Just had 2 new front tyres fitted, they came in a van and did them at my home for free. The new tires were good value, I am happy. I think I will get my car valeted now, spring is in the air. #dayoff

Sounds like a good day! I'm jealous of your springness! :)

02 Feb 2018

Sounds like a very useful and good day off. I love spring! Miss that here

02 Feb 2018

Hi, Binky! 💖

03 Feb 2018

Hola, Binky.

19 Feb 2018

We miss you Binky!

20 Feb 2018

Hope you're good, Binky! *Big hugs*

20 Feb 2018

Binky, saw you comment yesterday. Just wanted to say we miss you and hope you're doing good!

17 Apr 2018

Thank you, Jeff! It's great to see you. I'm doing pretty good. As I get older, I'm finding life is in some ways easier, but still other aspects seem to be compounding. Hey-ho! I also hope you and your doggo are doing well.

20 Apr 2018

I think life does get easier. Even if I can't say it's better, it's easier. Some things do still get difficult, but we get by. The time goes quicker. Me and my dog are pretty good! Hope to see you around again now and then, if not more often!

21 Apr 2018

Biiiiiiinnnnnkkkkkyyyyy!!! I miss you! Hope you are well, friend. xx

22 Jan 2019

Wow, it's been almost an entire year since Binky posted. :( Miss you!

30 Jan 2019

Hope you are well, came back to this app today and was thinking of the people that helped me like you xx

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That ***ing solicitor annoyed me at work again today and now I'm beating myself about over my own stupidity. I don't know why I find him so intimidating. So angry!!!
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Phone usage history, Wed 208 hrs, Thu 206 hrs, and today is 272 hrs! I may not go on social media much but I still manage to clock up significant screen time. Awareness is the first step...

Hey, Binks! Glad you screen timed MP

27 Jan 2018

did you download that offline app? I'm using it too. what a waste of time hey.. it's a wakeup call!

27 Jan 2018
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Crappy day at work :( partly due to circumstances outside my control, but also partly my fault. On a bit of a downer. Need to builds self love. Going to Pilates now.

Stay strong!

23 Jan 2018

I've heard someone say recently that self love is not the best term for many of us. Self acceptance, or self appreciation is easier. How do you feel when you try to love yourself?

23 Jan 2018

Binky! I've missed you! Sorry you're having a downer day. I hope things pick up...maybe that endorphin rush from pilates will make you feel better!

23 Jan 2018

When people work, they can make mistakes. When you do nothing, you can be sure no mistakes are being made. Try not to be too hard on yourself. Sport is a great way to get into a better mood. Hope you enjoyed it!

23 Jan 2018

Sorry about work thing. Hopefully Pilates cheered you up.

24 Jan 2018

Thank you, Ola and Lydia. Alicia, I think 'love' is quite a strong word, which is fine but I think some people maybe associate the phrase 'I love myself' with negative connotations like arrogance. Maybe that's why self-acceptance/appreciation might

26 Jan 2018

be better? Or it's one reason at least. Thank you for for input! I feel like a fraud/scared or like I'm faking it to be honest. Sometimes it's comforting though. I think a thing called 'self-compassion' is good too.

26 Jan 2018

Hello Jeff! It makes me happy to see the panda gang are still thriving. I think about MP a lot, though I barely update anymore. I an still managing to spend hours on my smart phone, though. I need to cut down... Do you go on MP while you run? ;)

26 Jan 2018

Lieteke G, thank you for helping me reframe the situation in my mind, your insight was very refreshing and immediately transformed my thinking. Thank you! Also thank you Des :) and Esther, Pilates made me feel strong! I hope you're well xx

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#justwoke mind still thinking about last night, bit f*** it.
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3.5 emotional. Sensitive. I like being emotional, but I don't always feel free to be emotionally open, especially at work/in public. Even in front of friends, I think I fear rejection, that my fears

of a sub-per relationship, one that doesn't meet my expectations, or meet my needs, will be realised. I think that is my worst fear, that my fears are true. But in withdrawing from a situation out of fear, I may protect myself from having it proved

27 Nov 2017

right, but I also prevent myself from ever being proved wrong :(

27 Nov 2017

I.e through refusing to show my vulnerability i deny my friends the chance of comforting me

27 Nov 2017

My friend denied me something just now, and made me feel a bit bad for even asking. It wasn't what she said but the way she said it, I'm sensitive, I know, but to me it came across as a bit cold and a tad haughty. I left it at that, now I've been

27 Nov 2017

crying alone.

