Was my birthday on Wednesday - 53 (boo), but had a lovely day with D. On leave this week and Monday, so hoping to spend some time reading, watching films and looking after crazy (still new-ish) cat

Congratulations 🎊 53 is a nice age, enjoy your life!

22 Oct 2020

Birthdays are not that exciting anymore, still, there is something special about them :)

22 Oct 2020

Happy birthday!)

22 Oct 2020

lots of positives on your list: connection with D, cat, time off, books, films. Happy birthday.

23 Oct 2020

Hope you've had a nice week off! 😘

03 Nov 2020

Hey...I just noticed I forgot to wish my bestest (😊) panda pal a Very Happy Birthday ❀.Bet it was great

08 Nov 2020

Happy belated birthday! Find me on insta to join a panda WhatsApp group. I'm abstracttherapy.

10 Nov 2020

Everyone else is welcome, too

10 Nov 2020

Loved your images. Your artwork has improved. Glad you stuck with it.

11 Nov 2020

You look 35. Hugs from usa

11 Nov 2020

Happy Belated Birthday Albertine! πŸ’•

11 Nov 2020
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D took me yesterday to pick up new cat from rescue centre. Because of Covid, had only seen photos of him online and a brief description. Still haven't seen much of him:) He's been hiding

understandably, in a dark room but eating, drinking etc so we know he's okay. Having D stay with me for a few days has been wonderful and made a big difference to my mood, but we're not yet in a position to live together, so having the cat will make

27 Sep 2020

a big difference in my daily life. Still mourning L, but these times are so weird that I felt ready to have another cat. For me it's important to have someone to care for, to help me find a reason to get up every morning.

27 Sep 2020

Lucky cat. :)

27 Sep 2020

a sweet addition.Happy for you.

27 Sep 2020

Great,cats... our love forever)fuzzy joy.

27 Sep 2020

a cat can be such a good companion. Wish you and your new friend a lot of luck

29 Sep 2020

How is your new addition doing. I hope you are seeing more than a pair of eyes πŸ‘€ now

06 Oct 2020

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07 Oct 2020
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hope you get a few moments of respite and distance from the thoughts and emotions weighing you down.

20 Sep 2020
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Tough day at work - unproductive, unmotivated. Disappointed that despite some positive changes in finances, circumstances beyond my control may mean that I can't make the significant changes I want

and need to make. Need patience and it's in short supply. Nothing seems to work out for me right now

15 Sep 2020

I can empathize with much of this. May we all grow in patience.

15 Sep 2020

I know how that feels. It makes the days so much longer and more difficult. I hope things improve for you!

15 Sep 2020
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Worked on morning, had afternoon off and went to pick up my cat's ashes at the vet's, as well as her carrier which I completely forgot about that day. I thought I would be okay to do this - felt

relieved I had the afternoon off because it was like a punch in the stomach. I think it was the carrier, actually, almost more than her ashes - having to carry that empty box back to my flat was heartbreaking. Cried and couldn't stop, just went to

11 Sep 2020

bed for a few hours. Got to get up early tomorrow to catch a bus to spend weekend with D, so had to force myself to get up to get things in order for that and eat a proper meal.

11 Sep 2020

I just don't feel like getting up most days.

11 Sep 2020

Thank you for your kindness to people. Good luck.good mood ,my friend❀

12 Sep 2020

Hope you feel better soon too Albertine ❀️

12 Sep 2020

I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I can't even imagine how hard it'd be. Your kitty was lucky to have you.

13 Sep 2020

So sorry about the loss of your friend!

13 Sep 2020

Hopefully a weekend away to Ds helped. Xx

14 Sep 2020

when I learned of the grieving process, found it comforting. I could accept my grief, recognize the stages, and be compassionate with myself, giving the heart the space to mourn and grieve the love that has returned to Mystery.

15 Sep 2020

wishing you the space to grieve, to hold the sadness in a compassionate embrace.

15 Sep 2020
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Just back from a walk in the local woods - not having the usual effect. First time out of the house since Friday. Have been doing stuff inside - β€œkeeping busy” - though with long breaks, either

lacking motivation or just going to lie down. Feeling tearful but not actually crying, which is okay right now. Have cried a lot recently.

