H F

5 H F

10 Oct 2019 · HERO

Sipping on a glass of red wine. Finished half a bottle and will stop there. I know it's for an escape and it's provided me with a break. Wish it was healthy for us but now and again, I think it's okay

10 Oct 2019 · HERO

for me that is.

H F

10 Oct 2019 · HERO

Shout out to my Panda Friends (you know who you are) for all your support.

Tebby B

10 Oct 2019 ·

*Hugs*

Jeff M

11 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Jeff M

11 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

Well, speaking personally, alcohol is a helpful crutch. I enjoy it and use it (and am careful not to abuse it). I don't think it's terribly unhealthy. We all do what we need to do to get by. Big hugs, HF!

Molly S

11 Oct 2019 ·

*Hugs*

1 H F

29 Sep 2019 · HERO

I'm really really struggling with this life. I have so much sadness inside me, so much. Grief. I am missing K our beautiful cat deeply, like wr all are. Can't believe I am not going to look into those

H F

29 Sep 2019 · HERO

beautiful eyes again on this earth. The finality. Just like a human but better than most in my opinion. Why is this life so hard and so painful at times.

Penelope P

29 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Anna D

29 Sep 2019 · 1+ YEAR

*Hugs*

Anna D

29 Sep 2019 · 1+ YEAR

So sorry about your cat. But maybe you will have another nice cat with beautiful eyes. I know it's hard for you.

angel Z

29 Sep 2019 · NEW

*Hugs*

Reba H

30 Sep 2019 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

Manda P

30 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Manda P

30 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

I'm sorry you lost your friend. Think of how thankful you are for the time spent together. I know it must be hard though.

Jeff M

30 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Jeff M

30 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

Pets are pure love. Hard to lose them, but they're a reminder of how good souls can be. And even though yours can't be replaced, you can rescue another needy kitty who will give you love too, I hope! When you're ready...

Natalie C

02 Oct 2019 · GUARDIAN

Big hugs HF💕, I'm sorry you have lose your best friend☹. Just think of all the happy times shared & maybe have your favourite ones in pretty frames . Hopefully seeing those memories will one day make you smile again x

1 H F

28 Sep 2019 · HERO

Depression is severe. Managed to get some fresh air today.

Tebby B

28 Sep 2019 ·

*Hugs*

Kara L

28 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

*Hugs*

Kara L

28 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

Glad you got out! Hope it helped xx

Reba H

28 Sep 2019 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

Jen B

28 Sep 2019 · HERO

*Hugs*

Manda P

30 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

1 H F

27 Sep 2019 · HERO

Fragile and fragmented that is the me that emerged two years ago and that will inevitably continue into my future. I wish the three of us had someone to care for us and love us and support us

H F

27 Sep 2019 · HERO

through this all. Someone to hold us and say it's going to be all right. Someone to love and comfort us.

Reba H

28 Sep 2019 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

Manda P

30 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Manda P

30 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

Sending so much love. You are never alone.

0 H F

26 Sep 2019 · HERO

No Reason Given

Tebby B

26 Sep 2019 ·

*Hugs*

Spacekitten V

26 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

*Hugs*

Jeff M

27 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Jeff M

27 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

So hate seeing you so low, HF...Thinking of you and sending you strength...

H F

27 Sep 2019 · HERO

Thank you all, hugs back

H F

27 Sep 2019 · HERO

Thank you for the kind thoughts and strength, I really need them

H F

27 Sep 2019 · HERO

Sorry Jeff, the above post was for you

Manda P

30 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

1 H F

25 Sep 2019 · HERO

So depressed. And experiencing so much anger coming up at the passing of our beautiful cat. The pain of her loss has actually intensified over last three weeks.

Jeff M

25 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Jeff M

25 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

The loss of my first dog shook me for months. I totally understand and wish I could offer more than hugs...