27 Nov 2017

Thank you Raf

27 Nov 2017

Thanks Sean and Des

28 Nov 2017

I know exactly how you must have felt, Binky. I'm also far too sensitive and it's causing a lot of problems.

28 Nov 2017

i had replied to this, but it didnt post. ugh. anyway, youve stumbled upon an important truth: that we create our experience w/thought & unravelled its workings w/in context of this incident.

03 Dec 2017

Perseverate over what we dont want and we attract it. We can apply this principle and redirect our minds to what we do want, infusing these images w/ passion, enthusiasm, hope, and other strong emotions.

03 Dec 2017

Im doing so, we attract that. Im experimenting w/this. A home by a river that empties out to the sea has been on my vision board for years. Guess who put a bid on a riverfront home yesterday?

03 Dec 2017

i wonder if misapplication of this principle contributed to my divorce. Hmm.

03 Dec 2017

When I empower thought w/the intensity of emotion- be it love or fear- i attract, manifest, or create what it is im dwelling on. ive got to be more careful and deliberate.

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Did not sleep well last night at all. It was my birthday yesterday and I partied a bit too hard, overindulgence. Thankfully I've today off, and going to the spa tomorrow. Good sleep is no1 priority...

I don't really like partying anymore. Drugs are bad for me, even if it is only a few times a year, it's too much, I want to quit completely.

11 Nov 2017

Happy belated birthday, Binky! :) Even though you're awfully tired and realised you don't like partying the way you did anymore I hope you still had a great time. And the next time you can change your style of partying. Hope you can relax today.

11 Nov 2017

Happy birthday, Scorpion B.

11 Nov 2017

Happy birthday, Binky! Hope you're feeling better and all recovered!

11 Nov 2017

Belated happy birthday Binky!

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Feeling hopeful about business, myself, the future, my ability to weather any storm & grow as a person. Currently spending time identifying areas in my life I want to improve. Personal dev is for life

not just for Christmas! It may be raining but my soul is being nourished.

08 Nov 2017

Im hearing optimism, confidence, hope. Thats a good vibration to be tuned into. When our vibrational countenance is positive, feels like we can weather any storm, transcend any difficulty.

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Having a bath, washing my fur. Been feeling a bit 'empty' recently. Taking it as a sign I need to get out and experience more, like hobbies, clubs, researching my work more. Asked a guy out last week

Good for you for asking! That's awesome! I often feel adrift, like I need something new to get excited about, too...Usually I am too lazy and self-destructive to do that though...

07 Nov 2017

And what was his answer? I have these feelings sometimes too.. then I just go to a random cafe and drink coffee and trying to meet new ppl

07 Nov 2017

Thanks Jeff and Esther. I don't think I've ever asked anyone out before. He said 'yes'! We're going for a drink next week.

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Housemates getting on my nerves with their 'banter' and their bickering over stupid little things, like criticising and nit-picking each others ideas when watching TV. So basic. Glad I got ear plugs.
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My day improved as soon as I stated watching positive psychology videos on YouTube. Finishing the day watching The Moses Code. Feeling contemplative, curious, even spiritual? Vulnerable, open. Ready.

Also before i was so worried about my job, but not long after I posted my previous status the boss and my manager reiterated that i am doing well and that they want me to work there.

03 Nov 2017

It goes to show that my fears don't reflect reality... Also I wonder why I haven't been on here, perhaps I was feeling a bit 'exposed' after connecting with other pandas outside of the anonymous panda zoo? In addition to being focused elsewhere.

03 Nov 2017

Missed you, Binky! Glad you're doing so well with your self-realization progress!

