Struggling and really tired. Enjoying work though. That's the one thing I can always rely on
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Trying to find activities I like to do in spare time now holidays are coming up. It's hard not to see my life as a constant struggle. It went well for a few months but now I'm overwhelmed again and back in fase 1. It's difficult to see the other side.
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Still down and anxious. Luckily some uplifting moments too.
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Managed to run after 5 weeks of not wanting or willing or whatever. It went bad according to my high standards but at least I tried.

You're right Esther B , it's more about trying and trying again until it's easier - don't give up!! 🥇🌻🌈🌤

08 Jul 2021

You did great!!! Faster than me!

08 Jul 2021

I'm with you. Injury kept me from running. Slowly getting back. Glad to hear you gave it a go.

09 Jul 2021
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Hard times. A lot of emotional triggers and physical inconveniences due to increasing antidepressants. I hope it's just a phase. I was doing so well, but now I feel a bit lost again.
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Feeling very unstable and insecure about how I can handle this current situation. Afraid I will fall back into old behavior.
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Mixed feelings. Attending my best friends wedding in an hour. On the other hand feeling disconnected from bf not by distance but because he feels so down. Don't know how I can support him.
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Bearing negative emotions can be so hard. They overcome me. I can't control them. It feels too heavy. I try mindfulness but it doesn't seem to help. But this too shall pass.
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Anxious and emotional.. BF is feeling really down and I dont know how to help him. Makes me feel powerless and I hate that feeling
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No visiting BF tomorrow due to restrictions. Can't ignore the quarantaine measurements when I arrive back in NL. Doesn't feel right. Let's see if I can go next month.
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Anxious he will leave me. Probably because we haven't had a phonecall in 3 days but there's not much to talk since I'm visiting next week. Racing thoughts. Stupid mind!!
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Last online class of this academic year. Now I 'only' have to hand in my assignments. Did some pilates this morning and went for a walk. Feeling alright. Excited to visit my BF next week after 2 months.
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A lot of social activities this weekend. Last night I joined my old roommates for a beer and I ended up meeting a lot of nice ppl. Today I've got a book signed by one of my favorite authors. In a few hours heading to another friend to have a bachelorette diner. Yayyy!
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A lot of work for my studies. When I'm working on it, it feels great qnd I always wonder why I keep on waiting till the last moment..
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Work and a sunny afternoon with friends and tompoucen
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11 km run. I felt like I could run forever
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These tense muscles and headache is so annoying. I do yoga and a lot of stretches but can't seem to prevent it.

water? hydration OK? Wondering if a doc visit would provide clarity

22 May 2021

Hi Love. I think I drink enough. Doctors gonna probably send me to physiotherapist. I'm going there again next week. It seems like I tense my muscles but i don't know when or how.

23 May 2021

I've had some dry needling and exercises to improve my strength but shoulders and back are still very stiff. Let's see..

23 May 2021
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Though week with a lot of headaches. Had a few calls with bf but it seems like its never enough. Even if we call every day I can get scared.

When is he coming back?

20 May 2021

@silke probably in July or August depending on Covid and finding a new place to stay.

22 May 2021

That's a long tube 😕 I can understand the struggle.

22 May 2021

It is. But gonna visit him in June. Then we're halfway there

22 May 2021

Oh that's something to look forward too! Is he from an other country or is he away for work?

22 May 2021

He is French/Spanish. His work is in NL, but he can work from France for a few months

23 May 2021
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