John T

25 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Spacekitten V

25 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

*Hugs*

Reba H

26 Sep 2019 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

1 H F

17 Sep 2019 · HERO

I'm feeling finished lately. We lost our precious 20 year old cat on Monday. She could not breathe well at all suddenly (after a hospital stay and then returning home. This is on top of everything

H F

17 Sep 2019 · HERO

else that is happening - very serious stuff. Our family cat has been my emotional support especially for the last two years since we received life changing news. She has been there to love me at all times and give me strength. Her loss is devastating

H F

17 Sep 2019 · HERO

And I am broken.

Jeff M

17 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Jeff M

17 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

I'm so sorry, HF! It's always terribly sad to lose a sweet pet, but to have that happen at such a low, difficult time is so much worse. I hope you have people to help you through these difficult times and be there for you. We're here as well!

Penelope P

17 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Penelope P

17 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

Good to see you back here HF. Sending much love and hugs your way. PPx

Natalie C

17 Sep 2019 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

Natalie C

17 Sep 2019 · GUARDIAN

So sorry HF❤💐, it's always hard saying goodbye to our beloved furry friends, especially when they have been through the good & the bad times. Thinking of you & sending love your way xx

H F

18 Sep 2019 · HERO

Thank you Jeff, yes it is all so very hard. I have a few people, but they too are going through the same hard times and don't have the strength necessarily to give support (even I feel the same at times) because we are mostly emotionally spent.

H F

18 Sep 2019 · HERO

Jeff: Our beautiful cat was able to still be the joy in our lives, the one who would love and comfort everyone despite her own health issues and age. It's extremely hard to think we won't ever see her on Earth again 😢😢😢.

H F

18 Sep 2019 · HERO

Jeff: Yes, You and our other Panda friends do make a positive difference, thank you. Hugs

H F

18 Sep 2019 · HERO

Hello Penelope, ah thank you my friend, much love and hugs back

H F

18 Sep 2019 · HERO

Thank you Natalie, yes indescribably hard... Our Precious Cat walked into our lives when we had just relocated to another country. She made our house a home and continued to do that in her 20 years. We still all believe that she was the best thing to

H F

18 Sep 2019 · HERO

Natalie: happen to us here... love and hugs back

Reba H

20 Sep 2019 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

H F

25 Sep 2019 · HERO

Thank you Reba, Hugs

1 H F

01 Mar 2019 · HERO

♥️

Lulu S

01 Mar 2019 · SUPPORTER

*Hugs*

Reba H

01 Mar 2019 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

John T

01 Mar 2019 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Manda P

01 Mar 2019 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Manda P

01 Mar 2019 · LEGEND

H F!!!! 💖💖💖💖💖 How are you, old friend? We've missed you! Hope you stick around. Pandas are great for feeling better. We're here for you. xx

Jeff M

01 Mar 2019 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Jeff M

01 Mar 2019 · LEGEND

<3 back atcha, HF. I hope you're ok.

Albertine M

01 Mar 2019 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Albertine M

01 Mar 2019 · LEGEND

Great to see a post tho sorry you're feeling so low. Been thinking of you - you were missed! xx

Nuno H

02 Mar 2019 · 1+ YEAR

*Hugs*

Anonmous A

18 Jun 2019 · HERO

*Hugs*

1 H F

03 Feb 2019 · HERO

I've been feeling like I can't go on. Thoughts of ending it come up immediately when negative emotions are overwhelming. I can't normally afford to see someone but I have some birthday money coming up

Nuno H

01 Mar 2019 · 1+ YEAR

*Hugs*

H F

03 Feb 2019 · HERO

and I think I should go see someone although I'm not sure it would help.

H F

03 Feb 2019 · HERO

My self esteem is non existent and I feel I am unworthy of being here.

Jeff M

03 Feb 2019 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Jeff M

03 Feb 2019 · LEGEND

Aw, so sorry to see you're suffering, HF, my friend! Please see the appointment as a gift to yourself, or your future self. Yes, it will help you if you let it. Please take that step to reach out to someone and see how you can feel better!