03 Nov 2017

Binky!!! So good to see you! Welcome back & I hope you'll stay. As usual, you are great at self reflection. Haven't read your previous post yet but glad you're feeling better! 💖

03 Nov 2017

Hi Binky, glad to see you back x

04 Nov 2017

I missed you, too. Glad youre doing well.

04 Nov 2017

Sounds like you're in a good place at the moment. Hope it lasts. big hugs

04 Nov 2017

Thank you, dearest pandas! Your unconditionally loving natures humble me. I feel reassured, and happy to be missed. I also feel guilty for my absence. Most of all it's good to see you're still here :0)

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I feel like I'm in a mess. Questioning everything. Self-doubt, insecurity. Scared I will lose my job, feel I'm not good enough. My brain feels 'slow', I'm scared that everyone is picking up on it and

I'll be uncovered as a useless piece of s***, no good... I don't want to go the same way the guy before me did, I know people here liked him but thought be was too slow and so he's kinda been ousted (gently), he is back at college.

23 Oct 2017

Maybe if I can change my lifestyle, like start eating better and exercise more (I know, same s*** different day, same dreams different day... ) it will help my mental fog. Also I have decided to revise my job for 30 mins each day.

23 Oct 2017

Also to quit caffeine, not sure in there yet though, unless i switch to decaf? Finally, I am thinking of looking into getting different therapy, this time CBT, it might help me with these negative self beliefs and self-sabotaging ways of thinking.

23 Oct 2017

Also my friend sewed some doubts in my mind about the estate agency job, not in a nasty way, shes just looking out for me, but still it's not nice for me to deal with.

23 Oct 2017

im hearing frustration with the inner critic who seems to be trying to manage through fear. If you dont do x, terrible y is sure to follow. Im just guessing here. Sounds like critic is wanting to protect you, to prod you to another level...

23 Oct 2017

but the criticism is generating anxiety.

23 Oct 2017

I borrow a lot from cbt. if my reply resonates with you, that was Internal Family Systems, another therapeutic approach you might consider.

23 Oct 2017

I get that brain fog a lot...it can be helpful to remind yourself that you got the job because you're very capable and smart enough/talented enough to do a good job. Also, quitting caffeine sounds horrible to me! I LOVE my coffee!

23 Oct 2017

Take deep breaths, Binky. They really help. You just need to calm down so you can think straight. Everything will work it's way it. Right now: deep breaths! 💖

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Feeling nervous about my mums funeral today. I woke up with a headache and feeling a bit sick. Reminding myself it's only 30 minutes long.

Oh no, dear Binky. I'm so sorry about your loss. I hadn't seen any updates from you lately and thought something to do with your mum might be the case. I can't imagine how you must feel like, but I'm sending you strength to get through today.

19 Oct 2017

my mom passed on when i was younger and now that i'm older it just starts to hit me. i'm not sure what to say because i feel like i'm still struggling with how i feel about it and maybe always will, but please know that u're never alone and that

19 Oct 2017

you'll be okay

19 Oct 2017

I hope it goes/went well, Binky. Just remember that this is for you (and her family/friends), not for her. Celebrate her however feels right for you. You are so super incredibly strong, I know you'll get through this!

19 Oct 2017

Hope you made it though ok, Binky. Just remember how thankful you can be for all the time spent together through her illness. *big hugs*

19 Oct 2017

youre in my thoughts

20 Oct 2017

love and hugs x

20 Oct 2017

My deepest condolences Dear Binky.

10 Nov 2017

Thank you H F x

11 Nov 2017

Love and Hugs

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Hey pandas. I'm really enjoying my new job, I can get my teeth into it and everyone there is really nice. I'm sorry I've been a bit quiet. I hope everyone is doing okay. Mums funeral is tomorrow. Hugs

Stay strong! (:

18 Oct 2017

I am glad to hear from you again dear Binky. Glad to see green. Sending strength and big warm hugs for tomorrow ❤️

18 Oct 2017

Big hug x

18 Oct 2017

Happy to hear you are well. Wishing you peace & strength tomorrow

18 Oct 2017

Happy your job is going well and you're doing ok, Binky!

