future? Who will I be able to love, who will love me?
Strong emotions pulling the heart this way and that. Wishing you the strength you're calling for.
I've been rereading your posts. Everytime you seem to struggle, you come back (stronger) ! Thats courage!
more masculine in having to do everything and not having any time to myself. In the meantime my male Partner is getting his hair done and enjoying lunches out with friends while I struggle.
Because of needing to be real and do what needs to be done, I have begun to despise any 'preciousness' in people.
Feels like you've hardened if that's a word? I'm sorry that you're struggling so much
Sounds like you're needing more support & consideration?
Thank you all for the hugs, hugs back
Esther, yes I have unfortunately, a lot has happened. Yes it is a word 😊. Hugs
Yes Love !, I do need that and have communicated this but my Partner is not an empathetic kind of person and I'm feeling that now.
I get you x
I feel the same way right now.
Sorry you feel this way! I definitely relate.
Thank You All for the Hugs, Hugs back
Thank You Penelope, K B and Jeff even though I'm glad I'm not alone in this, I'm sorry we feel like this
You mean like my ex 'I'll never leave you' wife? hehe.
Love ! Yes😁. People hey.
Jeff! Have missed you! Hope everything is okay.
HF! Missed you around. Those are terrible thoughts.
Hope you're well HF.
Thank You All for the Hugs, they mean a lot. Hugs back to all of You
Hello Esther :) Yes they are terrible thoughts...
Hello Love ! Thank you but no, not so much :(
Despite as much as I've tried to give and have given, I feel unappreciated and misunderstood and a target for people I truly thought I could trust. How can you try be happy when those you thought you could wholly trust have let you down? I can't be.
Everything I was led to believe, I feel is not the truth. I feel gutted.
If they are how you describe, they aren´t worth your pain. You´ll find better friends, I´m sure. Stay strong <3
We are here for you.
Thanks for your message, HF, I wish I could give you hope. Thinking of you x
Big hugs, stay positive. Missed you my friend 💛 Sometimes we can only control how we feel. Don't stop being you! You are kind.
any program that I liked nor had access to the remote. I was relegated to the bedroom to watch my dvds on a tiny portable dvd player. Now we are moving and he has just described the home theatre room as HIS. Nothing changes. Feel sick.
That's awful, you deserve better than that. But wish I practice what I preach.
Yikes! That doesn't sound good at all. I hope you can get out of this situation. I know it's hard though. Keep in touch with us, H F. We're here for you. Much love. 💞
I feel very betrayed although I know it was not intended but the feeling remains the same. My mind feels SO foggy and I am SO exhausted.
I too am suffering ptsd and it is affecting my daily life, I hope and pray for you to feel happy and healing for us all ❤️
I hope it'll be at least a bit better soon! Hang on! <3
***big hugs*** Good to see you here, H F. Sorry you are feeling so bad. We're here for you! ❤️
Miss you H F. I hope your ok.
H F - good to see a post, but so sorry you're feeling like this. Hope you can hang in there. Love xxx
Aw, H F. I'm sorry to see you feeling so down. Don't give up. Health & happiness are in the future. Lots of love to you. ❤️
Thank you everyone hugs back
Thank you very much Albertine. Have you changed your name? I haven't been on here much and I can't seem to recall the name Albertine. Love and hugs
Thank you so much Manda, it means a lot. I pray so. Lots of love to you too
for me that is.
Shout out to my Panda Friends (you know who you are) for all your support.
Well, speaking personally, alcohol is a helpful crutch. I enjoy it and use it (and am careful not to abuse it). I don't think it's terribly unhealthy. We all do what we need to do to get by. Big hugs, HF!
beautiful eyes again on this earth. The finality. Just like a human but better than most in my opinion. Why is this life so hard and so painful at times.
So sorry about your cat. But maybe you will have another nice cat with beautiful eyes. I know it's hard for you.
I'm sorry you lost your friend. Think of how thankful you are for the time spent together. I know it must be hard though.
