So stressed by my publishing work at uni, my new job and the application I'm trying to write to hopefully get a PhD position and lots of other stuff. I feel so stupid, broken and useless...

Wow it sounds like you're doing great by anyone's standards! Good on you.

19 May 2015

I agree with Andrew- that's an astonishing amount of work!

19 May 2015

And you are none of those

19 May 2015
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I have to try updating once a day again. Feel so empty and alone now that A is gone.. I miss him so much.. There is just too much happening in my life right now. I need to relax, but don't know how..

Big hugs Tiny; glad to see a post from you, sorry you're so low,

19 May 2015

Tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!! Welcome back! It's so nice to see you! :)

19 May 2015

Thank you everyone, I have missed you lots *big fluffy hugs*

19 May 2015
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I just wanted to share this with you. I'm so sorry for being so much gone and not supporting you my dear panda friends. I love you all https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XiCrniLQGYc

This is great. Thanks for sharing :)

26 Feb 2015

This animation is so good isn't it? Great for sharing with friends and family who want to understand depression but have never experienced it first hand. Simple enough for kids to get but not patronising for adults!

26 Feb 2015

Thanks for sharing this, Tuxi. Sorry you're so low - miss you and look forward to more posts when you feel like it. Take care.

26 Feb 2015

love you too and miss you. Please take care of yourself xx

26 Feb 2015

That is a great video, thank you! Hope your black dog gets smaller <3

26 Feb 2015

Aw...this made me miss my dog (oddly enough).

26 Feb 2015

Thanks for sharing!

27 Feb 2015
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I feel so empty. I keep forgetting get that A is gone. I want to pet and cuddle him for comfort, but he is no longer here. I miss him so much...
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A passed on during the night. I was lying on the floor beside him during the night, and both <3 and me was awake when it happened.

So sorry

18 Feb 2015

I am so sorry :(

18 Feb 2015

I'm so sorry :(.

19 Feb 2015

I'm very sorry Tiny.

19 Feb 2015

Love and Light <3<3<3

19 Feb 2015

Thank you panda friends *panda hugs* I miss him so much...

26 Feb 2015
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A (rabbit) have become sick with what looks like the same disease as R passed away from. I'm so afraid, I don't know what to do without him... I can't stop crying. Vet opening in 1 hour..

Fingers crossed

17 Feb 2015

I hope he'll be okay... Fingers crossed ...

17 Feb 2015

Hope it turns out okay Tiny - fingers crossed

17 Feb 2015

Hope A will be ok. Fingers crossed xx

17 Feb 2015

Fingers crossed!

18 Feb 2015
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I can't take it anymore... I'm never going to get better... I may seem better on the outside and function better in society, but the war inside me is still the same... I feel like a failure...

Love and Hugs Dear Tiny. I understand how you are feeling all too well <3<3<3

27 Jan 2015

I am sorry to hear that you are feeling so bad right now.... You will get better, eventually... If whatever you've tried so far hasn't worked, try something else... there are so many options out there and there must be something that works for you!

27 Jan 2015

I admire you (and all the pandas here) because you keep going. Life is a struggle, but you are so strong, even if you don't realize it right now. Just get through the day, however you can. We're here for you!

27 Jan 2015

Ah, sometimes thoughts like these will come up I guess? You're NOT a failure, look what you've accomplished last few months. Your thesis.. We are proud of you. Hope you will feel some relief soon xoxo

27 Jan 2015

Lots of love n hugs and big purple monster hugs <3<3

27 Jan 2015

Just keep fighting - that means you are winning. As long as you don't give up completely, there is always hope <3

27 Jan 2015

Not a failure

27 Jan 2015

Believe in you

27 Jan 2015

Take care

27 Jan 2015

Ditto frm me in d Zero' Crowd, Bt look @all d positivs &hopefulnes abov! Look how mny ppl LUV &BLEVE IN U!Somhow, as we Keep Fiting 4Helth, we'll find relief. Comfortin Hugs!

28 Jan 2015

You've done so well finishing your thesis and everything! Imagine all the things you can do now that you know you've achieved that. Please don't give up <3 Sending you love and strength!

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I have had a great day today, and enjoyed it with the two best friends of mine. I wish wet lived closer to each other so I could see them more often. I'm so incredibly lucky to have them both :)

It's a JOY 2read Sch a terific post frm U, Tiny!!Glorious 9! UR luky!!Hapy Joy Joy Hugs!

23 Jan 2015

That's fantastic, Tiny!

24 Jan 2015

Sounds awesome

24 Jan 2015

aww lovely, good to see this Tiny, big purple monster hugs my friend xx

24 Jan 2015

a 9 wow!

