I Mis U Pandas!Hav bin &stil am in Hell I'd Nevr imagned.NOTgoin in IOP yet,per Dr. 2DSTROYD 2B abl 2do DBT.May try in few Wks.Hub hd Surgry;Ded Aunt.Brethe AGINST my wil.Isolat.Want U! CANT TALK! LUV

I pray UR ALL OK.Hope U wethrd Storms of Nethrlnds, E. & W.Europe!Miss EACH VOICE!!!!!*waves &cries*

12 Feb 2015

We're doing ok. You take care of yourself Debibear!

12 Feb 2015

<3 u Debi...pls take care

12 Feb 2015

Big Love and Strength Dear Debi. You are always in my thought <3<3<3

12 Feb 2015

glad to hear from you!

12 Feb 2015

Hope you are okay, Debi! Get well!! <3

12 Feb 2015

Please take good care of yourself. miss yuo

12 Feb 2015

Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Hugs and kisses surrounding each of you wonderful people!

12 Feb 2015

Thinking of you <3

13 Feb 2015

I hope you are okay. Sending some thoughts and big hugs in your direction... :)

28 Feb 2015

thinking of you....

08 Mar 2015

Thinking of you, dear Debi x

09 Mar 2015

I hope you're okay!

14 Mar 2015

<3

16 Mar 2015

Hope you're doing alright, Debi <3

21 Mar 2015

Miss you debs

21 Mar 2015

Think of you

22 Mar 2015

Huge hug

07 May 2015

Missing You Debi, hope You are ok <3

28 May 2015

me too <3 u also hope u are OK

28 May 2015

Miss you lots Debi bear i hope yr okay <3<3

17 Jul 2015

me too <3

17 Jul 2015

I am just checking in on my pandas... I saw you are a Super Gold Panda. That's really cool...

16 Aug 2015

Love you, Debi. Please be okay. <3

16 Aug 2015

<3<3<3<3<3

18 Aug 2015

Missing you hope you're ok

19 Nov 2015

Where are you Debs? It has been more then a year now. X

20 May 2016

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24 May 2016

Deb...are you ok??? I miss you!!!

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Worse Worser Worserer Shrieks of agony. Shh Can't tell, caus now they'll put me IN HOSP. B good litl nuerotc. Fine. Jus fine... Luv U & Thanx...

Dearest Debi, I remember You saying You were coming off a particular medication? Do You think it could be this causing this anguish?

07 Feb 2015

Love You very much. Thinking of You always <3<3<3

07 Feb 2015

Thinking of you Debi - take care, much love x

07 Feb 2015

<3 healing and strengthening hugs <3

07 Feb 2015

loads of hugs, you're safe with us <3

07 Feb 2015

I know how you feel. im extremely low right now myself. I havent really told my therapist any of it either.

08 Feb 2015

<3 get the help u need....i <3 u girl and no matter/help....it's what all of us need....from time to time....look forward to hearing better news from you.....better posts....take it slow and really pay attention to my Debi....

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-10 Too Awful 4Any Words... COMPLET BREAKDWN. FAVE AUNT JUS DIED 2P 2DAY! BEYOND PAIN..Wailin! MISS U ALL-APOLGIES 4USELESNES! Must call IOP 2moro, or Dr sed '2Hosp'.So, 3Days/Wk. 3-4Mo. DBT Prog!!CRY

Gentle and reassuring hugs

05 Feb 2015

<3

05 Feb 2015

So sorry for your loss Deqr Debi, very sad. You are in my thoughts always. Love You BIG <3<3<3

05 Feb 2015

Dear

05 Feb 2015

So sorry, Debbie - that is so tough. Thinnking of you - much love. x

05 Feb 2015

I am so sorry to hear that this is happening to you. As if things weren't hard enough already. Thinking of you....

05 Feb 2015

I hope, the IOP will turn out to be a good thing and you'll be glad to have done it, once you feel better.

