 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
Going to lie on the couch all afternoon, catching up on tv shows and might start a new book.
me M
14 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Lyuba A
14 Nov 2019 ·

Sounds cozy

nixiblu .
14 Nov 2019 · HERO

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15 Nov 2019 · GUARDIAN

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3 Penelope P
13 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
Dizzy all day. Left work early sick. Don't care. Came home and vomited. Feel a bit rubbish really. Don't want to go to work tomorrow but that's more about my dislike of my job rather than my illness.
Shelley H
14 Nov 2019 · HERO

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Shelley H
14 Nov 2019 · HERO

Big hugs Pen ❤

Robert H
14 Nov 2019 · GUARDIAN

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Jeff M
14 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

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Jeff M
14 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

Hope you feel better! I know how hard life is when you don't like your job...it can take over your life. :(

Penelope P
14 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

I've still got it today but seem to have kept some food down now. I wish I could be more positive at work but it's hard once you've got into that negative mindset. And my colleague doesn't help with her moaning attitude either.

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4 Penelope P
07 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
So my colleague sends a work email to my personal email address today. She said she would not contact me about work and I didn't want to be contacted. I know it's a mistake but that's the problem.
Penelope P
07 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

She makes too many errors. I'm on leave for a week and I still get reminded of her cock ups. My time off is spoilt. Emailed my manager but she's off until I return. I don't know how much longer I can cope with that place.

Penelope P
07 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

It's really upset me and perhaps I'm overreacting but I just wanted to get away and not think about the place. Now I know that I've got a whole load of her work to check when I get back. Naturally, I don't want to go back.

Jason E C
07 Nov 2019 · SUPPORTER

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Maria K
07 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

Your email should have an automatic reply (or make one) saying your out..perhaps?

Jeff M
07 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

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Penelope P
07 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

Thanks Maria, but it shouldn't have been sent to my home email in the first place.

Anna D
07 Nov 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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08 Nov 2019 · GUARDIAN

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7 Penelope P
06 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
Off up a hill today and then down into a cave. With M I do lots of things I wouldn't be brave enough to do on my own. Small adventures maybe, but massive achievements for me.
Kimberley C
06 Nov 2019 ·

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Jeff M
06 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

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Anna D
06 Nov 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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07 Nov 2019 · GUARDIAN

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3 Penelope P
04 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
Bad panic attack last night so scared of sleeping tonight. I could do with someone to talk to but I have no one and nobody understands anyway. M not really talking so will listen to radio all night.
Penelope P
04 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

Waking up panicking with heart racing feeling like you're going to die is not nice but I suppose I should be used to it after all these years. No one I know gets these so I have nobody to empathise.

Alicia B
04 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

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Alicia B
04 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

Sounds horrible :( Do you get them a lot?

Kimberley C
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04 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Penelope P
05 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

I go through spells of them Alicia. I only get them when I'm sleeping, never had a panic attack when I'm awake. GP just said it's psychological. So why don't I have them when I'm actually thinking about stuff? Thankfully didn't have one last night.

Penelope P
05 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

May get three in a week then none for three months. Quite scary. I'm convinced it's to do with menopause. I don't really have any other explanation. They happen whether I'm happy or sad, stressed or calm.

Penelope P
05 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

Thanks for the hugs everyone.

Jeff M
05 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

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Jeff M
05 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

I get them in the middle of the night too. For me, I come to instantly awake feeling sure I'm going to throw up. Breathing super quick, stomach roiling so that I have to hold it. Then it settles. Super scary...:(

Penelope P
05 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

That sounds horrible too, Jeff. You have my sympathies. With me it's heart racing and thoughts of impending death, occasionally I leap up like last time. Nothing I do seems to help. They're so unpredictable anyway it's probably impossible.

Alicia B
10 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

Oh god you guys, that sounds tough. I've only had those when I was in a toxic relationship... I guess I'm lucky!

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4 Penelope P
03 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
Great weekend with M and I can see being with him forever. But whether he wants the commitment I need is another thing. Sometimes it seems he does, sometimes it's the last thing he wants.
Kimberley C
03 Nov 2019 ·

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Kimberley C
03 Nov 2019 ·

Have you talked with him about that? The best you can do is voice that concern, don't keep it in, it will destroy you. No matter the outcome you will know were you are and knowing is better than not knowing. If you need support, we're all here x

Ian D
03 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Jeff M
04 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

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