...a mini reunion/memorial. Disappointed a lot of people I remember didn't show, but I knew a couple. Left me feeling very nostalgic. Those were hard times mentally, but some very good times as well.
One woman I barely remember added me on FB last night and starts messaging me. She's married with 3 kids. Then she starts saying that I'm 'still cute' and 'why aren't you married'... Um...awkward. Not sure how to respond to that.
But hey, kinda nice to hear someone thinks I'm attractive. Second woman to compliment me recently, even though neither are options for me. So I guess that's something...
Anyway, was hard coming home after that, feeling very lonely with no one to talk to. Sometimes, I just want to talk about things, old times and feelings... I almost typed that I miss having someone to talk to, but that's silly. I never really did.
Anyway, the weekend was very lonely. Ran 10 miles Saturday morning but not at all Sunday. Watched some football by myself at a bar (literally, almost. Two other people there and not for the game). Made a healthy dinner/lunches this week. And back...
...to work for another long week. Sigh...
You must look great, what with all the running :) big hugs
Apparently not, Alicia. :/
When is the next vacation for you?
Maybe a few days off at Christmas? Sigh...
That's a long way away :(
Jeff, I'm starting a second job and worried about the lack of personal time! So I get how you feel on at least a small sense.
Good luck with that, Reba. That is a big commitment, I know. You have to leave some time for you.
Hope your day turns out better than you expect, Jeff.
Used to go out and watch the early Sunday game every week at a bar with folks, but that probably won't happen this year since my ex-friend has pushed all of his friends out of his life and isn't any fun even when he is around.
It's almost cold this morning! Also, didn't sleep well. Dog kept barking. Skunk must have passed in middle of night. Could smell it strongly! Blah. Going to be a long, coffee day.
It's nice to have a craving and then satisfy it :) I'm glad you did!
Work: Going to be another difficult few days. Lots of things to do in too little time, and this project officially goes live today. Means my team will get blamed for all the failures of the staff, when I've done so much...
Running: 15 on Sat and 6 on Sun with my friend/former training partner. Hope to run with her more. 5 last night with Mon group. Legs are tired. Trying to ramp up miles again to at least 35/week.
Weekend: Ate and drank too much, as always. Yesterday was really dreary, and I did so little. I feel bad for not cleaning and getting other things accomplished. Maybe I needed a rest weekend after previous few weeks.
The 6 is much more for a good weekend around people without feeling completely alone. This morning, I'm feeling the effect of all the food and beer. Feeling gross and facing a really hard week ahead.
Next week at work is going to be hell, though. :(
Good to see a 5 and a positive(ish:) post. Fantastic that you went running after a day (indeed week) like that and glad that it was beautiful and a great run. Well done you. Hope maybe that and similar over the weekend will set you up for next week
Work stuff is just so challenging to handle. What is your manager like? Or do you have colleagues you can vent to? (if you want to say)
This just proves that it's the times that we least want to practice self care that it can be most rewarding! Well-done Jeff! Glad you enjoyed your run!
Did you get some sleep the last couple of nights?
Big hugs, my friend - sorry things are so tough right now. Easy to say hang in there, not so easy to do.
I keep reminding myself that. It's obvious as people check out when I'm talking or don't even notice if I stop in mid-sentence. They're off on another conversation or thought.
I just wish I could stop having the need to speak. It's that lack of social contact that does me in every time. I hate that I need people. I want to be able to be ok being totally alone, because that's my lot in life. But I'm not...and suffer for it.
Supposed to call someone for work right now. Don't want to. Won't be a bad conversation, just hate having to do it. More of that work burnout, probably. Just want to sleep. I guess more coffee...:/
Talking myself into less than a 5 as I type this all. Just another example of wanting to get things out and having no other outlet, I guess.
I'm so sorry people are that way, Jeff. It's hard when one is sensitive and notices all the changes in others' moods and attention or lack thereof... I know people who can talk for hours even though everyone around is dying inside of boredom.
They just don't care... You are not like that. Neither am I. Hang on in there. Big hugs.
I have been in similar situations where I feel like people aren't listening etc. Is there maybe even one or two people you connect with that you could try and sit beside in these situations? I don't think you should hold back or stop being who you
are to try and fit in though.
Not to say that I know how disheartening and isolating it can feel when people behave that way though!
Hope you survived your Monday. Here's to a better week!