Tuxi A

05 Feb 2019 · HERO

*Hugs*

Manda P

03 Feb 2019 · LEGEND

Hi, my love, H F. I'm glad that you came back. We've missed you! Those are a lot of Depression thoughts & feelings. You would start to feeling much better if you do make an appointment. I know it's super scary but it is so so worth it. Stay with us..

Manda P

03 Feb 2019 · LEGEND

...& make that appointment. All my love. 💞

Tasha S

10 Feb 2019 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

Reba H

03 Feb 2019 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

Lydia R

03 Feb 2019 · HERO

*Hugs*

John T

03 Feb 2019 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Lucy N

03 Feb 2019 ·

*Hugs*

Tim S

03 Feb 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

*Hugs*

Ian D

03 Feb 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

*Hugs*

Xela U

03 Feb 2019 ·

We are all worthy of being here, no matter who we are. We must go through rough paths in order to get to happiness. Seeing someone would not hurt you, it can only help you. Doing something is much better than doing nothing

Xela U

03 Feb 2019 ·

*Hugs*

0 H F

23 Jun 2018 · HERO

😢😭😢😭😢😭 When Your favourite person in the Multiverse tells You they do not want to live anymore because of illness. Disbelief, deepest sadness, darkest depression, deepest heartbreak. Overwhelmed

Robert H

23 Jun 2018 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

Tuxi A

23 Jun 2018 · HERO

*Hugs*

Maite P

23 Jun 2018 ·

*Hugs*

Reggia P

23 Jun 2018 · NEW

*hugs*

Tasha S

23 Jun 2018 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

sonny S

24 Jun 2018 · 1+ YEAR

*Hugs*

Jeff M

24 Jun 2018 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Shelley H

25 Jun 2018 · HERO

*Hugs*

Natalie C

26 Jun 2018 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

0 H F

14 Jun 2018 · HERO

We are facing the the worst time of Our lives, the one We have all feared in our worst nightmares. All I want to do is cry my eyes out forever but I have to be strong for my favourite person in the

H F

14 Jun 2018 · HERO

Multiverse.

H F

14 Jun 2018 · HERO

I KNOW I will not want to live anymore but I am going to exist somehow with this pain.

tEnT S

14 Jun 2018 · 1+ YEAR

*Hugs*

Liane A

14 Jun 2018 ·

*Hugs*

Lulu S

14 Jun 2018 · SUPPORTER

*Hugs*

K T

14 Jun 2018 · 6+ MONTHS

*Hugs*

K T

14 Jun 2018 · 6+ MONTHS

Sounds like you are going through a really tough time. Call a helpline or speak to a friend or family member about how you are feeling. Wishin* you all the best.

Jeff M

14 Jun 2018 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Jeff M

14 Jun 2018 · LEGEND

Wow, HF, I don't know what this time is, but I am so sorry! I will be sending you my thoughts and prayers and all the strength I can. You are not alone...people care about you and want to help you through tough times! *Huge Hugs*

Albertine M

14 Jun 2018 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Albertine M

14 Jun 2018 · LEGEND

I'm so sorry, HF - sending love and strength, will keep you in my thoughts. xx

DesBear D

14 Jun 2018 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

DesBear D

14 Jun 2018 · GUARDIAN

<3 <3 all the hugs!

Tuxi A

14 Jun 2018 · HERO

I am sorry that things are so bad for you. I hope it will get better...

Manda P

15 Jun 2018 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Manda P

15 Jun 2018 · LEGEND

I am sorry you are going through such a hard time, H F. I'll be thinking of you. xx

H F

23 Jun 2018 · HERO

Thank You my Panda Friends

K T

02 Jul 2018 · 6+ MONTHS

*Hugs*

0 H F

15 Mar 2018 · HERO

I really want to harm myself badly.

H F

15 Mar 2018 · HERO

Like punishing myself like cutting a finger off.

H F

15 Mar 2018 · HERO

I know this sounds strange and I am aware this is not normal but I really want to.

H F

15 Mar 2018 · HERO

I don't want to be here anymore

Noel L

15 Mar 2018 · SUPPORTER

H F can you seek help urgently? Your doctor or a helpline? Please don't harm yourself. You are too special.