24 Jan 2015
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My first day as a official guest researcher at the university. I'm not getting payed but hopefully I will get m thesis published, and get some inside information about new PhD positions.

And I have something to do until I get a payed job.

13 Jan 2015

Enjoy Tiny :-) <3

13 Jan 2015

Hope it goes well Tiny x

13 Jan 2015

Congrats. That sounds really good and I hope they have a paid PhD position / scholarship for you, soon!

13 Jan 2015

Is there something like the DFG (German academic society) in your country, where you could apply for funding for a project with your supervisor? Are you considering other unis, that might offer you a scholarship?

13 Jan 2015

You might look into EU projects as well, but those have to be applied for by a professor, I think...

13 Jan 2015

Congrats! I hope it went well!

13 Jan 2015

Congratulations!

14 Jan 2015

Tank you everypanda *big fluffy panda hugs* <3

23 Jan 2015

Unfortunately it's not that many money in my field, and is the professors here that have to look for founding. They really want to pay me, but there's not enough money :(

23 Jan 2015

But there is a position in theoretical ecology that I have been told to apply for.,but it's not until October. So we will see :) Hopefully I can get a small payed job until then. :)

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New much smaller storm today, and we just lost our power. Right now it is cozy with candles but I hope we get the power back soon. Luckily it still seems like we have water :)

Fingers crossed Tiny - stay warm

12 Jan 2015

Thank you Cindy. We have a fire place if we are out of power for a while and have a very hot apartment (28 Celsius), that won't let heat out quickly even if we try. So for once that is a I guess :)

12 Jan 2015

I should be: Positive thing

12 Jan 2015

I guess your posts make me happy I'm not home :P Sender varme tanker fra kalde nord <3 take care!

12 Jan 2015

Take care and keep warm xx

12 Jan 2015

Glad U made it thru Monstr Storm! Electrifying Hugs as dis 2nd 1 pases!Cuddles,Warmth & Luv!

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Having a good time playing WoW while listening to music and drinking a big cup of green tea :) I also was brave enough to ask <3's cousin for help (in the chat) even though <3 still isn't home :)

Well done, Tiny - that really is brave! I love green tea too

11 Jan 2015

Sounds like a nice afternoon... :)

11 Jan 2015

Well done brave tiny

11 Jan 2015

Insert joke about give mind in your own time

11 Jan 2015

Thank you everypanda *big fluffy hugs*

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Lying in bed with A (rabbit). The storm has left Western Norway, but I'm still quite shaken. Luckily no human lives are reported to be lost, only lot of material damages.

I really hope that no animal lives was lost as well. I was outside yesterday talking to the storm and told it not to kill anyone but that it was OK to ruin things of it really wanted but that I hoped that it would not totally ruin anyone's homes.

11 Jan 2015

But some people have lost their homes, but luckily houses are really sturdily built here in Bergen so only 2 houses (that I know of) is now beond repair.

11 Jan 2015

A lot of people has lost their power and water. Luckily we gave both. But <3 family lost their power yesterday but I hope they have gotten it back now.

11 Jan 2015

Glad you safe

11 Jan 2015

Scary. Glad you and your bunny are ok <3

11 Jan 2015

Thank you everyone *big happy group hug* <3

11 Jan 2015

So glad that the storm is over and that you are okay.... Sounds really awful...

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Really scared. It's the worst storm in Bergen since 1994. The wind is blowing around 40m/s. The wind is howling, the light is flickering and everyone is told to stay inside as it's dangerous outside.

Thank you Palomas. I'm lucky that I have the rabbits and the cat that look after me.

10 Jan 2015

Hope <3 is able to come home again tomorrow, as all flights are now cancelled as one plane was almost unable to land and another wasn't able to take off. So scared..

10 Jan 2015

Thank you Sarah. The wind is now blowing up to 45m/s ( a hurricane is apparently 32.7m/s), that's more than a hurricane, so now they have started calling it 'extreme weather'. I'm hearing sirens outside from time to time and I'm even more afraid...

10 Jan 2015

Oh, I hear what you're saying. Hope you breathe nice and slowly, and stay warm and safe. It might feel like it'll last forever but it won't. Hugs xx

10 Jan 2015

I feel for you... Ever since the tornado outbreak in April 25-28th, 2011, it's hard to keep myself from losing it even if there's just a thunder storm. I second what Sarah said: concentrate on your breathing nice and slowly.

10 Jan 2015

Keep warm and snuggled up with your animals - feel better soon Tiny!

10 Jan 2015

Take care Tiny. Be safe!

