Just going to spend the day eating and drinking and pretending I'm not alone, even though I am. No one has asked me to join them or do something, even those who know. But I don't expect it.
There's always a panda on here for you Jeff. Sending lots of hugs.
Happy birthday dear Jeff. Hope you manage to enjoy something about it, even if it's just spoiling yourself x
We need only a good fun friend. That's all. You can find one.
Happy Birthday, Jeff! I wish we could have a Panda party for you. Hope your day turned out ok. Definitely treat yourself to something nice. We love you! 💚
Happy Birthday dear Jeff. I wish you happiness. Love and hugs always
Saw a picture on FB of someone talking about how great their birthday was with friends, and the picture had 30-40 people at a bar having fun. Made me feel so lonely. I'll be lucky to have 1 or 2, if I set it up and ask them to go with me.
This is why I avoid FB. My 'year in review' thing is only about 3 pictures, all but the one where I changed my profile pic to something other than me being tagged in the background of other people's pics. That about sums up my year right.
I am so glad I quit FB years ago. Really helped me to not obsess over what everyone else was doing. Remember that their profile is full of everything they want people to see. There is probably even more that they don't want to put out there.
Off FB since 2011
Granted, I feel guilty this morning, but 5 miles on the treadmill this morning (coupled with a much better night's sleep last night) helped! It's going to be super cold, so may not do hills tonight either. And that's okay, I guess.
As long as I don't let myself make excuses (often) in the new year. That's when training and eating better really has to start. It's too easy to make exceptions for the holidays and carry over bad habits.
Otherwise, feeling pretty okay today. Holiday lunch at work, and ugly sweater day. I'm wearing my xmas sweater with dinosaurs on it. I tell people it's like the first christmas. When they say there were no dinosaurs at the first xmas...
I ask how do they know? They weren't there! :D
😁 nice, Jeff
It really is OK to do nothing sometimes, or do something that's not perfectly healthy or right or normal or even sane :)
😂😂😂 Love the dino joke! Unhealthy things are ok every once in awhile. Be kind to yourself, friend!
Really should go run with a group this evening, but just want to go to a bar for tacos and relaxation. Feeling anxiety and stress... And lonely. Holidays always make me feel alone.
I've read somewhere recently that this whole holiday family thing is very wrong, because there are many, many people who are single or not particularly close to their relatives, and the unrealistic expectations just make them all miserable.
I'm trying to let go of those this year.
i'm just gonna pretend the holidays are not happening this years.
i got earplugs for new year's eve. :)
Holidays... id rather sit cosy under a blanket with a hot coco watching a movie 😄
Had some things bother me yesterday that really got to me. Tried hard talking myself out of it. Realize that people don't mean me ill will; they just don't care about me (or anyone) one way or the other. There's no harm in their actions, just no...
caring or empathy at all. That makes me sad too.
We care Jeff.
Big hugs Jeff
Beer dinner tonight with a friend, which I'm really looking forward to despite feeling like I've done nothing but eat and drink for 5 days!
Excited to have so many days off this month (we have to use 1/2 our vacation or lose it by end of year). Not a single full week of work this month! Not that I have anything to do on those days off...
Hopefully you can find something to do on your days off.
Enjoy all your days off. You deserve a break!
Me too :)
And me. Thank you for being a super Panda and friend, Jeff xx
Thank you too Jeff
Thank you, Jeff! I give the same thanks. Hope your day went well!
Happy Thanksgiving for tomorrow Jeff, just in case I'm not around x
Another quiet, lonely weekend ahead. At least the temps should be higher than last week so i hope to be able to get some good runs in. Next week is a short week, and have to use up time off next month.
Hope you have a relaxing weekend, Jeff.
Hope you get some better sleep soon
Trying to run 6 days a week. So at least I have tonight's group run (and at least it will be over freezing tonight). But have to build these miles up...running feels like all I have to feel good about sometimes.
I shouldn't have needed another lazy weekend. I had that last weekend. But wasn't feeling great (stomach issues and this cold that won't go away), and loneliness, and mid-winter weather made me quite lazy.
running 6 days a week, wow! i'm getting into running, but yea i'll need to build up for a long time to do anywhere near that much :)
Watched The Mandalorian last night. I liked it! Feels a bit lower budget (more puppety) than I expected, especially compared to super hero shows, but otherwise quite good.
Hope you feel better soon. It's OK not to run every once in a while, right? Big hugs
Get well soon, Jeff!
Make sure you warm up there dear Jeff.
Yesterday was quite stressful. Having to shovel for an hour, then the furnace install going on, trying to make sure the dog didn't get out or do anything, keeping an eye on everything. Furnace works, but have to have some electrical work still.
Frustrating that they didn't finish everything. (Humidifier isn't hooked up.) But at least I have heat. It's so nice to wake up and not see my breath! Still haven't programmed the thermostat.
Low score for the weather. It's just such a dramatic shift from chilly to sub-freezing cold. Supposed to run trails in this tonight? Man, I hate the cold. I know, I choose to live here. I'll get somewhat used to it. But I'm not yet, that's for sure.
I did think a lot yesterday about how lucky I am to have a (now) warm house, to be able to afford heat. Thankful to not live in my car or somewhere without heat. I'm lucky, and I appreciate that very much!
Busy week the rest of this week at work. Trying not to stress about it.
So glad you got the heat sorted! I can't imagine going without it!
Major social anxiety at party last night. Got claustrophobic and left. Today meeting folks for football and am completely alone at the table. Hate being alone in a crowd.
Hope the night got better for you, Jeff. Hugs.