Tasha S

15 Mar 2018 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

Michelle W

15 Mar 2018 · HERO

*Hugs*

Albertine M

15 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Albertine M

15 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

Really hoping you are okay. Thinking of you xx

Manda P

15 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Manda P

15 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

I hope you are ok, H F. You definitely need to call someone when you have those feelings. There are people that can help. Thinking of you! 💖

DesBear D

15 Mar 2018 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

DesBear D

15 Mar 2018 · GUARDIAN

Lots of love your way. You can hold on ❤️

Jeff M

15 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Jeff M

15 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

Thinking of you, HF. Hope you're OK!

H F

18 Mar 2018 · HERO

Thank You Noel, You are very kind. I survived

H F

18 Mar 2018 · HERO

Thank You Tasha and Michelle, Hugs

H F

18 Mar 2018 · HERO

Thank You Cindy, I am okay at the moment, Hugs

Noel L

18 Mar 2018 · SUPPORTER

Great H F I am glad you are safe. Please do seek help that may prevent you feeling so low in the future. Best wishes, Noel

H F

19 Mar 2018 · HERO

Thank You Manda, I am okay at the moment, Hugs 💛

H F

19 Mar 2018 · HERO

Thank You DesBear, I managed to hold on, Hugs, lots of love my Friend

H F

19 Mar 2018 · HERO

Thank You Dear Jeff, I am currently okay, Hugs

Love 1

24 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

Awesome that you managed to resist the urge during a moment of intense suffering and desperation. As strong as the urge was, something stronger resisted and demanded restraint. Something to celebrate.

H F

24 Mar 2018 · HERO

Thank You Love, I pray that will continue

Love 1

24 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

Me, too. Next time the urge comes, as it may, you will have had this positive experience- knowing that it will pass. Perhaps you can embrace this part that wishes to do self harm. It is the part of the self that is suffering and needs compassion.

H F

25 Mar 2018 · HERO

Yes... maybe I can learn to so I can survive. My self compassion has taken a nh

H F

25 Mar 2018 · HERO

huge dive and I am struggling to feel like I deserve anything.

Love 1

25 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

The ego, or little self, tries very hard to protect what it thinks needs defense. It is sincere, but it is assuming a function it cannot perform. If you seek guidance from ego, you will continue to suffer. The suffering, however, may be for your good

Love 1

25 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

For when we have had enough and feel defeated and are humbled and receptive, thirsting for something else, desperate for something else, willing to let go, we grow out of suffering

Love 1

25 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

The little self does not know the way, but your Inner Guide does. The little self is not author of reality, but the author of misery. Acknowledging its limitations and ignorance, with compassion, is a step forward.

Love 1

25 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

If you direct your attention to your breath, you can control it to a degree. Ask your little self to hold it indefinitely- it cannot. You did not create the breath, your lungs, the diaphragm, the brain that sends the signal to the diaphragm to contra

Love 1

25 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

Yet this amazing function continues automatically. If little self had to perform this function, it might try to be the best or create a breath that was prettier or worthier or deserving. Breath is one of many functions that occur automatically:

Love 1

25 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

Heartbeat, ph balance, digestion, cell replication, oxygen exchange, immune function are others of many. At this level, there is predictability, stability, harmony. Ego had NOTHING to do with this not with the perfect composition of air, water, soil,

Love 1

25 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

which sustain life, the perfection of the solar system, galaxies, universe or, @the sub atomic level, the laws that govern quarks. Yet, ego has dominion over mind & the experience of mind, which it does not rule well. We can relieve it of this burden

Love 1

25 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

I trust that the Universe does not need my help. I surrender to the Mystery that created me. I cannot fathom it's understanding, but I trust it. Retiring ego,

H F

28 Mar 2018 · HERO

Thank You Love

Love 1

28 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

Your spirit is truly SAFE and ok. Wishing you peace

2 H F

07 Mar 2018 · HERO

Not so good. I don't think I want to be here in the future. I feel sad for thinking that but I do feel that way and I can't seem to see any other way to survive and surpass. Would like to cut myself

H F

07 Mar 2018 · HERO

to feel relief. I have had an urge to self harm this way but never have done it. I didn't even know that other people actually did this.

