I have serious concerns about my wellbeing. My best friend doesn't really care. Put on that smile. You're good.
Once logged in you can be part of the community
I have a desire to cut so badly. I don't want to. It's been nearly a year. My best friend doesn't want to hear about it, which makes it that much worse. He's busy at a party.
Once logged in you can be part of the community
I've never told my parents about my sexual assault. As a voice for SA survivors, I feel like a fraud. I'm afraid my honesty would break them.

God bless, Erin.

19 Sep 2015
Once logged in you can be part of the community
Help MoodPanda - become a MoodPanda Patron

MoodPanda is here to help people.

We don't use adverts, and our community is free to join

Becoming a patron is a way to gift us with your support, to help us do what we do, and to help MoodPanda be here for others

Thank you for being a part of our community.

Not depressed...just...a friend of mine from years ago contacted me in what appears to be an attempt to get some kind of sexual release. I am sick about it. That's what he thinks of me?

That is terrible, you deserve to be treated much more than some sick release of pent up frustration. I apologize that this happened to you.

05 Sep 2015

Hang in there :)

07 Sep 2015
Once logged in you can be part of the community
I just want to thank the community that has helped keep me afloat for the past year. I trust all of you with my concerns and faults, and I have been met with the utmost compassion. Thank you!
Once logged in you can be part of the community
I finally got the courage to write about my sexual assault. I haven't shared it yet. I hope I get that courage too.

That is so brave, regardless of whether you share it - well done. Hope you will be able to share it, but take your time. So proud of you! x

29 Aug 2015

Thank you Pandas. This is one of the few forums in which I feel comfortable expressing everything fully.

29 Aug 2015

You're strong, well done.

30 Aug 2015

Proud of you :) You are very brave and I'm sure you will have the courage to share it when you are ready to :) x

02 Sep 2015
Once logged in you can be part of the community
A friend who hurt me very deeply reached out today. I almost felt the need to re-connect. I already know his move before he makes it. I can't describe the anger.

Sounds like you need to stay far away from him!

05 Aug 2015

I never reached out to him. I know how harmful he is. I need supportive influences in my life. Thanks Pandas!

29 Aug 2015
Once logged in you can be part of the community
I wish I knew how to talk to my dad about my mental illness. I know he supports me as a person, but I don't feel like the baggage fee is included.

We're getting there. There is a lot he doesn't know. I think it's important that I tell him when I'm ready...when we're both ready.

29 Aug 2015
Once logged in you can be part of the community
Sorry I haven't been around in so long Pandas. I, myself, have been quite well. Tonight, I'm struggling on how to approach a conversation with a coworker who is struggling with an ED and depression.

You need to let them know you're there for them and that they should never feel like a burden to you. Make sure they feel appreciated, that they'll get the support they need at work and to be open

27 Mar 2015
Once logged in you can be part of the community
Thinking so much about an ex that I want to send an 'I'm sorry' letter...it's been 10 years. Embarrassed, but truthful.

If U must rite it... Do it, den toss it out afta! No need 4 embarasmnt!Minds R unendinly unusual! Hugs!

22 Jan 2015

Thanks Pandas. I wrote it and promptly tore it up. I need only to look forward.

24 Jan 2015
Once logged in you can be part of the community
I've experienced setbacks, and I'm not sure I'll get better. I don't have anyone in my life that fully understands. I cut myself again two days ago. Don't have a confidant. Character constraints.
Once logged in you can be part of the community
I accidentally found out I'm going to be demoted....just in time for the company party. Good luck everyone else.

Oh Dear! Dat Mst B DIFICULT. Hang in Dere! Hugs!

07 Jan 2015

so sorry, Erin - big hugs

07 Jan 2015

Aw, I'm sorry, Erin. =(

07 Jan 2015

It appears to be a possible misprint. I've worked my ass off to compensate for my time off when I was hospitalized. I think my boss sees me as a detriment. I'm emotionally 'unstable'. I don't think everyone else needs to know.

09 Jan 2015

In other words, I'm angry as *** and I don't know how to proceed.

09 Jan 2015
Once logged in you can be part of the community
I'm desperately struggling with Rolling Stones' retraction and backpedaling the article of the UVA case. I do know what questions will be asked. I know that the answers won't necessarily be believed
Once logged in you can be part of the community
Had my first manic episode in 10 years this Thanksgiving weekend. Feeling tired and foggy.
Once logged in you can be part of the community
Sorry to disappear for so long, Pandas. I'm ok, just feeling numb. I don't remember what it's like to have a passion for anything anymore.

<3

23 Nov 2014

i hear yah! stay strong! xo

23 Nov 2014

Missed you, Erin. Hope you find your passion again soon. <3

23 Nov 2014

Hope you will find some of them back real soon Xo

23 Nov 2014

Love you guys

01 Dec 2014
Once logged in you can be part of the community
I struggle with the idea that I have to prove to people in my life that I'm 'better' now. I'm not 'better'. I'm just me.
Once logged in you can be part of the community
In the words of Tori Amos: 'I'm just having thoughts of Marianne'
Once logged in you can be part of the community
Even my fingertips are unattractive. I hate having my ex as a client. I have to be nice. I can only pretend this never happened.

Tell me aain Y UR ex HAS 2B Ur client!? Isn't dis conflict of intrest?MayB tell boss dat its conflict? Possibl? Luv U, BEUTIFL, ERIN!Hugs!

30 Oct 2014

Thanks Debi! It's a long story...I went into the relationship knowing it had consequences. It didn't work out, so I have to shoulder the crap of the aftermath. It just sucks sometimes

30 Oct 2014

Ugh, anything to deal with an ex, yours or your significant other's just sucks. Hope you get a break from them.

30 Oct 2014
Once logged in you can be part of the community
I am dreadfully caught up in the past.

I cling to the past like my life depended on it. Just can't seem to let go. Hope you were able to slip away for awhile.

26 Oct 2014
anon u
  NEW

I agree it is so easy to get caught up in ones past mine still haunts me to this day .. Sending u a big hug (x)

26 Oct 2014
Once logged in you can be part of the community
Sorry to disappear for so long. Doing well, I suppose. Though, I've been very much stuck in my head this week...always a dizzying place to be.
Once logged in you can be part of the community