05 Feb 2015

Debi...hoping you find iop isn't all that traumatic to endure...and that you can turn your life around from now...remember it won't be easy or quick....and we Pandas are 110% behind you we love you <3

05 Feb 2015

and I am so sorry for your loss...it's ok to mourn her I'm sure she was special and that you will always miss her....keep positive memories of her on your mind...so you will feel you never have to lose her <3

05 Feb 2015

thinking of you debi

06 Feb 2015

I'm listening, My Dearests. I'm mute with pain XX OO <3<3

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SpacEd out.Barely movin. N. was here.She made me eat a litl. Hub 2com up erly 4TV/MOVIE. Good not 2B alon, bt real afraid of hm...cant handl yellin or ruffness. Don want dinnr &hes bringin it?NO?? :-%

I guess he's trying to make you eat coz he worries? But like I found, firm kindness works much better than threats and anger :S

03 Feb 2015

Love You Dear Debi <3<3<3

03 Feb 2015

lots of love your way, Debi <3

04 Feb 2015

I Luv Each of U, & Ur Kindnesses!!

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SuprBowl was amazin!Gd distraction. Im a shell suspended in confusion,anxity, & MTness.1 Dr. Unavail.1 tryin,bt it was weekend!Insur. Co. scares me SO MCH!Awfl Histry wth dem.Feel unreal &IOP Fantasy.

Thinking of you Debi x

03 Feb 2015

Super Bowl was amazing...not sure about the dancing sharks with Katy perry though

03 Feb 2015

lol I might have watched it just for that!

03 Feb 2015

Be Happy, Dearest Frends.. Hugs & Kisses!!

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For My Darlins in USA,Ur probly sittin in frnt of d SUPERBOWL!! Rah! 4'Earth-Pple', its nt 'Fútbol, but if U wach, U can join, U.S.,, by seein USA's BIG DAY!Watevr Ur doin,NJOY,HAV PEAC,LUV U!!<3<3<3

You shouting for hawks or pats

02 Feb 2015

Sister livs is Massachusetts, so, Pats. U? Excitin game, tho!!

02 Feb 2015

Thanks everybody! Love you! Hugs!

02 Feb 2015

Hugs

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Hate Crises on WkEnds!Tryd 2tel Psychopharm. bout Brekdwn &get hm involvd.Has Fam Emerg. &wont even make our TUES Appt!'Revers Midas Tuch', 'cause its me,No1 is evr abl 2hlp me wen Im in trubl!DETH!?!

Please hang in there, Debi <3 I know it's tough, but I know you can do it! Love you lots xx

02 Feb 2015

Bless U, Juno!<3<3

02 Feb 2015

Thanx Lyra!

02 Feb 2015

Hugs, Richard!!

02 Feb 2015

Hugs for strength, Debi! I know you can get through this. We're here for you.

02 Feb 2015

My beutifl Pandas, wthout U I wud nevr B abl 2stay aliv! Mor than Hugs!

02 Feb 2015

Hugs

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So truly Havin 'Walkin Nervus Brakdown '. Lookin @ 3Prog. Options.Any1 no bout DBT? Dats wat Dr wants.Bt Im Not Regulatd &hav 2B for DBT; +No Progs. R In Network!I cant aford, if no Insure!Terror!LOST

Stil wish dere was 'A Me' who cud giv 2U!My Incredibl Pandas!!I LUV U &hope Ur Moods R'Turning Green'! Alwys Urs,Debi

01 Feb 2015

Lots of strong wa focused comforting hugs Debi bear. Im not sure what it is but i hope u manage insurance n d right treatment. Big hugs. Stay strong. Thinking of u x <3

01 Feb 2015

what is DBT? I've heard of CBT....have you heard of this website Debi- https://www.superbetter.com/

01 Feb 2015

Dear Debi, it's going to be okay my friend. You have the right to choose so YOU choose which option YOU think would help you. If you cannot afford it, then they need to help you some other way. Love You lots and Strength <3<3<3

01 Feb 2015

OMG!How cn dey hlp me wth littl funds??DBT is a specific typ of CBT..need mor info! #Info on DBT??Thanx 4Strenth!I'v lost all.XX OO

01 Feb 2015

Pandas, U HAV encouragd me 2try an IOP, if we cn find rite 1 4me.DON WANT2,May HAV2!Thanx 4Ur Lovin 'Pushing '!!LUV U ALL

01 Feb 2015

Michelle,Wat is Website?Tried 2go. Looks like App/Game, I hav 2join!?