Love 1

07 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

It's just a thought. We all feel bad time to time- hopeless, defeated, aimless... (I feel like some uplifting music should go here followed by something inspirational), but id rather give you a hug. A real one.

H F

07 Mar 2018 · HERO

Thank you very much love, I need one or probably many. Yes it is just a thought but unfortunately it has predominated and I fear this will only continue. I wish I could save myself but not sure I can.

H F

07 Mar 2018 · HERO

I mean Love with a capital

Jeff M

07 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Jeff M

07 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

The future is really intimidating. It's vast and scary, and we can't help but project our present on the future and assume it will always be this way. Sometimes, the future is so scary I get panic attacks thinking about it.

Jeff M

07 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

But it's sort of irrelevant. The future will happen, and we cannot predict if we'll be unhappy or happy or hungry or sleepy or what. We can really only take the present. Sounds like this present is really hard right now.

Jeff M

07 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

And you want a way to get through it. I can understand that. But don't worry about the future so much...just get through now.

Jeff M

07 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

In addition, there are tons of links online about self-harming and ways to fight the urge, if you have a moment to search. I know that's not easy...

Jeff M

07 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

Thinking of you, my friend, and sending you as much strength as I can muster for the difficult now.

Valeria P

07 Mar 2018 · 6+ MONTHS

in case you need to chat www.imalive.org

anon u

07 Mar 2018 ·

The above is all excellent. One moment at a time. It WILL pass and you can work on yourself again with a clearer, more rational mindset.

anon u

07 Mar 2018 ·

*Hugs*

Lydia R

07 Mar 2018 · HERO

*Hugs*

John T

07 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Tuxi A

07 Mar 2018 · HERO

*Hugs*

Love 1

07 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

Dark, dominant thoughts do have a strong pull on consciousness and are not easy to let go. I wrestle w/resentment, bitterness, disgust, anger and other emotionally charged thoughts. The majority of my 0-5 scores are attachments of this nature.

Love 1

07 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

They are judgments, evaluations, interpretations of fluctuating, variable states that have a denseness to them. They disturb our peace, but are often heavy and not easy to cast off.

Love 1

07 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

Through meditation, reorientation, redirecting of attention, need identification or other skillful means, we CAN disentangle ourselves. So, when you say 'Wish I could...' know that it is possible. (Triumphant music).

Richard E

07 Mar 2018 · SUPPORTER

*Hugs*

Manda P

08 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Manda P

08 Mar 2018 · LEGEND

So sorry to see you are feeling this bad, dear H F. I don't really have anything else to add because other Pandas did such a good job of it. Sending you lots of love & real hugs. 💖

H F

08 Mar 2018 · HERO

Thank You dear Jeff, you make a lot of sense. I promise to try that's all I can do. But I fear that I am not strong enough maybe for this world. Love and Hugs

H F

08 Mar 2018 · HERO

Thank You dear Love, yes I agree on an intellectual level but emotionally sometimes a person reaches a stage where it becomes hard to help yourself through. But I will try. Love and Hugs

H F

09 Mar 2018 · HERO

Thank You Valeria

H F

09 Mar 2018 · HERO

Hugs Valeria

H F

09 Mar 2018 · HERO

Thank You John N, Hugs

H F

09 Mar 2018 · HERO

Thank You Lydia, John T, Tuxi and Richard, Hugs

H F

09 Mar 2018 · HERO

Thank You dear Manda, Love and Hugs

5 H F

31 Dec 2017 · HERO

Happy New Year, Love You my Friends <3<3<3

Jeff M

31 Dec 2017 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Jeff M

31 Dec 2017 · LEGEND

Happy new year, HF!