18 Oct 2017

Glad to hear from you, Binky. Sending strength & support for tomorrow! 💖

18 Oct 2017

Thank you :)

19 Oct 2017

Happy to read you're doing well at your job. Thinking of you today 😘

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7 hours of good sleep. Going to my appointment at the job centre today, then going to registrar's office about my mum. Drop some stuff off @ charity. Looking forward 2coming back and reading my book.

5.5. will update about previous days later.

03 Oct 2017

I'm so happy yo know you are doing okayish. Wishing you a pleasurable escape into the world of literature ;à

03 Oct 2017

Thank you so much Alicia :) I never did get back to reading my book! Thanks all for hugs :)

04 Oct 2017

Good you got the rest. Helps us maintain our balance, restores our mood, contributes to resilience.

05 Oct 2017

I hope everything is ok Binky

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Mum's just passed away... Quite shocking and very sad. It's not really sunk in yet. Sitting in my car in the light rain shower.

Oh, sweet Binky. I am so sorry to hear of this. At least you went into it somewhat prepared & it wasn't out of no where. I'm sure the pain isn't any less though. Wish I could say something to make it better. Thinking of you loads with lots & lots...

29 Sep 2017

...of love. You'll get through this as strong as ever. I 💖 you! xx

29 Sep 2017

I'm so sorry.. prayers to you and your family *big hugs*

29 Sep 2017

Oh Binky - I'm so sorry. Glad you have been able to spend time with her - for me, that helped when my parents died. Being an orphan at any age is a big adjustment. Thinking of you xx

29 Sep 2017

Oh binky I'm really really sorry :( totally understand the 'not sunk in' feeling!! Lots lots lots of love ❤️ xx

30 Sep 2017

Sending you love and wishing you peace during this very unsettling and challenging time.

30 Sep 2017

So sorry beautiful binky xxx You're so amazingly strong, sending all of my love.

30 Sep 2017

So sorry for your loss, dear Binky. You were so good to your mom, she was lucky to have you take care of her like that. Sending you strength and big hugs. Love you!

30 Sep 2017

Really sorry for your loss. Big hugs and sending you strength and love 💕

30 Sep 2017

Thanks everyone for your kind support. 🐼Hugs

03 Oct 2017

I'm sorry I missed this, Binky...I didn't see your mother had passed. I'm so sorry...I know you being there with her these last few months must have been so comforting for you both.

18 Oct 2017

I also completely missed this update and I'm incredibly sorry for your loss. Big hugs and love!

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Slept from 10pm-8am. Uncle had sent me a naughty message by mistake, he must have been contacting a sex line. Yuck. How embarrassing! Had call from hospital, mum has taken a turn for the worse :/

Double yuck about your uncle. Hope your mum is better soon Binky

29 Sep 2017

I know how embarrassing is that.And I wish u good lucky Binky for ur mom

29 Sep 2017

Whoa, that's weird and icky. But kinda funny...

29 Sep 2017

I hope your mom is ok, Binky! *Big hugs*

29 Sep 2017

Thanks Noel, Yondie, Jeff & Claire. It's not the first time he's done this, I usually ignore it but this time I sent a message asking him to be careful to check the recipient before sending the message! It was also kind of funny, I must admit.

29 Sep 2017

The doc thinks her cancer has spread, I might cancel work tomorrow. Was only going in for a couple of hours anyway, plus it's unpaid at the moment. Xx

29 Sep 2017

Good idea Binky

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Work was really quiet, I was not sure what to do with my time, the day dragged on a lot. Will make a list of things I can do when it's quiet for next time. Felt quite tired, exercise would help.
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Waking from REM sleep I feel tired and unhinged. Working today but got tomorrow off. Here's to another day of learning on the job. Investigating and using my brain.
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Also I did my first sale and rental house viewings today. What am achievement! Blagged it a bit, fake it till you make it!! :) Now having a bath then going to bed. Focusing time, less social media

Go you! Well done binky!

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There must be a very big time change from where you are and from where I am because your going to bed and I am about to get kids from school! Sleep well.

27 Sep 2017

I'm in England Michelle, where in the world are you?

28 Sep 2017

You're amazing, Binky. 💖

28 Sep 2017

Thanks Katie Rose and Manda! Xx

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