06 Sep 2020

Take extra special care of yourself. We're here for you! xx

06 Sep 2020

Grief has no rhyme or reason, Albertine, but you will feel better eventually

06 Sep 2020

Look after yourself, don't rush the grieving process. Good times are ahead

06 Sep 2020

❀️ Big hugs, Albertine!

07 Sep 2020

Thinking of you. X

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Spoke to my GP this morning, who is wise and helpful. Back on antidepressants after a year off - oh well. Today is just a torrent of tears

BIG GIANT FURRY HUGS MY DEAR FRIEND. ❀ ❀ ❀

02 Sep 2020

Thanks dear Pandas - hugs back, glad you're here with me

02 Sep 2020

Lots of love and good vibes to you, Albertine ❀️

02 Sep 2020

Thanks Jen :) love

03 Sep 2020

Anna, Penelope, Manda, Hazel - big hugs

03 Sep 2020

Jeff! Hugs x

03 Sep 2020

May your tears be water for the soul's flowering.

05 Sep 2020

Thanks Love:) and Jason - hugs

06 Sep 2020

You didn't need them for a while. You are brave and strong enough to know when you could do with support, and when you can do without. Big hugs

06 Sep 2020
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A lot of sadness. Got myself out for a walk for an hour and a half in local woods but cried a lot. Didn't feel much different when I got back. Need to keep myself going, not concentrating well
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Had to have my cat put to sleep this morning - it turned out she had a tumour, nothing could be done. Seemed best to let her go before she was in pain. She had a wonderful life and gave me a lot

including one last scratch:). You were a beauty and a character, Leandra.

29 Aug 2020

So sad πŸ˜”

29 Aug 2020

Thank you John and Tasha - hugs. It's a reminder to cherish our pets - cats, birds, dogs etc - while they're with us.

29 Aug 2020

our pets bring us so much joy and many treasured moments. You loved her so much. It was a hard, but compassionate call.

29 Aug 2020

Thanks, Love - yes, they bring an unqualified joy that one doesn't get from much else in life.

29 Aug 2020

So sorry to see this. It must be so hard to lose a pet. I've managed to avoid it. Dreading the days that will eventually come. I'm sure you gave her the best life.

29 Aug 2020

Thanks, Manda - yes, have to keep remembering how much she enjoyed life. You do a wonderful job with yours too :)

30 Aug 2020

Oh no😭. I'm so sorry.

31 Aug 2020

Thanks Ann and nixi - I know there are a lot of cat lovers/owners on here, nixi, including you.x

31 Aug 2020

I'm so sorry. Thinking of you. We lost our beautiful Calico girl of 20 years, last year and it remains painful even though She lived for a relatively long time.

01 Sep 2020
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Feeling pretty stressed these last 2 weeks about everything - work, debt, selling a property with my ex. D remains wonderful, luckily. My elderly cat had been unwell for a few days so looks like it's

a trip to the vet tomorrow.

27 Aug 2020

Hope things go well at the vets and the stress eases up soon

27 Aug 2020

I hope your kitty is ok. It's so hard when they are sick!

28 Aug 2020

Yeah, that's a lot to manage. The stress is understandable and, I hope, manageable & temporary

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A little TLC. Happy for you.

12 Aug 2020

I'm sure you are gorgeous my friend ❀

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Since Monday I've been coughing and feverish so self isolating and not working from home. Feeling rough and finding it harder to cope sometimes as I can't even have a walk now. Missing D too tho we

talk or message every day, but somehow it feels different, sad. Had to ask for help to get a few things from the shop - don't like having to do that...

09 Apr 2020

I wish you well my dear friend ❀

09 Apr 2020

Hope you are feeling better real soon xx

09 Apr 2020

Hope you feel better soon. I'm sure it's scary to be sick now.