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I wud post a -5 if ABL! Worst BREAKDWN EVER! Evry1 agreein dat mst go to IOP.So TERIFIED!Dr. Helpin me 2find. Can't bear 2B so sik dat I need dis!!PAIN!Cant talk.No1 in me..Jus a writhin Shell!LUV U!!

Oh Debi...I was supposed to go to IOP but couldn't had to go to partial. 2 yrs ago...did me a world of good....to have intensive treatment.... you ...I so care about you....wish only you could feel better...luv you

31 Jan 2015

go...my dearest Debi...so long to hear good in your life...you are a tressured Panda...always giving us wonderful advice...time to take care of my Debibear!

31 Jan 2015

please...take care of Debi!!!!

31 Jan 2015

<3

31 Jan 2015

Take care, Debi - hope Wendy's experience will help you, it sounds like maybe it's what you need. We all want the best for you, tho I can appreciate how scary it must seem! Love you. x

31 Jan 2015

I agree with wise Wendy & Cindy bear, u r most treasured 2most. I really want u2 feel some relief again. To be d strong u tht can handle things. It seems uv bn struggling ds really may b a gd thing. Love u lots xx pls tc xx

31 Jan 2015

So sosrry Debi, lots of love and strength your way.

31 Jan 2015

The others have already said everything.... It is scary but it is also a chance. If this helps you to get well and enjoy life again, wouldn't it be worth it? And you'll be free to leave if it does not feel right... Give it a try!

31 Jan 2015

dear friend, don't want to sound harsh but what is there to lose? you already feel terrible, maybe this can give you a step in the right direction? Please confide in those people a bit, they're trying to help you.

31 Jan 2015

You're not alone in your struggle and I don't think you gave to be ashamed about your situation. we're here for you

31 Jan 2015

Readin dis was Amazin! Wendy, thanx 4sharin Ur Hosp.Experienc!ALL Ur amazin suport coments made me a bit les scard!& Thanx, Esther, f

01 Feb 2015

Thanx Esther, 4adressin d Shame aspect.Im so embarasd!UR ALL d BEST FRENDS I CUD WANT +I TRUST DAT U 'GET IT', also!

01 Feb 2015

You · Just Now I agree with all the amazing comments above. There is no shame Dear Debi, it takes a strong person to get the help they need. Also You don't need to tell too many people, ask your immediate family to not say

01 Feb 2015

anything to friends or relatives. It's a private thing. We are here with You. Love You lots <3<3<3

01 Feb 2015

NO FAMLY CAN KNOW,AT ALL! Alone...

02 Feb 2015

Hugs

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Care Mgr cancelled.Jus like Evryting, Im jus an afta thut. Pissed & SHE has an Attitude bout it! F... F... F....

Aww im so sorry. U r so important Debi, i wish i cud do something 4u 2make u smile n gv u hope. Big monster hugs n love xx

29 Jan 2015

Aw so sorry Debi <3

29 Jan 2015

Sorry she cancelled! You deserve better! xx

30 Jan 2015

Thank U Guys! I'm not sure if I deserve better...

30 Jan 2015

XXOO

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Awake.NOOO! Last day of Care Mgr. Sugestin IOP. F her. Gettin hair washd-B prity & out of house! It's sumtin.....

Thinking of You Dear Debi. Love and Strength <3<3<3

29 Jan 2015

Debi what is IOP? <3

29 Jan 2015

Intensiv Outpatient Progrm.3-4 days/Wk. Go AM 2HOSPITAL .'Work' Al day.Leve 3-4ish.Go home. XXOO Hugs,Sweet Pandas!

29 Jan 2015

It's a HOSPITAL PROGRAM! Swore Nevr Again!