10 Jan 2015

Bin watchin storm on d News!It looks terifyin, Tiny!Of cours ,Ur scard!Try 2listn 2Emerg reports.

11 Jan 2015

Fil tub wth watr case U lose watr &find any candls U hav, case U lose powr.Gt warmes clothes near.Can ony B redy &wait!Prayrs wth U, Tiny! Luv U Lots!XXOO

11 Jan 2015

4All Pandas near Tiny; in Scotland,Wales;UK &othr areas hit by dis storm, I wil lite Safty/Luv Candls 2send My wishs acros d Globe!! :-@

11 Jan 2015

Hope you safe tiny

11 Jan 2015

Thank you everyone

11 Jan 2015

I'm dage mmm

11 Jan 2015

Thank you everyone *big fluffy hugs* Me and my furry children are all OK :) We have been really lucky and still have a house, power and water.

11 Jan 2015

'I'm dage mmm' was just something weird my phone added :S

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<3 just left for a conference for 4 days. I'm so scared to be alone and worried sick about him. I know he has been gone for only 10 min so far, but it feels like eternity...
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My goal this year is to write down one positive thing about each day in a notebook. I think I need lear to find lights even when I'm struggling around in the darkness when I'm really down.

That's a really good idea, Tiny - hope it helps

02 Jan 2015

Good plan tiny...today's positive ....tiny bioengineered killing alien

02 Jan 2015

great idea

02 Jan 2015

Good idea

02 Jan 2015

Great plan

02 Jan 2015

I've been doing the same thing since last April.... It is really nice to read later. I generated a word cloud from it to see which are the most important things that make me happy.... :)

02 Jan 2015

My Dr sugestd a Gratitud Journl. Jus 1ting ea. Day. Similr. Hasnt Gon 2wel yet! LUK &luv on URS!Kisses, Tiny!

03 Jan 2015

There is also an app with a reminder if electronic is easier.

03 Jan 2015

Ha! Maybe I should try it too, especially, if there is an app for that^^'. Thanks Tiny and Becca :3. Also I'm trying sth similar for a month now - I write a good thing about myself each day. Surprisingly it's my hardest task...

03 Jan 2015

Nice Ann S

04 Jan 2015

What's the app called please?

04 Jan 2015

Thank you everyone *hugs* It has been really difficult some days but I have managed to do it everyday so far. I didn't know this had name, and feelt so smart for coming up with it.

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At the university packing my things. I'm scared and don't want to leave. Hopefully my supervisor will come up with something. I'm afraid that I won't fit in in a job outside the university.

of course you will! and you'll have lots of fun working too! don't put it off too long even if your supervisor comes up with something. you'll be fine just give yourself time and be patient to find a job that suits you.

02 Jan 2015

Understanding the anxiety of the new....brave hugs

02 Jan 2015

Of course you will!! you need to get out of the comfort zone and find something else but I think you can do it!!

02 Jan 2015

Thank you everyone! I just love to work with research even though it is really difficult and frustrating. I can't imagine a better job.

02 Jan 2015

But apparently there are no free jobs or PhDs at the university right now in my field. So I have to look for something else. Hopefully I will find a fun job while I wait. *big panda group hug&

02 Jan 2015

Best of luck Tiny! I too am looking blankly at the world wondering what to do now I need a job again.

02 Jan 2015

Best of luck in the search

02 Jan 2015

Ur vry Brav,Tiny, 2B abl 2handl d chaleng U face!I pray U find a Reserch Job,(Privat Sector?), dat WIL fit jus rite!!Suportin Hugs!!

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and to you, Tiny!

31 Dec 2014

Happy New Year Dear Tiny! <3<3<3

01 Jan 2015

This is going to be the year of pandas *big fluffy panda group hug*

02 Jan 2015

Make room for me tiny

02 Jan 2015

*drags Richard into the middle of the group hug *

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Having the greatest Christmas ever with <3, my sister, the bunnies and the cat. The dinner is consumed, now presents :D Merry Christmas everyone, hope all of you are OK and happy <3

Thank you everyone *big group hug*

24 Dec 2014

Sounds awesome...you deserve it

24 Dec 2014

Merry Christmas to you too!

24 Dec 2014

Merry Christmas Tiny!

24 Dec 2014

Merry Christmas Tiny <3<3<3

25 Dec 2014

Thank you everyone *hugs*

02 Jan 2015
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Watching a series with <3 and my sister, who is here to celebrate Christmas with us. I'm really tired and my head hurts, but I'm OK :)

Glad you ok. What you watching

23 Dec 2014

Thank you everypanda *big panda group hug* We watches series about Mongolia, I can't remember its name :s

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