09 Apr 2020

Hope you feel much better soon. And don't feel bad for asking for help. I think we are all going to need someone's help to survive this

10 Apr 2020

Hey Al, how are you feeling my friend? I was thinking about you my friend ❀

19 Apr 2020

Hey A. How are you feeling now? Xx

04 May 2020

Hope you're feeling better now ❀️

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A year ago today I met D for the first time, after having been messaging on an online dating site for a week or so, and had a wonderful time. We've had a wonderful year of getting to know each other,

falling in love - could never have imagined that a year later the country would be going into lockdown and, best case scenario, it will be 3 weeks before I can see him again. At least he drove down to spend this weekend with me - when we said goodbye

23 Mar 2020

this morning we knew there might be new measures, a lockdown, but hoped against hope...Have to remember how lucky I am to have found him, we have a lot of time ahead of us, difficult as this is right now

23 Mar 2020

3 weeks is not that much. I might face a year of waiting for the first meeting in person. You'll be ok *hug*

23 Mar 2020

So lovely, thanks for sharing this. You will be back together and stronger for the break I'm sure. I'm kinda in the same boat and keeping our distance for now. Big hugs.

23 Mar 2020

Thanks panda pals xxx

24 Mar 2020

Alicia - yes, 3 weeks isn't long but I expect the lockdown here in the UK will go on longer than that - suppose that's the underlying worry. There are bigger problems, I know! Just feeling sad now

24 Mar 2020

So happy for you, Albertine! xx

24 Mar 2020

Hey Albertine. πŸ‘‹πŸ‘‹.It is wonderful to hear that things are going well for you and D, and I hope for you personally. The 1st week that USA refused to let Brits in I was miserable and grumpy with him.

29 Mar 2020

But now I think we have to be grateful for the time we have had, and to know that we will see them again. We will get through this, I also believe it will stop us taking each other for granted. Not just our partners, our friends + family and wider co

29 Mar 2020

Thanks corrado, Jeff and Manda - stay well and safe

30 Mar 2020

Thanks nixi - yes, agree about gratitude, something I think I'm not good at. Saw your post saying you're practicing it, well done. Hope the long distance thing with the American goes well

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It's my birthday!! 52 today, which is not so great, but I'm with D and he's making us breakfast after a lovely lie in on a beautiful day. Love all you pandas and wishing you all the best. Hope is key

Happy birthday!!! πŸŽ‚

21 Oct 2019

Happy birthday!

21 Oct 2019

Happy birthday πŸŽ‚. I'm glad you have great company for your special day. X

21 Oct 2019

Happy birthday! I'm so happy you're so happy today!

22 Oct 2019

Happy birthday for yesterday it was my brother's birthday too

22 Oct 2019

Super duper Happy Birthday my dear friend! I hope you had the best birthday ever. You deserve it ❀

23 Oct 2019

Aw! It's your birthday as well. Happy Birthday!!! Glad it was great!

23 Oct 2019

Happy Belated Birthday!

26 Oct 2019

Happy Belated Birthday! I hope you had a lovely day πŸ₯³πŸŽπŸŽ‚ xx

27 Oct 2019

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10 Dec 2019

Best wishes, 52 springs young🎈

05 Jan 2020

:) Thanks David, I need to hear that today! :)

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On my way to see D for a longggg weekend. Would be higher than 5 except I missed my booked train since my bus to the station was hugely delayed - had to buy a new ticket, grumbling. The one time I buy

a non flexible ticket!! And it's pouring and I've been up since 3 to pack, sort flat, catch early train...so I'll probably cheer up once I get over having to spend extra money I can't afford...

19 Oct 2019

Things have generally been going great with us - the inevitable tough moments, but lots of love and goofiness. Lucky

19 Oct 2019

Sooo happy for you! Have a wonderful time!

19 Oct 2019

Awww.

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How fragile happiness is, and how good I am at f******g it up. Why do I bother to try to relate to people when I know I can't? Expect this feeling will pass, possibly everything will be okay - but I

am reduced to nothing so easily.

06 Oct 2019

I know what you mean. Happiness is momentary, but love is resilient, I hope it all gets better sooooon.