Tasha S

31 Dec 2017 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

Love 1

31 Dec 2017 · LEGEND

Happy New Year. May 2018 be filled w/blessings

Lydia R

31 Dec 2017 · HERO

*Hugs*

Esther B

31 Dec 2017 · LEGEND

lief vir jou vriendin. gelukkig nieuwjaar xxx

Manda P

31 Dec 2017 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Manda P

31 Dec 2017 · LEGEND

Happy New Year, H F. Lots of love. 💖

Richard E

31 Dec 2017 · SUPPORTER

*Hugs*

Richard E

31 Dec 2017 · SUPPORTER

Happy new year x

DesBear D

01 Jan 2018 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

Natalie C

02 Jan 2018 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

Natalie C

02 Jan 2018 · GUARDIAN

Happy New Year x

2 H F

28 Nov 2017 · HERO

Tired.

anon u

28 Nov 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Tasha S

28 Nov 2017 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

Reba H

28 Nov 2017 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

paul M

28 Nov 2017 · 1+ YEAR

*Hugs*

Jeff M

28 Nov 2017 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Jeff M

28 Nov 2017 · LEGEND

Hi, HF! Always nice to see you here, but sorry to see so low a number. :( Hope you're doing ok! Sending you hugs and strength!

H F

28 Nov 2017 · HERO

Thank You All, Hugs back

sonny S

28 Nov 2017 · 1+ YEAR

*Hugs*

Natalie C

28 Nov 2017 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

DesBear D

28 Nov 2017 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

3 H F

20 Nov 2017 · HERO

Hello Pandas, just wanted to say thank you to so many of you who reached out and found out if I was alright. From this, I have learnt that Pandas are not self-focused despite depression but make the

H F

20 Nov 2017 · HERO

effort to find out how others are and that Pandas sincerely care. May you attract the same consideration you extended to me. Hugs <3

Lydia R

20 Nov 2017 · HERO

*Hugs*

anon u

20 Nov 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Tasha S

20 Nov 2017 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

Reba H

20 Nov 2017 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

Jeff M

20 Nov 2017 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Jeff M

20 Nov 2017 · LEGEND

Aw, HF, glad you posted again! I miss you and your posts. MP is a weird place. People disappear without notice or warning, and we all worry. But I know it's a place that people use for themselves more than for others. And sometimes...

Jeff M

20 Nov 2017 · LEGEND

...you have to go do other things. But I've been hoping you're doing ok! Sorry to see only a 3. We're here for you should you ever need us. And know even if we don't post or reach out, we care!!

Manda P

20 Nov 2017 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Manda P

20 Nov 2017 · LEGEND

Good to hear from you, H F even though I am sorry to see it's a 3. Hope things start to look up for you soon & that you'll stick around if you feel up to it. No pressure though. Pandas are always here! 💖

Love 1

26 Nov 2017 · LEGEND

Relieved to know youre ok, even if not ok ok.

Esther B

26 Nov 2017 · LEGEND

Missed you around my lief Afrikaans vriendin

4 H F

04 Aug 2017 · HERO

Been feeling physically unwell lately. Not sure but stomach is niggling and I feel yucky. Mentally, a and d has been constant and d has been overshadowing each day. I don't want to increase dose as I

H F

04 Aug 2017 · HERO

am concerned increase will make me even more tired and I am already an exhausted person. When I first went on ads, I could barely get out of bed and slept a lot. I still do so I feel I can't afford to be any more tired. Been under constant stress.

Jeff M

04 Aug 2017 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Esther B

04 Aug 2017 · LEGEND

I'm sorry you're this low. It's a tough decision. Can't you switch to other ads that make you less tired?

