that's nice to read!
Hope it was helpful
I'm so infuriated with my brain, my meds, everything. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of fighting. I'm just about done. But I know my mom would probably take her life too if I took mine. I don't want that. I wish I had simply never been born.
My brothers keep telling me I wasn't planned. My mom says that's bs. I don't think I was meant to be. I truly believe my existance is an anomaly.
I don't relate to hardly anyone, and those with whom I relate I barely relate I feel. Yet so many people who know me have such good things to say about me. I think they feel sorry for me.
A guy I was interested in told me in a breakup email (we lived in different states) that I have 'kicked puppy syndrome' or something like that. Like I'm too fragile to be f*cked or taken seriously as a sexual partner. Too f*ucking fragile.
Maybe that's why people always compliment me or are nice to me (except the ones who aren't, and that's probably the way it should be with everyone interacting with me...)
Hang in there. Have you got someone who you can talk to?
talk to us
Do you go to therapy? It would really help you out to talk about all this. No one is too fragile to be cared about.
I do go to therapy. I have an appointment on the 14th. My apologies for the angry post.
Happy new year Michael
Happy New Year to you!
Happy New Year!
Happy New Year, mik! Hope 2020 is your best year yet!
Same to you, mik!
Hang on there. I know nothing i can say will ease your the emotions that you are feeling but try to remeber that you can survive anything for just one night. Try to trick yourself into thinking its only one night.
You may not feel like this now but you are more powerful than you think. The fact that you recognize your abilities and emotions is a form of pure strength.
Keara gives good advice. Take it one step at a time. You'll get through this.
Thanks everyone for supporting me during this difficult time! 😁
Glad to hear!
Alot of us struggle or have struggled with depression in the past. you are not alone <3
Hang in there, mik. Things will get better.
Yeah dude mirtazapines are the worst. Hope you find some other meds/treatment that works for you. Hang in there <3
Just checking in on you, hope today was a bit better for you
and leave us all alone??? depressed pandas gotta stick together <3
I agree with Bea M! Very big hug xx
Don't leave us, mik!
<3 <3 <3
hope you managed to get back to sleep.
if not just write. it's day here on the other side of the ocean. :)
If I make it to next year, okay... But if I make it to 2021, it'll be a damn miracle.
Michael. We are all here for you. 2019,2020,2021 and beyond
I feel love and care for you. Just because you were born.
Thank all of you
We've got lots of love for you, mik! Remember it will always get better. Maybe not as quickly as you'd like, but you'll get there!
Sorry to hear that, Michael - you certainly aren't, hope feeling passes quickly
I feel like I'm done with life. I'm over. Michael's story has been finished. Now it's just time for me to kick the bucket and take a dirt nap, whenever that may be.
I'm sorry to hear you are so down. Please don't do anything drastic. Pandas are here for you.
Sorry to see you are feeling this way, mik. It only goes up from here.