17 Oct 2019

Oh poor Albertine. Hope you are ok. X

17 Oct 2019

❀️

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Difficult few weeks at work, including short notice trip to Dubai campus last week. D picked me up at airport (swoon) and spent long weekend at my flat for first time - and met cat. She approves.:)

But 9 is for him and his effect on my life, work is awful and many other aspects not great. But

04 Oct 2019

Love, eh? Amazing. How long I have waited for him

04 Oct 2019

Glad the cat approved :)

05 Oct 2019

Also.it is so nice to see you happy

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D said he loves me and we agreed that we're committed to each other - to take care of each other, to look out for each other, to be kind to each other. We can count on each other. Don't know yet what

it's going to mean in practical terms, how it will work out in terms of where we live etc. (Right now we're in different cities etc) But we have time. I have never been so happy, so sure that this is right. And I'll be 52 in a couple

21 Jul 2019

...in a few months, Pandas - it can happen! So excited and so happy. I am very lucky.

21 Jul 2019

Writing this at 4 am - can't sleep but in a good way, and I want to share with you guys who have always been there for me.

21 Jul 2019

Very happy for you, congratulation!

21 Jul 2019

That's brilliant.

21 Jul 2019

This is wonderful to hear. I'm delighted for you

21 Jul 2019

Dear Pandas, thank you all for the hugs. Big hugs back xx

22 Jul 2019

Metron - thanks!

22 Jul 2019

Ian - thanks! I haven't had much time to respond to posts but hope you're feeling a bit better soon, sorry to see you feeling low. .hope you managed to enjoy your leave.

22 Jul 2019

nixi - I thought of you when this happened. :) We are lucky! everything is crossed that things keep going so well for you and the American.

22 Jul 2019

I'm so happy for you!! Gives me hope, I guess. :)

22 Jul 2019

So happy for you <3

22 Jul 2019

This is wonderful! It sounds like a great thing to promise to do for each other. I'm so happy for you! And indeed for myself, for all of us, because this can happen anytime :)

23 Aug 2019

Congrats, Albertine! How lovely!!! :D

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Been ill with nasty virus for nearly 3 weeks, and off work for about a week and a half. Saw my GP yesterday, it was good to catch up even while feeling so lousy! Currently due back on Wednesday, tho

she wants me to see how it goes and call her on Tuesday if I think I need more time. Sometimes feeling quite anxious about work, sometimes accepting that I just have to be off.

28 Jun 2019

Things with D still going really well - he's been offshore nearly 2 weeks, another week and a bit to go before he comes home. Went up to see him in Aberdeen for his last weekend, just as I was getting ill, and he looked after me so kindly and well.

28 Jun 2019

Never had anyone who shows such kindness toward me, so supportive. Pretty much in love, though I know he doesn't feel that way - we've had a couple of 'relationship' talks, and I know he is keen not to overpromise or get carried away, it's his first

28 Jun 2019

relationship since his marriage broke up, 3 - 4 years ago, so we are in somewhat different places at the moment but heading in the same direction, wanting the same outcome (he says:) - different speeds:) )

28 Jun 2019

Genuinely hope so, as I really can imagine spending the rest of my life with him, though I don't quite know what that would look like, given how much I like living alone, having my own space. But it might be just living much nearer, I'm in Edinburgh,

28 Jun 2019

he's in Aberdeen, which requires a certain amount of traveling. Anyway, that discussion is a long way off, if it ever happens! Right now keep reminding myself to enjoy the moment and my luck :)

28 Jun 2019
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hard 2 b sick n away from sum1 who makes u feel good i empathize with u

28 Jun 2019

Welcome back great news about your fella. Do you get full sick pay?

28 Jun 2019

I hope that you feel better from the virus soon!! Thank you for sharing such happy thoughts about D and your hopes :) I wish you the best!

28 Jun 2019

Ugh, I'm so sorry you've been ill for so long! But I am still really, really happy that things are going so well with your relationship right now. That is amazing!

28 Jun 2019

Wow sounds like you've been really ill. Good to hear from you! Sounds like you're in a good vibe when it comes to D. So happy for you!!

28 Jun 2019

Yikes! That's a long time to be sick. Glad you've seen a doctor. Hope things continue to go smoothly with D. Being on the same page & not necessarily on the same timeline isn't so bad.

29 Jun 2019

Glad to have you back, Albertine! It's amazing how open-minded you are about this reationship, that you are not in a hurry to conform, that you're thinking about living closer to each other rather than together. We are free to make our own rules, and

30 Jun 2019

if it's the right person they'll work with us, right? Huge bear hugs

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