Pets are pure love. Hard to lose them, but they're a reminder of how good souls can be. And even though yours can't be replaced, you can rescue another needy kitty who will give you love too, I hope! When you're ready...
Big hugs HF💕, I'm sorry you have lose your best friend☹. Just think of all the happy times shared & maybe have your favourite ones in pretty frames . Hopefully seeing those memories will one day make you smile again x
Glad you got out! Hope it helped xx
through this all. Someone to hold us and say it's going to be all right. Someone to love and comfort us.
Sending so much love. You are never alone.
So hate seeing you so low, HF...Thinking of you and sending you strength...
Thank you all, hugs back
Thank you for the kind thoughts and strength, I really need them
Sorry Jeff, the above post was for you
The loss of my first dog shook me for months. I totally understand and wish I could offer more than hugs...
else that is happening - very serious stuff. Our family cat has been my emotional support especially for the last two years since we received life changing news. She has been there to love me at all times and give me strength. Her loss is devastating
And I am broken.
I'm so sorry, HF! It's always terribly sad to lose a sweet pet, but to have that happen at such a low, difficult time is so much worse. I hope you have people to help you through these difficult times and be there for you. We're here as well!
Good to see you back here HF. Sending much love and hugs your way. PPx
So sorry HF❤💐, it's always hard saying goodbye to our beloved furry friends, especially when they have been through the good & the bad times. Thinking of you & sending love your way xx
Thank you Jeff, yes it is all so very hard. I have a few people, but they too are going through the same hard times and don't have the strength necessarily to give support (even I feel the same at times) because we are mostly emotionally spent.
Jeff: Our beautiful cat was able to still be the joy in our lives, the one who would love and comfort everyone despite her own health issues and age. It's extremely hard to think we won't ever see her on Earth again 😢😢😢.
Jeff: Yes, You and our other Panda friends do make a positive difference, thank you. Hugs
Hello Penelope, ah thank you my friend, much love and hugs back
Thank you Natalie, yes indescribably hard... Our Precious Cat walked into our lives when we had just relocated to another country. She made our house a home and continued to do that in her 20 years. We still all believe that she was the best thing to
Natalie: happen to us here... love and hugs back
Thank you Reba, Hugs
H F!!!! 💖💖💖💖💖 How are you, old friend? We've missed you! Hope you stick around. Pandas are great for feeling better. We're here for you. xx
<3 back atcha, HF. I hope you're ok.
Great to see a post tho sorry you're feeling so low. Been thinking of you - you were missed! xx
and I think I should go see someone although I'm not sure it would help.
My self esteem is non existent and I feel I am unworthy of being here.
Aw, so sorry to see you're suffering, HF, my friend! Please see the appointment as a gift to yourself, or your future self. Yes, it will help you if you let it. Please take that step to reach out to someone and see how you can feel better!
Hi, my love, H F. I'm glad that you came back. We've missed you! Those are a lot of Depression thoughts & feelings. You would start to feeling much better if you do make an appointment. I know it's super scary but it is so so worth it. Stay with us..
...& make that appointment. All my love. 💞
We are all worthy of being here, no matter who we are. We must go through rough paths in order to get to happiness. Seeing someone would not hurt you, it can only help you. Doing something is much better than doing nothing
I KNOW I will not want to live anymore but I am going to exist somehow with this pain.
Sounds like you are going through a really tough time. Call a helpline or speak to a friend or family member about how you are feeling. Wishin* you all the best.
Wow, HF, I don't know what this time is, but I am so sorry! I will be sending you my thoughts and prayers and all the strength I can. You are not alone...people care about you and want to help you through tough times! *Huge Hugs*
I'm so sorry, HF - sending love and strength, will keep you in my thoughts. xx
<3 <3 all the hugs!
I am sorry that things are so bad for you. I hope it will get better...
I am sorry you are going through such a hard time, H F. I'll be thinking of you. xx
Thank You my Panda Friends