29 Jan 2015

Thanx HF, Tuxi, Lyra, Anon, desdmonia,Juno & Jeff!! Im HOLDIN on2 U 4dear lif! XXX OOO

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Dr says,2nite thru email, wat Im reactin 2isnt wat she sed.Says she only sed'Lets discus/Xplore'. NT DUN DEAL.Hystercs all nite.Ate Scotch,Meds &Candy.Don care.Confusd.Wats hapnin?1:20AM cant sleep...

Soothing hugs. Trying to think too much whilst yr trying 2 slp Debi bear. I knw it cnt b hlped wn thrs worries. Think abt a lovely holiday or a happy thought xx

29 Jan 2015

Thanx My Dearests Anon & Richard!Luv U, so!!!!XX OO <3<3

29 Jan 2015

Comforting hugs for you my dear friend. XXX

29 Jan 2015

take care - thinking of you x

29 Jan 2015

hope u feel better debi

29 Jan 2015

Thanks 4bein dere 4me, My Loyal, Carin, Smart, Amazin Frends! <3<3<3<

29 Jan 2015

Smooches HF & desdmonia!!

30 Jan 2015

<3³

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Dr wants me to go to an IOP @least 3X/Wk. I swor I'd kil SLF B4 I was ever 'In' Hosp agin! Now Oficialy Certified 'CRAZY' Despair! Fear! Want 2B ded B4 dis can hapen! 2Freakd 2 TTY, Sweeties...LUV U!

please take care Debi xx

29 Jan 2015

We love you Debibear! Do what you need to do to feel better. We'll always be here for you!

29 Jan 2015

Thanks Patrick, Cindy & Lauren! Hugs!

29 Jan 2015

Love u 2 Debi xx

29 Jan 2015

OMG

29 Jan 2015

You're not crazy, just going through a hard time. We're here for you. X

29 Jan 2015

Bows 2U all! Esther, How can dis not B Crazy if dey want me in an IOP HOSPITAL PROGRAM? Tryin feel ded insid, so I can stop Cryin! Hugs & More!!

29 Jan 2015

Is iop internal? everyone is a bit crazy. don't let someone bring you down.

29 Jan 2015

It means Im NUTS 2need dis structurd Progrm 2take ovr My Days,cause I can' do it.... :-{

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Stil in bed sinc Hub'Hiroshima'd' me las TUES nite.Poor ADLs-Nt clean,eatin,drinkin,dressin,leavin bed or bdroom.Scard jus tinkin bout dat.Hav Thera 2moro &MST GET OUT! DEN DR 4arthrits shots!MST GO?!

Thanx Ash!<3

28 Jan 2015

Good luck with getting out tomorrow, Debi. You can do this xx

28 Jan 2015

You can do it tomorrow! <3 Strong hugs!

28 Jan 2015

good luck tomorrow Debi - you can do this!

28 Jan 2015

Pls do go Debi. Welldone 4holding it 2getha as much as possible. Love u xx

28 Jan 2015

It's very understandable given the stress Dear Debi. If You can go it would be good but you can only do what you can do. Love and hugs <3

28 Jan 2015

I went.

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Stil in bed sinc Hub'Hiroshima'd' me las TUES nite.Poor ADLs-Nt clean,eatin,drinkin,dressin,leavin bed or bdroom.Scard jus tinkin bout dat.Hav Thera 2moro &MST GET OUT! DEN DR 4arthrits shots!MST GO?!
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Stil in bed sinc Hub'Hiroshima'd' me las TUES nite.Poor ADLs-Nt clean,eatin,drinkin,dressin,leavin bed or bdroom.Scard jus tinkin bout dat.Hav Thera 2moro &MST GET OUT! DEN DR 4arthrits shots!MST GO?!

SORRY! Freakin thing DUZNT SHOW AS POSTED!EXITD,RE ENTERD DEN SAW MULTIPLS! SORY!

27 Jan 2015

it just means you get extra hugs ;)

28 Jan 2015

No problemo

28 Jan 2015

Big big hugs xx

28 Jan 2015

Thanx X Multiples Pandas, LOL! XXX OOOO

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Hubs up here. Had no food.Don care.Tummy hurts frm stres &fear.It duznt want food!Drinkin decaf 4warmth! 16.F temp.Blizard!WIL trees fal on roof?Liv on Mt./ Forest!OMG! I'm a reck.Hate me.Hate life!

