Great that you play an instrument! I find playing music really helps my mood
that is great
Good news! Whatever works:)
But I think the best thing for me is to stay the course of treatment, don't screw with my meds, and stick with her, because u can't imagine starting over new with someone unfamiliar especially in the acute condition I'm in now.
I'm going to try to not take Valium today if I can help it because I want to see if this Fisher Whitacre Stimulator is actually working or not.
Good for you
Hey Michael. When things are this low they can only get better. Hang in there please
This was a fleeting moment. I took some Valium and used my Fisher Wallace Stimulator and felt a little better. For the most part yesterday was much better than any day I've had in the past few weeks.
I hope you hear back from them soon!
Hope you can keep chipper a bit longer
Same , this is being bipolar . I took medication and felt better . Still stuggelinb but less than before
I understand how your feeling mate I felt the same as you today but thought it I wasn't around then I'll miss out on life and all the good things to come if there is such thing as a good life 😿
It's a daily cycle with me, and the happy time is getting shorter, and the depressed time getting longer and more intense day by day. I texted my psychiatrist begging for ECT or something equally as efficacious.
We'll see if she responds as she Is constantly up to her ears in patients. She is severely overworking herself. She has no time to take care of herself or take care of her patients adequately anymore.
But I've been seeing her for a long time and starting over new with another psychiatrist I don't think is the answer right now. It'd take months to get an appointment and months to years for them to properly assess me as being severe enough for ECT.
Have a therapist appointment in about 45 minutes, and it takes about that long to get there. If I leave now I'll make it, but I'm feeling too anxious to leave the house. And too down.
Hope you made your appointment, Michael. Stay strong.
I didn't make my appointment but I did reschedule it for next week. I keto doing this... I used my Fisher Wallace device for the first time in several days this morning. Had to replace the sponges. Didn't even notice the flashing in my periphery.
I'm lucky to have the mother and friend I have. They took turns staying with me, my friend at night and my mom during the day. The hospital psychiatrist said I may have borderline personality disorder rather than bipolar disorder.
This new diagnosis is illuminating in both a good and a bad way. I'm to follow up with my psychiatrist, which I'm reluctant to do after my last experience with her dismissing me and the office staff scolding me for taking to long when I took 30 min.
Oh, wow. Sorry to hear this. I'm glad you're ok though.
that's nice to read!
Hope it was helpful
I'm so infuriated with my brain, my meds, everything. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of fighting. I'm just about done. But I know my mom would probably take her life too if I took mine. I don't want that. I wish I had simply never been born.
My brothers keep telling me I wasn't planned. My mom says that's bs. I don't think I was meant to be. I truly believe my existance is an anomaly.
I don't relate to hardly anyone, and those with whom I relate I barely relate I feel. Yet so many people who know me have such good things to say about me. I think they feel sorry for me.
A guy I was interested in told me in a breakup email (we lived in different states) that I have 'kicked puppy syndrome' or something like that. Like I'm too fragile to be f*cked or taken seriously as a sexual partner. Too f*ucking fragile.
Maybe that's why people always compliment me or are nice to me (except the ones who aren't, and that's probably the way it should be with everyone interacting with me...)
Hang in there. Have you got someone who you can talk to?
talk to us
Do you go to therapy? It would really help you out to talk about all this. No one is too fragile to be cared about.
I do go to therapy. I have an appointment on the 14th. My apologies for the angry post.
Happy new year Michael
Happy New Year to you!
Happy New Year!
Happy New Year, mik! Hope 2020 is your best year yet!
Same to you, mik!
Hang on there. I know nothing i can say will ease your the emotions that you are feeling but try to remeber that you can survive anything for just one night. Try to trick yourself into thinking its only one night.
You may not feel like this now but you are more powerful than you think. The fact that you recognize your abilities and emotions is a form of pure strength.
Keara gives good advice. Take it one step at a time. You'll get through this.