Manda P

04 Aug 2017 · LEGEND

*Hugs*

Manda P

04 Aug 2017 · LEGEND

So sorry you're feeling this bad, H F. I have Esther's question. Have you tried switching to a different antidepressant? Sometimes you gotta go through a lot to find the right one for you. I'll be thinking of you. 💚

Binky B

04 Aug 2017 · HERO

H F, I am thinking of you my dear Panda friend x

Richard E

05 Aug 2017 · SUPPORTER

*Hugs*

Reba H

05 Aug 2017 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

Natalie C

05 Aug 2017 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

Natalie C

05 Aug 2017 · GUARDIAN

Big Hugs HF <3

DesBear D

05 Aug 2017 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

A V

20 Aug 2017 · SUPPORTER

*Hugs*

A V

29 Oct 2017 · SUPPORTER

*Hugs*

5 H F

08 Jul 2017 · HERO

So.... I'm playing a second song today (usually don't play music with company) and start singing along. P asks if I would mind stopping singing? Now I know my voice is not that bad as many people have

H F

08 Jul 2017 · HERO

actually complimented me on my singing. And it's not like I play music or sing along with it often in the presence of p at all. Was/am quite hurt (I actually felt it in my chest) and extremely disappointed. I have to listen to p's music constantly.

H F

08 Jul 2017 · HERO

It's these kinds of things that make warning bells go off.

anon u

08 Jul 2017 · 6+ MONTHS

*Hugs*

anon u

08 Jul 2017 ·

*Hugs*

anon u

08 Jul 2017 · 1+ YEAR

*Hugs*

anon u

08 Jul 2017 · 1+ YEAR

*Hugs*

Lydia R

08 Jul 2017 · HERO

*Hugs*

Natalie C

08 Jul 2017 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

Tasha S

08 Jul 2017 · GUARDIAN

*Hugs*

Binky B

08 Jul 2017 · HERO

😞

Shelley H

09 Jul 2017 · HERO

*Hugs*

Richard E

09 Jul 2017 · SUPPORTER

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H F

10 Jul 2017 · HERO

Hello and Thank You my Panda Friends. I was very hurt but managed to express my disappointment calmly and not too emotionally. P realised how awful what He said was and apologised genuinely and so I forgave given the sincerity of the apology.

H F

10 Jul 2017 · HERO

I can sense P is reflecting more and genuinely wanting to be better

A V

31 Jul 2017 · SUPPORTER

*Hugs*

Shelley H

31 Jul 2017 · HERO

😃

Binky B

03 Aug 2017 · HERO

I'm so glad to hear that P was genuinely apologetic 💕

2 H F

29 May 2017 · HERO

Very depressed. Not sure about anything, not sure I want to be here. I am a failure at most of everything.

anon u

29 May 2017 ·

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Mike K

29 May 2017 · SUPPORTER

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Love 1

29 May 2017 · LEGEND

Sounds like the voice of depression. What's it expressing? There's uncertainty, a search for meaning perhaps? Behind the words of defeat, am I hearing a need to be affirmed, a call for love maybe?

Manda P

29 May 2017 · LEGEND

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Manda P

29 May 2017 · LEGEND

You're not a failure at everything, H F. You are amazing! It does sound like you are experiencing deep depression though. Are you on meds? Maybe need adjusted. If not, consider. ***al thoughts are not to be played around with. Thinking of you. xx

anon u

29 May 2017 ·

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Binky B

29 May 2017 · HERO

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anon u

29 May 2017 · 1+ YEAR

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Reba H

29 May 2017 · GUARDIAN

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anon u

29 May 2017 · 6+ MONTHS

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Tasha S

29 May 2017 · GUARDIAN

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anon u

29 May 2017 · 2+ YEAR

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Albertine M

29 May 2017 · LEGEND

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Albertine M

29 May 2017 · LEGEND

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way, H F - you're definitely not a failure, no matter how things feel. Some wise thoughts from fellow Pandas. You're in my thoughts xx

Jeff M

29 May 2017 · LEGEND

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Jeff M

29 May 2017 · LEGEND

Sorry you're so low, HF. Sending you strength...

Richard E

29 May 2017 · SUPPORTER

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A V

30 May 2017 · SUPPORTER

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A V

30 May 2017 · SUPPORTER

HF sorry to hear you're not doing too good. In your last post you had written your first action would be to increase your ADs. Do you think that might be an option at this point in time. Hope you're feeling a little better soon. Thinking of you xxx