Debi. Breathe, sweetheart. I'm certain that your roof is strong and you'll be safe tonight. Roofs are

27 Jan 2015

Great at protecting us. Deep breathing. Could you eat something little? X

27 Jan 2015

Candy?

27 Jan 2015

Oh, yes, Debi. A bit of candy sounds good. What do you think? X

27 Jan 2015

Take care Debi x

27 Jan 2015

Big hugs Debi, pls tc and eat <3

27 Jan 2015

Love You Debi. Our mental angst is debilitating but at least we are trying despite it. What are your favourite foods? I'd love to know! Will then send some in the post. Just kidding :-D .

27 Jan 2015

Do you have any comfort food? Hot cocoa with cream? It is important to eat something and drink enough... Malnutrition makes lots of other health problems worse...

27 Jan 2015

You will be safe from the storm, I think your home will protect you. Good that you're drinking some but please try to eat as well?! Without food your meds will take a spin with you... pls take care of yourself, im a bit worried :( XXX

27 Jan 2015

Oof, I know that stress tummyache feel... try eating something like crackers and see if it helps. Or use a heating pad on your stomach!

27 Jan 2015

<3

27 Jan 2015

Wow! I'm Ovrwelmd by Ur luvin care &kind Sugestions-Even litl jokes(Yeah U,My Sweetie, HF!)

27 Jan 2015

I want2 folow Ur ideas bt don care,or feel wel enuf 2do anyting bout anyting! R U mad? I jus exist.Sory,Beloveds!!Hugs!

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Sittin wth hart poundin.Nt sure if its Blizzard 2nite thru Tues (1-2'snow), or bein TRAPD HOM wth Hub.If we talk,we screm!Scard of him!Feel hated.Im 2sik 2luv..Stil wish 4deth cause I don function.HUG

I hope the blizzard is not too bad and you stay safe! <3 lots of love your way!

26 Jan 2015

hug Debi. Hope you stay cosy and warm, and you can get space away from hubby. What are you going to do for the next couple of hours? XXX

26 Jan 2015

I'll 'Do' Pandas,Progrm TV,Take Meds,MayB email Shrink(s) if I feel WORS!Don care bout food!Hes gonna call 4me soon....

26 Jan 2015

Hugs Debi. Do try to eat. It might give you some strength to cope with things. Really hope you can get space from hubby and you can talkie through with shrink x

26 Jan 2015

Big thanx Desdmonia,Charlotte, & Welcome Leigh!Sarah, I hope U're rite bout wrkin thru Hub Crap-Bt we'v bin like dis, so many Yrs :-<

26 Jan 2015

Huge hugs! X

27 Jan 2015

Stay safe, and try to create some emotional distance from your husband. I'm sorry you're feeling trapped :(

27 Jan 2015

Need Hub. Sole source of care-but wish He were sum1 else.....I must sound selfish as Heck! Thanx 4Positiv Thuts! Luv U!!!!!!

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I've done 366 days of Mood Panda! Thank You Panda Community!!

Hope it's been good for you, Debi x

26 Jan 2015

thats awesome!

26 Jan 2015

That's fantastic, Debi - we're lucky to have you! x

26 Jan 2015

Yay! Big hugs n love <3<3

26 Jan 2015

Awesome you

26 Jan 2015

I cudnt B wthout, U'all, afta Ive grown 2luv U dis mch, &Ure part of Daily Life!Gratitud Byond d Moon!!Hugs &Kisses!

26 Jan 2015

Happy Pandaversary!

26 Jan 2015

Thank You 4lettin me part of Our Community! Encompassin Hugs &Admiration!!

26 Jan 2015

Thank you for being here, Debi Bear! We love you!

26 Jan 2015

Happy Pandaversary Debi! So glad you're part of my life <3<3<3

27 Jan 2015

Glad to B part of Ur lives! Hope I do sum good, 4sum1! Wish I had cure 4ALL OF US!

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